DISCLAIMER: After 51 chapters, I still don't own any of this...
Bold: Letter to Lily
Italics: Song to Sirius...This is Rhianna's song "Final Goodbye" which I also don't own...I know it wasn't out at that time but it just fit...
Chapter 51: Epilogue- Final Goodbye
My dearest friend, I write this to you in the wake of my certain death. I know that I will not be returning to you after tonight, not how I am anyways.
I never should have waited so long to say what I've always known since the very first day…
I write this to you because I believe you are the only one who could ever even begin to understand what I did tonight. It was meant to be…my 'true destiny.'
Thought that you would stay forever with me, but the time has come to leave.
You, Lily, know the way in which fate works, offering some of us two choices. You made your choice when it was present to you…as I made mine. My choice is what brought me to you.
Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes, I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life. It's you that I live for and for you I die. So I lay here with you 'til the final goodbye.
I had to do it, I couldn't allow what I knew would happen to happen. That is why I sent you and James out that night. That is why I stayed with Harry.
Holding you close, close to my lips, listen intently as I tell you this.
You, Lily, will probably be the only one to ever fully understand why I allowed myself to be killed. Help Sirius, Lily. Please.
Outside the world, wages its war. I'll rest in peace as long as you know.
I did it for Harry, you know, for his future. I know a lot about his future and maybe now it will be better. He will have you, James, Sirius, Remus, Lauri, and their little kid for him now. Just don't spoil him too bad.
Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes, I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life. It's you that I live for and for you I die. So I lay here with you 'til the final goodbye.
Death isn't as scary as it should be. Or maybe it just wasn't for me because I knew it was what had to happen. It was for Harry, for you and the boys, and for the rest of the world. It was my choice.
Promise you our love will carry on until time eternal we belong.
Know this, we will meet again. I will not be as you remember me. Keep this secret, Lily. Only you can know the truth behind the events.
Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes, I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life. It's you that I live for and for you I die. So I lay here with you 'til the final goodbye.
Until then…
As I taste your lips for the last time, I spell out the lyrics to love in the sky. It's you that I live for, and for you I die. So I lay here with you 'til the final goodbye.
Goodbye…
Goodbye…
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Alright, so I'm going to try to explain things a little. Hermione HAD to die. I didn't want this to be a normal Hermione timetravel story. This was planned right from the beginning. The Verus Fatum represents two choices- one is the path you already walk while the other is a whole other life that you could live. Hermione may not have chosen to use the Verus Fatum but she took it and thus ended up in the past. When Remus said "Love him," you can take it one of two ways: Love Sirius or Love Harry. By loving Harry and dying for him, she still gave him that protection of love. The ssecond part of what has now became a trilogy will be posted soon. I'm moving into a new room this weekend with Jessica so I'm going to be busy with that. I give you a clue as to what the sequel is going to be on in the last paragraph of chapter 50. Thanks for hanging with me through this entire process.
Much love,
MiZZ AmAyA
