A big thanks to Stef (Rockstar) for the help in deciding this outcome, this is a little different from what you read last night hun. I hope you are all happy with this outcome, i think you will be. Fingers crossed. My original plan for this fic for that Mark would never agree to a divorce, that Mark would always be in the background of their lives, so marriage was never on the cards anyway, Reading all of your reactions as made me deviate from my original plan, but i am happy with the direction it is going, i still feel that there is a lot more to tell, even with Mark out of the picture. Enjoy!

Meredith followed Derek back to the hotel where Derek had made reservations; they both knew that they needed privacy to talk which is why they turned down invitations to spend time with Susanna or any of Derek's family that night. They had arranged to meet them the next day which made Meredith's heart soar, that maybe everything would be okay with them.

Once saying good bye to Derek's mom and sisters, Derek hailed them down a cab, and on the way to the hotel, they interlinked fingers, either of them talking. Both of them were going over in their mind what they were going to say to each other. Once they were signed in and showed to their room Derek ordered room service, Meredith watched him closely she really wanted to know what was going through his mind.

"Meredith, do you want to take a bath? While we wait for room service" Derek said smiling at her, but Meredith didn't move.

"Derek we really need to talk" Meredith said, Derek walked over to her, and gently caressed her cheek, and leant down and kissed her softly on the lips.

"I know but right now, Meredith you need to relax, it has been a long and emotional day, so go and enjoy a nice bubble bath, and after we've eaten we can talk, i promise" Derek said, cocking his head to the side.

"I love you" Meredith said.

"I love you too, now go and have your bath" Derek said, kissing her gently again.

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Meredith came out of the bathroom, to see Derek at his laptop, she watched him, while he concentrated, and there was never any doubt that he was so handsome, so gorgeous and totally hers, she hoped.

"Hey, did you have a nice bath?" Derek said closing his laptop, and walking over to her.

"I did, it was what i needed"

"Good, let's eat"

"Derek, can i ask you something first?"

"Meredith, you can ask me whatever you want?"

"Areyouleavingme?" Meredith said quickly.

"Excuse me"

"Are you leaving me?"

"Meredith, NO, don't ever think that" Derek looked at her a shocked look on his face.

"I just though..." Meredith said looking down at her feet, the tears falling down her face.

"Meredith" Derek said lifting her chin up so she looks at him.

"Listen, i love you, do you really think after everything we have been through i could leave you, even if i wanted too"

"So...you are staying with me, because of it all...i don't want your pity" Meredith said pushing him off her.

"Mer..i did...not..."

"Fine...fuck you then Derek" Meredith spat at him, grabbing her bag and going into the bathroom.

"Meredith..."

"No...Derek you have made yourself perfectly clear" Meredith said slamming the door behind her. Derek runs his hand through his hair, in frustration, with no idea what set her off. After a few minutes, Derek knocked on the bathroom door.

"Meredith, please open the door" he asked her

"Derek, leave me alone" Meredith shouted.

"Meredith...please don't push me away, i love you, i promise you i am not going anywhere, god, i love you so damn much that that i can't live without you"

"Yeah because you feel sorry for me"

"Meredith, i never said that, god damn it Mer, stop twisting my words"

"You said..."

"Meredith, please open this door? I am begging you i do not want to do this through the door"

"So you want to break up with me face to face"

"Meredith...stop...i am not breaking up with you, god damn it i love you, you just totally threw me off, i was not expecting it"

"Well, i not like i planned to ask you, it just came out"

"So, do you want to get married? Honestly" Derek asked his head resting against the bathroom door.

"No, not yet, at least" Meredith told him.

"Me either Mer, i love you, but marriage we aren't ready for that. We need to be a couple Meredith, we have been through so much this past year, that we need to be us, without Mark standing in the background. We need to find out who we are together, before marriage is even on the cards" Derek told her, he heard the lock on the door click, and he quickly stood up

"I'm sorry Derek" Meredith said opening the door, Derek takes in her tear stained faces, before taking her in his arms, and hold her.

"Me too, i love you Meredith Grey"

"I love you too Derek, and i want to marry you eventually but i agree that we aren't ready" Meredith tells him.

"No we aren't but there is nothing stopping us from getting engaged" Derek says to her.

"Seriously"

"Why not? We can wait for marriage, even a long engagement until we are both ready. I do know that i want to spend the rest of my life with you Mer"

"Okay" Meredith said with a smile.

"So, make up sex, Mer?" Derek says kissing her hard, and pulling her towards him.

"Engagement sex"

"That too" Derek says carrying her over to the bed, Meredith laughing.