I woke up because I had to pee. It was completely dark outside but it was around 5 in the morning. My head hurt only a little; it was bearable. I nudged Jake so that he would let his grip go. He did so with a small groan and I slid out of bed quietly. After I went to the bathroom I washed my hands and just stared at myself in the mirror for a while. I looked drained and pale. I washed my face hoping that would make me feel better. It only did a little. Then I brushed my teeth and headed back down the hallway to the bedroom. It was really early and I could get a few more hours of sleep before I really had to wake up. When I entered the room, Jake had the small lamp on from his bedside table. He was looking at his phone with an odd look.

"What is it Baby?" I asked.

"Umm… Billy texted me that he went over Nicole's house last night and talked to your dad; that Nicole asked everyone to come over."

"Oh… I know," I mumbled. "I kinda forgot to tell you. Well, Nicole told me then my mom called… and that's when you came in the room."

"Oh."

"Nicole told me that our parents had a good talk and that they hugged each other and even cried."

"Well, Billy didn't admit to crying in his text. But he said that he thinks things will be better for all of us."

"I'm so glad that Nicole got everyone together. She can be pushy… but I guess this time it was in our favor."

"Well I'm thankful for that."

I sat down on the bed on Jake's side. He placed his phone back on the night stand and gave me an affectionate look.

"Ya know my whole family probably knows about Leah now." I sighed. "I really don't wanna think about her now. Nicole did ask my parents to let me talk to them when I'm ready. I'm too stressed out to talk about it now."

"Well… that's good. I'm sure they will be more understanding now."

"Yeah," I sighed. "I hope so."

I slid back under the covers and leaned into Jake to kiss him. "Things will be better," I breathed. Jake nodded his head yes and wove his fingers in my hair and deepened the kiss. My breathing hitched and he made a small groan. I brought my hand to his dick and softly caressed it. I rested my head on his chest as I continued to stroke him. I knew he caved into me last night and made love to me… but I didn't want to push my luck. My doctor did tell me that sex helps with blood pressure. Jake softly moaned as I gently slid my hand up and down on him.

"Would it be too much if I asked my husband to make love to me really slow and sweet? Ya know the doctor did say that it helps with high blood pressure."

"Ness… I remember her saying that too."

"And I'm perfectly fine from last night… so…"

"You want me to make love to you?"

"Possibly?" I said smiling.

Jake softy chuckled and placed my body in a position that I would be comfortable in. He slowly made love to me as I requested. It actually helped with my headache because minutes later it was completely gone. We both made a deep sigh after we came down from our orgasmic highs. I didn't say a word and just listened to his heartbeat. I was wondering what he was thinking but didn't bother to interrupt our peaceful moment. Moments later I drifted off to sleep and managed not to have any nightmares about Leah or John.

Later on that morning we both woke up refreshed. I made a few quick texts to my girlfriends about the divorce and how my parents are being civil now. I hope they understand that I don't really feel like talking about it now. I told them that I was ok. Ok as I can be I guess. Jake cooked breakfast and we both relaxed on the sofa after we ate. He pulled the Indian blanket over us and we just lay there without the TV on. I could hear a few birds singing in the trees and the cold wind swirling around the house. But I felt warm as ever in my Jake's arms. I wanted to thank Nicole in person for being the mediator that she is. It would be nice if everyone could come here for dinner. I wasn't sure if Jacob was up for all of that company tonight. It would be nice if Billy and my parents could come over too if there wasn't going to be any drama. Well... I don't know how that would work. In a perfect world they would come over and have dinner with us and things would seem normal. Oh… and they would decide to get married again. Wow… my parents are not married anymore. I started to feel tears well up in my eyes and I pressed my face into Jake's shirt so that it would soak them up. I didn't feel like crying now. Well, I felt like crying… but I didn't want to. Once I knew that my voice wouldn't sound funny like I wanted to cry, I decided to ask Jake about having dinner tonight.

"Baby, Um… I would like to have dinner tonight for Nicole and Em... and possibly our parents."

"Are you sure that you're up for all of that. You should be taking it easy."

"I know. I just wanna thank Nicole and I guess have a fresh start with my parents."

"I know your parents are talking now. But Honey… there may be tension that they don't even wanna face right now. I know your intentions are good Ness. But give it some time… like a few weeks."

I deeply sighed.

"Well… ok," I breathed. "But I still want Nicole and Em to come over."

