'Where did Dr Shepherd go?' Derek signed of two patients charts off.

'She was talking to Dr Sloane earlier. I'm not sure where she went,'

'Will you page her and tell her I'm looking for her,' Derek put the charts away and went ot check on Burke.

'How's it looking?'

'There doesn't seem to be any nerve damage but I'm not sure. I'll need to do some confirmatory tests but it looks like a superficial burn,' Mark lifted the pads away from Burkes arms.

'Ill get him down to OR one, replace the skin that's gone,'

'How long do you think it will be until he gets back to surgery?'

'At least a month before I'd even look at him for consulting, never mind surgery,'

'That bad?'

'He's going to need therapy to have full movement back in his arm. It hasn't effected any nerves but it has effected the skin which in turn has effected the muscle movement, restraining it,'

'He'll be ok. How longs he been sedated for?'

'About two hours. He'd be unconscious from the pain anyway,'

'I need to go and check on Meredith,'

'I told her to leave the OR as soon as I realised it was Mycosis parodectrin. I wouldn't of had her anywhere near the patient,'

'It's ok. She was the one that got the trauma page' Derek headed down to Maternity to see Meredith sitting on a gurney in the middle of the hall.

'Hey, what did Addison say?'

'I got the all clear but she put me on a banana bag and I'm not on call tonight,'

'Why don't you finish early and go home with Natalie,'

'No I'm ok. Why did you phone Addison and ask her to find out If I was ok?'

'I was worried about you. You seemed different, like something was bothering you,'

'Derek, if something was I would say something. I may be pregnant and slightly sensitive but if something was seriously bothering me you would know about it,'

'You seem to not want to talk anymore,'

'For god sake maybe there is nothing to discuss and maybe if there was I wouldn't want to talk about it,' Meredith slid down of the gurney, un hooking the banana bag as she went.

'I just, I need time, time and space,' Meredith closed off the IV on her arm and left Derek sitting on the gurney his head in his hands. Meredith climbed the stairs to the roof, knowing she would get the space she needed. Walking to the edge she looked over, watching as the tiny figures came and went from the hospital. She envied them. They didn't have so many people's lives in their hands like doctors did. Sometimes she wished, she just had no worries, cares or any responsibilities.

'What are you doing?' Derek's head shot up but fell again instantly.

'Let me guess. Meredith's just said she needed time and space?'

'How did you?'

'Derek, I work with pregnant women before, during and after birth. She's going through a massive change right now and needs you to be supportive and understanding. One tip. If you two are having a fight and she asks you to leave, don't leave, even if she starts throwing stuff you don't leave,'

'Addison, she's just clammed up on me and told me that she doesn't want to talk to me,'

'Yeah and I told Mark while I was pregnant that I was leaving him about four times and every time he said yeah fine whatever, left me alone for an hour and later on that night we were curled up on the couch, a litre of ice cream beside us,'

'I just don't know what to do anymore,'

'Give her what she wants. Let her know that you don't have to talk if she doesn't want to but that your there for her no matter what,'

'Why do you always have the right advice for people?'

'Because, I am wonder woman. Go operate on some one, take your mind off it. If she starts looking for you, I'll page you,' Derek left Addison and went over to the OR. Mark was operating on Burke, Valentine having a surgery in OR two. Derek pushed the door to the empty OR open and stood, the lights out. It was silent, no noise, no machines, no patient, no code blues, nothing but silence. Derek savoured it, silence never coming that often. This had been the hardest of the two pregnancies, the fear of losing the baby greater than before. Meredith had been a wreck for weeks after the accident, almost going into auto pilot, no emotions being allowed through.

'Mere, you need to eat something. You've not eaten in fourteen hours,'

'I'm not hungry,'

'Meredith, eat, now,'

'No,' Meredith pushed the plate away from her.

'I don't want to eat, I'm not hungry,'

'You haven't been hungry for days,' Derek leaned down on the kitchen counter, trying to hold his temper. He couldn't stand her like this. Everyone had tried to make her talk, make her eat, even sleep.

'I don't want to eat,' Derek slammed his fist of the counter, causing Meredith to jump.

'For god sake, it wasn't your fault, stop punishing yourself. It was an accident, and accident that shouldn't of happened but it did,'

'I was the one in the car, I was the one in the crash,'

'But your not the only one hurting Meredith, your not the only one,' Derek looked at her before walking out, escaping from the fight he knew would happen. Meredith sat, the tears silently falling. She picked the toast up off the plate, taking a small bite she put it back down again. It was a small bite but I was a step. He had finally gotten through to her. She wasn't the only one hurting and yet she was the only one who had stopped working and fallen apart.

'You shouldn't be in here without a scrub cap on,' Derek was brought out of his dream by the sound of the Nazi's softer side.

'What you thinking about?'

'Meredith after the accident…how she just shut down,'

'Derek, you need to understand where she was then to understand her now. She had lost a baby and I know you had too, but it's worse for her. The baby wasn't inside you, it wasn't attached to you. Now she feels like all anyone cares about is wither or not the baby is ok, never mind her. I heard about the acid thing this morning. I bet everyone told her to go and see Addison to make sure that the baby was ok but nobody stopped to ask her if she was ok, if she had been burned. Just remember something Derek; she's one person, separate from the baby so treat her like one. Send her away shopping for a day or something like that. Spoil the poor girl,'

'I never understood why they called you the Nazi. You are actually kind,'

'You tell anyone I even sounded soft, I will not only deny it, but personally kill you. Go and give her what she wants but treat her like she's the most treasured jewel on the planet.' Derek smiled as Bailey left him standing in the OR. She was the most treasured jewel on the planet, and he was determined more than ever to show her that she was.