Okay, to answer most of the question I have been getting YES I will be continuing on with the stories BUT there won't be quick updates for a while. I'm extremely busy with school work and I just have no time or inspiration to write as quickly as I used to. Sorry, but I have to stick to priorities. Thanks for all the reviews though, means a lot. Please enjoy this chapter, the title basically gives away what happens and as usual the stories haven't been edited. Sorry for such a long wait - SummerLove_199
Chapter 55: Forgiveness
Charlie P.O.V
I sat up in my bed after Heath left, thinking about what he said and letting it sink in, funny thing is Heath was actually acting mature and as if he really, truly wanted this to work, not only for Brax's sake but for his as well, he would hate to see his brother crash, crumble and burn. I must admit, I miss him, so much. Everything about him, his smell, to his touch, to his kiss to his hugs, I miss the lot and I have been debating with myself for the past couple days on wether not I should ring him and ask him to come over so we can talk about things, but I know for certain if he came over here I would break down in tears and beg him to take me back.
I grabbed me phone off the table beside me and opened a new message.
Hey can you come over for 5 minutes, I really need a talk please. - Charlie
I typed and sent it to the only person I knew could help me, the only person I felt completely safe with at this present time.
Not long after I sent the message I heard a knock and the door creak open, I looked up to see Bianca's face, and her beaming smile that just makes me think that maybe she might help all my worries disappear.
"So what's this thing you need to talk about?" She questioned sheepishly as she closed the door and sat on the end of my bed.
"I can't stop thinking about him." I moan closing my eyes and putting my head in my hands.
"Who Brax?" She questioned.
"No Heath, of course Brax!" I say sarcastically.
"Well he is your husband, the love of your life, oh and not to mention the small detail about him being your soul mate." She said mockingly, I just stared at her until she sighed.
"Right, I'm sorry. Well why don't you ring him, ask him to come over?" She questioned as she began playing with the end of the hospital bed cover.
"What if he doesn't want me back? I've said some really horrible things." I moan once again, thinking about all the stuff I said to him, I could see his heart breaking more and more as the hateful words spilled out of my mouth.
"Charlie. Seriously, this is Brax we are talking about." She said rolling her eyes at me.
"Don't patronise me! Bianca I can't do this without him! I'm pregnant with his child, and we had this all planned out and now my life has gone to shit." I say sadly, my eyes beginning to fill with the salty tears.
"Charlie, seriously just call him, he will come running, trust me." Bianca insisted, but for some reason I don't think she was entirely right this time.
"Bianca, I turn him down constantly, even before we had anything serious. What happens if he's sick of me running away from our problems instead of facing them? I do it all the time, and this time I think it's the last straw." I say sadly.
"What gives you that impression?" She questioned.
"What impression?" I questioned, as I sat up further in the bed.
"That it's the last straw." She answered back.
"Well he hasn't been back since the time I went off at him, and that's not like him... Every time I dumped him before he was at my door constantly, begging me to take him back, but now nothing." I say sadly.
"That's because he's too blind of his face to notice." She retorted back.
Bianca P.O.V
I was still fuming after my conversation with Charlie, I tried to convince her to see Brax or at least talk to him but in the end she just broke down in tears and wouldn't stop crying. The problem with these two is that they are both bloody stubborn as hell; I rounded the corner of the surf club to see down on the beach a mob of River Boys, laughing and drinking. I knew he would be done there, he was at his low and would do anything for a drink now.
I heard the sand squeaking under my bare feet as I held my shoes in my hand, I pushed my way through the crowd of drunken boys before I found myself standing in the middle of the bunch.
"Hey there Blondie, aren't you a little cutie." Said a river boy I have never seen, I knew he was a river boy because of that stupid 'Blood & Sands' tattoo displayed high was his right bicep.
"Um excuse me; does anyone here know where Brax is?" I question as I stand my ground, not letting these boys see that I was really nervous and feeling very uncomfortable.
"Bianca?" I heard Brax say, but I just can't see him.
"Yeah Brax, I need to talk to you." I said, kind of feeling foolish, trying to talk to someone I couldn't see.
He walked straight past me and through the crowd of boys; I followed closely behind, having to jog to keep up.
"Bianca what are you doing here?" He questioned.
"Looking for you obviously, look I think you should go see Charlie..." I trailed off, his face dropped immediately.
"What's wrong?" He questioned.
"Bianca, what happened? Is she okay?" He questioned again, not allowing me to answer the first time.
"Yes, she's fine, well physically yes, mentally no." I corrected.
"What do you mean?" He questioned, his breath smelt heavily of alcohol, I wasn't sure if he was drunk or not, Brax can handle his grog well and hide his feelings.
"She needs you Brax, even though she won't admit it. She does, and she's breaking." I said, he just looked at the ground.
"Bianca I have tried, trust me." He sighed.
"Well you aren't trying hard enough!" I snapped.
"Well it's not like she's trying! I've basically been on my knees in front of her and she just keeps shoving it back in my face." He yelled, he was starting to get defensive, his nostril were flaring and the black's of his eyes were widening, I knew he was getting worked up, things needed to calm down before they escalated into something more.
"Brax..." I scoffed, he just stared at me.
"You two really do annoy me, you both love each other, it's obvious, everyone knows it and yet you two are both too proud to sit down and talk about it. Well guess what Brax, if you don't sit down and talk to her, she's gone, gone forever and so will be your child that is going to be entering this world within a few weeks. This is not a game, it's your marriage." I said, turning my back and walking away.
