Chapter 30
It had been 2 days. 2 days when my world was broken and made whole and then broken again. Wendy some crank bitch trying to claim I am the father of her 3 year old child, my mother scheming again. Then there was Tara. The love of my life talking to me again, telling me that she still loves me. Then there is the truth that I must tell her. How do I tell her, I had to tell her before she finds out another way. Tonight, when she gets home I will tell her. Jax had finally decided that tonight he was pray that he does not not shatter his world again and loose Tara.
Tara had been out all day. She got up early went to her gynecologist for her ultra sound, to the bakery to give them the info for a small gender reveal cake for her and Jackson. The bakery told her that they have spare cakes but would take them about 2 hours to decorate it for her. So Tara ran the rest of her err ons. She had so much to do specially since the twins are now going to be 1 in a week and she wanted to have something special for them. She was walking through the mall remembering the twins past year. They spent the first couple month or so in the hospital fighting for their lives because of some psycho ex customer. Thomas was kidnapped, Nicole crawling and hitting her head on the table and needing 2 stitches. Crazy Grandma. But with all that, they were still the healthiest kids, they loved people. They always no matter what seemed to happen had a smile on their chunky little faces. Tara finished up her shopping, loaded her car with party favors, decorations and things for their party. It was going to be small, well samcro small that is at the park. Tara had one more surprise but its was for Jax and her more so than anyone else. Tara had picked up the twins and ran her last err on. Once that was complete she stopped by the bakery and picked up the cake she wanted for tonight and headed home.
Tara arrived home to an empty house. She brought the twins inside and put them in the living room and placed the new baby gates up so they could not get out. Once the twins were secured Tara unloaded the car and started to decipher all the party things. She placed the cake on the bed with a yellow envelope with a gift for Jax. Once everything was put away she made the twins dinner, bathed them and put them to bed. No Jax yet. It was 10 o'clock and the little ones were cranky so she put them to bed. She felt like it took longer to put them asleep since Nicole kept babbling and fussing and Thomas fought sleep with pulling hiself up on the bed rails and bouncing. Once they were asleep Tara went into the living room to find Jax sitting on the couch with his head buried into his hands and flowers on the living room table.
"Jax, they are beautiful." Tara said softly startling Jax who was unaware she had come in.
"Not as beautiful as you are." Jax replied trying to keep his composure. "Tara, we need to talk." Jax stumbled on his words a little.
"Abbout..." Tara replied. "Hopefully, nothing to ruin my surprise for you" Tara smiled.
"Tara, please sit down." Jax asked as he motioned to the couch next to him. Tara began to worry about what was going on.
"Jax, your scaring me." Tara trembled.
"Tara, I don't know how to say this but I am just going to blurt it out. Tara 3 years ago, when were were having one of our epic battles I got drunk and I dont remember doing anything but I woke up with Wendy Case. The swear I don't remember doing anything." Jax said defensively.
"Why are you telling me this now Jackson, I remember that morning. I almost left then for good." Tara asked.
"Well, I got this envelope the other day and Wendy is saying that I am the father of her son and wants child support and a paternity test." Jax blurted it out in one breath. Tara did not move, not an inch. Her face was frozen as that one little sentence registered in her mind. Quietly she stood up, Jax was waiting for the yelling, screaming, throwing things anything. But all he got was silence.
"Tara, say something." Jax pleaded. All Tara did was put a finger up to her mouth to shhhh... him, turned around and walked into kitchen and began doing the dishes. Jax sat there afraid to move, wondering what kind of fit was brewing up in the other room. After about 10 minutes he decided to walk in there and see how she was doing, but when Jax walked into the kitchen Tara was not there. The water was running but no Tara. He checked the twins rooms but nothing, but sleeping kids. He checked their room. No other soul in the house. The only thing Jax found was the cake and an envelope.
Jax picked up the envelope and opened it to find pictures. Tara had taken pregnancy pictures with the twins. There were only two pictures but they were the most precious pictures Jax had ever seen. The first one was of Tara alone standing there with silk see through robe that split down the middle to reveal her stomach, where her hands rested and Tara looking down at her belly. It was revealing but not in a sexual way either. It covered all the areas that needed covering but revealing in a more this is your wife and child way. Jax just could not explain it. The second one was of Tara's belly and the twins. The twins on each side hugging her belly and their little hands made a heart when put together. How she got the twins to stand still long enough Jax would never know but the pictures where perfect. Which only made his heart sink wondering where she was and what was going through her head. She had never just not said anything before, which scared him more.
After an hour had past Jax called Trinity who was on a date to see if she could come home. But when she said no Jax was thrown. "I got a text from Tara saying to stay away from the house tonight. I am drunk and nor do I want to be there." Trinity slurred out. "I hear enough from your bedroom, not tonight." she said and hung up.
Jax finally called Nita who came over to stay with the twins so he could go find Tara. She had been gone for over 3 hours now. He checked every where, the hospital, TM, her project houses and no Tara. He was just about to give up when all of a sudden he spoted her car at the park. He pulled over and found her sitting on the swings. He walked up and sat next to her on the swing. They sat there in silence till sunrise. Tara finally turned to him and whispered. " Please no more." Before she stood up and walked away from him. Jax stood up and tried to stop her get her to talk but she just kept walking like she had no other choice. Jax screamed, yelled, begged and pleaded. But nothing. Tara just walked. She got in her car and drove away only saying those three little words.
"Please No More"