"Sure… that would be nice. I'll cook something good."

"Oh… but I wanted to cook."

"Well… ok. But I want you to take it easy," he said with a bit of worry in his voice.

Jacob held me tighter to his body and kissed the top of my head. I knew he was kinda right about inviting my parents over. I mean… Matt wasn't even told yet to my knowledge... and they may tell him soon. All hell could be breaking loose for all I know. It was a nice thought.

Jacob rubbed my back for a few minutes and I involuntarily fell asleep. After a while he woke me up and we got dressed. I called Nicole and asked her and Em to come over for dinner tonight. She told me that they would be here. I heard the hesitation in her voice… like she wanted to ask me how I was holding up. But I quickly started talking about something non related to anything that was going on.

Jake asked me what I wanted from the market. I wanted to go to the market with him. I felt like I needed some air and just wanted to get out the house. I know my doctor told me to take it easy… but I could still do light walking. "Oh I wanna go," I said while putting my hair in a ponytail. He seemed leery for some reason with that calculated look he sometimes gets when he's thinking of something.

"Jake... you ok?"

"Yeah… I was just thinking of... well... you should at least stay in the truck while I get the food."

"Huh? Jake I'll be fine."

"Ness."

"Honey, please don't worry yourself to death. I'm not supposed to do any strenuous activities. Walking slowly for ten-twenty minutes… that's ok."

"Well ok."

I was glad that he didn't put up much of a fuss. I haven't been to the market in a while because he has been going. His version of junk food that he brings home is not really junk food. I would kill for something that doesn't say 50% less sugar and fat free.

Jake put my hat on my head and kissed me sending a chill down my spine. He had a sweet smile on his face that made me stand on my toes and kiss him one more time.

"Can't get enough of me huh?" he said with a grin.

"Whatever," I answered rolling my eyes playfully.

We headed outside to get in the truck. It was really cold. It's amazing how the forest animals can be outside all day without a pissed off look on their faces all of the time. While I put my seat belt on I noticed a squirrel in the tree scattering from branch to branch. He looked content and not pissed off that it was barely 40 degrees outside. Jake turned on the heat and played with the radio for a few seconds before turning on his iPod. I smiled when he put on his country mix that he made for me. Hunter Hayes Wanted was on. I love that song. I closed my eyes so I could feel the music and lyrics more. Jake must have thought that I was tired because he asked me if I was tired.

"No… not tired. I just love this song."

"Oh."

I opened my eyes mid song and just looked out the window. We reached the market and he found a parking spot close to the entrance. I called Ava while inside to ask if I needed anything extra to make her macaroni and cheese. Weeks ago she emailed me the recipe on how to make it… I was just making sure that I would have everything. She told me what I would need and volunteered to come over to help me cook it. I felt kinda weird because I only invited Nicole and Em for dinner. If she wanted to come over it would be fine.

"Ness… really I want to be there to make sure you do everything right."

"Oh… I have it printed out at home somewhere. But if you really want to… I can't stop you now can I?"

"No… no you can't," she said giggling.

"Ok. Bring Eric too if he's not busy."

"Fine… we'll be at your place in a few hours."

"Ok… thanks."

"I'm not being intrusive am I? Did you just want Nicole and Em to come over?"

"Oh… no. It's ok Ava. I originally just wanted to thank Nicole for being the mediator with our parents. But I would love to have you guys over too."

"Oh… ok. Um… how are you holding up… you know with that. Ya know… everything being final now?"

"I'm fine. Really don't feel like talking about all of that now."

"My Bad… I understand."

I sighed. I told everyone earlier that I didn't want to talk about this today. I guess some people can be persistent. I'm trying my best to numb myself or trick my brain that this isn't really happening.

"Ava… I kinda knew this may have happened. So… Um…. honestly I'm still in a bit of shock that it really did."

"I'm really sorry about everything." she said with a funny sound in her voice. It sounded like she was trying to hold back tears.

"Thanks... we'll be ok. Can we talk about another subject?"

"Sure… but I'm here for you ok."

"Th... Thank you."

Being at the market felt surreal in some way. Though I probably looked fine… my head was really fucked up from the past events. I felt like I was on auto pilot…. walking and talking. I would think about what food we should have at the house and then think of Matt's reactions. Did mom or dad tell him yet? Ava sounded like she wanted to help in any way that she could… and I appreciate her for that. She was silent on the phone for a while and that gave me time to even zone out even more. Jacob put a bag of apples in the cart and looked at me with an odd expression.

