Chapter 55

Ichigo, Shiro and Zangetsu are lying on the ground panting harshly and sweating buckets.

"Do you understand why you were and are wrong"? Ichigo says it sluggishly.

"Do you understand why I did what I did"? Zangetsu throws it right back.

Ichigo puts his scowl right back on and halfway sits up.

"I will…beat…it…into you old rusty sword". Ichigo is calling him a sword knowing it is hurting his zanpakuto pride. A plain old sword cannot do what a zanpakuto can do.

"This rusty sword will run it up you any time". Zangetsu is sitting upright too now.

"You still do not understand what you did is fucked up! How dare you push her away like that making decisions for me! Rukia always comes first! You of all should know that inside out"! Ichigo is yelling so loud its echoing throughout his inner world and left without breath.

"And I will tell you over and over again I have one person that comes first before anyone else…it is…you"! Zangetsu is yelling just as loud but his eyes soften.

Shiro is looking back and forth and steadily getting more annoyed. He for once was out of it but then he remembered Zangetsu sealed him and the memories along with him to protect Ichigo but sacrificing his Queen along with it angers him to no end so he jumped in to whip Zangetsu's holier than thou ass. Angers is incorrect it twists his insides and infuriates him to no end.

"I never thought you…" Ichigo points at Zangetsu… "would be the fucking problem"! Ichigo huffs out.

Zangetsu sighs. "Don't you think it was hard? Every step I took was heavy as lead. Every time I felt or saw her my heart shattered. It was hell Ichigo".

His face is looking upward towards the sky which is slightly sunny again however all is not right with the complex world skyscrapers are still nothing but rubble, the ocean is back to normal level but dark and full of debris.

"Would you do it again"? Ichigo spits out through clenched teeth. Zangetsu sadly smirks to himself.

'Aa, so this is what it feels like to be at the end of the look of death Ichigo offers all new and strange enemies'. He shivers at the cold deathly look. Zangetsu comes out from his private thoughts then drops his gaze full of determination and looks right into Ichigo's eyes. "In a heartbeat…"

Ichigo closes his eyes and stands back up…"Then I can't trust you anymore old man". Ichigo turns his back on him walking away before he completely disappears.

"Smooth move 'old rusty sword'". Zangetsu glares at Shiro for the quote. "We didn't even tell King his Queen is missing her Zanpakuto".

Zangetsu once again looks up into the sky closing his eyes too. 'Sode no Shirayuki, where are you'? Zangetsu thinks solemnly.

The duo in Ichigo's inner world was briefly present in Rukia's inner world when Ichigo was giving her his Reiryoku as he brought her back. Her absence was quickly felt and it deeply troubled them both especially Zangetsu. Ichigo would have noticed under different circumstances like not fearing for Rukia's life on his mind.


Renji and Karin watch over Ichigo as he tosses and turns in his sleep.

"Is Rukia-Nee going to be alright? It is almost morning and no word. We all know Ichi-Nii will make good on his promise and storm there and cause all sorts of hell". Karin is leaning against the wall with Renji nearby doing the same.

"If something was wrong my Captain would have said so by now. Don't worry I will hold him down if I have to, now how about you get some sleep"?

"How about no"? Karin holds her ground he has been asking her that for about two hours now.

"Stop worrying about Carrot top and Rukia neither would be pleased about having you worry and still sick but it's cute you worrying about your Ichi-Nii". Renji offers a warm smirk and tousles her hair while patting.

"I absolutely hate it when I get petted like a house dog or cat". Karin smiles and puts him in a head lock. Renji is helpless in her grasp he should have known better this is the twin that's most like Ichigo.

'Maybe she's his midget twin and due to some uneven balance in Reiryoku this was the end result. The best kept Kurosaki secret'. Renji's lack of air supply and fellow Lieutenant's arrival is brought back out of his diluted thoughts. Shūhei walks inside with hot tea. Karin involuntarily tightens her grip and Renji starts to choke.

"Isshin-Sama left specific instructions on what you should drink and that you should rest". He narrows his eyes more if that's even possible since his eyes always look that way. "Abarai-San kindly take your paws off her and let her rest".

Renji by now is twitching and Karin lets him go promptly dropping his head to the hard floor. He is taking large gulps of air.

Karin is the color of Renji's hair right about now and fidgeting with her yukata her body temperature has gone up a degree or three. Shūhei puts the tray down and takes out the thermometer placing it to her lips.

"Please be so kind and open up for me". Karin opens her mouth and he places it inside. Renji is still on the ground gasping for breath but looking at the interaction.

Shūhei waits for the beep and looks at the results.

"Hmm it is still slightly higher. Drink this it will help". Karin grabs a hold of the cup and starts drinking it very lady like her legs are even now tucked underneath but a smidgen to the side.

Renji chuckles darkly while Shūhei is checking on Ichigo so his back is turned. Karin takes the opportunity and kicks him on the shoulder facing her. He clutches his arm and yelps.

"Keep it down he needs his rest and behave like a proper lieutenant would you"?

"But it was he…" Renji still hasn't learned his lesson thus Karin kicks him on his stomach. She is sending him a death glare and it makes Renji shiver and not in a good way. He is twitching once again on the floor clutching everything it seems.

"What I mean is I am a klutz…" he gasps for breath… "and therefore causing my…" he does some more gasping… "own injuries".Karin evilly smiles at him and then Shūhei turns back around to face them again. Karin puts her sweet yet shy smile on again.

"Seriously it has always been like this. You cannot be taken anywhere show some dignity". Shūhei narrows his eyes at Renji.

