Thank you all for your great reviews! I am in awe of all of your thoughts on the last chapter. I don't own these characters but I do love them dearly. The songs for this chapter are "I Miss You" by Incubus, "Let's Talk About Sex" by Salt-n-Pepa, I hope you enjoy this chapter!

BPOV/NOVEMBER 19TH

The past few weeks had been busy for all of us. I had not seen Edward in weeks as he had spent most of it out of town. Normally he stayed in town working on paper work for the company but Emmett did not want to leave Rose alone so Edward went. I was not sure how things were progressing with us after that night. All of those things he told me that night still echoed in my head. I knew I loved him and he loved me I just hoped I would be enough for him. I always wore my bracelet somewhere on me now. I pinned it to the inside of my coat pocket or some other place so I would not get food on it. I always fiddled with it when I was thinking of him which was all the time. My heart felt lonely when he was not here. I was missing him something fierce and I wanted him home. We had just found each other again to be torn apart by business but I knew he was missing me too.

We spent a lot of time on the internet or on the phone these days. We talked about childhood memories, music, books and whatever else we could think of. I actually had to buy a new battery for my cell phone because it would no longer hold a charge. It was as if things never changed we still talked openly with one another and I promised him I would not hold things back. I made the promise to everyone that I would not hold things back. I apologized in advance in case I hurt feelings. Everyone understood and relieved that we found each other again. Edward and I completed each other in ways we never knew.

Alice had been busy as I had not seen much of her either. We were like two ships passing in the night. We basically said hello over coffee as I would head for the kitchen and she went to venues for future parties. We both had so much work to do that I put my foot down and said we were going to be closed the week Christmas till after the New Year.

Alice had no less than 15 parties from now till right before Christmas. Some were small but some were huge. I played a big part in some of those but we were ready for the long nights. Most of the food was already completed or partially completed so it made things easier on us.

Angela and I had come up with a brilliant idea of keeping things simple for the upcoming holidays. Other than catering we would do cookie and gingerbread house orders. I was not going to deal with all the pies, cakes and other things people wanted. If I was going to do anything special it was going to be for us.

During my time in Seattle I started crocheting again. I had learned years ago but with school and what life brought me lately it was set aside. I bought the softest yarn I could find in colors that would work for a boy or girl. I made beautiful set of booties, jacket, hat and matching blanket for the newest Cullen on its way. I was working on the second blanket taking one stitch at a time remember the day I went to the doctor with Rose and the day I showed them the nursery. I had also finished quilting the blanket I was going to give them too. I hoped they would love it as much as I did. The fabric I chose was perfect and it was kismet when they asked me to decorate the nursery for them.

"Bella I am so glad you could come with me. I know Emmett did not want to leave me but I am glad you are here." I felt her hand in mine as we got out of the car.

I followed her into the doctor's office and we went right in. Rose laughed as she said that never happened as she was usually kept waiting. It was going to be a routine appointment but Rose was worried cause the last ultrasound she had showed something. Her doctor wanted to do another one in a few weeks and here we were. A cute nurse showed us to the ultrasound room and had her lay on the table.

I held her hand as I knew she was nervous. I looked around the room at pictures of babies that had been delivered, children's artwork and the model showing the reproductive organs. We both giggled when we both caught each other looking at it. I heard the door knob turn and in walked her doctor.

"Rosalie good to see you and who is this beautiful woman with you?" She had a smile on her face.

"Dr. Smith this is my dearest friend in the world Bella Swan. Emmett had to go out of town unexpectedly so she is going to be here holding my hand. Can we get this show on the road my bladder is ready to explode." Rose looked over to me and smiled.

"I have heard a lot about you Bella. " She went on and on about how much her family had enjoyed our food. I knew that the name sounded familiar as they placed a huge cookie order through us.

"The reason I wanted you to come back is last time I saw something that worried me. I conferred with one of my colleges and he agreed that another ultra sound was the answer. This is going to be cold just so you know." Rose pulled up her shirt and there was her beautiful belly. I was in awe of this pregnancy and how Rose was doing with it.

