Finding Yourself

Author:Nightstar Productions(Nightstar Fury).

Rated: Mfor Mature.

Pairing:Toothless & Hiccup.

Disclaimer:I do not own the HTTYD movies, Dreamworks Dragons series.

~*{Fair warning that most of this chapter is gonna be sex until they leave to return to Berk with Steve :p Okay I lied...its ALL Toothcup sex! So enjoy! -Nightstar.}*~

Chapter 54: Its Only Me & You.

(Lemon Start)

The levels of passion they were exceeding currently were new to both of them, their kisses had never been more intense than what they were right now. Each one was filled with joy, and hunger for more, a longing for it to never end between them. Hiccup was on bottom, his arms wrapped Toothless's neck continuously pulling him in for more. Toothless was over his body, they were both already hard from the kissing alone and that had been going on a good 20 minutes now. Finally they broke apart panting still, small beads of sweat already forming on their foreheads from the heat forming between their bodies being so close and yet neither of them were even undressed yet.

Toothless sat back on his knees as he pulled Hiccup up with him and instantly kissed him again with his hands on his boyfriend's hips while Hiccup kept his around Toothless's neck and resting on his shoulders. Toothless's kissed trailed along his jaw line to the special spot on Hiccup's neck that always drove him wild and began to kiss, lick, and suck on it making Hiccup moan out lightly. "Ah...Tooth..."

"Ssh...It's almost 1am, Hic...Keep your voice down." Toothless reminded as he continued to assault the one place on Hiccup's neck. He strayed from it once or twice to kiss as far as the shirt would allow him, when it began to get in his way he moved his hands to the top few buttons and got a good grip before pulling hard and forcing every button down the shirt to pop right off and go flying around the bed and room. Hiccup's eyes widened a bit at what his lover had done.

"Too–Toothless...That was my good shirt..." Hiccup complained, Toothless rolled his eyes and pulled away from his neck and stared at him.

"Because you don't have a closet full back home. Its one shirt, Hayden...It was in my way and I didn't feel like unbuttoning every single one of them." Toothless said softly as he kissed his boyfriend again then pulled back with a smile. "Here, we'll make it even..." Toothless said gently as he moved Hiccup's hands to his own button down and gave a nod to him, Hiccup smiled blushing a little as he tore the two halves of the shirt apart and a snapping sound was heard as it went down the middle. Toothless smiled as Hiccup put his hands on Toothless's 4 pack abs and then moved his hands up under the shirt resting on Toothless's shoulders before sliding it off of them so the shirt would fall to the foot of the bed behind Toothless.

Hiccup's hands moved all around Toothless's upper half, fingers trailing along the lines of his chest and arm muscles slowly sending a tingle like shiver through Toothless. It only made him move in closer to Hiccup to now remove his boyfriend's shirt and tossing it across the room on to the other bed so it was out of the way. Toothless returned his lips to Hiccup's neck on the left side making the boy moan out again. "O–oh Gods...That feels s–so good...You have the softest...lips ever." Hiccup breathed out as his arms moved around Toothless's neck again and pulled him in for more. Toothless's kissed moved from the side of Hiccup's neck down and along to the end of his shoulder.

"I know it does, it drives you mad with pleasure..." Toothless almost purred against his neck making Hiccup bite his lower lip again. Neither of them could believe they were doing this right now, sure they were both in agreement on it and clearly passion between them wasn't a problem but Thor help them if anyone ever found out that two 17 year olds made love during a state of emergency blizzard in their hotel room on what still considered a business trip at 1am. Frankly at the moment, they didn't give a damn. They both wanted this so they were going to do it. Hiccup's arms were still roaming around Toothless's arms, mainly the shoulders and back. Toothless's hands stroked up and down Hiccup's arms before wrapped his right arm around his waist and started to lower him down on his back, while doing this Hiccup fixed his legs so they were straight out and Toothless between then.

Toothless's lips captured Hiccup's again as the intense kissed picked up, tongues swirling around together in a battle for dominance which Hiccup didn't stand a chance in hell of winning. Toothless was a lot more stronger in his kissed, they were fierce and deep, but passion filled none the less. Toothless was bent forward on his knees in a bow almost as he continued his kissed and let his hands roam down the front of Hiccup's body and to elastic waist band on his pajama pants to pull them down slightly making Hiccup gasp in to his mouth. The kiss broke a moment, "Lift your hips babe..." Toothless murmured against his lips.

