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Chapter 50
Tobias
"Tris don't you think we should talk about this a little more?" I ask as we head back to our apartment after this evening's events.
"Tobias, what is there to talk about? This is a necessity. I know you will save me. Until then I will make it through because I'll know that you are coming for me."
"How could you possibly have that much faith? What if…" she cuts me off.
"What if nothing. Tobias, this is about more than you and me. This is about our entire world. Every faction, our lives. If we don't do this, we will never be able to have the life that we want. We will never be able to get married and have kids and grow old together. We won't last long enough because at some point Erudite is going to come for us."
I know she is right, but that doesn't mean I have to like it.
I shake my head at her, "I just don't want to lose you. You are all that I have."
She grabs my hand and drags me the rest of the way to our apartment. We enter and she immediately pulls herself into me and kisses me deeply.
"I will always be yours. You have me forever. But first we have to do this. We have to save our lives before they are threatened again. I can't sit here and wait anymore."
"You believe in me that much that you are going to risk your life."
"There is not a doubt in my mind that you are going to save me."
I lean in and kiss her more deeply and with more passion than I have ever kissed her before.
Soon are kisses become groping. My hands are up the back of her shirt and I have it almost complete off her before I realize what I'm doing. I start to pull back, but she stops me. She pulls me closer and we continue to kiss. I sweep her up into my arms and carry her to our bed, our lips still attached. I sit on the bed with her on top of me and in one swift movement her shirt is off and on the floor. All she is wearing is her lacy black bra under her shirt. My hands find the front of her body and I touch the side of her breast. I feel her body stiffen then she relaxes. I touch her breasts over the bra, this is the closest that I have ever gotten to her before. She doesn't protest, she turns her body so she is straddling mine and runs her hands beneath my shirt and over the muscles on my chest. She pulls the shirt up and over my head and now we are both topless. I feel her hands run over my sides and down my back. She skims her fingers across my back and it sends a chill down my spine.
We continue to kiss and rub each other until I am feeling like if this continues I'm going to explode. Like she is reading my mine, she pulls back and looks me in the eyes. She looks worried and a little upset.
"I'm sorry," she says sadly.
"What could you possibly be sorry for?" I ask kissing her on her cheek.
"I want to, but…" her voice trails off. She looks down and refuses to meet my eyes.
"Tris, it's fine. When you are ready… When we are both ready… we can…" I don't finish my thought. I just want her to know that I'm not sure if I'm ready yet either.
She looks up at me with tears in her eyes. I kiss her cheek and wipe away her tears.
"Tris, I love you so much. This is enough for me. It's not about all that. I love just being close to you and holding you in my arms. The rest will come some day, after we are married."
"I love you Tobias."
We lay down in bed and I pull her close to me, our bare torsos touching. I love the feel of her bare skin on mine. We fall asleep, content, in each other's arms. Tomorrow she is going to leave me and turn herself into Erudite. I have to save her from this. If I do nothing else in my life, I can't stop until I have her back and we are safe.
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The next morning I wake with her still sleeping in my arms. I look at her beautiful body and can't help but want to touch her bare skin. I run my fingers across her stomach and she flinches a little and flutters her eyes open. I just continue to stare at her, taking in this new side of her that I have never seen before. She looks at me, "What?" she asks and goes to cover herself but I stop her.
"You are so beautiful, please don't be self-conscious. You are perfect, your body is perfect."
She smiles and reluctantly stops grasping the blanket. I lean in and kiss her lips. I trail kisses down her neck t her shoulders I kiss each of the ravens and linger on the dove that represents her love for me. I move to kiss her stomach and trail kisses across her stomach and the exposed parts of her breasts. Her body shutters under the touch of my lips on her bare skin. I move back up and kiss her lips lightly, then with more vigor.
I don't want this moment to end because I know as soon as it ends she will be going to turn herself into Erudite. I am terrified that I won't be able to save her or that I will lose her to an endless simulation that she can't escape from. Our plan to save her and take down Erudite has to be flawless.
She looks at me, "Are you okay?"
I must have been lost in thought for a moment because I find that I have buried my face in her neck and am trembling a bit.
"Just thinking about what is going to happen. Tris, I really wish you would reconsider this. I just can't lose you and I'm terrified that I won't be able to save you."
"Tobias, look at me," she takes my face in her tiny hands and forces me to look into her eyes. My eyes are burning, threatening to release the tears that are threatening to fall. Tears that I have not allowed to escape from me since I was nine years old at my mother's funeral.
"You will save me," she says. "There is no doubt in my mind. Please, we have to do this so we can have our life together."
I nod, I can't say more. I want to argue, I want to lock her in this room and keep her here until it is safe again. But that isn't Tris, she would never let me do that.
I kiss her on her cheek, "I guess it is time to get up and get the ball rolling on what is going to happen next."
She nods and I get up off of her and go into the bathroom and get in the shower. While I'm there, I allow the tears that have been brewing below the surface to fall. I will allow myself this moment of weakness, and then I'm back to Four, badass Dauntless that only has four fears, can kill someone with my bare hands, and is deadly accurate with a knife and a gun. I'll have to be Four in order save my love from the grasp of the Erudite.
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We make our way to the cafeteria for breakfast and find Tori, Harrison, and Zeke deep in conversation.
"Four, can you come over here please?" Harrison yells across the room.
I kiss Tris on the cheek, "Go ahead and sit with the others, I'll be over in a couple minutes."
She nods and walks over with our friends.
I go and sit next to Zeke across from Tori and Harrison.