"Umm, my name is Kurosaki, Karin". There's a gentle feel in her voice and Renji feels like he's going to chuck up late dinner. "I never did have a chance to thank you properly". She bows and remains so. "Thank you very much for saving my life and your care…umm what is your name"?

Renji rolls his eyes muttering under his breath…"I never get thanks like that it's always a kick or a punch".

Karin turns her head tilting it some eerily and Renji scoots away.

"Please excuse my lack of manners. My name is…" he lifts her up gently but firmly by the shoulders so she could look at him…"Hisagi, Shūhei Lieutenant in the ninth Division of the Gotei Thirteen". He bows to her now. "It is my privilege to meet you and be of use to you from now on".

Karin is a whole shade darker and Renji once again rolls his eyes. It never ceases to amaze Renji how Shūhei ignorantly spews sexuality to all women and some men around him without noticing it at all.

According to the shinigami women's association "The man is pure masculine sex on wheels".

Some want him to be dominant and force full, others picture him in bondage others wanted him to be hiding in a closet covered in sweat panting heavily from extracurricular activity when their significant other would arrive home late and then you had the ones that pictured him being the perfect cook and docile husband while fierce in battle. The bottom line is Renji and half of the male population wanted to gut him alive add the fact the man is totally clueless just it makes things worse.

"It is my pleasure to meet you". Karin bows again and starts coughing.

Shūhei leans in to pat her back gently and the next moment Karin falls softly to the side but he catches by pressing her into his chest. He picks her up bridal style then stands up. He used Kido.

Renji is lying on the ground sideways with one leg bent.

"You know she is going to kill you when she wakes up. The Kurosaki twin from hell is no joke". Renji is twirling the belt on his Shinigami attire.

"Are you afraid of a gentle young lady like her? Kuchiki Taichou should give you a lesson in proper etiquette when interacting with females".

Renji glares daggers at him watching Shūhei carry Karin back to the room she was previously in.


Isshin tucks his other daughter whom is pouting at the moment into the hospital bed.

"Otousan I can do it myself".

"But Otousan loves to do it my sweet Princess besides you have no problem with Kuchiki-the-pervy-Sama doing it".

A couple of moments go by and Isshin is rubbing his freshly formed lumpy head paying dearly for the "disrespectful comment about Byakuya-Sama".

"Otousan, will they be okay"? Her facial expression goes from annoyed to sad.

"Listen to Otousan who has been around a long time too long to count, they just need each other to get through this". Yuzu moves and pats a spot next to her which he gladly accepts. He wraps his arm around her.

"The loss of a child is never easy I can only imagine but just the thought of losing any of you…" Isshin trails off and hugs her tighter safely tucking her head under his chin…"A lot of love, support and I guess time will help but we will be there every step of the way".

Yuzu smiles though tears still trickle down her face before she starts crying fully.

"Why did this…ha-happen t-to them"? Yuzu had held back her grief along with Karin when Rukia told the girls in not so many painful words what they lost to not upset Rukia further and make it more difficult for her.

Yuzu and Karin were so excited and feeling utter jubilant waiting for their niece and nephew so much that the Kurosaki household gained life again. Not that anyone or anything could replace the "Queen of sunshine" of their household Masaki but new life is like a breath of fresh air after the rain when the sun is just peeking among the clouds and the family especially Ichigo welcomed that much needed oxygen yet once again fate has been cruel.

Isshin eyes are glistening as he silently comforts his daughter. He knows Ichigo is still holding back but everyone has their breaking point. He knows it will be ugly but Isshin will be there this time and console both his son and third daughter. Isshin decides at this very moment he will not let anymore pain or dread touch his children. His eyes narrow with determination though tears still spill from them.


Renji's eyes are slipping shut from exhaustion but he has orders to keep close watch on Ichigo while waiting for notice from Byakuya. To top it all off his girlfriend is in Tokyo as a Dojo Assistant instructor with one of her mentors. He received a text from her over ten hours ago and that was it. It doesn't help matters that he ogles her any chance he gets.

His name is Michael and he is an exchange older student about six feet three inches of pure muscle, light green eyes and blonde hair to boot. Renji is not jealous even though he offered to give him an early Konso (Soul burial). It is the principle of it all having a man ogle his woman in front of anyone including the air is unacceptable. He looks at his cell for the umpteenth time and sighs heavily.

'I wonder if it's considered murder if its and early Konso? I mean I am a Shinigami right? Who's to say he wasn't going to die soon anyway'.

The Hell butterfly flutters carelessly through the wall landing on his hand interrupting his contemplating murderous thoughts. Shūhei walks back inside and kneels down sitting propped up.

Renji smiles as the Hell Butterfly disappears away.

"So what is the verdict"?

"Ruks is in the clear and resting in the fourth barracks". He exhales looking deflated from being on pins and needles waiting for the verdict.

"Our system does not fail all of the time". Shūhei states so.

"So let me get this straight you will be here a while". Renji is still playing with the phone.

"That is correct since Hitsugaya Taichou and Rangiku-San will be returning for a bit".

"Even if you have a fairly new Captain"?

He nods and his face lights up like a kid talking about his hero. "Muguruma Taichou is not a newbie he was the Taichou of the ninth division before remember"? His face goes rigid again robot like and his fists tighten.

"Shūhei, I am an idiot excuse my stupidity".

"Not at all, we all wish things would not have turned out the way they did. In the end a man is measured by what he has accomplished and must accept that truth. He was my Taichou, Tōsen, Kaname, the only one I had known and in the end I still failed to understand, it still hurts but no matter it ended the way he chose it by his rules therefore his measurements are set in stone be it good or bad".