Hiccup lifted his hips slightly as Toothless used both hands to pull his pants off along with his boxers then once off completely they were tossed to join the shirt on the other side of the room. Toothless's hands now moved up his boyfriend's legs and inner thigh making Hiccup shudder with pleasure before his hands stopped on his cock and stroked it lightly making Hiccup moan out again. "Gods..." He groaned into the kiss.

"Ssh love..." Toothless whispered as his lips trailed down to Hiccup's chest, then stomach, hips, and finally stopping at his cock with one single kiss on the head. Hiccup bit his lower lip to try and keep it down but he couldn't help it, it just felt amazing. It was just the two of them, no worries about parents, guardians, or friends showing up unexpectedly. Toothless held the middle of Hiccup's cock as he began to lick around the head as if it were an ice cream cone, then after a few minutes he lowered his mouth over it and started sucking slowly. Hiccup's hands gripped the sheets as he began to pant heavily.

"A–ah...Toothless..." He groaned out closing his eyes slowly. Toothless continued this for a while, a good 10 minutes before moving his hand and sucking lower inch by inch until Hiccup's cock began to hit the back of his throat which drove Hiccup wild with pleasure. The pants began quicker, the moans escaping his throat becoming more audible as Hiccup covered his mouth with one of his hands. His hips began bucking every few bobs, Toothless would bring his mouth all the way up to the head then back down at a steady pace not wanting to make Hiccup cum too fast. Toothless eventually pulled his mouth off when he felt Hiccup's cock begin to twitch, the clear sign he was about to cum.

Toothless chuckled a little as he moved back up to kiss Hiccup again while moved slightly to the side of his boyfriend to stoke him slowly. Hiccup moaned in to the kiss again as their tongues collided with one another, Hiccup's hands moved to Toothless's pants and pulled down just the front to gain access to his cock and start stroking him softly. Toothless groaned deepening the kiss as Hiccup adjusted his hand to stroking Toothless how he'd done it before they left for the airport knowing how much he liked it. "Hayden...I'm not gonna last long if you do that..." Toothless warned him.

"And we have all night..." Hiccup challenged with a smile. Toothless moaned softly as he pulled back from Hiccup and took his pants off fully so they'd be out of the way, now both them were completely naked stroking each other's dicks and still locked in kissing. It was roughly 2:05am now meaning they'd been at this for nearly an hour and both of them were surprised that neither of them came yet but most of what they did before was nothing but kissing, and de-clothing themselves.

"I sweat my bad habits are rubbing off on you. We do have to be out of here at 3pm tomorrow, and stuck in a truck for 9 hours before we can sleep again, you're aware of this right?" Toothless reminded him.

"I know. And I don't care..." Hiccup replied smiling as they kissed again, "Nothing else matters to me right now other than the fact that tonight its only me and you." Hiccup stroked his cheek lightly.

"Glad we're on the same page then." Toothless replied with a smile as Hiccup blushed at him. As the clock struck 2:20am, both of them were close to climaxing just from the stroking alone, both of them were panting and moaning. Toothless had Hiccup move his hand so Toothless could adjust back between his legs to continue sucking him off. Hiccup's moans increased again when his hips started to buck, his cock twitching during Toothless's sucking and stroking at a faster pace than before. It sent Hiccup over the edge as he bucked hard cumming without warning, Toothless took it all with a smile and then swallowed and licked him clean before pulling off with a pop.

Hiccup panted hard, his chest rising and falling quickly. "F–Fuck..." Hiccup groaned out hard trying to catch his breath.

"You sure you wanna keep going? I think you need a break after that love." Toothless chuckled at him.

"Then you lay back and let me take care of you while I recover." Hiccup offered with a smile. "Unless...that's not allowed because of that whole...dom and sub thing?" Hiccup asked him.

"Hayden, I told you that didn't matter to me. Besides, it only gets called into play when we actually...get to intercourse for who will be giving and who is receiving." Toothless reminded him.

"So how...is that gonna go?" Hiccup asked him.

