Chapter 55
Everyone leaves the room after a little while. We all discussed what we should do with the Samos family, and only Cal and I agree that they should stay alive. After back and forth, everyone agrees to respect our wishes. I hope they do. We need them. As much as I hate them, we need them.
Cal closes the door after exchanging a few words with Shade. I watch him, wide eyed, realising this is the first time we have been alone since everything went down.
"Are you ok?" I ask him. My voice is sad, and I can hear it myself. I still am trying to wrap my head around dying. And how I am alive.
"You died and you're asking me if I am ok?" Cal looks surprised, like I shouldn't be asking that question. He stands with his feet apart, looking closed off from me. Like he is scared to approach me.
"I just…" I struggle to get the words out "You don't look like yourself" He doesn't. His eyes look reserved, and sunken in. Like he hasn't slept. He looks like he hasn't eaten in a few days, and his skin is pale.
"How am I supposed to look like myself" He says, looking down, trying to avoid my eyes. "I almost lost you Mare". The words are strained and the next sentence pushes him over the edge. I can see. "I did lose you". I can't take it anymore.
"I'm here now" I say, lifting myself up as much as I can, trying to get his attention to me.
"It will just take me a little time to…accept everything" He says, quietly. My heart drops.
"Does that mean you don't…want me anymore" My voice is quiet, and it hurts me to ask him this. But I need to know. If he doesn't want me anymore, I need to know.
"What? No" Cal says quickly, looking at me finally.
"Oh" I breathe. No, he doesn't want me. Oh. He sees my train of thought and quickly speaks up.
"No, not like that Mare" He walks towards me, coming to the side of the bed. I can see he doesn't know what to do. "I will always want you. That will never change. Nothing changes between us" I look up at him, wanting to reach out. "Just…don't leave me again…Please. You don't know…you don't know what that did to me" His voice is quiet, almost begging.
"I won't" I say, taking his hand in mine. I pull him towards me, just a little nudge of his hand, to get his attention. "Kiss me" I say, quietly. Almost embarrassed for needing him this much. His affection. I just need him. Cal wastes no time. He bends down, grabbing my face in his hands. His touch is soft, but he still grips my face, so that he is in control. His warm lips touch mine, and I melt. I grab his forearms, pulling him towards me. I am weak, but something takes over and I need him on me. With me. I just need Cal. It's been too long. I kiss him hard, biting his lip. He groans and pulls away.
"We can't Mare" He says, quietly, still holding my face. "You are still recovering" I frown. He is right, but I just need him. His touch, and everything in between.
"Then come lay with me" I say, lifting my body up a little to kiss him again. He kisses me back, but pulls away again. He chuckles darkly.
"Ok, move over. You're hogging all of the bed" I laugh with him, and move quicker than I thought possible to make space for him. He takes off his shoes, and his shirt and I gawk at his body. He may have lost a little weight while I was…out, but his body is more defined than it has ever been. He is still built, the muscles all over his chest. The scars look more defined than ever. He leaves on his loose pants, and I wish they were off too, but I understand we can't do anything yet. I just eye the band of the pants, wishing I could slide my finger between and take them off. He watches my eyes, and grins at me. "Don't even think about it" he warns, and I bite my lip.
He lifts up the covers, sliding his body next to mine. I am still in my shorts and bra, so I am practically naked anyway. I don't count the bandage covering my stomach. I still feel naked. I face him, and he grabs my waist, sliding closer to me. I can see he is trying not to hurt me, even though the wound is gone. "You're not going to hurt me" I say, grabbing his back and pulling myself against him. There was too much space between us. He smiles, pushing my hair back behind my ear.
"The things I want to do to you, require a little force" he grins at me, and I slap his shoulder. He traces his finger on my lips, watching them. I watch him, his eyes, his face. He has a little beard growing, and I run my hands over it. We watch each other for so long, not talking. Just watching. He touches my lips, just tracing them. It tickles, but I like it. He moves his hand across my shoulder, down my arm, onto my waist. He runs his whole hand over my hip, my thigh, until he grabs my leg and swings it over his body. I pull even closer than I was, and rest my head under his chin. We lay tangled up, until the sleep comes, and I fall into him, promising never to let go.
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BONUS SCENE
CHAPTER 35 - CAL POV
(Recommend re-reading chapter 35 to see Mare's POV and then Cal's- Also be warned, it is very explicit. Please do not read if you are sensitive to sexual content)
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I can't sleep. Everything has gone terribly wrong. I don't love Theresa, I love Mare. I have never been with Theresa the way I was with Mare. Never. The thought never even crossed my mind. I just wish she believed me. Especially because I have to lose her tomorrow to my brother. Theresa is not pregnant, and the thought angers me. I always thought when I had kids, they would be half silver and half red. My skin begins to burn up, and I can't sleep. I don't think I will ever sleep peacefully again.
"Wake him up! … Cal!" I hear someone yelling my name, coming from outside my room. I get up, quickly putting on loose tracksuit pants, and open my door. Mare is there, in a top and shorts, loose on her body. The guards have their hands on her shoulders, pulling her away.
"What is going on" I say, angry that their hands are on her. "Let go of her". The guards release her immediately and my eyes can't help but run the length of her body. Her singlet has risen up, and she quickly pulls it down, her cheeks turning red. I have to stop my heart from beating at the sight of her with so little on, wishing I could take it all off.
"I need to speak with you" she says, moving towards me. "Please Cal". I don't hesitate and nod, opening the door to let her in. She pushes past, her shoulder skimming my body. I feel the heat pass me, the need to grab her. I barely stop myself. I see a look in her eyes, but I don't want to think too much about it. She doesn't want me that way. She is probably just here to tell me that she hates me.