"We need to decide who is going to be part of this mission to pose as Dauntless traitors," Harrison says.
"That is easy; it has to be the best of the best. We have to get her out of there safely so everyone involved must be lethal with their hands, knives, and guns," I say.
"This is your mission, Four. I think you need to have a say in who is going to accompany you on this mission," Tori says.
"I know I want Zeke with me. I'd want Uriah if he were up to it."
Zeke chimes in, "Actually Uriah is up for it. The medicine that the doctor said was a new development of Erudite's that would heal him completely has worked. It is like he was never shot. He is actually working out in the training room right now with our old trainer Amar." He thinks for a moment, "Actually Four, if you want the most lethal person in the compound with us, we need Amar."
Harrison speaks up, "Amar would definitely be my first choice. Who is your fifth?"
"I'd ask you Harrison, but I you have a family. I wouldn't feel right about asking you to risk your life for this."
"I appreciate that Four," Harrison says. "But if you want me, I'm with you."
"I think it would be best if you stayed and helped Tori rally the rest of the Dauntless and watch over Evelyn so she doesn't try a double cross or something," Zeke says. "In order for this to work, the rest of the Dauntless and Erudite need to have Erudite surrounded and charge in at the right moment. That is probably more important than being on the inside."
"You are right," Tori says. "I can't do this part on my own Harrison."
He nods in agreement.
"It's settled then," Zeke says. "Come one Four, let's go see Uriah and Amar. Maybe they will have an opinion for a fifth."
We leave the cafeteria and head to the training room. Uriah is sparing with a man who is probably in is thirties. Uriah looks good and strong. Zeke walks up to the ring in the center of the room, "How's he looking Amar?"
"Good and strong," Amar says. "I think he is better now than he was before."
Uriah takes a swing and Amar crouches and sweeps his legs out from under him.
"Still not as good as me though," he laughs helping Uriah to his feet.
"We have a question for you two. We are going to infiltrate Erudite, we need the best we can get in there with us…"
Amar cuts him off, "Who is us?"
"Oh sorry, Amar this is Four."
"So this is the famous Four I've heard about. The guy who only has four fears. Come on up here, I want to see what you have."
Amar wants me to climb into the ring with him and fight him.
Zeke whispers, "He will only agree to help us if he sees that you are good enough to not get yourself killed."
I climb into the ring with the man that Zeke described as the most lethal man in Dauntless. I square off with him and we begin circling each other. He throws the first punch, I move just in time and it barely skims my chin. I'm not prepared for the second punch and it doubles me over and expelled the last bit of choked air from my lungs.
He is very fast and strong. I have to move faster. He moves in for another blow but I sidestep it and kick his legs out from under him. He falls to the floor but quickly springs back up and faces me. He looks surprised and smirks.
I notice that his hands are a little high. I almost feel like he is doing this on purpose to see if I'll notice. I move toward him a fake a throw to his face with my right and come up into his abdomen with my left. I actually winded him, I can't believe it. While he is doubled over I go for a body shot to his ribs. He drops to the floor and kicks my legs out from under me. He tries to throw his elbow into my face, but I roll out of the way and he lands on his elbow on the floor. We both quickly stand.
He went in for another shot and landed two punches, one to my face and the other to my ribs. The blow sends fresh ripples of pain through my torso. I don't fall, but I feel a little lightheaded from the pain. I recover myself enough to shove him away from me to give myself a moment to recuperate.
He moves in quickly, but I anticipate the attack and throw three more punches that landed. Amar falls to the ground.
When he stands he has a determined look to him. I think I might be in trouble. Maybe he was just playing with me until this point. Maybe he is going to make me pay for making him hit the floor.
Amar charges at me with his look of determination. He is fast, but fortunately I am faster. I block his blow and turn to face him again. He charges again and this time he lands a blow to the side of my head, making me a little dizzy. I shove him back again to give myself a moment to recover. This time when he charges, I beat him to it and thrust my fist into his head, knocking him down.
He sits on the floor and looks at me and smile.
"Damn kid, you're good. You say you're from Abnegation? How the hell did you get so muscular and fast, they aren't supposed to work out or run."
"I worked in the sorting center moving boxes, that is how I became stronger. I would sneak out at night and run to the pier and back several times to build strength and speed. The only reason I stayed in Abnegation is because I thought it would be cowardice to leave there to get away from my father. I didn't want to start my life in Dauntless by being a coward."
"From what I understand, you've taken care of that little problem. Right?" Amar asks.
"I guess."
"Seems like you are Dauntless now, that's for sure."
He pauses for a moment and looks between Zeke and me. "Whatever you two need, I'm in. Anyone that can fight me and keep me on my toes is worth helping. And if I may suggest a fifth, I would include Bud. He is probably one of the best marksmen in the faction. Speaking of marksmen, I'd like to see you shoot and throw knives if you don't mind."
We move over to the targets and I take a gun, load it, and aim. Uriah and Zeke taught me to breath in, aim, breath out and fire, so that is exactly what I do.
I fire five rounds into the target, each of the rounds hitting the target dead center.
Amar nods, "Now knives."
I take three knives and move to another target, I follow the same strategy. I breathe in, take aim, breathe out and throw the knife. Each blade finding the center of the target with no problem.
"Very nice job, I see you have learned well," Amar says.
"Didn't I tell you?" Zeke asks. "It's like he was made to be Dauntless. I have never seen someone pick all of this up so fast."
Amar nods, "So let's go up to the tattoo parlor and see Bud. Then we will discuss what our plans are."