"Shūhei…someday that wound will heal you just need time".

"Aa, time is what Shinigami's have plenty to spear".

Renji gives a knowing nod. "Until your time is up…that is".

"What the hell? Who died in here? The mood is a killer". In the doorway is a panting and a thoroughly soaked from the rain Tatsuki clad in Karate attire.

"Firecracker, what are you doing here"?

"What do you think? Reality smacked me right in the face in the middle of a match". Meaning her memories returned. She walks in and kneels in front of Ichigo as she drops her duffle bag nearby. "I don't really understand what happened but I knew I needed to be here…so here I am".

They introduce each other and Shūhei gives them privacy by leaving though Ichigo is still there. Tatsuki pulls the covers over Ichigo as if tucking him in then scoots over to Renji placing herself in between his legs her back to his chest.

"So wanna tell me what has been going on"? Tatsuki snuggles into his embrace as his arms wrap securely over her shoulders.

"It is complicated to say the least Ruks knows a lot more but I will tell you what I know". Tatsuki brings up her arms and holds on to his forearms.

Renji explains and tries to fill in the blanks with the information Ulquiorra managed to give him.

By the time he is done silent tears are running down her slim cheeks. "Oh no poor Ichigo and Rukia, so many months of happy planning and looking to start a new family. Why does my old friend keep living with loss"?

Renji tightens his hold on her as Tatsuki buries her face in his arms.


Ulquiorra and Orihime are lying in her bed. Orihime is finally sleeping from exhaustion and lying on his chest with his arms holding her gently. He is sitting up against the headboard. Orihime had cried for the longest time after she insisted on him telling her everything. It broke her heart how two of her best friends are going through such pain especially Ichigo.

Orihime stirs a little and opens her eyes. He immediately rubs her not hurt arm the other is safely tucked in.

"Can't sleep Yokubou"? Orihime looks up at him and her voice is hoarse from sleep.

He nods his answer to her.

"We should take you to the hospital for your arm".

"I am fine I have become the healer besides it was just a fracture. What else is on your mind"?

"I just keep thinking what could I have done different and maybe the outcome…" Orihime stops him before he could finish.

"You did all you could especially without knowing everything. Rukia-Chan kept a lot of information hidden. I can't help wondering how Ichigo-Kun is going to get passed what he did. I know him it is not his fault but will put all the blame on himself anyway".

Ulquiorra's running his hand through her hair.

"It will work out that Pawn is resilient and strong. Plus he has his source for fighting the good fight, Rukia".

Orihime puts a small smile and kisses his bare chest. He has his shirt unbuttoned and both are still fully clothed.

"You always know the right things to say, Ai shite iru". Orihime snuggles closer.

"Ai shite iru, Kokoro…" he kisses atop of her head… 'What really worries me is who really is behind this all'? He does not voice the last disturbing thought.


Chad and Uryu are both wearing navy blue bath robes as they both finished taking a shower. Chad is sitting on a chair as Uryu is towel drying his hair.

"A penny for your thoughts". Chad breaks the silence.

"You could always tell when something is on my mind". Uryu exhales as he continues to do his work on Chad's hair.

"While I sympathize with Rukia-San I cannot help feeling perturbed that she took away our memories". Uryu is now combing Chad's hair.

"Everyone else's lives were altered Kami knows to what extent. What if things between…" Chad interrupts his sentence by grabbing his hand and pulling Uryu into his lap carefully avoiding his injured wrist.

"You know for the first time ever, I wanted to …hurt my hermano Ichigo". Chad looks at his free hand and his voice is shaky. Uryu's eyes are wide…

"With these hands I wanted to kill him when his Hollow had you in that painful grip". Uryu knows how much Ichigo means to Chad so he is speechless.

"So because of that dreadful feeling I know without a doubt we would be together regardless". Chad gently but with enough pressure grabs uryu's chin to hold his gaze. Uryu's pale cheeks hold a pink hue now but his eyes hold such raw emotion.

"Even though I didn't get to chase you this time because you did not leave I still ended with what my Corazon (Spanish word for heart) beats and yearns for". Chad places one of Uryu's hand over his heart and he can feel the thunderous beating deep inside.

Uryu swears his own heart is resonating with Chad's. "We are still together Uryu and what we feel is real and so strong a mere change in time could not break our bond".

Uryu closes his eyes from the intensity of Chad's own eyes penetrating straight to his soul. He takes a deep breath to push away the tears ready to fall.

"Chad for you to say that about Kurosaki…" Uryu trails off knowing his voice will betray his Quincy pride…

..."I know you are right but I rather enjoy the memory of you romancing me the time I was away. You searched and when you found me you rented a small room nearby. You made sure no one harassed me basically was my guardian angel. You patiently waited for me to acknowledge your presence and finally approach you. I mean who does that"? He refuses to open his eyes plus he can feel his cheeks burning from the relieved moments.

"However I cannot complain. You followed me into the store I was with Rangiku and pulled me out and confessed to me in front of many people the second time around". Uryu definitely feels his cheeks burning as Chad recounts that encounter. Chad is leaving butterfly kisses along his neck though Uryu can feel his lips and tongue taunting and tasting him.

"I never felt so loved and needed before in my life. Thank you, Uryu, for accepting my love and returning that amazing feeling". Chad makes Uryu opens his eyes by softly kissing them his hands trailing up his back and one latches to the nape of his neck to hold him there securely.

The fierce stare makes Uryu remain locked to his intense yet fragile eyes. "So understand Ishida, Uryu no matter what time skip or alternate universe or lifetime we are in I will find you and make you fall in love with me every single time".

