Chapter Fifty-One: Prayin' For Daylight
*Dedicated to AwesomeQueenoftheLab, another constant suggester*
I don't wanna spend another lonely night
Ooh ooh ooh
I've got the lights turned up
The door is locked, the bedroom TV's on
Doing the only thing that gets me through the night
Since you've been gone
Jethro locked the door to his front house for the first time in his life. He grumbled and headed up the stairs, not bother to turn off the lights, and not feeling like working on his boat. It was a very un-Gibbs-like manner. He walked into his bedroom and shut the door behind him. He lay down on the bed and grabbed the remote on the bedside table, turning on the TV.
He'd been doing this for the past week, ever since she left him. Anything else he did reminded him of her, and he didn't want to remember her right now. It we still too painful. Working on the boat reminded him of her, NCIS reminded him of her, drinking bourbon reminded him of her, and even coffee reminded him of her.
He missed her, beyond belief. He'd never been in love with anyone as much as her since Shannon. She was like his second Shannon, even though the two were completely different. He wished he had done something to make her stay.
Praying for daylight, waiting for that morning sun
So I can act like my whole life ain't going wrong
Baby come back to me I swear I'll make it right
Don't make me spend another lonely night
Praying for daylight, Praying for daylight
He flicked off the TV, rolling onto his side and reluctantly shutting off his lamp. He just wanted this night to be over with and for the sun to come up again.
To everyone else, he was fine. He wasn't affected at all by her leaving. He acted just as he did normally. Maybe he was a little meaner, but other than that, they were fine.
Jethro rolled over, burying his face in his pillow. "Aw, Jen," he said to himself. "Why'd you leave me?" He was tired of all this pain she was causing him. He wanted her by his side. He wanted to be with her again. He just… he wanted her.
I made a bad miscalculation
Betting you would never leave.
'Cause if you're getting on with your new life
Then where does that leave me?
He knew, in a way, it was his mistake that he was hurting so much. He never thought she would leave him like she did. The most he expected was a regular break-up, with her telling him that their relationship wouldn't work anymore and that they should stop seeing each other. Then there would be some awkward moments, but they might eventually get over it. Instead, though, she left him a stupid letter on that stupid plane, telling him in a letter all sorts of hurtful thing.
Jethro wondered where she was right now. If she was happy. Normally, he wouldn't mind her being happy. Her being happy would make him happy. But if she was getting along fine with her new life, what was he supposed to do? How was he supposed to get along without her in his life?
Praying for daylight waiting for that morning sun
So I can act like my whole life ain't going wrong
Baby come back to me, I swear I'll make it right
Don't make me spend another lonely night
Praying for daylight
Praying for daylight
Praying for daylight
Praying for daylight
Jenny tossed around in her bed, exhausted but unable to sleep. She'd made the worst mistake of her life, and somehow, she knew there was no going back. She just wanted the morning to come, so she wouldn't have to spend the night alone, like she did all the time since she left him.
"Dammit, Jenny, what have you done?" she asked herself, rubbing her eyes with the heels of her hands.
She turned over once again and looked at the phone on her bedside table. She wondered what he would do if she called him right now. How he would react. If he would take her back or if he would just hang up on her.
She grabbed the phone, dialing the familiar number. He answered on the third ring.
"Gibbs."
Praying for daylight
Hoping that I didn't wait too long
I didn't wait too long
That this is just the dark before the dawn
Jenny didn't saying anything for a minute. She was overcome by the sound of his voice that she had missed hearing so much.
"Hello?" he asked on the other end of the line.
"Jethro," she breathed out. She could hear his breath hitch. "Please, don't hang up."
"Why not, Jen?" he asked, his tone angry now. "Give me one good reason."
"Jethro, I made a mistake," Jenny said, feeling tears come to her eyes. "I… I shouldn't have left. I just… can you forgive me, Jethro?"
There was a long pause, in which Jenny managed to draw blood from biting her lip so hard. Finally, he answered. "I don't know if I can, Jen."
Jenny nodded, then realized he couldn't see her through the phone. "I, uh, understand, Jethro." She cleared her throat. "I hope I didn't wait too long to call you."
"I'm not doing anything, if that's what you're asking."
"Do you think… we could work this out, Jethro? That we just act like this was the dark before the dawn?"
He didn't answer immediately, and Jenny was feeling worse about herself with each passing second. "I don't know. But we can try."
Deep in my heart I know
That you love me as much as I love you
And that you must be lying somewhere
Looking up to heaven, too
Jethro lay back in his bed after hanging up his phone, looking up at his ceiling. She had called him, asked for forgiveness. He had hesitated, but then she asked if they could work out this bump in the road. He'd take any chance to be with her, so he said they could try.
Now he could be certain that she loved him just as much as he loved her. It was like a gut feeling, but the feeling wasn't exactly coming from his gut; it came from his heart. Deep inside.
He also knew at that moment that she was lying in her bed, in roughly the same position as him, thinking of the same things. He didn't know how he knew, he just… knew. They had created a bond without knowing it.
Praying for daylight waiting for that morning sun
So I can act like my whole life ain't going wrong
Baby come back to me I swear I'll make it right
Don't make me spend another lonely night
He looked around, searching for the crimson hair amongst the crowd. He spotted her and waved his hand, trying to get her attention. When that didn't work, he walked in her direction. She finally noticed him and smiled, meeting him halfway.
Neither of them said anything at first. They stood there in the middle of the crowd, looking at each other and familiarizing themselves once again.
Jenny finally broke the silence. "You haven't changed, I see."
"Jen, it's been two weeks," he said.
She shrugged. "So?"
He chuckled, then got serious. "Are you willing to actually go through with this? Can I trust that you're not going to run away again?"
She took a deep breath and exhaled slowly, nodding. "Yeah, Jethro. I want this to work, and I'm not going to make that same mistake again. I shouldn't have done it in the first place. I… I'm so sorry for leaving. I love you, Jethro."
"I love you, too, Jen."
Praying for daylight, waiting for that morning sun
So I can act like my whole life ain't going wrong
Baby come back to me I swear I'll make it right
Don't make me spend another lonely night
Praying for daylight
Praying for daylight
Jethro slowly and quietly got off of the bed, walking over to the window and looking out to his backyard, watching the sun rise slowly over the horizon. This was his favorite time of day. He vision suddenly died when someone placed their hands in front of his eyes.
"Morning," he said, smirking a bit.
She giggled in response, taking her hands off of his eyes and kissing his cheek. "Boo." She giggled again.
He chuckled, kissing her nose. "Aah," he said in a very non-scared voice.
She hit his shoulder playfully in response. "You're no fun," she whined. She started to walk away from him.
He grabbed her arm and pulled her back to him, holding her captive. "You're not going anywhere," he said. "Not this time."
"I was just going to go use the bathroom," she said. "I have to pee."
He paused before letting go of her. "Right… I knew that."
Praying for daylight
I don't want to spend another lonely night
I don't want to spend another lonely night
Praying for daylight
Praying for daylight
I don't want to spend another lonely night
Oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Praying for daylight
A/N: This song was suggested by AQotL. Funny thing is I already planned on doing it. Thanks for all the reviews and suggestions I've been getting! Please review now!
Song - Prayin' for Daylight by Rascal Flatts
