CHAPTER 54:

That night, AJ and Roman were sitting up next to each other in bed watching their TV. Both had a long day. "I'm so glad that you're aright baby" said Roman as he wrapped his arm around her waist. "Me too" said AJ as she tilted her glasses. "I was really scared." "Well at least it's all over right?" asked Roman. "Yeah" said AJ. "So since I'm ok and everything I was wondering if we could maybe…have a little fun tonight?"

"Oh honey…you know I really want to but I'm-"

"But you're what?" asked AJ. "Tired" said Roman. "Joe are you serious right now?" said AJ. "April…" said Roman. AJ scoffed. "Never mind Joe just forget it." She removed her glasses and placed them on her nightstand as she turned over.

"April…you're really that upset?" said Roman. "Why no Leati I'm not upset at all" AJ said sarcastically. "So why are you being sarcastic for?" asked Roman. "I am not being sarcastic" said AJ. "Oh come on AJ you know how tired we get from work" said Roman. "You've been tired before too-plenty of times at and I never got mad at you." "I am not mad at you" said AJ. "I just…miss my husband sometimes that's all." Roman sighed.

"AJ…" he said. "Joe I'm going to sleep" said AJ. "I'm done talking to you tonight." "So what we're not going to talk about this?" asked Roman. AJ didn't answer. "But baby I didn't do anything to you" said Roman. "Goodnight Leati" said AJ. "You really cannot be that serious can you?" asked Roman. "Goodnight Leati" AJ said angrily. Roman sighed again as he picked up the remote to change the channel. "I cannot believe she's being so childish about this" he thought. "There's simply no reason for this at all." "I cannot believe that he's doing this to me" AJ thought.

Meanwhile, John was placing Johnnie into his crib beside his bed. He was extremely fussy given that he was really tired. "I know little guy" John said softly. "I know. Shh. You've gotta get some sleep. I know." Johnnie kept crying as John kept trying to soothe him. "Here let me hold him" Nikki said softly as she entered into the room. When John looked up at her, he was stunned in his tracks. This was because Nikki was wearing nothing but one of his long black and yellow t-shirts that had his slogan across it. The shirt barely covered her upper thighs as she walked over and her small baby bump wasn't helping either on top of the curves she still had from having Johnnie.

John watched as his former fiancée bent over to pick up their crying 17-month-old son. As she did, her navy blue panties were showing as well as her tight ass cheeks. "Damn…" John thought. "My God Nicole you are so beautiful." Nikki finally had their son in their arms as he was still crying. "I could take him into the other room if you want" she said. "Um…um yeah…sure" John stumbled on his words. "John…are you alright?" asked Nikki. "Yeah…yeah…Nicole" John said. Nikki cocked an eyebrow at John because she wasn't so sure if she should believe him or not but for now she was tired since it was already after 9 at night and she just wanted to go to sleep.

"Isn't he heavy?" John asked. "I mean…you shouldn't be carrying him while you're pregnant." Nikki smiled. "Don't worry" said she said. "Before I found out I was pregnant with him I was still lifting 100lbs plus and he turned out just fine." "You…you're not still doing that?" asked John. "Lifting weights." "No silly" said Nikki. "I still exercise yes, but not as crazy as I used to." With that Nikki turned around and began walking down the hallway, but John wanted to follow her. Nikki made her way into room and gently laid down Johnnie. He was still crying as she tried to soothe him with a pacifier. "Shh my sweet little baby" she said softly. "Mommy's here now and she isn't going anywhere ok? What's wrong with my sweet little boy?" She gently placed her hand on his stomach as she rubbed it. With her free hand, she gently rubbed his head as she kissed his forehead and after a while, he began to calm down.

"There my sweet Johnathan" Nikki said softly. "Feeling better?" Johnnie nodded as he closed his eyes and finally started going off to sleep. Nikki kissed his forehead head. "Goodnight my little baby. Mommy and daddy loves you." John quietly stood at the doorway watching this. "I'm…I'm sorry that I didn't have anything else for you to wear" he said as he walked in.

"Nonsense John" said Nikki as she rolled over and sat up. "You did your best and I thank you for that." "No I really didn't but uh…ha-ha thank you" John thought as he sheepishly smiled. "Is he alright now?" he asked. "Yes John. Our son is alright now" said Nikki. "I don't think he has a fever. I just think that he is tired that's all." John walked over and sat on the edge of the bed and as he did, he took noticed of Nikki's carefully orange painted nails which had smiley faces on them in white.

He missed seeing those toes…in fact he missed Nikki period, terribly at that and it was beginning to cause him to be miserably. Sure he was able to hide it from everyone else and even sometimes from himself but that was something that no one could ever keep up with forever. What he didn't know was that the feeling was starting to become mutual.

"I'm just so glad to be…seeing you here again" he said. More rather he blurted out. Nikki's eyes opened in surprise. She knew just by way of his tone exactly what he meant by that. She has known him for the past 4 years. Of course she had known. She had to. Surely he didn't know that she was married since she was now being more careful to make sure that people wouldn't find out by way of looking at her hand and he definitely did not know about all the abuse that she was suffering from Randy.

"John…is everything ok?" she asked. "Yeah" John quickly sobered up. "I'm just glad to see you that's all." Nikki partially nodded as she continued looking at him. "Maybe you should get some sleep" said John. "I know that you missed your flight out tonight, but maybe we can see about doing something about that. He got up from her bed. "Goodnight Nicole" he said. "Goodnight John" Nikki said sadly.

She watched as he turned off the lights and left the door open. She knew that deep in her heart what was happening to her and this time that she wasn't going to fight it anymore because she was tired of running from it. She slowly laid down and checked their son who was still fast asleep. He was completely innocent as to what was really going on in his mother's life which of course was a good thing because what Nikki was going through was something she would never want him to know about.

She continued watching Johnnie's slumber and it was at that moment where she had finally had time to reflect on the last 15 months since she officially left John. Sure there was some mistakes made. A lot of them. And sure that meant she's going to make a whole lot more in her life since she was human just like everyone else but even if she still had feeling these feelings for John, there wasn't anything she could do about it... not as long as she was still tied to Randy.

She could try to leave him…but now that she was pregnant, she couldn't risk fleeing from him. Yes she was still badly hurting over loosing Seth but not as much as she was hurting from Randy. She couldn't just up and go and endanger to lives of her and her unborn son. At least not without a plan. The good thing about this day, besides the health of her and her baby was that she had finally realized that she wasn't confused anymore. That she knew what she wanted. Nikki thought back to the day when Seth had left her. She remembered how he had told her that she had to make a choice between him and Randy. Well she just did make that choice and that choice was John.

A/N: Trouble in paradise? But anyways aww so there was some feelings still there between Nikki and John. The love between soul mates never truly dies :-) Also thanks for your reviews and the results of the poll is here and it's completely tied :-)