Chapter 49: Important Conversations

Bella POV:

My little tease had aroused me with her sensual purr, so I was momentarily confused when she abruptly left me outside. Oh she was in for it now. I caught up with her right when she had entered our apartment and slammed her against the door.

"I beat you." She breathed out against my lips. Her eyes were getting darker by the second as I'm sure were mine.

"I don't care." My lips crashed onto hers hungrily. My emotions were really heightened by the full moon. The fact that she still had clothes on was really fucking bothering me. The door was groaning with the force I was using to push her into it. I lifted her up by her thighs and thrusted my hips right into her center.

"Fuck Bella, just fuck me already." Oh how I love it when she says stuff like that. I nodded against her mouth and ripped her shirt right off. How can someone's body taste so fucking delicious? "Bella are you still there? Are you still in control?" Alice was asking me slightly concerned but also pretty aroused. I hadn't realized I was growling so much until she said something.

"Yeah I'm still here." Damn when did I rip her pants off too? Was I still fully here? Screw it. I'm not stopping now. She peeled my shirt over my head while I shimmied my pants down. And without wasting another moment, I pushed my fingers inside her, eliciting the most beautiful moan. Thank god my walls were soundproofed as well. It really didn't take that long to bring her to orgasm, it made my ego swell quite bit. I let her recover as I caught my breath, still positioned against the door.

"Bella really? You didn't even take your jeans off!"

"Huh?" I looked down and saw that my jeans were in fact still bunched up around my ankles. It was good enough at the time alright. "Oh sorry. I was a little preoccupied though."

"I'll say. I forgot how much fun I get to have with you on full moons." That was very true. I was already ready for round two and carried her towards the bed this time. Although I kicked my jeans off all the way now. I placed myself on top of her and went to start some foreplay before she stopped me.

"What? I'm in control I swear."

"No no it's not that. It's just." She bit her lip worriedly. "Can I take the reins this time? It's been a while." I felt like a complete ass that she was so apprehensive about asking me that.

"Yeah of course." I relaxed my muscles as much as I could so she could flip us. My stupid domineering wolf let out a small whine from the position, but I hushed it quickly. Alice was obviously still concerned, so she waited until I nodded for her to continue.

"You'll tell me if you're uncomfortable in any way right?" She asked as she straddled my waist.

"Yes." I watched her bite her lip again trying to decide what she wanted to do. The view was absolutely amazing from down here, I could stare at her all day. Apparently making up her mind, she started to run her hands up and down my sides. Chill bumps erupted across my skin from her touch. Her hands were getting lower and lower, dipping towards my navel area. My heartbeat picked up from her proximity. Stay focused. Just relax. Alice's hands trailed down past my pelvic area and my muscles finally snapped. I grabbed her hands and pushed them away.

"I'm sorry love. I didn't mean to upset you." She whispered softly and moved to get off, but I stopped her.

"Please don't. Just give me a second." I took a few calming breaths, trying to refocus on the present. "Ok." I looked back up at her, composed again. "Alright I'm good." She sighed sadly and leaned down to give me a small kiss.

"I'm sorry Bella. I shouldn't have tried that. I know better." Her eyes were avoiding mine. I had to prop myself up and hold her face in my hand.

"Hey. Don't ever apologize for trying. If you don't try, nothing will ever happen. As for my part I will keep trying to relax more. Ok?" I continued to hold her face until she nodded at me.

"Ok. How about we just do something else then?" I smiled and kissed her again as an affirmative. She moved down and positioned our bodies so our sexes were rubbing against each other. I let out the most humiliating moan, but she did too so it was alright. She placed both her hands in my hair this time and I put mine on her hips to keep balance. "Ready?"

"Yeah." Alice thrusted forward immediately. "Oh Christ!" Thank god Alice doesn't bruise, because the force my fingers were using to dig into her would definitely leave a mark on a human. She let me set the pace mostly, which really helped with me keeping it together. Fuck she's gorgeous. The sight of her on top of me rocking her hips back and forth against mine was almost enough to undo me. I buried my face in her chest to cool my heated face and inhale her scent. "Huhhh!" That would be the embarrassing sound that came from me when Alice sped up. Jesus was she trying to set the world record fastest time to get me to come? Honestly I think she was.

"Come on Bella. Just let go. Relax remember?" She said with a death grip on my hair. I had no idea how hard I was shaking and sweating until she told me to relax. I nodded into her breasts and uncoiled my tense muscles.

"Fuck Alice!" I came hard. My vision was clouded with stars and I wasn't sure if I was having a heart attack or not. When my senses finally returned, I was laying down panting with Alice settled on my chest.

"That good?" She giggled, propping her chin up to look at me.

"Mhm." I really didn't have the energy for words right now. She laughed again and then moved to I could lay on her chest while she pet my hair.

"That's my girl." She might have said something else but I passed out right then and there.


"Belllllllaaaaa. Wake up love. I made you pancakes…."

"Food?" My head popped up with the mention of food. I was fucking starving.

"Yes my little hungry wolf. Now sit up babe."

"Mmmmm." I rolled to my side and sat up to my beautiful girlfriend with a tray of food on it. "I love you so much." She placed the tray in my lap and kissed my nose before settling back down into bed with me while I ate.