She shuddered as the gel was placed on her belly. To me it looked like jellyfish innards. Slimy and cold and hard to get off. I could hear the slight hum of the machine and watched the doctor move the wand around her stomach. She had a weird look on her face. I was not sure if she was concerned or just really quiet. Rose couldn't look at anything other than the ceiling until the doctor's lips pulled into a huge smile. She looked at me and then looked at Rose. She wanted me to get Rose to look as I knew what was going on.

"Rose, I know you are worried but everything is fine please look at the screen." She just stared at me with tears forming.

"Bella I am scared what if something is wrong and what if we lose the baby?" I put my hands on her cheeks and slowly forced her to look at the screen.

"Rose nothing is wrong look there everything is there. Four of everything and two heartbeats." She smiled when she said that. I was tearing up at the thought of what was found out. Rose still told the doctor they did not want to know what they were having.

"Wait a minute did you just say two heartbeats? We are having twins?" It came out in a slow whisper and I saw tears in her eyes.

We all went silent as Rose just laid there with a huge smile on her face. The doctor wiped her off and slowly pulled her up. The doctor told her that her appointments would be every two weeks now and handed her some more guidelines to follow. She also told her that bed rest might be in the schedule but they would cross that when it was needed. She shook my hand and said it was so nice to finally meet the famous Bella Swan. Rose quickly headed to the bathroom and I heard her moan as she went. She looked relieved when she came out and sat back down on the exam table.

"Rose are you ok, please say something?" I was not sure how she was taking this all in.

"Bella I am perfect and over the moon. Twins can you imagine?" I saw a wave of panic take over the joy on her face.

"How are we going to do this? I was terrified with one baby but now two. Fuck!" I carefully helped on off the table and sat her in the chair. I kneeled down to her and put my hands in hers.

"Rosalie Cullen you listen to me. You and Emmett are going to be the greatest parents to these children. You have all of us to help you both in whatever you need. Now that you are right next door you have built in babysitters, a cook and they will have the best damn wardrobe around." We both started giggling. I calmed her down and I was so happy that she let me be there for this. She put her hand on her stomach and I could see waves flowing over it.

I looked at her and she took my hand from hers and put it on her belly. I could feel small things moving all over the place. I wanted so much to be a mom but Edward and I just found each other. I hoped that one day it would be me going through all of this. I looked into her eyes and we both were tearing up. I handed her a Kleenex and grabbed one for myself. Rose and I were a pair together and I would forever be thankful to be here for this huge event.

We went out to the lobby and she set up her next appointment. We walked slowly to the car and I heard my stomach rumble. Rosalie laughed when she said it was normally her that was hungry all the time. We found a quiet deli and enjoyed a great lunch. She got up to use the bathroom again and when she came back she found me gazing off into space.

"Bella where did you go just now when I came back? Thinking about Edward?" She raised her eyebrows at me.

"I am always thinking about Edward I just don't know if I am ready to go that step. He told me he would wait and take things as slow as I wanted……"I paused taking a drink of my iced tea.

"Bella he loves you believe that. He would give you the moon and the stars if he could. I was a virgin when I started dating Emmett. We were together almost 6 months when he proposed. It was then I finally new that he was not going anywhere. I threw caution to the wind." I knew where this was going and did not want to discuss this out in the open. She knew that so we went to the car to finish the conversation.

"When Emmett and I met I was going to school. I was not going to ruin my education for some guy. Emmett took the time to court me and show me he was not going anywhere. He may be a big doofus but he is a romantic at heart. You know the Cullen's throw a huge New Years Eve party at the office. I don't know if you know this but the top floor is lofts. Each one of the boys has one and so do Esme and Carlisle. They put them in just in case that if they had to stay they would be comfortable. "She tried to get into the drivers seat but the babies had moved so she could not fit under the steering wheel. I just smiled at her as we went around and switched places. She took it all in stride and I was in awe of her beautiful changing body.