The raw possession in his voice sends shivers down to his core. Uryu cannot hold back the damn crystal like liquid trailing down his no longer cold features defying gravity and a Quincy's pride. Well fuck Quincy pride straight to hell.

"Chad know that if someone ever attacks or harms you in any way I will obliterate their soul for all of eternity so Chad please…I am…ready for you…" Chad brushes them away using his thumbs and by Kami tears never looked more beautiful…"to have all of me".

Chad smiles at Uryu's request and let the frenzied kisses begin each one more passionate than the last as if it would be their last.


There are weeping willows swaying with the wind the sun is shining brightly and with its embrace warms everything and everyone underneath. Sounds of giggles and faraway whispers resound everywhere.

'Where am I? It feels so good so blissful. I feel safe there are strong protective arms around me. I could stay here forever…'

Rukia's eyes are fluttering back to consciousness. She sits up trying to get her bearings. The first thing she sees is her Captain lying gracefully on a bed adjacent to hers. Rukia smiles and tiptoes over to him. The room feels rather chilly so she pulls up the covers for him. His hand comes up and grabs hers quickly before she can remove it.

He sits up and places the other hand on her face.

"Thank the heavens your warmer to the touch. You were freezing last night. Honestly we have to stop meeting like this".

Rukia blushes then notices he is actually warm and there is a glass of water sweating drops due to condensation. Looking closely her fragile Captain is sweating and wearing a lighter white yukata.

"Indeed we must". Rukia smiles though she is still blushing. "Sorry it is because of me you are uncomfortable Captain Ukitake". Rukia bows in reference to the higher temperature in the room.

He cups her face and brings her closer so he could hug her.

"My dearest Rukia, always thinking of others and always putting yourself last. I wanted to be here. It saddens me that you do not allow yourself to grieve though I must admit I should not be the one to console you when you decide to, realize that you must in order to find closure".

Rukia furrows her brows before wrapping her arms around him. She knows he is right but that's what frightens her, what waits when she finally does is the troubling part.

"Thank you so much".

"This time around you feel like yourself but something is still missing isn't it"?

She nods knowing she cannot deceive her Captain. "Sode no Shirayuki is missing. I cannot seem to find her but what scares me most is I cannot feel her at all".

He pulls her away a little to look at her.

"My dearest Rukia you should stay here in Soul Society a while recuperate gain your strength let Unohana Taichou make a thorough check up".

Rukia shakes her head.

"I apologize but just like you said I need to be with someone else right now…but no offence". Rukia shakes her hands side to side.

"None taken…I am sure that someone would want to make sure you are well but alas young love". His eyes sparkle with reminisces and untold secrets. He gives her a warm knowing smile. "Oh yes your Nii-Sama apologizes for not being here but official business must be handled".

Rukia is already panicking with thoughts that something got out. It is his turn to shake his hands from side to side.

"Byakuya is just fine just some final red tape to be cut you know maybe going to the world of the living now is best. Promise me you will come right back if something happens or you feel worse and know I regret your loss and feel utter sadness extend it to Kuorsaki, Ichigo too".

"Thanks again I will Captain Ukitake".

Half an hour later the gate closes as Rukia steps away. She is now in Urahara's back yard. Rukia had just literally run into Rangiku and she found herself pressed into "the boobies". Now she knows what Captain Hitsugaya goes through but how does he breathe?

Rukia of course hugged her back and was grateful. Rukia however is praying she does not run into anyone else. She appreciates everyone's concern and heartfelt apologies but it is taking a toll to hear it over and over again. Truth be told she has held her own in not breaking down except a little in front of Byakuya but wonders for how long.

Rukia with a sigh escaping her lips walks inside. There isn't a sound and Rukia is feeling Ichigo's Reiryoku. The fact its low startles her but as she gets closer she feels there's a spell placed around his room that is to keep it from leaking out and creating chaotic invitation for Hollows.

She quietly slides the door open and sees Ichigo lying still on a futon with Renji up against a wall holding Tatsuki in between his arms also asleep. Rukia carefully kneels in front of Ichigo and the look on his face breaks her heart. He looks worn out and troubled just the opposite of what a peaceful rest should provide.

She lightly caresses his cheek hoping to un-furrow his brows but to no avail. There is slight ruffling behind her and Tatsuki is awake now. She locks eyes with Rukia and offers a small week smile. Tatsuki reaches a hand out to Rukia whom gladly accepts. No words are exchanged but the feelings are clearly pouring through. Rukia returns the small smile with a silent thank you as Tatsuki tightens the hold. Tatsuki is trying her best not to cry but feels herself failing with that she tugs Renji to wake him up.

"Lets get rest somewhere else Stud". She stands up and gives one last tight grasp to Rukia before walking out rather fast but quietly. Renji stands up finally gaining his surroundings and rubs the sleep off. He lastly gives Rukia a kiss on her forehead before walking out and sliding the door shut behind him.

Rukia cracks her neck and lies in front of Ichigo carefully doing so to not wake him. He is lying sideways so she slowly places his head onto her chest then brings one of her arms around his back the other under his neck to hold him in place. His hands are tucked safely in front of him subconsciously he presses closer into her. Rukia pulls the cover over them and places a soft kiss to his forehead before Rip Van Winkle comes to do his job.


Rukia had a good rest she yawns before rubbing the sleep from her eyes. Wait something's not right her arms are free.

'Where's Ichigo'? Rukia pulls back the cover and stands up. She steps out of the room and now she hears and smells the cooking Tessai must be doing.