"So apparently you have the next few days off. What would you like to do today?" I set down my fork and looked up at her seriously.

"Um actually I would like to talk to Carlisle today. About-about my issues." Her eyes widened in surprise at my sudden attitude change. She had asked about it weeks ago, but I shot down the idea right away.

"Really? Bella you really don't need to if it makes you uncomfortable."

"I know. I know that, but I want to. I would like us to be able to do stuff. And you've been super patient. But Carlisle's my actual doctor now though, so maybe he can recommend something to relax me. Or I don't know. It's worth a shot."

"I love you Bella. You are the absolute sweetest person ever. But are you sure? It might be a little weird."

"Oh it will be a lot weird. But that's why you'll be doing most of the talking." She grinned and took my empty tray.

"Sounds good to me. Alright shower and then get it over with?" I sighed, dreading this day already.

"Yeah ok."

Alice really enjoyed our new bathroom and how big it was. She promised a bath later if I behaved. I'm always behaved! But once we were all clean and clothed, she took my hand and led me towards Carlisle's new office. His official office was in our complex, which is the one we were going to now.

"Ah. Alice, Bella, to what do I owe the pleasure?" He looked up from the current files he was studying. Must be mine and Liam's medical history here.

"Um. We were hoping to talk to the doctor Carlisle today." Alice said tentatively. He scrunched up his eyebrows in confusion for only a moment, but then nodded and went serious.

"Yes of course. What seems to be the problem?" He gestured for us to sit in the two chairs across from his desk. Alice never let go of my hand while we took our seats. I was nervously wiping my other hand from sweat onto my jeans.

"Well. Uh this may be a little awkward." Carlisle nodded for Alice to continue. "Uh, well Bella and I have been having some very slight issues, in-in the bedroom." I have never been so embarrassed in my life. I don't think Alice has either because she looked horrified. But I knew why I was doing this. This was for us.

"Ok… I'm afraid you'll have to be a little more specific." Carlisle was doing a wonderful job of just being the doctor and not the father.

"Um. I have some problems with the uh- personal intimacy?" I must have coughed and cleared my throat about a hundred times in that sentence.

"Alright. Ok, I think I know what you mean. Do you have any ideas on the why?" He was studying me closely.

"Well I think it's just that I can't seem to relax. I'm not really sure why but I can feel the tension in my muscles." Alice nodded in agreement with me. Carlisle put his fingers to his chin in thought.

"Have you tried anything to help relax?"

"Um no. We weren't quite sure what to try. Which is why we're here." Alice took over again. I've had enough humiliation for the day.

"Hmmmmm. Ok. Well let's see. You could try alcohol? Not a lot, just enough to relax you a little. Honestly really anything that relaxes you in general. And if you're still having problems after trying all that, I can give you a pill. It's a very small muscle relaxant, not strong at all. But it could help. Although I would like you to try the other ways first." I felt a rush of gratitude towards Carlisle's whole demener throughout this.

"Thank you Carlisle. We will try that. Really thank you." Alice hopped up, happy about how it went and about leaving. "Bella?" I hadn't moved from my spot.

"Yeah I'll be right out. I just need to talk to Carlisle real quick. If that's alright?" I turned to him questioningly.

"Of course."

"Ok. Don't be too long." She kissed the top of my head goodbye and left me alone with her father.

"So, am I speaking as a father or doctor?"

"Um. Father please?" He smiled and sat back relaxing in his chair.

"So what can I do for you Bella?" I felt suddenly nervous again. I knew what he would probably say, but it was still a scary thing to ask.

"I-I was wondering, wondering how would you feel, about me asking Alice to-to marry me?"

"I think….. that would make me very happy. And Alice even more so." He looked overjoyed at the prospect of me marrying his youngest daughter. Well maybe I was his youngest daughter? No not officially until we were married.

"Thank you Carlisle." A huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. I was ready to go.

"If you don't mind me asking, have you thought about the ring yet?"

"Um actually yeah. I uh, already got it a while ago." I dug deep into my pocket, searching for the ring I kept on my person at all times. It was a stunning platinum band with a princess cut diamond placed in the middle.

"It's beautiful Bella. She'll love it. Do you have any idea on when you'll ask her?"

"Yeah. I was thinking maybe on our trip to Biloxi. We leave about a week after my birthday. Maybe on a walk on the beach or something. I'll feel it out." I was smiling just thinking about it. She made me so happy. I was absolutely ready to spend the rest of my life with her. Carlisle looked at me with a knowing twinkle in his eye.

"It will be perfect no matter what. She loves you so much."

"And I love her. And Carlisle I would never dream of hurting her or anything-" He laughed and held up his hand to stop me.

"I know Bella. There's no need for the father talk with you. I trust you. Well, maybe Emmett may give you a hard time once you're engaged." He chuckled at the last part. I grinned and got up to shake his hand and leave.

"Thank you again."

"There's no need to thank me. Now get out of here, before Alice barges in asking what's taking so long." We both laughed at the truthfulness of his statement.

"Yes sir!" I gave him a mock salute and went to find my soon to be fiancée.

"What are you smiling about?" She asked, taking in my appearance.

"You of course." Alice rolled her eyes at my corniness. "Come on. Let's have an actual race. Ten bucks says I beat you."

"You're so on."