Disclaimer - The characters of this fanfiction, as well as the 'Sons of Anarchy' world belong to Kurt Sutter, with the exception of Boo Trager, who is an original character created by me. I make no profit from this work.
A request.
How the story would have played out, had Chibs died as a result of the explosion at Teller-Morrow.
No – Chibs is killed
"Boo…"
Just one look at Tara tells the brunette all she needs to know. Chibs didn't survive the car bomb at Teller-Morrow. He's… Boo can't even think the word.
"I'm really sorry Boo."
Boo turns away from Tara and huddles under her blanket, shakes her head furiously back and forth.
"No!" she shrieks, tears streaming thick and fast down her cheeks. "No, no, no, no!" with each cry of 'no' her voice becomes higher, tighter, more wrought with emotion.
"Boo, I know you don't want to hear this."
Tara's crying herself, Boo can tell from the sound of her voice.
"No!" she shrieks. "I don't want to hear it, no!"
It's as if not hearing about what happened to Chibs will make it not true.
"Chibs didn't make it Boo, I'm sorry. The damage to his head was too severe."
Tara talks quickly, as if afraid Boo will interrupt her but she doesn't. To Boo Tara's words ring loud, clear and far too slow in her mind.
"He can't be!" Boo wept, still shaking her head. "We were going to have a baby and be a family… he can't be dead, he just can't be!"
Still she is refusing to look at Tara. Her eyes are on Chibs' cross, which the doctor gave to her in the ambulance. She clutches it tight, kisses it, wishes it were Chibs.
"He is Boo. I'm so sorry."
"Please Tara… you must have made a mistake! Check again please! Maybe his heart is still beating!" Boo pleads. She's looking at Tara now, sitting up and facing her but all she sees is a blur of colour.
"It's not Boo; we tried everything to keep him alive."
"Well you didn't try hard enough did you?" Boo barks, her words harsh and angry, yet still so full of sorrow.
"There's something else."
Boo stops her raging then, wipes her eyes, takes a few deep, calming breathes.
"You're pregnant Boo."
How the story would have played out, had I killed Chibs off after the explosion.
Obviously, I would not have given Boo a miscarriage if I killed off Chibs.
Boo, like in the main story, would have gone to Tig's after everything that happens at the hospital. He knows Chibs is dead but when he finds out Boo is pregnant too, he doesn't even know what to say or do. He just holds Boo and lets her weep.
When Tig and the others are taken to Stockton, Opie and Gemma go to Tig's to get Boo. She's just huddled in Tig's bed weeping, she hasn't eaten or done anything over the course of the day.
They take her to the clubhouse and put her into Chibs' old dorm. Gemma manages to get her to eat – for the sake of the baby – and wash, but that's about it. She's just a zombie really, unable to do anything, consumed by her grief.
When the others get out of Stockton, a funeral is held for Chibs. Boo goes and sees his body before hand and pins her Luckenbooth broach to his cut so that he can take a piece of her with him. She keeps ahold of his cross and just clings to his cold hand, occasionally kissing it. She strokes his hair and neatens it, runs her fingers over his scars and gets one final, last look at him. Before she leaves she puts his hand to her stomach and tells him she's pregnant and that she's going to try her best to move on from his death for their baby. She tells him she will never forget him and that she will always love him.
Fiona and Kerrianne show up for Filip's funeral and although Boo wants to kick Fiona out, she wants Kerrianne to stay because she knows that's what Filip would have wanted, so she allows them both to stay.
Boo is a mess during the funeral, she clings to Chibs' cross and holds her hand over her stomach and isn't really aware of much at all but her grief and Chibs' coffin.
After the service Boo is surprised to see Fiona and Kerrianne at the clubhouse. Fiona has been talking with Clay about Jimmy and the fact that they want to escape him. A call to the IRA confirms that Jimmy has become a liability and that he needs to be taken out.
Fiona knows who Boo is and that she's pregnant, but she doesn't talk to her. Kerrianne does though and she gets Boo talking about her father, about the good times, when he was happy… this really helps Boo to get past her grief somewhat.
Jimmy is soon killed by the club and they manage to pin the whole thing on the Haynes family, taking out both threats for the IRA. They are rewarded with an increased gun supply.
Fiona and Kerrianne return to Ireland once it is safe. Kerrianne promises to keep in touch with Boo, wants to get to know her sibling when it arrives.
Boo is still grieving and pretty much just going through the motions with life. Eats as much as she needs to, doesn't go out, writes but all her stories become tragedies. She knows she has to pull herself together for the babies sake but she can't.
When the others return to jail – without the benefit of a deal from Stahl – they are sentenced to five years. Boo is going to have to have her baby without Tig's support and this terrifies her.
She starts going to Chibs' grave almost every day. She keeps him updated about the baby and herself, but mostly just sits there with her hand on the ground, wishing he was with her.
She eventually gives birth to a little boy. She names him Finley, a name she knows Chibs wanted for their little boy.
She decides she has to get away from the club. She doesn't want her boy to grow up to be a son and get taken out the way his father was. She returns to England without warning and only retains contact with Tig.
Finley is the spitting image of his father but Boo is able to focus on raising him and bringing him up to be someone Chibs would be proud to call his son. She tells Finley of his father often.
Tig gets out of jail when Finley is 4 and immediately heads to England once his parole is over. He understands why Boo had to leave Charming and the club behind and gets to know his grandson. He promises to make regular visits – a promise that he keeps.
Boo never marries and never really moves on from Chibs' death. She thinks about him every day and the few men she does date are very similar to him. When she too, eventually dies – when Finley is 57, an army medic, married with children of his own, including a son named Filip - she dies clutching Chibs' cross between her fingers. His name is the last thing she ever says.
So if Chibs had died, that's how things would have gone for Boo. What did you think?
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