As Rukia makes her way through the hall she stops suddenly realizing she cannot feel Ichigo anywhere in the vicinity.

"Ruks good morning how are you feeling"? He asks while patting her head.

"Where's Ichigo"?

'Shit she went right for it'. Renji places his right hand behind his head and that's not a good sign.

"Hello earth to Renji". Rukia waves her hand in front of his face.

"Umm well…you see…Ichigo decided…to stretch his legs". Renji actually physically squats down and stands back up demonstrating.

Rukia narrows her eyes and her lips are in a tight line.

"Cut the crap Abarai".

He lets out a hefty sigh.

"After making me swear on the unmarked graves in Rukongai that Soul Society was not gunning for you the fucker up and left where to, I don't know. He said 'don't follow me got it' then took off without even letting me answer".

Rukia clasps her outer robe tightly between her breasts.

"How could you let him leave? Renji, he is not in a good place right now".

"I know Ruks that's exactly why I did not follow. He probably needs space". Renji looks directly at her. "If I were him I would not want to be around anyone learning of what I did".

"That's exactly it Renji, I am not just anyone! I am the mother of his babies the babies we lost"!

She covers her mouth realizing she yelled.

"I am sor-ry Renji I didn't…"

"I know Ruks". Renji pulls her in for a hug. "Look if you're that worried I'll go look for him stay and get some rest".

"Thanks Renji but I'd rather go home while you do so".


An hour later Rukia and Karin open the front door to their house.

"Wow the house looks better than what is was before". Karin takes off her shoes and runs upstairs to look thoroughly. Rukia takes hers off.

'He's not here either'.

Rukia goes up to Ichigo's room the door is fully open so she walks in and sits on the bed.

"Rukia-Nee are you hungry? You did not eat at Urahara's though you should plus you need fuel to help recover. I am not a great cook like Yuzu but I have a few tricks".

Rukia smiles softly but shakes her head.

"I am fine but thanks".

"Ichi-Nii is a big idiot but he will come back and I am fixing you some soup so no is not acceptable". Karin gives Rukia a big hug before walking out.

Rukia is back in her body and wearing tight fitted jeans and a simple pink t-shirt. She hugs his pillow tightly which smells of all masculine scent only Ichigo carries. He doesn't believe in wearing heavy scents to bed so it just smells of his shampoo and soap okay maybe throw in some body lotion and after shave to boot. His cologne smell is closer to the closet holding his clothes and throughout his room.

"Please come home, please come back to me my Strawberry, my King, my love…" Rukia falls into a restless sleep.

"It is not over wake up Snow Ice Queen"!

Rukia wakes up with a jolt almost falling off the bed since some how she ended up near the edge. Isshin catches her before she lands on the floor. Rukia feels strong arms and for a second thinks they belong to her heart meaning Ichigo but soon realizes her mistake. Rukia blinks rapidly trying to see who it is feeling disoriented does not help.

"Otousan it is you, thank you".

Isshin places her softly back on the bed and the rare gentle smile peeks through from him. He lets go of her arms.

"You are welcome my special third daughter. Were you able to get some rest"? He is sitting on the bed now too.

"I…" she shakes her head… "no, not a peaceful one".

"Karin-Chan surprisingly made some good soup a little too many vegetables for my taste but it's hearty and healthy. The best part is our kitchen didn't burn down this time. Please don't tell her I said that she'll kill me. It's safe to eat so I am going to bring you some no buts this is your Doctor talking".

Rukia chuckles softly with it un-welcomed tears. Rukia covers her face and Isshin wraps his arms around her stroking her hair. Isshin bites his bottom lip to keep from crying but once again the tears betray his "cool act".

"My lovely Rukia-Chan let it all out Otousan is here".

"He is hu-hu-hurt-ting but I-I-I cannot help him from far…" her voice is muffled by his shirt.

"I know it's frustrating. My son has to come to terms with what happened. It's hard when you have to accept you failed your family the ones you love more than anything".

"But it wasn't his fault". Rukia shakes her head profusely.

"It was still his body he failed to control his darker self. He was not strong enough and that is the blunt truth. This is what Ichigo understands and for now it is not going to change".

"This is why I did what I did. I knew it was going to destroy him". Her face is sideways now so you can hear her better.

"Exactly it proves his theory…that you do not trust him anymore so much you decided to give up your life and the truth to die with you".

Rukia shakes her head again.

"Bu that's not how I feel! That is not why…I could and never will blame him! I kept it secret so…"

"So he wouldn't lose himself back into the darkness and become the monster we all know exists deep inside".

"Oh Kami, I'm so sorry…" Rukia starts tearing again.

"This is all his state of mind now. I know as well as a clear thinking Ichigo that you would never feel afraid or disgusted with that part of him. You have gone to hell and back with my son showing nothing but love, bravery and devotion for him every step of the way".

Isshin slouches away some to look at her while wiping her tears away.

"Rukia-Chan all of that and more will bring him back home to us to you…and please stop blaming yourself". He kisses her forehead.

Rukia hugs him tightly without being able to voice it…'Thank you Otousan…'.


Ichigo is walking around aimlessly much like he has done all day trying to clear his thoughts. He smacks right into something hard. Ichigo looks up and there is a woman picking up the items that came out of the grocery bags. Ichigo bends down to help.

"I'm sorry I wasn't looking where I was going".

"Ichigo, is that you"?

"Akane…"?

"It is you! Always so clumsy and knocking things down". Akane looks like she's in her early thirties about five feet eight inches has chocolate oval mysterious eyes, dark brown straight hair that reaches the small of her back, her cheek bones are slender, her nose is small and pointy, her lips are thin but lady like.

