huge enormous warning!
This chapter contains self harm / suicide attempt, therefore quite a bit of blood and graphic descriptions.
You have been warned so please don't yell at me.
Liljo
(52) Silver slits of agony
Lying back on the grass Jamie felt a rush of guilt and an agonizing rush of pain he felt like someone was stabbing him in the chest he felt his cheeks dampen and when he reached up to wipe them her realized they were tears, he was crying.
"I'm sorry" Kaiya whispered "it was a mistake, it shouldn't of happened" as she stood and gathered her clothes
"Kaiya wait" Jamie called after her
"I can find my own way home" Kaiya answered quietly feeling ashamed
Kerri didn't know how she ended up at home but she did, the ache in her chest burned her, gathering a few items of Jamie she put them on the balcony and returned to her room and locked the French doors.
Stepping into the shower with a small wash bag Kerri turned the water to hot and allowed the heat and water to hide her tears and her racking sobs, opening the small bag Kerri lifted out the small knife by its wooden handle and brought it to her thigh, cutting small thin lines, hissing as the silver burned as it cut, preventing her body from healing the wound instantly.
His legs burned, he could feel blood running down his thighs and it made him almost cry out as another wound cut itself into his leg, burning him wishing his invisible tormentor dead.
Watching the blood run and mix with the water calmed Kerri, the thick dark red rivulets of blood thinning and turning pink as the water washed them away.
Fighting her wolven instincts to survive Kerri pulled the knife across her wrists, alarmed to find she couldn't cut deep enough to end her life, her instincts were in control. Feeling frustrated she tried to drive the blade vertically into her wrist only to have the blade buckle and bend and only just break the skin and leave an angry burn. Letting out a growl Kerri continued to cut shallow lines all over her body adding to the pale pink waters turning them darker with every cut.
"What's the hurry Cait? Why'd we have to leave?" Spencer asked as he jogged alongside Caitlyn
"Kerri left without saying goodbye and she's closed herself off, I can't get her privately" Caitlyn said panic lacing her voice
"Maybe her and Jamie are busy and don't want us interrupting" Spencer reasoned
"Kerri never closes me out completely, never, something is wrong Spencer" Caitlyn argued lifting her dress slightly to make jogging up the hill to the manor easier.
Stepping into the house Spencer's heart sunk, the smell of blood and the sound of the shower meant only one thing, Kerri was cutting again. Kerri didn't cut for attention she cut to find relief occasionally, but if she'd closed off her mental pathways, she was cutting to kill.
Leaping up the stairs 3 at a time ahead of Caitlyn, Spencer was shocked to find Kerri's doors unlocked. Reaching into the shower cubicle to turn off the water Spencer's heart ached to see the state of Kerri's body, passed out from the loss of the blood, her body trying to fight the silver burned into each laceration. Lifting her out of the shower cubicle and laying her on a towel laid out by Caitlyn, Spencer tried to determine the worst of the cuts.
Jamie was in agony tiny cuts covered his body, deep ones appeared and healed almost as quick but the pain of each cut lingered, fighting the pain he pushed his way through the woods towards the manor, it felt he'd walked miles but in reality he knew it was only a short distance, the guilt of his earlier actions weighing him down, playing through his mind.
"Come on Kerri, fight." Caitlyn begged as she slipped out of her dress and sat beside Kerri in only her underwear, Spencer's scent of arousal at the sight making her dizzy "now is not the time Spencer,"
"You don't think I don't know that!" Spencer snapped back eyes flashing golden, his hands working quickly to wash the wounds with surgical spirit cleansing them of the harmful silver giving them a chance to heal, the deeper ones being difficult the silver infecting the blood and the surgical spirit doing little the rinse it out.
"What set her off tonight? Tonight of all nights?" Spencer asked as he continued working pouring large amounts or surgical spirit into the larger wounds and flushing it out with clean water, actions that had she been conscious would have Kerri screaming.
"I don't know but if she doesn't start fighting there's nothing we can do, there's too many cuts, too much silver" Caitlyn sobbed
Following the blood trail through the forest Matt and Vivian stumbled across Jamie shaking and whimpering in a ball.
"What happened Jamie?" Viv asked quietly, bending down to examine the cuts and scrapes across Jamie's body
"I don't know, I was walking back to the house to get ready for prom and it started it hurts and burns even ones that have healed" Jamie said quietly hoping the scent of blood that coated him would mask the musk of sex and the lingering scent of Kaiya on his skin. He never felt as shitty as he did right now not since the day Selena died.
Swooping down to pick up Jamie, Matt felt Jamie's body tense; shrugging Matt put it down to pain. But Viv picked up on it too and a woman's instinct told her it was more than simply pain.
Finally Kerri's body was winning the battle against the silver, and many of the superficial wounds had healed but there were still deep cuts on her wrists and thighs. She was slowly starting to wake up, her quiet moans of pain were only the start of the agony Caitlyn knew Kerri would feel, once she was awake properly, Spencer's ministrations would bring screams and whatever emotional pain had caused Kerri to cut would re-surface and need to be dealt with.
Dancing quietly to the last song of the night Luke and Sophia savoured the peace and quiet, not knowing it was about to be shattered when they got home