"How do you want it to go. You wanna give or receive?...Well I suppose that isn't true, some couples switch off. I don't care either way. You're giving yourself to me, so I do the same in return." Toothless shrugged laying beside Hiccup now with one arm behind his head. Hiccup crawled over him now and lightly sucked the top of his head making him close his eyes and moan lightly. Once he was good and wet, Hiccup began to stroke him up and down slow.

"I've kind'a gotten used to being the receiver...So I'd like to stick to the norm...If...That's okay with you?" Hiccup asked a little shyly.

"If you'd like too then I don't mind." Toothless nodded.

"I–I only said something because I didn't know how you'd feel about...Well the receiving side of things...?" Hiccup said slowly.

"I'm okay now. I know you wouldn't hurt me intentionally, Hayden. But regardless, if you prefer to be the receiver then that's fine with me too." Toothless smiled at him.

"You're...really okay? Like 100% okay now, it doesn't bother you anymore?" Hiccup asked.

"It will always bother me babe. I'm about 95% okay, there are still some things that would probably affect me. It still happened and that will be with me for the rest of my life but...I'm not going to let it control my life. I've accepted it, and moved on from it. And as you said, it only made me stronger." Toothless said softly, another moan escaping his lips when Hiccup picked up the pace of his stroking.

"Well maybe for tonight...I'll just be receiver and maybe another time...I can try being the giver, if that's okay?" Hiccup smiled.

"We'll see. Like I said...Some things will still make me hesitate such as, well being taken from behind. It'd have to be done slow, and with more light. To many things at once will trigger what happened and Fury or Ryder would take over as a defense. They would perceive it as a threat and fight back, I wouldn't want them to hurt you." Toothless stated.

"So like baby steps then? Like when I gave you the blow job before we left, slow and making sure you were okay with each thing I did?" Toothless nodded to him. "Huh well I think we can handle that but still until you're ready for that, I don't mind being the receiver." Hiccup replied.

"I appreciate you understanding..." Toothless moaned again, now Hiccup adjusted his hand to stroke Toothless the way he had before they left Berk where he was using just the three fingers near the head. "Hayden...I–I'll cum if you do it like that..." Toothless stammered out with another moan.

"Isn't that the entire point?" Hiccup smiled now as he lowered his mouth and started to suck on him, the strokes picking up in pace. Toothless's hand reached for Hiccup's head while it was bobbing on his cock as the moans came faster but he still bit back moaning full force given it was nearly 3am now. "No one to blame but yourself for teaching me what makes you cum fast." Hiccup remarked. Toothless was about to protest when he realized that Hiccup was right, his eyes closed as he bit his lower lip. Toothless's hips bucked once.

"Hay–Hayden!" Toothless moaned as he came fast, Hiccup stopped his bobbing but still took it in his mouth and swallowed. Toothless laid there panting a bit as Hiccup cleaned him off like it was an ice cream cone then removed his hand and mouth sitting back on his knees with a smile. Toothless finally sat up as he kissed his lover deeply and pushed him back on the bed lustfully almost with his legs on either side of Hiccup's, their cocks rubbing together with the light rocks of Toothless's hips. "Gods I love you..." Toothless panted breaking the kiss.

"I love you too." Hiccup replied as more kissing ensued. After another 10 of so minutes, Hiccup looked at Toothless lovingly. "Want me on me hands and knees now or...whichever is easiest for you?" Hiccup asked him.

"No, its whichever is easier for you. Most start doggy style because it opens the rear more but either way...I'm not doing that yet." Toothless told him, Hiccup blinked curiously. "Hayden, entering you dry would literally put you in the most pain you've ever felt in your life. It would probably cause tearing also...Again, take it from someone who knows. This is what takes the most preparation physically, because if its done wrong it will suck for both of us." Toothless told him.

"Okay, don't want that so...what do we do unless you brought lube with you?" Hiccup asked.

"I did not because I didn't anticipate this happening. So we'll have to do it the old fashioned way...But still not yet." Toothless said with a smile. "Turn around, hands and knees babe. I'm gonna finger you first." Toothless said softly. Hiccup blushed deeply and rolled on his stomach then propped himself up on his hands and knees, his rear facing his boyfriend and him looking back slightly to see what Toothless was doing. Sure, Toothless had fingered him before and Gods he loved it but he'd never done it like this before. Normally Hiccup was on his back and legs spread. Toothless reached for one of the pillows and put it under Hiccup's chest where his face would be.