"Ness… do you wanna wait for me in the truck?"

"Oh… I'm fine."

"You sure?"

"We only have to get a few more things. I'm fine Jake." The side of his lip curled down. I cleared my throat. "Ava… I'll see you later tonight, ok."

"Ok… see ya."

I put my cell phone in my jeans and walked closer to Jake reaching out for his hand. The worry in his face made him look older somehow.

"I love you Ness."

"I love you too Jake."

He leaned down and gave me a kiss. I'm usually focused 100% on the feel of his lips when he kisses me… but I heard a small commotion a few feet from us. An older woman was complaining about the selection of green peppers to choose from. "This is horrible. How do they expect me to make spaghetti with this shit," she grumbled. It caught Jake's attention too. We parted from our kiss and looked down the else. A young man was standing beside her. I could only see him from the back but his voice seemed familiar as he was trying to compromise telling her that he would bring her some fresh vegetables tomorrow from the farmers market near him. "What is it Ness?' Jake asked. The man turned around and I couldn't believe it. It was Steven from the club in Seattle. The one that Jake freaked out about because I took a picture of him on my phone. I didn't know whether to ignore that I recognized him and just move on… or say Hi.

"Ness?" Jake said in a confused way.

"Oh... nothing. That guy just looked familiar." Why the hell did I just say that?

"Oh… from where?"

Steven turned around and his eyes met mine. His face brightened like he remembered me then he smiled.

"Steven?"

"Oh… hey. Err… Nessie?"

"Yeah." I saw Jake's body tense up in the corner of my eye. "So you live around here?"

"Oh… No. I live in Seattle. My grandma lives in Forks. I help her out from time to time with her errands and stuff."

"Oh... that's nice of you. Hey… this is my husband Jake. Jake this is Steven… the home remodeling guy I told you about."

"Hi," Jake said not as friendly as I hoped he would be.

He didn't sound out right rude... but still a bit cold. Shit I don't need this now. Be nice Jacob… geez.

"Nana… this is Nessie."

"Nessie? Really that's your name or nick name?" she said skeptically still seeming agitated about her vegetables.

"Oh… that's my nick name," I said a bit uncomfortably.

"Well that's a weird nick name young lady."

"Nana… behave," Steven said giving me an apologetic look.

"Well, my name is Renesmee. My brother gave me the nick name Nessie because he couldn't really say it as a kid."

"Hmm… ok," his grandmother said.

Steven looked down at my belly and his eyes widened a bit.

"So you guys know what you're having?"

"We're having a boy," Jake budded in.

"Well congrats. Hey… you live in forks?"

"No… we live in La Push," I answered.

"Heey… La Push. I have a few remodeling jobs set up there. I'm starting one guy's house in a few days."

"Really?" Jake said trying to sound nicer. It wasn't working because he still sounded fake to me.

"Yeah… Um… Clearwater. Yeah that's his name."

Oh god… Clearwater.

"I know a few Clearwater's. It's a common name in La Push though," Jake said as his face tensed up.

He was probably thinking of Seth because they haven't really talked that much since Leah was put away. Or he could be thinking of the bitch herself for what she did to us. It would be ironic as hell if he was working on Seth's house. Please don't say that his name is Seth. Let it be a Clearwater I don't know. Steven pulled out his cell phone and touched the screen a few times.

"Seth Clearwater… do you know him?"

"Yeah… we know him," Jake answered.

"Wow… small world." Steven pulled out a business card and handed it to Jake. "We do add-ons… landscaping… the whole bit. If you guys need any work done… please give me a call. I'll give you a great rate."

"Thanks," Jake said as he put the card in his back pocket.

"Come on Stevie… I'm not getting any younger," his grandma said yanking at his coat.

"Ok Nana. Hey, it was nice seeing you again."

"You too," I said smiling hiding the fear that flashed through me.

They walked away from us and I turned to Jake. He looked a bit agitated. Maybe it was because we all had to think of Leah… or that fact that he hasn't been that close to Seth for the past few months since she was arrested? Hopefully he wasn't going to start acting jealous of Steven… that would be ridiculous. But he did make such of a big deal because I took a picture of him at that club and accepted his business card.

"So that's pretty boy huh?" Jake huffed.

Oh God... really.

