So you requested some more with the whole Fray-Fi thing and this was what I could come up with... :)
And also, this is chapter 50! Yay for me, that is kind of awesome that I have made it so far, don't you think? I have been written on this for one year and two days xD
I have during the past weeks got some new readers, that is really nice :) Hello to you all awesome people! ^^
Fray.
"The proposal your father did was the cutest thing i ever seen! Fi sparkled with her eyes where we sat in the cafeteria; in fact she hadn't really stopped talking about it since it happened last week. Girls…
"I know. I can't believe that they are about to marry and have another kid!" I said.
"What is the matter? You say that you are thrilled about this… but you don't sound so happy." She looked at me with concerned eyes. We have been dating for little over three months now… and somehow she reads me like a fucking book. She is right, I'm trying to be thrilled but I can't help but to think that nothing will ever be the same. And sometimes I want it to be the same… seven months ago I had never met my father, my uncles or the other ones I now see as my family. Before that the only one I knew was my mother and now she belongs to so many more. Someone else…
"Fray?" I must have drifted away and I realized that I hadn't answered yet.
"Yeah… no I'm fine. It is just. All the sudden everything changes. And I'm the only one who doesn't…"
"Even if everything is changing you still got me! I love you Fray!"
"I love you Fi." I told her and gave her a kiss, when we broke apart I saw one of the jocks walking toward us with something in his hand.
"Fi I thought you needed to remember this!" he smirked evil and threw pictures in her face.
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed
Her faces was burning red as I picked up one of the photos, she was lying in her undies posing for the camera. Fi tried to get as many as the pictures she could but I didn't care, I had seen enough.
"And I actually thought you were different." Was all I said before I left her to her shame?
"Fray…" she called after me but I didn't turn over to look at her.
Fi.
As he walked away the memories came back to me…
*Flashback*
"Come on guys I wanna dance!"
"Fi you are so drunk!" Freddie giggled from the sofa.
We were at a party with kids from school; I had managed to get the guys there, since I was slightly more popular than they. The guys were not enjoying themselves, but I was I had been drinking and dancing like mad, but they didn't want to join me on the floor again. I sat on the floor giving them the puppy eyes mixed with the evil eye with a cup of cider in my hand.
"FI WATCH THE CUP!" Jacob screamed as I almost poured the alcohol all over the floor.
"Chill out man!"
"So I heard you wanted to dance?" Theodore one of the jocks came up to me and offered me his hand. Eeeiiik I screamed inside…. He is fucking hot! He helped me stand up and he dragged me close and we danced together for a while. The only thing bothering me was the fact that the world was spinning…
"Want a drink?" he screamed in my ear and I nodded. He came back with two cup and a smirk on his face; he gave me one and drank the other. I poured the drink down my throat and soon we were dancing again.
"I'm tired!" I said with a hand on my forehead.
"Wanna go and rest for a while in the bedroom?" he asked and silly I followed him.
"Give me a kiss?" all the sudden I was number than before and the room was spinning even faster, in fact I couldn't control my own body. Theodore pushed me down on to the bed as he stole a kiss from me. He tore my clothes off my body and then he picked up a camera and his phone.
"I got one! Come on!" he laughed in the phone and soon two other jocks from school entered the room. They took photos of me lying in my undies, and then they started to strip me down, insulting me with their dicks. One pushed his thing into my mouth.
"Get off her for fucks sake!" someone yelled, I was barely awake at this point, but I heard the sound of a fight. A little while later someone covered me up and lifted me out of there…" *End of flashback*
"It was time for you to remember. Slut!" Theodore hissed in my face as I tried to stand up and get out of the school blinded by the tears in my eyes.
As I ran I once again was hit by a flashback, the word slut had brought it to me.
*Insert awesome flashback sound*
"Look at the little slut!" the pictures where everywhere and everyone knew, the guys Linus, Freddie and Jacob had saved me that night had grabbed the camera and we had threw it away into a lake… but the fucking jocks had taken pictures with their phones. The only ones still standing at my side was my saviors, and I was so grateful I couldn't put words on it.
Bitch.
Slut.
Whore.
Hussy.
Skank.
It was everywhere, the names and the photos. And I let it get me… I sat in the toilet with a razor I had carried with me since the party. I cut in the names into my upper arm, the blood rushed out over my arm but I didn't care. It was a part of me now…
*flashback ends with tears*
Once outside I bumped into Fray who for some reason stood there smoking a cigarette, I had never seen him do that before and I was stunned by him. My fingers stroke over my arm, over the scars underneath the t-shirt. I always hid it from everyone that way…
"Fi…" he whispered when he saw my face.
"Fray… I…I…" I didn't manage to say anything else.
"Why? What?" was all he said as he stared at me, and I threw myself in his arms, I needed one more hug before he left. I was sure that he was going to leave me to the hell again.
"Fray… everyone has luggage, everyone has scars…" I mumbled as he gentle pushed me away from him. "You don't have to listen to what I have to say." I cried. "But it isn't the way you think…!" I slowly lifted up my short sleeve and let his fingers stroke the words I had carved into my skin.
"I want to hear!" he mumbled as I tried to pull myself together. And I told him, I told him about what happened that night and I told him about my way through hell and back to heaven. I told him how he brought me heaven with his love.
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