Heath P.O.V
I heard someone knocking on the door and as I got up the door fell open and Brax stumbled in, collecting his balance just in time for him to recover and miss the table.
"Shit." He mumbled as he tried to pick up his car keys that fell out of his pocket.
"You didn't drive did you?" I questioned, he didn't answer he just stripped his shirt off.
"I need to shower then I need to go see Charlie?" He said, although it was as if he was questioning it.
"I can smell the liquor off you from here, Brax it's probably not the best idea if you go and see her right now..." I trailed off, grabbing his keys off him and putting them in my pocket just in case he tried to drive away again.
"Bianca said I need to sort this out, I have to it's not a game it's my marriage." He rushed out, as if this was new information that he was hearing.
"Mate you just come off a big bender, and you're still drunk, go have a shower, and I'll cook you a greasy feed of bacon and something else that drips fat and then we'll see how you are faring. Going to Charlie's hospital room drunk will not help your case one bit." I said, grabbing him by the shoulders and pushing him towards the shower.
-2 hours later-
"Yeah after he got out of the shower and had a feed he crashed out on the couch, he was planning on going to visit her after what you said to him, but I talked him out of it." I said into the phone as I stared at my mess of my brother.
"Yeah well I just didn't know what to say to him to get him to see the big picture." Bianca replied.
"Yeah I know, I've been trying to talk to him into going to see her nearly every day he's just too stubborn." I sighed looking over to Brax who was asleep on the couch.
"Yeah they are both as stubborn as each other" She laughed.
"Just promise me you will convince him to go see her tomorrow morning, when he's sober, she needs him as much as he need her." Bianca said after she finished laughing.
"I will, thanks for everything." I said, hanging up the phone.
I walked over to the couch and grabbed Brax by his t-shirt, pulling him up into a sitting position only to hear moans and groans from him.
"Get up Brax, you aren't sleeping here all night." I said helping him to his feet and leading him to the spare room, dumping him onto the bed and throwing a blanket over him.
Charlie P.O.V
I woke up with a kick to my belly; my hand flew instinctively to my belly, only to feel a small foot pressing against my hand, a smile spread across my face. No matter how shitty life gets I know I will always have my babies, both Ruby and this little one that's on the way. I heard a knock on the door and shortly after a nurse walked in.
"Good morning, how are you feeling?" She questioned, I liked this nurse she was always so bubbly.
"Yeah a little better, bub just kicked." I said smiling as I looked down at my bump.
"Aw always such a lovely thing to see mothers bonding with their unborn babies, its adorable." She swooned, before opening the curtains and allowing the sun to shine through.
"It's such a special thing to come across." I smiled.
"Do you have kids?" I questioned.
"Yeah I have 3, two boys and one girl, but they are all grown up now." She smiled, as she started to take down my vitals.
"What's your advice for me, I have one child but she wasn't..." I drifted off.
"Consensually conceived?" She smiled, I just nodded.
"Yeah I know honey I read your file, but from what I can tell Ruby is a lovely, bright girl, you've done well." She smiled as she sat down on the end of my bed.
"Yeah she is isn't she?" I smiled.
"Oh and I was meaning to talk to you about your husband..." She said drifting off, I sat up in my bed allowing her to go on.
"He's waiting outside to come in and see you, I know you're not on good terms at the moment so I delayed him from coming in so I could talk to you about it first." She smiled gently.
I waited for a while, unsure of how to answer, I wanted to see Brax, I haven't stopped thinking about him, it was just whether or not I could hold my temper while he tried to talk.
"What am I meant to do?" I questioned.
"Well honey, that is entirely up so you. But do you love him?" She questioned.
"Of course I love him, he's my husband, he's everything to me." I said quietly.
"Well there is your answer." She smiled before getting up and walking out, leaving the door slightly ajar, only for Brax to step into view, my heart skipped a beat and I swear instantaneously I felt my palms being to sweat, this was the first time I've been nervous around him since my wedding day.
"Hey, how are you feeling...?" He asked as he walked in and slowly shut the door behind him.
"Yeah I'm feeling better, bub is healthy and doing well. How about you...?" I questioned, I nearly scoffed I couldn't believe we were talking like this.
"That's good, and yeah I'm great... I'm great." He said, the second time was as if he was trying to convince himself, not me. I locked eyes with him to then see him shake his head and look to the ground.
"Nah that's a lie, I'm not great, I'm shit, life's shit without you." He said with a hit of humour, trying to lighten the mood.
"I'm sure if it wasn't for the stress drugs they have me on I would spend the majority of my day in the corner crying." I smiled, his eyes met mine and the pain I saw in them ripped through him, Bianca was right, he really wasn't handling this well.
"Charlie I'm sorry, and I don't know how else I can prove it to you." He stressed, I looked down as he said it, breaking eye contact.
"I know you are babe, Brax these last couple days has shown me that I can't do this without you, I need you, so much more then you think..." I said, looking back up to him, only to see he has moved closer.
"I'm sorry babe I really am, I just need to know we are going to be okay again..." He begged as he moved closer again to me.
"I love you Brax, and I couldn't imagine life without you." I smiled, as a tear slide down my cheek, he stepped forward and wiped the tear away with the pad of his thumb, before smiling and leaning in.
"I love you Charlie." He whispered before he kissed me.