"Jake really. With all the shit I'm going through… you're gonna act like a jealous pain in the ass," I snapped.

It took him a bit off guard but I wasn't in the mood. He should know that I'm freaking out about Leah right now.

"I… I'm sorry Babe." He blew out a breath. "I didn't mean to make you upset."

I leaned into his body and pressed my face against his chest. All I saw was Leah's angry face trying to hurt me. "Ness… you ok?" he asked a bit worried. I shook my head no.

"I don't wanna think about her Jake."

"I know... I'm sorry. Wow… it's a small world. I'm sorry that hearing about the Clearwaters' upset you Honey."

"I thought I was doing much better with that. But I guess I'm not," I said almost inaudibly. Jake took a deep breath. "Um… Have you talked to Seth recently?" I asked. I knew he was having issues with him not wanting to be as close as they used to be.

"No... not really. He's still… I don't know. We don't have to talk about that now... ok."

"Um… ok," I muttered.

We only had a few more things to get at the market then we got in line. I leaned on his side and he asked me again if I wanted to go to the truck. I said no then got a magazine to browse through. It was mostly about who was dating who... who wore the best dress at the latest events, and trivial things that helped take my mind off of Leah. Hopefully tonight will help me take my mind off everything.

The person in front of us didn't have that many things. I was glad because I really just wanted to go home. My head was starting to kill me. Of course I hid the fact that I was getting a headache from Jacob. I was praying that I would be ok to enjoy having company come over. I really missed and needed my friends. No one was behind us in line at the moment. I heard Steven's voice a few yards away and tuned in that direction. Jacob took a step closer behind me and kissed the top of my head.

"Hello again," Steven said as he and his grandmother came behind us.

"Hey," I said almost weakly.

"Hi," Jacob said. Then he leaned down to my ear. "You ok Honey?"

"Um hum. I'm fine Jake."

"You have a headache don't you?" I guess it wasn't that hard to tell.

"Umm… just a little. But I'm ok."

Steven was looking at us with a worried look on his face.

"You feel ok?" Steven asked.

"My Wife is fine," Jake interjected. Why was he being so… like this?

"I'm ok Steven. Just have a headache and tired."

I wanted to nudge Jake for being so rude. Steven glanced at Jake for a split second due to his sharp statement.

"Oh Dear… go home and rest," his grandmother added.

"I will."

"So is this your first kid?" his grandmother asked.

"Yeah."

"That's nice."

Jacob wrapped his arm around me. I didn't know if he was just being loving or being this way because Steven was around. The conveyer belt had some room on it now for our things. Jacob started to place our groceries on the belt.

"Did you pick out a name?" his grandmother asked. "I hope it's a norm..." She stopped short. "I mean… you know… something he won't get teased about."

"Nana," Steven said in shock. He made a big sigh then rolled his eyes in his head.

"Well the child name is Renesmee Stevie."

"The baby's name is Jacob," Jake said a bit agitated.

I could see why Jake was getting fed up. Steven's grandmother didn't hold her tongue much. I don't even think she realizes that she's being rude…. That's probably just her way. "I'm sorry," Steven said. I humbly smirked at him. I didn't want him feeling embarrassed about his beloved grandmother. I'm pretty sure she didn't mean to hurt my feelings. She just thinks that my name is odd. And it is... I haven't found anyone else with my name so far. It's just a made up name that my mom conjured up to blend both of my grandparent's names together.

"Well… ok. I like the name Jacob," she said.

"Thanks," I replied.

I noticed that Jake was putting the food on the belt like he was a bit upset. I didn't want him flipping out and saying something out of place. I didn't know where his head was at. I mean… in the last twenty minutes Seth and Leah were brought up… He's probably jealous of Steven for no good reason… and someone made fun of his wife's name.

Everyone was silent for a while. For some reason things just felt weird. It looked like Steven was looking at me from the corner of my eye but I didn't want to turn around to confirm it. I mean he could have been looking past me. Jacob placed all of our bags in the cart then swiped his credit card to pay for everything. I smiled at Steven and his grandmother and said goodbye. I didn't say anything on the way to the truck. The clanking noise of the shopping carts wheels were more apparent once it was on the ground; it was a bit annoying. Jacob helped me in the truck and shut my door as softly as he could for it to close. Then he put all of the bags in the back. When he was finished I watched him push the cart back. It dawned on me to put my seat belt on so I struggled with that for a few seconds. Jake opened the door and hopped in letting out a big breath. He leaned over and kissed my forehead.