Akane is slender with a model like figure. She is wearing black denim skinny Capri, plain beige flats, black tube top and a beige yarn cascade cardigan for the chilly night. Around her neck hangs a heart shaped rose quartz on a thin white gold chain very dainty and feminine.

They both stand up and Ichigo is holding the two grocery bags in one hand. He scratches the back of his head.

"Hey it's not my fault the pharmacy has small isles".

Akane chuckles.

"Relax will you. I was just teasing although…your build is at fault". She mischievously winks making him blush a bit.

"Anyway it is kind of late for you to be walking alone".

"Always so chivalrous too".

Ichigo turns bright red now his ears feel like they are on fire. Akane fully laughs now.

"I am so sorry it's just you make it so easy". She wipes away tears from laughing so much.

"Come on I'll walk you home". Ichigo starts walking as Akane remains standing in the same spot.

'He doesn't fool me something's wrong. I can tell even through his cool act'. Akane snaps out of her thoughts and sprints to catch up to him.

"I have not seen you by the pharmacy in a couple of months took me awhile to realize I got dumped".

Akane and Ichigo play around like that feeling comfortable enough with each other to do so. In those long agonizing seventeen months Ichigo helped around the pharmacy getting paid and learning in the process. The pharmacy is owned by her family whom live in another town taking care of other small mom and pop stores and other pharmacies as well.

"Sheesh you're slow. You should have figured that out when I asked Orihime out".

"Not really I remember specifically stating that as long as it's her I'd gladly share. Oririme-Chan is a sweet girl who brings me interesting good cookies and such". Akane is smiling brightly.

"Orihime-Chan likes you working for me and doesn't mind sharing so when you visited me a couple months back and said I wouldn't see you for a while for personal reasons it threw me off".

"Aa, she did verbally agree to share me with you. I am sorry for leaving without an explanation and short staffed but it really couldn't be helped". Ichigo bows apologetically again as he did a couple months back.

"Well as long as you came back to me I could forgive you but just this once".

A handful of guys and girls pass by some give him thumbs up and some shake their heads in disapproval apparently listening in on their conversation. Ichigo and Akane look at each other and begin a laughing fit.

"It serves you right for ear hustling"! (For those who are unaware Ear hustling is slang for Eavesdropping) Ichigo yells out in between his laughing fit.

Twenty minutes later they are sitting on the porch swing of her house. It's similar to Ichigo's house but a little bigger. They are sipping on beer.

Ichigo explained how he broke up with Orihime to be with his one true love how they became engaged and expecting twins. Ichigo of course left out the Shinigamis, Hollows, Visoreds, Arrancars, Shinenju etc so all Akane understands is the extremely toned down human version of the truth.

"So let me get this straight you and Rukia-San got involved got pregnant and decided to get engaged but due to something awful she lost the twins. There are lots of things she kept from you to keep you safe and now you feel you cannot trust yourself or her".

"Well I did cause our huge loss and I cannot get over it".

"Okay…" Akane smacks him hard on the back of his neck where it really hurts… "Baka…"

"Ouch what the hell"?

"I know you're leaving stuff out but the Ichigo protector I know doesn't run away from his problems. He sure as hell doesn't go around hurting people so whatever you 'caused to happen' was not on purpose. What you and Rukia-San need is time and space to sort everything out".

"So you think I should stay away for a while".

Akane nods.

"Hey protector…" She knocks on his head then ruffles his hair around roughly… "you have a lot going on up there and it's better to wait till the fog gets cleared up a bit. You don't want to say the wrong things and make it worse".

Akane calls him protector ever since he had saved her from three nasty drunks while she was closing the Pharmacy late at night. That day she worked alone till closing time. Also seen him stand up for others too.

"Listen I have one spare bed room plus my roommate is out of town and having my protector here and at the pharmacy I cannot lose".

"How subtle and noble of you". Ichigo glares at her for the intention to use him for work all the while Akane is whistling as if oblivious and innocent.

"I know but how can I turn away my part time lover". Akane winks as Ichigo rolls his eyes.

"Alright you win and Akane…" she turns to face him… "thank you I really needed this".

They both smile at each other.

Ichigo looks at the clock.

"Hey can I call home I do not have my cell it's broken".

"Sure take mine". Akane pulls out her cell and takes the empty beer bottles before walking into the house to get more.

Ichigo dials after a few rings Karin picks up.

"Hello, Kurosaki residence".

"Hi Karin, its Ichigo".

"Ichi-Nii where are you? Are you alright"? There is clear worry in her voice.

"I am okay I called to let everyone know I…will not be coming home tonight".

"Really why, you should be here". Rukia signals Karin by placing her hands pressed together to the side of her face appearing sleep.

"I know but for the time being I am staying at Akanke's".

"Your old boss Akane-San"?

"Yes is Yuzu doing okay? How about your fever"?

"Yuzu is feeling restless at the Hospital but doing fine. I am feeling a lot better".

"How about Ru-kia"?

Karin looks sadly over to Rukia.

"Rukia is sleeping but…" Rukia smiles and begins to skip in place seeming happy throwing Karin another hint… "is in good spirits…" Rukia gives her two thumbs up showing approval… "but um when are you coming home"?

"Oh she is…well don't wake her up she needs her rest. Not sure when I will come home yet but soon. Tell Rukia I am going to call back tomorrow since it's so late and Karin…please apologize to Rukia for me being a jerk".

Karin nods.