"I went with Emmett to the party and we had a wonderful time. Emmett kept watching the clock and when it was nearing midnight he took me out of the party. I was so scared that I thought he was breaking up with me. I was so wrong in so many ways. I admit it I was a little pissy till I saw his loft. It looked out over the city. The lights were so beautiful and he had placed candles every where. There was a huge bed all made up for us and rose petals on the coverlet. He had a bottle of champagne chilling. He popped the cork and poured us each a glass as the clock slowly went to midnight. At the strike of twelve and the moment the fireworks went off I found him on one knee. He pulled out the most beautiful ring and declared he never wanted me to leave his arms again. He told me I completed him and that his life was complete now."

She paused as she noticed the tears streaming down my face. I hoped that one day I would have something like that with Edward. I know we just had found each other but he made me feel alive. She wiped the tears off my face and continued.

"I told him yes and he put the ring on my finger. I knew that moment that I wanted to give my whole self to him and the next morning we both woke up with grins on our faces and nothing else. Ever since that he has rocked my world in more ways than one." We both howled in laughter when she said that.

I started the engine and I knew we had some planning to do. Rose looked at me and just stared.

"Bella take your time to get to know each other it will make it more special." I knew that I wanted to know everything I could about Edward including his body.

"Rose I am just scared I don't know how to do things. I am worried I won't be able to please him." I blushed at the thought of asking the questions that were going through my head at that moment. I knew the exact store we needed to go to. I wanted this to be a surprise for the both of them but after the one we got today this was going to be for Emmett.

"Bella you can ask me anything. You know Emmett and I are like bunnies. I have books, toys, costumes. Please don't be embarrassed to ask ok?"

I felt some slight relief when she said that. I would bring it up at dinner tonight with Alice and her. She turned on some music and we bopped along singing to our hearts content. She was surprised when we pulled up in front of the store.

"Bella I thought you wanted this to be a surprise for Emmett and I?" I had found the perfect baby store for them.

"Alice told me about this place and made an appointment for me. I was hoping I could keep it a surprise but after the shock today I thought why we don't surprise Emmett." I helped her out of the car and we walked in. She was elated to help pick things out but even more happy about surprising Emmett.

I knew what theme I was going to use when I finished the blanket I just needed to run it by Rose. All I knew we were going to need two of everything now. This store had everything earth friendly right down to the bedding and the paint for the walls. Rose's face beamed when she saw these beautiful cribs. They were very simple but beautiful at the same time. They could grow with each child into their teens. I put them on the list we were creating. She picked out several rocking chairs for their living room, bedroom and the babies room.

"Rose I know you both don't want to know what gender the babies are but how about we do a sea theme? I can put things in for both genders and it won't look weird." I saw a huge smile on her face and she loved the ideal.

I ordered the paints I would need and then we went really crazy. She found some adorable stuffed sea creatures. I could put them anywhere for decorations and they were safe for the babies. The bedding she chose was in muted shades of blues, greens, yellows, reds and purples and they were perfect for a boy or girl. We spent hours shopping and I made arrangements for it all to be delivered late that afternoon. They were happy to oblige being the fortune we just spent. We got back to the car and made small talk. We got back to their house and Rose said she was going to lie down. I told her I wanted to start in before everything got here. I asked if she needed anything and she said no. She went off to take her nap and I started drawing around the room.

I heard a knock on the door and let the delivery men in. They put everything down stairs except for the paint. I just started doing what felt right. Using these new eco paints was nice because they did not make me feel high. Angela called to check up on orders and such. I shut the door as I did not want Rose to see things just yet. She was coming out of her bedroom and was hungry. We walked over to the coach house and Angela had dinner waiting for us. She was the best cook and I knew I could see a shop of her own in the future.

We all sat down to eat when Alice flew in to join us. I don't know how she made it from the front door to the table but she did.

"So Bella what do you want to know?" I knew Rose would bring sex up again. I was not sure to be afraid or happy about it.