I close the door, turning to face her. Her back is facing me. "What's wrong" I say, not moving. She turns, and we stare at each other for a little while. I can't help but move my eyes towards her shoulder, chest and bare legs. They are long, and I have the urge to pull them around me. I need to shake off the thought, but I can't. Something burns within me. She looks me over too, and something changes in her. I see it by the way she bites her lip before she runs towards me, wrapping her arms around my shoulders, kissing me hard. I don't miss the opportunity to slide my hands under her thighs, pulling her up, kissing her back. Wrapping her legs around my torso. I grab her ass, squeezing it hard. Bad thoughts run through my mind, when I kiss and touch her. Bad thoughts.
"I should have believed you. I should have known she would do this the day before I was supposed to leave" Mare says, breathing hard. I don't say anything, because she believes me and that is all I needed to hear. I grab a handful of her hair, pulling her towards me, kissing her so hard, I hear her breath hitch. My skin goes hot at the thought of her legs around me, the way I can control her mouth with my hands on her hair. I struggle to control myself against her. I push her against the door, kissing her neck. I bite it and she pulls back, slapping me lightly on the face, for marking her.
"He won't get to take you like he said in his letter. I won't let him think you are his". She is mine, always has been and always will be. I kiss her again, biting her neck. She doesn't slap me again, because she moans under her breath, pulling her legs tighter across my back. Im grabbing her too, her hips, pressing her closer. I can see her wishing her clothes were off, just by the way she moves. Her shirt is already riding up, and our skin against one another is enough to drive us both crazy. Animalistic. "You are mine" I growl into her neck, feeling jealous at the thought of anyone else having her this way. She is mine.
I carry her to the bed, throwing her down. I am already on top of her, taking her shirt off. I can't help myself, there is something about this moment, us, that needs to be urgent. I feel like we are wasting time, and I don't want this to end. Her body is incredible, and it is all mine. I kiss her everywhere, and I feel her move into me. I slide my hands down her stomach, reaching the waistband. I pull them off too, seeing her body under me, exposed drives me crazy. I lift one of her legs, undoing her boots, one by one throwing them over my shoulder somewhere in the room. She giggles, girly at my urgency. I love the sound, and get up onto my knees, to look at her. I smile, realising that she said I would never have her again. She catches on.
"What?" she breathes, conscious.
My voice is hoarse. "You said I would never see you naked again". I laugh at the memory, wondering how I got so lucky to stumble on her that night in the stilts. How one look at her, changed my whole world. I wouldn't go back. Even though I have lost everything, I cant imagine my life without her.
She gasps, in outrage and punches my leg. I laugh, and lift her up into my arms, so that I am on my knees and she is wrapped around me. I have all the control, and I love it. "I knew you would get there in the end. You would trust me" I say in all seriousness. I kiss her softly then, grateful for her trust. She moans again, and I cant help but laugh. I love that I have the effect on her.
I explore every inch of her body, kissing her inner thigh. She grabs my hair when I do that, and I look up at her, smiling wide. I want to tease her, and control her, and I grab her hand and push it to the side, not letting her interrupt. What I do to her works, because she arches her back, pulling my head closer. She breathes hard, saying my name a couple of times. It turns me on even more, to hear her want me as much as I want her.
Something changes in Mare, because she takes control, kicking me over onto my back, pinning my arms over my head. She straddles me, naked. I flip her back around, unable to control my feelings. "Who said I was done?" I kiss her chest and stomach, and she nearly kicks me in the face trying to get my attention back.
"Its my turn" she laughs, breathless. She manages to get me on my back again, and I can easily overpower her, but I let her do what she wants to. I am hers and she is mine. That will always be the way. I smile at her, but stop when her lips kiss my neck. I growl, warning her. I will lose control and I wasn't done exploring her body.
"Mare" I warn. She doesn't listen, and licks my neck, biting it. Returning the favour for me biting her before. Smart ass. I cant help but laugh. "Mare" I say again. She doesn't listen. She pins me down, kissing my chest, my scars. I feel myself against her, unable to help it. I want her. So badly. When she gets to my tracksuit straps, she lets go of one of my hands, and pulls down the band. I warn her, that I will take over if she keeps going, but she smiles, wanting that. I push her hair out of her face, to look into her eyes, and when they meet mine, it is all over. I sigh, quickly grabbing her. I kiss her hard and fast, our bodies grinding against each other. Under the covers I take over, closing the distance between us, until I am inside her, still keeping my lips on hers the whole time. We breathe hard, but don't stop. We can't stop.
She grips my back, running her nails down it. Her legs are around me, and she grabs my neck, and back, pulling me closer to her. She says my name, over and over, and I am nearly undone.
We do the same thing, 3 more times that night, and I know I will never get enough. Not of her. Never of her.
I won't lose her. I won't. I will give myself up for her tomorrow, and she doesn't have to know until the time. I won't give her away. I love her too much. I'd rather die.
*Hey Guys, I hope you enjoyed this chapter and the bonus chapter. I will be continuing as normal from present day, there was only one flashback POV for everyone to enjoy.
To answer some of your questions, I am a Commercial and Property Lawyer by day. I am killing a character, but don't worry, it is not happening anytime soon and it will not be a big loss. I will be explaining the Samos issue and what happened when Cal went to kill them, what changed their mind. Also more characters will start to be involved in the chapters (like Cal's grandmother, Maven etc). I can just see everyone wants Cal and Mare moments more than anything, and I want to write for everyone.
Thank you everyone for your understanding and trust. I hope to be able to get a chapter up by tonight. It is 2:43 Sunday afternoon here in Sydney, Australia.
Please continue reviewing and leaving your thoughts. I like seeing what you think happens next in my story.
Tash xx