"Sure thing 'jerk' I'll let her know…" that brings a smirk to his face… "Ichi-nii, don't forget we love you, idiot". Karin then hangs up blushing at her sisterly love.

On the other side of the line Ichigo smiles before hanging up.

Rukia smiles and hugs Karin.

"You're such a sweetheart Karin-Chan".

Karin offers an apologetic smile.

"Ichi-Nii says he is sorry for being a jerk. He isn't coming home now but will call you tomorrow morning. He is staying at his boss's house, Akane-San".

"How come I never heard of her before"?

Karin explains who the older woman is to Ichigo and how they met.

"Oh I see well at least he is safe and not doing something reckless, the baka".

"Rukia-Nee, what really happened between you and Ichi-Nii? What really happened with the twins"?

Rukia kind of freezes up not really knowing how to answer Ichigo should be the one to explain or at least they should do it together and that's if a big if he wants to reveal such details.

"I really think…" Rukia and Karin get startled as Isshin walks in.

Isshin interrupts and Rukia is really thankful.

"Karin my little fire starter stop harassing your sister and get ready for bed we are going to pick up Yuzu-Chan tomorrow bright and early".

"Fine 'goat face' I am going to bed. Goodnight Rukia-Nee". Karin hugs Rukia.

"Good night Karin-Chan, sleep well".

"Don't I get a good night"?

Karin puts her arm up against his chest while Isshin flails about trying to get to her.

"In your dreams old perv". Karin runs up the stairs.

Rukia giggles.

"Thanks for the save Otousan".

"No problem...so want me to drag him back here"? Isshin is dead serious and Rukia shakes her head softly then tip toes to kiss his cheek.

"No thanks…" Rukia shoves him towards his bed room gently… "get some rest I want to save something special for Yuzu-Chan….and good night".

"Good night Rukia-Chan, try to get some more sleep".

Rukia nods her head with a warm smile. Isshin will allow her this knowing she must still be drained but needs to relieve pent up frustration with Ichigo's absence.

Rukia spends the night rolling dough preparing Taiyaki (Japanese fish shaped cakes) with different fillings inside. Rukia is focusing as much as she can without thinking about a certain stupid orange-yellowish strawberry Baka (Japanese word meaning idiot, imbecile, foolish etc). Rukia cuts herself for the hundredth time. She places her right index finger into her mouth.

"Well at least it matches the other hand". Rukia closes her eyes remembering.

Rukia is dicing different vegetables after being taught by Yuzu. She wanted to help the chef meaning Yuzu cook dinner. Yuzu left to get an ingredient for the curry. As Rukia dices carrots she misses and manages to cut her thumb.

"Ouch…" Ichigo comes into the kitchen and inspects her hand though she tries to pull it away.

"Stop being stubborn, Miss clumsy".

"Even the knife is against me being in the kitchen". Rukia pouts and leans against the sink.

Ichigo goes into a cupboard and pulls out a band-aid. Rukia has washed away the blood using water. Ichigo takes hold of her finger before disinfecting it and rubbing something that slightly burns. He blows gently and it feels cool rather quickly. Rukia's breath is caught in her throat her heart races wildly. All she can see is his luscious lips puckered gently blowing his breath into her cut before wrapping her finger. His eyes have yet to set on hers. Rukia licks her lips wishing they were licking his instead.

They have been having these close encounters ever since she came back during the Bounto's attacks. She is now openly staying with the incredibly generously warm Kurosaki's and she feels part of them. Ichigo places a soft lingering kiss over the band-aid and his eyes finally shift up to hers. Rukia feels like she'll melt from the sheer intensity emanating from his amber orbs. Rukia's left hand finds to be gripping his shirt on instinct. Her eyes fluttering shut with anticipation of what's to come.

Ichigo smirks.

"Stop being klutzy midget. I don't want to have to bandage you up completely from head to toe…unless that's what you're in to". Ichigo pulls back and smirks triumphantly walking away leaving a flustered and embarrassed Rukia.

Did he just flirt and leave her hanging? What a tease. Rukia using her hated dearly by Ichigo fake high school voice…

"Strawberry-Kun don't worry, Renji-Kun will help me happily. He always has in the past". Ichigo chokes on his chocolate milk and turns to face her with a horrified look dropping his glass cup. Rukia smiles triumphantly as she continues to chop up veggies.

Rukia smiles as tears run down at the memory.

"Don't you dare cry Rukia". After taking care of her new cut she continues to prepare one of Yuzu's favorite dishes.


Ichigo is tossing and turning on the bed. He cannot find sleep and he doesn't want to it would only bring nightmares. The fact that he is not with Rukia right now angers him but the only one to blame is himself.

"Luv…" Ichigo places his arm over his face covering his watery eyes.


Rukia wakes up on Ichigo's bed. The rays from the sun are hitting her eyes so she shifts a little. Rukia stretches and heads into the bath room.

"I wonder how I got here I don't remember coming up here".

Rukia does her morning grooming and head downstairs since Karin is not in her bed room.

"I guess they left to get Yuzu-Chan. I better get started on heating them up".

"I already put them in to finish baking".

Rukia jumps at the sudden baritone voice answering her.

"Akachan, you almost gave me a heart attack".

"Sorry I came earlier and Kurosaki-San let me in. He left you a note saying he carried you upstairs really early this morning. You fell asleep in the kitchen table not to skip breakfast since it is already done…oh and that he did it not Karin so it is edible. How are you feeling"?

No wonder she could smell the wonderful smell. He pulls her to the couch and sits next to her. Rukia chuckles about the joke.