She explained what we talked about and everyone agreed to help me out of my issues. Alice and Angela were in awe that I really didn't know much about sex.

"Bella I really don't think Edward is going to care how much you know. He loves you and when it happens everything will feel right." Rose took another bite of her salad.

"I just feel so inexperienced when it comes to sex. He has been with someone before and knows what to do and how to please someone me I am a complete failure." I got up sighing.

"Bella this really does bother you doesn't it? Sex is messy, painful at times and one of the best things I have ever done. I know you are scared but that is why we are here to answer any questions you need." Alice got up and put her dishes in the sink.

"I think that is the one thing I am afraid of the most is the pain. Oh and giving him a blow job. My gods the horrors of doing it wrong just kill me now with my fork." I got up and put my dishes in the sink. I heard giggling behind me I can only imagine what they think of me.

I looked around and saw Alice holding some books in her hand. Oh my god she picked up manuals on how to get it on. I felt the blush start from my toes and stop at the top of my head. Angela got up and brought me to the table. I knew this conversation was going to make me blush even more. She laid the books on the table and everyone started flipping through them. I picked one up and found a tutorial on how to give a blow job. My eyes nearly popped out of my head when I saw the pictures. Rosalie saw my response and took the book from me carefully.

"Bella go with your instincts on this. It was awhile before I gave Emmett one and you know what I was just as scared as you looked when I did it. He is going to tell you what feels good and what doesn't. Just remember to watch your teeth and take it slow. If you don't feel comfortable about it then don't to it. Edward is not going to care one way or another."

Rose went on to share the first time she went down on Emmett. She said it was one of the scariest moments in her life but when it was over with Emmett just laid there with a grin on his face and said thank you...thank you very much. I nearly fell of my chair at the thought of them on the bed with him doing and Elvis impersonation. .

Everyone went on to tell me what they liked and didn't like. Rose said that from what Emmett told her about Edward and Sarah's relationship that I would have no problems taking slow small steps. Edward had only been with her and he was just as nervous as I was.

I washed dishes and brought out a small cheesecake for dessert. Rosalie moaned that it was the best damn thing she had all day. Alice asked us how the appointment went and I looked at Rose. I was not sure if she wanted the secret of twins to be known just yet.

"It went fine and nothing is with the babies." Rose got up to put her dessert plate in the sink.

"Did you just say babies? OHMYGODIHAVESOMUCHSHOPPINGTODO!!" Alice nearly came out of her chair with her bouncing.

"Alice calm down we have plenty of time to go shopping. Just don't go over board because we still don't know what we are having." Everyone was screaming for them and the excitement in the room was electric.

Rose and I explained how we had to keep this a secret and Emmett would find out in a couple of days when I showed them the nursery. Rose felt bad not telling Esme and Carlisle but she wanted them to be surprised with everyone else. I finished cleaning up the dishes. Angela said she was going to go try some of the things she saw in one of the sex books on Ben. I blushed at the thought of what they were doing over my beloved kitchen.

Alice excused herself when she saw Jasper calling in on her cell phone. I just whispered phone sex and she grinned at me. I helped Rose get her things together and we walked back over to their house. I had to finish the murals I had started. Everyone would be back a few days before thanksgiving and I wanted everything to be perfect. Rose said she was going to go have a nice bath and then head to bed. I told her I would lock up when I was through. I was happy that we exchanged house keys. I felt more loved and safe with them right next door.

I went back to painting when she said goodnight through the door. I was going to start on the last wall when I felt my cell phone buzz in my pocket. I smiled when I saw who was calling but felt nauseated at the discussion the girls and I had earlier.

"Hello beautiful do you now how much I have missed you?" His voice sent shivers down my spine.

"I can just imagine as much as I have missed you. How are things going?" I put my brushes down and sat on the floor.

"Things are ok despite Emmett being worried about Rosalie. Jasper misses Alice something fierce and mom and dad are enjoying it all. Speaking of Rose how was her doctor's appointment today?"

