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Alright before you read this... I just want everyone to know that I think this was very needed because a lot of people are questioning Rose's ability to handle such a tramatic thing and I just wanted to clear the air...

Also this and the next chapter are the only ones that I have prewritten so the updates might.. repeat MIGHT taper off until I find the time.. my hand is still bothering me pretty bad so I don't find a lot of time when I am willing to sit and write chapters... but I promise this story is pretty far from finishing... and no there will not be a sequel...

read on.

Chapter 54:

Surprise Rose's POV

The day I found out I was pregnant I woke up knowing something was up. I didn't have morning sickness or the little flutters or whatever women try to chalk it up to before they go to the doctor and find out.

I just woke up knowing something was different, so I called the doctor's office and got an appointment. Inside I was dying to find out if I was pregnant. I have wanted kids since I was three years old and my mother's friend gave me my first baby alive for my birthday. My mom told me that I treated the doll like she was real… like I was born to be a mom.

I met Emmett when my family and I moved to rainy dreary Forks Washington and I knew we would be together forever, that I would have his babies. Alice had Jasper the second that they laid eyes on each other, it was sort of creepy but then I met Emmett and it all made sense, the whole love at first sight thing.

Bella and Edward were an entirely different story. They had been best friends since they were embryos basically. We all knew that they loved each other and the feelings were more than just friends but they were just too stubborn or too retarded to act out on those feelings. So we let them be, hoping that it would all work out in the end. And it did but not until after it was nearly ruined. Out of their love they made sweet little Evie.

She was a beautiful baby, everything that I could have wished or hoped that my children would be. A complete mix between both Bella and Edward. She was a princess and the entire family doted on her.

The doctor's appointment confirmed that I was indeed pregnant and it took everything in me to not run home and tell Emmett. But I wanted it to be perfect so I waited. Thanksgiving while the entire family was sitting around the table discussing what they were thankful for even though I was entirely thankful for my beautiful niece, I thought it was a perfect moment.

I didn't expect Emmett to pull a pussy move and pass out but when he came too and smiled at me, I knew everything would be fine even though there was a small part of my mind that felt like something was off. Emmett rubbed my flat stomach while Carlisle stitched his head up and I tried to be happy.

I spent a majority of my time online completely paranoid that something would happen to my baby. I would call Bella at all hours of the day and sometimes night to ask her a weird question that had totally freaked me out. My dreams weren't dreams of the chubby little baby that would soon join our family. Instead I had nightmares that I fell down the stairs, or something unfortunate would happen resulting in me losing my baby.

After a few weeks Alice tackled me into letting her plan a baby shower even before we found out the sex and trying to as optimistic as I could, I agreed. Emmett even brought home a tiny football jersey and put it in the empty bedroom in our two bedroom house.

Christmas was fast approaching as we continued on with our lives. The car wash was doing especially well and I was happy to be able to get under the hood of the finest classics around the western peninsula. Emmett enjoyed getting dirty as he helped our coworkers detail cars to perfection.

Alice and Jasper came to check out our business before we headed towards Forks for our annual Christmas celebration at the Cullen's house. The roads were snowy and Emmett was even driving under the speed limit but fate wasn't having any of that. Just as we were turning around a bend, a small deer jumped into the highway causing Emmett to swerve and overcorrect which led to us flipping down the side of the road.

The only thing I remembered was crying out about the baby before everything went black.

Waking up my body was sore, I knew almost immediately that I had lost the baby from the weird cast like sling they had my torso in. Carlisle just came in and confirmed that my pelvis was crushed and that I had in fact lost the baby.

I felt guilty that instead of mourning my lost baby I was worried about my alive but severely mentally fractured husband. Carlisle refused to let me see him because of the way he was acting towards the family. I found out that he had treated Bella like shit causing her to stay with me everyday instead of visiting with Emmett like the rest of the family.

I sat alone in my room letting everything set in. I had lost my baby and even though I knew something was going to happen like that, I was still pretty crushed. Looking out the window I made myself a promise that I would get past the tragedy and still be there for my family. For even though I had lost my baby I still had my perfect niece and I was happy that she was healthy.