"I feel better". Ulquiorra glares at her. Rukia sighs. "Honestly I feel like Aizen pulled out the Hōgyoku out of me all over again".

Rukia chuckles as Ulquiorra narrows his yes. She squeaks noticing his demeanor change.

"No…not funny…not in the least bit"? Ulquiorra shakes his head for an answer. "Sorry it seems no one appreciates Renji's or my jokes. I mean my feelings are all over the place not to mention I feel drained of energy".

"Where is Ichigo"?

Rukia raises her eyebrow.

"What no where's Pawn"? Ulquiorra shakes his head yet again for an answer. Rukia explains where Ichigo is.

"This must be hard on him accepting ones sin is extremely hard though not a conscious one is troubling to say the least".

Rukia smiles at him she hugs him.

"I am so proud of you Akachan. You have come a long way since our first meeting here in Karakura Town".

Ulquiorra smiles and hugs her tighter.

"Does this mean I out grew Akachan"?

Rukia shakes her head.

"Nope you'll always be my Akachan no matter how far you've grown up".

"It was worth a try anyway I brought you the journal thought you might need it soon".

"Thanks I will need it for Soul Society". Rukia then explains what happened in the trial. Ulquiorra is relieved that Soul Society didn't screw up again with her.

Rukia gets Ulquiorra to help her put a banner up saying "Welcome back home Yuzu". Rukia had purchased a banner and bought many different flowers for her.

"Looks amazing I am sure she'll love it".

Yuzu arrives a few minutes later and it's a loving coming home. Yuzu got emotional just by seeing Rukia alone not to mention the food, the flowers and the little details she took such care of doing just for her. Isshin had even bought cake.

Ulquiorra stayed for a few with the girls pleading him to do so but left not too long ago after eating with them not wanting to intrude on the family.

Yuzu and Rukia are upstairs in the girl's room helping her put stuff away. Yuzu is sad that Byakuya and her brother both are not present.

"Thanks for everything you did Onee-San you didn't have to at all and it was delicious. It tasted just like mine… no even better".

"Thanks for lying but it was my pleasure". They both laugh.

"Byakuya-Sama and Nii-Chan should be here with us. I really need to speak to Byakuya-Sama over some dreams maybe more like memories".

Rukia places a hand to Yuzu's shoulder and looks concerned.

"If you like we can talk about it until Nii-Sama returns".

Yuzu shakes her head.

"That can wait and it's not that important".

"Well okay, Nii-Sama has business to attend to in Soul Society and Ichigo will be here soon so try not to worry".

Yuzu shakes her head.

"I understand about Byakuya-Sama but Nii-Chan should be here with you. I do not know what happened but regardless of what his reasons are it's not good enough of an excuse".

Yuzu grabs Rukia by the hands out of the room and downstairs. She grabs Rukia's shoes and passes them to her then she puts on her own.

"We are coming back soon clean up please…" Yuzu grabs her purse and yanks Rukia out the door… "thank you in advance". The door closes leaving perplexed Karin and Isshin behind.

"Where are we going Yuzu-Chan"?

"We are going to knock some sense into my clueless Nii-Chan".

"I am not sure that's a good idea". Rukia begins to tremble.

Yuzu gets alarmed upon seeing Rukia in this state.

"Onee-San, are you scared of Nii-Chan"?

Rukia shakes her head and waves her hands clearly stating she is not afraid of Ichigo.

"It's just that everything's my fault. I don't want him to turn me away or throw me away I just couldn't take it if he did. I'd rather die"! Rukia is shaking, her eyes shut tight and holding herself.

Yuzu runs to hug her and tries to comfort her the best way she knows how.


Byakuya leans back onto the chair in his office. His head is pounding and he finally finished the report. It was bad enough he and Toshiro were grilled relentlessly by Central Forty six just like Rukia but that was not enough Captain Yamamoto ripped them both new ones.

'Yuzu, I wonder how is she'?

Byakuya does not notice the running of someone's footsteps as he is deep in thought but the desperate hard knocking does. Byakuya groans.

"Please stop with the incessant knocking". It continues so Byakuya stands up and opens the door swiftly. "Suzumi what are you doing here knocking like a lunatic at this hour"?

She drops to her knees and breathing rapidly.

"I made it in time, yokatta".

He helps her to the mini sofa in the office.

"Can I help you with something"?

Suzumi kneels and bows before him starting to cry alarming Byakuya.

"I never mean to hurt h-her. Rukia-Sama has become an impor-tant precious friend…but…but…"

Byakuya tilts her head upwards.

"Continue…but what…"

"My loyalty and duty belongs to someone else…" she takes a deep breath… "but I just cannot do this anymore". Suzumi starts sobbing loudly again Byakuya is showing patience for once knowing this girl is about to brake.

"Rukia-Sama is kind, loving and sincere that much she has showed me". She takes another breath trying to still her heart and looks into Byakuya's eyes. "I know who is behind all of this pain I know who wants t-to erase Ru-Rukia-Sama from this existence …"

Author's note: Hi my wicked ones! I wanted to show the different reactions to the characters that have been in the story so far it just would not be right to skip over it. As you can all tell I try to be detailed so if you are still with me hooray! If not oops! Anyway the next chapter will have Rukia and Ichigo definitely confronting the way each other dealt with the situation throughout this whole mess and the identity of the real culprit to their tragedy. I have seen up close and personal how losing a baby can affect a person =( there are definitely lots of ways that can happen this is just my take. I do not mean to offend it can be a touchy subject so excuse me if I did. Thanks for the support please do oblige me with kindness and a review =) I can reward you ;) lol