"You can assure Emmett and everyone else things are fine. I am at their house working on the nursery and Rose went to bed hours ago." I could hear him breathing and it made me wish he was here with me.

"So did you pick a theme for it and do I get to know? Mom mentioned that you were going to have a girl's dinner. How did that go?"

"Edward you will see the nursery with everyone else. As for the dinner…" I bit my lip and didn't know how to bring the whole topic up.

"Bella there is something you are not telling me. Please my love tell me what is bothering you. I can't help if I don't know." He was so endearing and sexy when he cared like that.

"Fine we talked about sex and my inexperience. Alice had books for fucks sake! It was damned embarrassing hearing about everyone's sex life." I blurted it all out and wanted to crawl into a hole and just die. I heard him laughing at me. Damn him and his sexy laugh but I was fucking pissed at him.

"Bella, you know my history and I know yours it does not change anything. I love you my sweet inexperienced angel." Ok he was forgiven for that. I rolled my eyes and kind of growled and I heard him laugh again.

"Bella did you just growl? It was damn sexy I might add." I heard him snicker again. I would have to give into the feelings he was making me feel or I was going to combust into a pile of ashes.

"I might have….shut it Edward." I couldn't hold it back anymore and I started laughing with him. I closed the paint cans and carefully put my brushes in a plastic bag. I did not want to wake Rose up washing them.

"My heart I need to get some sleep we have another early day tomorrow. I love you and we will be home the day before thanksgiving."

My heart beat out of my chest when he called me that. I paused when I came back into the room to make sure things were out of the way.

"I thought you were all coming home in a few days? My heart beat went back to normal hearing that news.

"Well we were supposed to be back but there is another site the client wants to look at. I am sorry to be gone from you for so long. I love you."

"I love you too and make sure Emmett calls Rose ok. Please be safe and tell everyone I said hi."

We both hung up and the pangs of missing him made me feel sick. I closed the door and put the construction tape on it. I thought it was funny and it warned Rose not to look. I quietly went downstairs and locked the door behind me. I had figured out what I wanted to get Rose and Emmett for a house warming present. Rose loved our porch swing so it was a perfect gift for them. I found a company in Seattle that made them and put in an order for a big one. The woman laughed at me when I told her how big Emmett was and how it had to be sturdy to hold them all.

Alice was asleep when I got home and I turned off the lights she left on for me. I went up to my room and noticed on my bed were those damn books. Alice left a note on what pages to read. I loved her dearly but I was still scared. I put the books on my desk and went to get ready for bed. I saw that I had a message on my cell phone and saw it was Esme's number. She was so sweet to say that they were going to be late and could I help with Rosalie with thanksgiving dinner. I sent a text to Edward telling him to let him mom know everything is ok and under control. He sent me a text back…

Bella

I told her not to worry that you would make sure things would be

taken care of. Sweet dreams and I miss you.

Love, E

I missed him with all my heart and I never thought I would feel like this about someone in all my life. We had not even been on an official date yet but we have spent so much time together it was like we had. After hearing from him via text I couldn't sleep so I decided to finish the other blanket I started. I finished off the rows. Going to the vendor show in Seattle was the highlight of that fucking nightmare I made. Other than realizing I couldn't live without Edward in my life. I found the perfect color of yarn for everyone. I had so much time by myself after going to classes and seminars that I had finished a scarf for everyone on my list for Christmas. The quilt I had finished was folded up and in my closet. Thank goodness I had enough fabric to do another one. Who would have thought they would have twins. I just hoped I had enough time to finish it.

I found Alice a beautiful charm bracelet and added some charms to it. I noticed that she loved the one Carlisle got for Esme for their anniversary so I knew it was perfect when I saw it. I picked out her and Jasper's initials, a car, a shopping bag, a drink glass and many others. I had not shopped for anyone else because at that point I was not sure what to get anyone.

My mind was racing with all the things that had to be done. Shopping, cooking, work and making sure Rose was not over doing it. I crawled under my covers and turned my iPod on. I fell asleep with Edward on my mind and my lips.