"Wh–What's that...for?" Hiccup asked.

"I know how loud you get when I do this to you at home so when you start moaning, bite that." Toothless chuckled, Hiccup blushed redder but nodded to him. Toothless licked his fingers a few times to get them wet before he lightly teased Hiccup's anus with the index finger which made Hiccup moaned softly. "Bite it." Toothless told him, Hiccup lowered his arms a bit and buried his face in the pillow as Toothless slowly pushed his finger in just to the second knuckle as Hiccup cringed at first, breathing heavily. "Ssh love...I know it hurts a little more in this position. Just relax a little okay? Take a few deep breaths and relax your body. Don't tense up." Toothless coaxed him slowly using his other hand to reach for Hiccup's cock and stroke it a few times.

Hiccup closed his eyes tightly and took a few breaths like Toothless told him too, then relaxed his body. Some of the pain went away for him and he calmed down before glancing back slightly and given Toothless nod to go ahead. Toothless began to pump his finger in and out slowly, Hiccup's toes curled at the feeling as he began to moan again loving the feeling like always. "Mm...Tooth..." Hiccup panted.

"Fair warning, Hayden...I'm going to add a second finger soon, I know we've never done more then one but if you can't take that then there is no way we're having intercourse tonight." Hiccup nodded to him understanding. Toothless kept his fingering simple, a steady pace and occasionally curving it downwards to his G-spot which always made him moaned louder. After 10 minutes of this, Toothless leaned his head down some towards Hiccup's rear and pulled his finger out then licked around the hole a few times making Hiccup blush bright red at the new feelings. They'd never done this before, feeling Hayden flinch a bit Toothless now moved his head away. "We don't have lube babe, I told you the old fashioned way. You need to be wet, the ass doesn't self-lubricate like a vagina does. If you don't stay wet it will start to hurt...You have to relax love. Once I do this I'm going finger you with two, you still okay?" Toothless asked him.

"I–I'm okay...What you did...just took me b–by surprise is all." Hiccup said softly. Toothless nodded as he went back to licking his boyfriend's rear hole, Hiccup actually started moaning at the feeling. After a good minute of licking Toothless spit on his two fingers again and swirled it around before putting them back at Hiccup's ass.

"Don't tense, Hayden. Okay? I'll go slow and if you want to stop, say so. You promised remember..." Toothless told him, Hiccup nodded to him taking a few breaths to relax himself then felt Toothless push both fingers inside him slowly. Hiccup's eyes widened at the feeling of being stretched farther open. He grit his teeth to keep from yelling. "Hayden...Are you okay or do you want me to stop?" Toothless asked him.

"I–I'm..o–ok..ay..." He panted. Toothless again got inside to his second knuckle and stopped to give Hiccup a minute to relax, he could feel Hiccup's ass tightening and relaxing. "Go...ahead..." Toothless heard him say, so he slowly began to move both his fingers in and out of his rear. Hiccup cringed at the first few but then they turned to moans again, Toothless smiled as he leaned forward a bit to find Hiccup's cock between his legs and start stroking it again to increase the pleasure more for him. "Ah...Gods yes...Tooth!" Hiccup moaned out.

"Sssh babe..." Toothless kissed his back while curving his fingers again to drive Hiccup crazy. He picked up the pace with his fingers as Hiccup buried his face in the pillow to keep from yelling too loudly from the pleasure. Oh Gods it felt so good to him, he wanted more. He wanted so much more, he couldn't believe it felt this good.

"To–Tooth...less...faster ple–please..." Hiccup moaned out from the pillow, Toothless began to pump his fingers faster in to Hiccup making him moan louder, having to bite the pillow again. "Yes...!" Hiccup panted out as Toothless went a little harder stroking the G-spot again. He felt Hiccup's cock twitch from the stimulation of being stroked and ass-fingered.

"Want me to make you cum like this?..." Toothless asked using his thumb, ring and pinky finger to play with Hiccup's balls carefully.

"Ah! Gods...! I want you, Tooth...I want you inside me...ple–please!" Hiccup practically pleaded him. Toothless stopped stroking him and slowly pulled his fingers out, Hiccup panted hard looking back at him with happy, lust filled eyes almost.

