Girl Behind The Red Door Confessions

Chapter 54

Help I have done it again.

I have been here many times before.

And the worst part is there is no one else to blame.

Be my friend

Hold me. Wrap me up.

Breathe Me.

Ouch I have

Lost myself again.

Chuck wiped his eyes. His chest burning. The hate he had for his father. Was at his core. Then the loss of understanding when it came to his mother continued to haunt him. He was wrong I knew that. But I couldn't let his words go. They clung to me like a nightmare I couldn't outrun.

Looking at the bottle sitting on the table. Picking it up. Holding it in my hands turning the cap opening it. Breathing in the scent that came from the freshly opened bottle. Turning my face in the smell filling my nose. With very vivid memory. Getting up pouring the dark liquid down the drain.

Throwing out the bottle. Washing his hands then leaving out the door.

Once inside the car. He drove until he reached his destination.

Knocking on the door quickly. The door opening slowly. As he looked up at the other person on the other side of the door.

"I'm not coming in I just need to say this." "I've never been able to wrap my mind over the fact that you could stand there and watch or listen knowing that he was beating me. Only stopping when he got tired. It never mattered to you how bloody or bruised he made you."

"You just kept forgiving him." "And I used to feel so sad for you." "Trying to save us both." "Having to watch my friends have parents who wanted to be around. Tucking them in a night, making them feel loved and understood." "You were fine without me after dad got arrested it was like both your problems were solved."

"Why was I so impossible to love.?" Chuck asked. Pausing as he continued. "I'm done waiting for you." "I'm moving on leaving all of this pain and misery here." "Don't you or him contact him or show up in my house or around anyone I love." "If you do I will call the police." "And be sure neither of you see the light of day again." Chuck said. Getting back in his car. As he drove away.

The Cabin

The fireplace brought a lot of light to the already bright living room.

"This place hasn't changed at all." "Which is the most comforting part of it." "We've shared so many memories here." "Out of the changes we've all went through our friendships and sense of family with each other hasn't changed." "And we can all take a real comfort in that." "The lives and families we've built mean so much more." "Knowing we have this beautiful home away from home to come back to remind us what's really important." "Which is love, friendship, and family." Lucas said. Lifting his glass. While everyone else lifted theirs as well. The glasses clinking. Smiles and conversations continuing throughout the dinner.

It lasting a couple of hours. Afterwards the friends met back in the living and began to share their favorite moments.

"When Nathan proposed me to me again." Haley said. Looking over at Nathan. While he leaned over kissing her.

"The two of you still give me hope." Brooke said. Looking to them.

"My favorite memory was Lucas and I writing letters back and forth to each other." Brooke said. Looking to him.

"My favorite part was all the quality time we got to spend together." Lucas said.

The rest of the friends shared their memories. Which brought laughter and smiles.

"I never saw Pete again." Peyton said. Looking to Jake.

He laughed. Leaning over as he kissed her.

Chuck/Sam

"I can't believe he said all of that stuff." "I honestly think he was just trying to get to you because he knew that he has no power over you anymore." "You are a much better man than he could ever attempt to be." "He hates himself and has no other choice but to try and take It out on you." "Which is really upsetting but I'm proud you didn't give in to him." "Between all of our parental baggage we should be absolute disasters." "Instead we're rising above it all." Sam said. Looking into his eyes.

"I'm proud of us." "I want to be with you." "But I don't know what I could give you and I don't want you to be hurt because of who I used to." "I'm trying to be better the kind of man you deserve." Chuck said. Looking back at her.

"I have a past to Chuck." "Full of twists, turns and mistakes." "I'm learning about myself every day and I'm enjoying learning about you the more time we spend together the more I see the fact that you let none of it define you." "And that pushes me to keep progressing to become a woman I could be proud of." "I want you too." "The two of finding a way to build something real between us will take time and won't be easy." "We're in this together." "I'm falling for you more and more." "My heart is open and the most personal part of myself that I could share with anyone." "And it's yours." Sam said to him.

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