~E~

i stay in my old bedroom

lonely

scared

disappointed

my body heavy

my heart broke

sad

i hear my mother and bree return from the store

they're trying to be friends

i'm not sure how much it will help

i told my parents bree was my girlfriend

but she's not

she knows she's not

she's just a girl

that's a friend

who's carrying my baby

of course my dad pulled me aside

asked me if i was sure it was mine

i shrugged

i don't know

i don't know anything anymore

but i told him i would handle it

i would make sure

and i will

i guess

/ / /

"edward

we saw your old friend today"

bree says after they put away the groceries

and i join her in the living room

"which one?"

i ask even though i don't really care

"what was her name again esme?"

the room goes silent

her?

my mother steps into the room

her face cold

her eyes determined

as they watch me

my reaction

"it was bella swan"

she says

so harshly

i die in my skin

just enough to feel my soul collapse

"what did you say to her?"

i ask

afraid

so very afraid

"i introduced her to bree

your girlfriend

mother of your child"

her head shakes with each statement

"edward she is still so pretty"

bree speaks

but her voice is muffled

the fear is too busy drowning me

suffocating me

"you didn't?"

i whisper a plea to my mother

"i did

she needed to know edward"

i stand

but she continues to talk

"she ran out of that store like her life depended on it

i wonder why?"

i slam the front door as i leave

/ / /

i drive over to your house as fast as these slick streets will let me

everything is such a blur

i still don't know what to say to you

but

i'm sorry