"Settle down love...It's 3:30am...I have to get you and myself really lubricated for this to make it as painless as possible...Remember what I told you...Relax, deep breaths...and if it starts to hurt to much, tell me right away. You promised me..." Toothless said firmly. Hiccup nodded his head slowly as Toothless put his hands on Hiccup's ass cheeks and massaged them a bit before instantly beginning to lick his rear again, specifically around the hole and the hole itself. Hiccup buried his face in the pillow to keep from moaning loudly again.

His cheeks were flushed red, sweat coated both their bodies as Toothless got Hiccup good and wet around the ass. Then he moved on to himself by spitting in his hand a few times and stroking it around his cock to get it lubed up to enter Hiccup as easily as possible. Toothless held himself firm as he put his right hand on Hiccup's right side holding him in one place, his cock now pressed slowly against Hiccup's entrance. "Are you ready, Hayden? I'll go slow and you tell me when to stop or move...Alright?" Toothless told him.

"Okay Tooth..." Hiccup nodded.

"We can still stop now, I can tell you're nervous...Don't do this if you aren't ready. I mean it, Hayden...Are you certain you want to keep going?" Toothless asked firmly.

"I'm sure, Toothless." Hiccup replied to him calmly. Toothless took a deep breath himself as he slowly poked his head at the hole a few times, moving in each time a little more than the first until it made it through the tight hole.

"Don't tense up, it will only hurt more if you do...Okay, and if you yell...do it in the pillow. How do you feel? Is this okay so far?" Toothless asked.

"Its...fine...Ke–Keep going baby..." Hiccup told him softly. Toothless spit on his hand again to re-lubricate the ring of the hole, then around his cock. Hiccup closed his eyes and relaxed his body the best he could. Of course he was nervous, he was about to literally give his virginity to Toothless. That's not to say he regretted it but this was a big step for them. Toothless began held himself again and continued to push in slowly, watching Hiccup's body reactions for queues to keep going or not. Hiccup hissed once when he felt his hole stretch with the girth of Toothless's cock opening him more. Toothless stopped pushing in and looked at him.

"Hayden...Be honest with me. Is this hurting you too much?" Toothless asked.

"Its...stings yes but its not unbearable...I'm okay...It's going...to hurt no matter what you do or when we do it so...ju–just get it...over with." Hiccup replied panting a bit. Toothless moved his hand once half in and put it on Hiccup's left hip now and held him steady while he continued to push inside slowly, Hiccup cringed tightening his fist and lowering his head.

"This is too much, Hayden. I'm pulling out...I won't hurt you. I can't do that to you..." Toothless said as he went to pull out but Hiccup stopped him, Toothless looked in his eyes.

"Toothless. Whether we do tonight or years from now, it will still be this moment to enter me. It does hurt, I won't lie about that but it will hurt no matter when or where we do it. Its still a dick entering an asshole...It will hurt, but I'm okay...Just like with the two fingers...I have to adjust to it..." Hiccup said to him. Toothless knew Hiccup was right but that didn't mean he still wanted to hurt him, if they had real lube that didn't dry right away this would be different. "Please...keep...go–going...I don't...want to st–stop..." Hiccup added slowly.

Toothless sighed as he nodded he gathered more spit in his mouth and lubed both the rest of himself and Hiccup's ass up, he slowly pushed the rest of his cock into Hiccup's ass and heard Hiccup pretty much yell in to the pillow, biting it, cringing, and gritting his teeth from pain. He panted heavily, his ass constantly tightening at the new intrusion. "I'm all the way in, Hayden...Just tell me what you want me to do. Ball is in your court from here..." Toothless told him.

"Ju–Just...stay st–still..." Hiccup whimpered a bit trying to relax himself and adjust to Toothless's size. Toothless used his hands to slowly massage his back up and down, making sure to hit the spine most of all, his left hand reached down while being careful not to move his lower half at all and stroke Hiccup's length slowly to bring back some of the pleasure as a distraction from the pain. Nothing at first then Toothless Hiccup's rear unclench and relax, then a few moans escaped his lips. "Mm...Tooth..." He panted out. "Go...ah–ahead...Just...move slow..." Hiccup told him.