Bella was the first to come visit me out of the small family. She talked to me and sympathized with me. She looked a little guarded with me when I asked about Evie, but I was able to convince her that I would never hurt her or Evie the way that Emmett had.

Despite my body absolutely killing me with the pain, I had to hold Evie. Bella gave me the perfect baby and she smiled up at me and I didn't realize I was crying until a small tear splashed onto her perfect head. Bella tried to take her from me but I just shook my head.

After my little breakdown they brought Emmett in and I sighed with relief when I noticed that despite some cuts and a couple of casts, he was perfect. He didn't expect me to be harsh. I made him apologize to our family for acting like such a dick head.

After everyone left for the night Emmett was brought into my room so that we could be together and he let me know how sorry he was. I knew that he would shoulder the blame and I wanted to cry while he poured his heart out, but I instead consoled him letting him know that I didn't blame him. That I still loved him.

It took a couple of days before we were able to be in a room with our family without one person breaking down. It wasn't that I wanted to forget all about the baby that we lost, I just wanted to move forward with what I had instead of dwelling on what could have been. Thankfully everyone respected my wishes.

Once Emmett and I were released from the hospital ,we decided to stay with Carlisle and Esme partially because we needed help due to the fact that we were both in wheel chairs and also because I wasn't ready to go home yet. Emmett insisted on everyone celebrating Christmas even though it was after New Years and I have to admit that it was a really good idea.

Alice somehow created an awesome wheelchair for me and everyone enjoyed their past Christmas gifts laughing at Jasper's ill attempt to joke that he was glad no one got anyone else a puppy because the poor thing would have starved to death. I watched as a very nervous Edward took a cooing and giggly Evie into the living room and watched as he nervously brought her back after ten minutes. His face was a little flushed and I could tell that he had been outside.

Emmett being the sweet man that he is decided that he would help clear the table and I started to wheel myself and Evie into the living room when Edward stopped Bella from cleaning anything up. She tried to insist but I talked her into going and went into the living room and started the Christmas movies. Emmett and I wanted them to celebrate Evie's first Christmas even though it was a little late perfectlybecause it was the way it had always been done in the Cullen's house. After about ten minutes everyone was settled in the living room together when the front door slammed shut and two completely bubbly and happy people walked in.

Edward and Bella were getting married.

Alice completely flipped out with plans and Bella surprised us all by divulging her dream wedding complete with the poofy dress and everything I never wanted for my wedding. It surprised me because Bella was never one to want anything lavish. Hell we had to force her into dresses and yet she was willing to wear one now.

Bella confided in me that she felt guilty that she was happy and that they were going to start planning for the wedding while I was still in the wheel chair but seeing them so happy, I would drag myself down the aisle just to see them married.

"Rose." Emmett started.

We were laying in the bed that Esme had put in our makeshift room made off the living room until I was out of my wheel chair. It was three in the morning.

"Are you unhappy?"

"Of course not. Why do you ask?" I said shifting slightly but wincing at the pain in my pelvis.

"Because we aren't having a baby." he said softly.

"Emmett." I grabbed his giant hand and brought it to my face smiling into his palm.

"As sad as I am that we lost the baby, I am so happy that you're okay. It's something we will never forget but one day we will try again."

"Really?"

"Yeah, I mean it might be a while with me having to heal but you never know maybe in a couple of years we will have a cute little baby with your dimples." I poked his dimples loving the fact that even when he wasn't smiling they still stood out.

"I can't wait."

"Me neither. Now go to sleep we have a huge day tomorrow. Our Alice turns twenty one." I laughed.

Alice, our baby of the group. The last to turn twenty one and it had to be the day before everyone went back to their respective homes. Except for Emmett and I, our carwash was being run by an assistant manager we hired a few weeks before thanksgiving so we could heal with nurse Esme.

Alice wanted to do one thing for her twenty first. Get shitty.

Bella and Edward tried to back out of the celebration until the grandparent's totally killed their thunder by stating that they were taking Evie for the night so we could all be together before we went back to real life. Emmett ordered three rooms at a hotel in Port Angeles online as his contribution and Bella and Edward decided to get a limo and due to my handicap, it would be a little bit awkward but we were just going to go with the flow.

