Mandy

it was after rehearsal. Rachel and I were in my room. She hadn't eaten in at least 3 days. She was on my bed.

"omygod. I'm scared. What if I die?" she said.

"which you will if you keep going on like this," I said.

"but I don't want. To take up space. Physically I mean. I don't want to die. I did when I wasn't this near it. Omygod."

"calm down. Panicking never helped anyone."

"ok," she said drawing in a shaky breath.

I pulled out my phone and texted my brother telling him I wanted something from jamaba juice 2 somethings.

"what are you doing?" rachel asked while I was putting my phone away.

"i texted my brother. And told him I wanted something from jamba juice 2 somethings. You like mango right?"

"um yeah. I'm not big on it but yeah."

"ok. I told him a mango and a strawberry banana. For me. Well one's for you but he doesn't know that I don't think."

"but i-" rachel began.

"no," I said: "i won't make you eat though you probably obviously should but you need to have something. Here."

I went over to her and gave her a soda.

"holy crap," she said after she was done drinking it.

She drank it fast.

"yeah I know. Things are so much better when you're thirsty. I'm going to push you just a little bit. And you won't like it. But I already got 2 people I know near the end and maybe lia. And i'm not having another one there not if I can help it. Which right now I can."

"ok."