Toothless moved his one hand off Hiccup's back and began to thrust himself in and out of Hiccup at a very slow pace, at first Hiccup cringed in pain but then Toothless heard more moaning. "You just tell me what you want me to do. Slower, harder, faster, whatever you want...You're in control." Toothless reminded him.

"It...feels...so good...ba–baby..." Hiccup panted moaning still. "I–I want you to...g–go faster..." Hiccup asked him through the moans. Toothless began to move faster only eliciting more moans from his lovers throat, Toothless put his head back feeling the pleasure himself now. "Ah yes..." Hiccup lowered his head in to the pillow as his moans got louder.

"Gods...Hayden...You're so damn tight..." Toothless grunted a few times, then began moaning. They kept at this a good 10 minutes, Toothless keeping a steady speed and force in his thrusts. Hiccup turned his head to him slightly, "What is it babe?" Toothless asked.

"I–I was wondering...if we could...switch the position we're...in...Arms...getting tired..." Hiccup blushed. Toothless nodded as slowed down and pulled out.

"Get on your side..." Toothless told him, Hiccup laid down on his side as Toothless moved behind him and lifted his leg up. Toothless held himself again and pushed in slow, Hiccup didn't even cringe this time. He panted wanting more, Toothless decided to test the waters and instantly jump back in to the speed he was before pulling out. Hiccup moaned again louder, Toothless had to cover his mouth. "Ssh..." Toothless reminded again, he turned Hiccup's head and began to kiss deeply while still fucking him. They continued at this position for close to 15 minutes, then they switched against so Hiccup as on top riding what would be considered reverse cowgirl.

Neither of them realized it was 4am, then again neither of them cared. Toothless checked the clock to see it was 4:15, he moaned, breathing heavily. Another thing that surprised them was that neither of them had cum yet when they'd both been close various times. Another position they ended up in was Toothless standing and Hiccup's laying on his back near the edge of the bed, his legs draped over Toothless's shoulders while he was essentially pounded into because he asked Toothless to go faster and harder. Also in this position, Toothless had perfect angle to stroke Hiccup's cock to bring them both closer to orgasm. When the clock hit 4:45am, the last position the managed to get in before both were nearly at their limit was Hiccup on his back, Toothless on his knees. Hiccup's thighs were pushed forward against Toothless's chest, his knees were bent over Toothless's arms.

"Gods...Toothless...I can't...hold back anymore...I–I'm gunna cum..." Hiccup panted hard, their bodies were sleeked with sweat, their bangs sticking to their forehead, they were breathing heavily, hearts racing and pounding in their chests.

"Me too...Do you want me to cum inside of you or outside...?" Toothless grunted now.

"Does it...matter...? Its not like...I can...get pregnant." Hiccup smiled softly.

"I suppose not, just thought I'd ask first..." Toothless told him as he kept thrusting in to Hiccup hard and fast. They lasted another 5 minutes before Hiccup's hips bucked and he gripped Toothless's arms tightly throwing his head back in pleasure. "Hayden...I'm cumming!" Toothless panted.

"Ah...Tooth! M–me too!..." Hiccup moaned out loudly. "Toothless!" He yelled a little louder than he meant too.

"Hayden!" Toothless groaned as they both came at the same time, Toothless released hard and fast inside Hiccup's ass while Hiccup moaned, breathing heavily as he released on himself and Toothless's hand which had been stroking him. Both panting heavily now Toothless licked the cum from his hand before slowly pulling out and letting Hiccup's down against the bed. Toothless crawled over him and kissed him deeply. They both laid there unmoving for about 10 minutes until they could breathe normally again. They got out of the bed that had originally been Hiccup's and Toothless actually had to hold Hiccup up so he didn't fall since his legs apparently felt like jell-o. Toothless let Hiccup go to the bathroom first and clean off, then Toothless went after him. They both got into Toothless's bed and snuggled together beneath the covers for warmth, still naked too. Toothless set his phone alarm to wake them up at 1:30pm. Since currently it was about 5:10am and they'd been up all day and night.

(Lemon End)

"I...love you...so much." Hiccup smiled softly.

"I love...you too, Hayden..." Toothless kissed him again with that, Toothless laid his arm over Hiccup's stomach while Hiccup laid on Toothless's right arm. Not long after both of them knocked right out to sleep after having the best night of their lives.