Waking up to Alice's horrible voice screaming 'Happy birthday to me' wasn't my idea of a perfect wakeup call, but after taking a pain pill and two cups of coffee straight to the brain I was ready to partake in the day that is Alice Brandon's wonderful twenty first birthday.

Esme and Renee swept us away for manicures and pedicures and I was pretty happy that the spa workers were able to do everything to me while I was in my wheelchair. After a nice lunch at the local sushi bar we headed home so that we could get ready to party.

Even though I wasn't going to drink because of the pain medication I really just wanted to watch my friends have fun while I sat on the side lines. We were just going to Meyer's bar and lounge instead of clubbing so it wasn't like I would be literally on the sidelines or anything. Alice really wanted to try the hookah lounge for the first time, so we were going there first.

Bella and Alice helped me get dressed and I listened to Bella whine and gripe about what Alice was attempting to put her in.

"But B, It's my birthday." Alice whined.

"Oh no Alice Brandon. You were born at eleven thirty four thank you very much so you're not pulling that." Bella argued.

"It's called a birthday because it's a celebration of the day of my birth bitch so put the fucking dress on or I will…" Alice trailed off and I heard scuffling before a panty clad Bella streaked through the bedroom towards the door.

Alice already dressed in a hot pink cocktail dress complete with black stilettos tackled Bella to the floor with her tiny body and started to pull the dress over her head.

"Alice stop it goddamn it." Bella screamed trying to fight the tiny pixie off.

"No. Not. Until. You. Put. The. Dress. On." Alice fought good and hard and only managed to get the dress over her head.

"Fine. Let me up bitch." Bella gasped.

"Are you going to put it on?" Alice still struggled but the only thing they were managing to do was stretch the poor dresses neck line out.

"Yes." Bella said simply.

"You're lying."

"No I'm not let me up."

"What's going on in her- damn I'll give you guys some privacy." Carlisle said walking out of the doorway backwards with his hand over his eyes.

I couldn't breathe because I was laughing so hard and my injuries were hurting like a bitch, but I couldn't stop. Watching them wrestle over something so trivial was fucking hilarious, and I wished that I could join in.

"LET ME UP." Bella screamed.

Alice sat up still straddling a wriggling Bella.

"Fine but not because you win I just don't want to get sweaty and I'm already overheated." Alice huffed standing up and pulling her dress back over her ass.

Bella calmed her breathing before standing up.

"Damn B. You look friggin amazing for a woman that popped out a baby like four and so months ago." Alice huffed.

"Thanks Alice it helps that people tackle me, that's always a great work out yah know." Bella shrugged pulling the blue dress over her head.

It was true I knew she worked really hard getting her body back in shape after little Evie came. She looked beautiful but she also made a really cute pregnant chick too. Some people just had all the luck.

I started to wonder if I would have looked cute as a pregnant woman and felt the smile drain off of my face.

Would I ever find that out?

Would I ever get to feel my baby kick from the inside?

Would I ever get to have that amazing connection that Bella shared with Evie every time she fed her?

"Rose?" Bella's voice brought me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah?"

"Where did you go a moment ago? I was asking if you were ready to go watch our BFF get shit faced while we drink soda and laugh at her for looking like a dumb ass." Bella laughed.

"Just thinking. Of course I'm ready." I was sort of happy that Bella was still nursing and couldn't drink yet, at least I wouldn't be alone while the rest of our friends partied like animals.

"You looked sad?" she asked cocking her head to the side.

"I'm sad I can't get shitty with the rest of them but it helps that you aren't." I assured her.

I was going to live my life to the fullest if it was the last thing I do, even if I was in a wheel chair for months.

"Alright sluts let's get this show on the road." Alice screeched as she put on a hot pink tiara.

"Yes let's." Bella and I said at the same time.

I thought I would add a little funny. Rose isn't completly healed mentally but don't worry there wont be any emotional breakdowns... at all.

Sorry this is so short.. I am writing another chapter for this right now so hopefully I will have a few for emergencies.

also sorry this is so late at night, Florida is having a lot of rain and my cable company shut the internet off for some fucked up reason and I just got it back :)

Alright chikadees. Do what you do best pretty please

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