- Blue -
For a while, all she could hear was yelling all around her. It was what she deserved. She was a traitor and a liar. But she felt numb more then anything else.
Hige had asked her to do that. And she wouldn't have lied if he hadn't asked her to. Or maybe she would have.
Who truly knew what decisions you'd make if you had a second change?
She wasn't going to stop someone who wanted to leave. She didn't want to force anyone to stay with her. She tried to tell the others that. Hige had saved her life, twice. She owed him what ever he wanted her to do within her power. Despite the fact that it hurt like hell to watch Hige leave.
She missed him. He was a wolf but he was kind and sweet. She missed him – as if there wasn't already enough wrong with her. Her heart ached. Worse yet, she lied to the others she'd started to consider her friends.
Blue really was losing her mind. They were friends though. They'd gone through a lot together. Somehow, this had become more of a quest for answers about herself.
Though she'd found one answer. Not all wolves were bad after all.
That made her feel even worse.
Despite what she'd hoped she didn't feel numb and the stares of the wolf pack and Cheza on her.
She met them. Maybe, in their rage they'd put her out of her misery.
She wouldn't be so lucky she was sure. A shiver went down her spine. Pops would want her to live.
She shivered. No, he would've wanted her to kill all the wolves around her. She doubted he'd want her alive anymore if he saw her again.
Hige had risked his life to save her so the least she could do was keep living hers.
" I'm not going to apologize for what I did," Blue sighed.
" I'd do it again because that's what he asked me to do. You can't force others to do what you want just because its what you want."
" That doesn't make what you did alright," Tsume growled.
" I'm not saying that it does," Blue shouted back. " But there isn't anything I can now."
Toboe and Cheza were crying.
Kiba stared ahead all of them. Blue still had a hard time reading him. But she could tell he was sad too. They all were.
" What are you going to do?" Kiba asked her. His voice quiet and neutral.
Blue shook her head instinctively. She had no idea what she was going to do. Him putting her thoughts to into words was more frightening.
Still, Blue though she owed them all her honesty now.
" I'm not sure myself. I'll leave though. I've caused you enough trob-"
"No," Cheza interrupted, surprisingly. " You cannot leave," she sobbed. " This one cannot lose you as well, Blue." She walked over and wrapped her arms around Blue's neck.
" T-this one is sorry for interrupting you, Blue," Cheza sniffled. " However you simply cannot. What ever we decide to do we need to do it together."
Blues heart twisted. Cheza smelled like flowers. Being this close to the Flower Maiden made her feel at ease.
" Thank you, Cheza," Blue said straining her neck. Still she couldn't help but smile a bit.
" If we hurry maybe we can still catch him. This one thinks that she can still sense his presence nearby."
Cheza pulled away from Blue. Her eyes were still stained with tears. Her lip quivered and it made Blue even sadder.
" He didn't want that…" Blue said quietly. " I should have never told you."
" I'm glad you did.," Toboe sniffled.
" If he doesn't want to be around us so badly he can tell us himself," Tsume grumbled.
" Then it's settled," Kiba sighed. " We'll go and find him."
Blue wanted to tell them that they'd already said they wanted to Hige to stay and it hadn't worked. But the looks in their eyes told her to stay quiet. They wanted their friend back.
They stood up to start walking again, as if they hadn't just spent days walking already.
Cheza looked tired. Toboe's stomach growled. How long had it been sense they'd last eaten or slept. She had to remember to do those things for herself so she'd be able to function. Every sinse she'd started traveling I'd gotten harder and harder to keep her stomach full and her mind sharp.
Kiba seemed to off sensed this as well. He looked up at the sky and sighed again.
" He couldn't have gotten far. We can leave at dawn and still catch up in a day."
Hi! This is a Wolf's Rain fanfiction! Thanks for coming. Thnk you for reading. Another chapter that would have but longer but life got in the way again.