"I hope you feel better soon Honey. You think we should cancel our dinner plans?"

"I really don't know. I mean I would love everyone to come over… even if I don't feel well. I miss everyone and would like to chill with them. Yes, Jake I still want everyone to come over."

"Ok... um… I'll cook. I know you said that you wanted too… but you need to rest for a few hours."

"I know. Thanks Jake."

"Cool. So you rest when we go home ok."

"Um… Ava was coming over early to help me with the macaroni."

"That's cool. She still can come over early. Hell I won't mind her teaching me how to make it."

I weakly chuckled then closed my eyes.

"I'm just gonna rest on the way home."

"Ok Ness."

I was trying my best to block out the things that were making me mad. I really wanted my headache to go away by the time that everyone came over.

When we got home I took off my clothes and put Jake's sweatshirt on and lay down in the bed. I texted Ava that I was taking a nap but that she could still come over early and teach Jacob how to make the macaroni. I quickly got a text back "What's wrong are you not feeling well?" I replied and told her that I had a headache. I didn't go into what could have caused it. (Hearing the name Clearwater) I hugged my pillow tight wishing that I was able to take something for the pain. Jake walked in the bedroom with a bottle of orange mango juice.

"Are you hungry… do you want me to bring you a snack?" Jake asked.

"Um… a banana?"

"Ok I'll be right back."

Jake walked out the room and I opened the bottle. I took a few sips then put the lid back on. Please… I wanna feel better so I can have fun tonight. Well just being with my friends I should feel better even if I still actually don't. I felt a tiny kick to my side. This felt bigger than gas bubbles. I started to rub my belly as tears filled my eyes. "Hey Sweetie… you're awake?" I said with my voice cracking. "Ok I know were on different sleeping schedules… that's ok. You get your exercise." Jake walked in the room with a slight smile.

"Lil Jake is awake?"

"Awake and kicking me… come here and feel."

Jake sat on the edge of the bed. He placed the banana beside me and I took his hand and rested it on my stomach where little Jake last kicked me. I smiled waiting for the baby to kick again.

"Oh Shit… I felt that," Jake said amused. "Wow… that's our little miracle inside you." Jake had the most adorable in awe expression on his face. I wish I could take a picture of these seconds.

"Yeah," I said beaming. "It doesn't feel like gas anymore. I can't confuse this with anything… he is definitely kicking me."

I reached over to the night stand and got my cell phone and snapped a picture of Jake's hand resting on my stomach. Then I took a picture of him smiling. Jake leaned into me and kissed my forehead softly, then kissed my temple. He took his hand and cupped my face and kissed my lips.

"I love you Ness," he breathed.

"I love you too."

"You want me to lay with you for a while?"

"That would be nice but Ava will be here soon."

"Well I can still lay with you for a few."

"Ok."

Jake climbed in the bed with me and I started to eat my banana. After I finished it I took a few sips of my juice and snuggled next to him.

"Baby… do you want me to make love to you to make you feel better?" Jake asked. I sighed thinking about it. Then Lil Jake kicked me again. "That's ok Jake. Just hold me... that will make me feel better too." It kinda freaked me out thinking about our baby being awake while my husband made love to me. I know it's something that I would have to get over soon. Jake wrapped his arm around me and rested his hand on my stomach. "Whoa… he's still kicking," he said amused. The look on his face made me happy and the drama that I was dealing with was slowly melting away. My head was still hurting a bit but I could feel myself at ease. I yawed and that made Jake yawn as well.

"Ha… I made you yawn."

"It is contagious… that's crazy how it is though."

"Yeah."

Jake held on to me a little bit tighter and kissed the back of my head. "Now close your eyes and get some rest Mrs. Black." I nodded my head yes and made a deep sigh. I knew that in a short matter of time I would be enjoying my friends company and some good ass food. Plus I was craving macaroni like crazy. I slowly dozed off trying my best to block out my parents shit and the crap that haunts me. I started to feel happier each time I felt our baby kick. I wanted to think positive thoughts so I started dreaming about the day I met Jacob. I made a deep sigh and a smile spread across my face while my eyes were closed. I have no clue how long I kept that expression. My dreams were wonderful and not tainted with negative memories. So I believe that my smile could have been there for some time. I love my Jake… and I know that I would love him forever.