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Stella's POV
The look on Lilly's face when I ask who they are breaks my heart into a million, sharp, bloody pieces and for a second I think about abandoning this plan, but this is for the best, I won't let anyone else get hurt because of me, she always gets hurt in some way because of me.
Andre looks devastated, he looks like someone tore out his heart, I dont want him to be this distraught by this, he should just get over me, find a better girlfriend, one that isn't crazy like me.
Lucy and Tori are trying to comfort Lilly, and they both look upset, I'm surprised Tori is bothered, I can tell she likes Andre and now she will have him all to herself, in fact I am surprised Andre picked me over Tori 'perfect fucking' Vega in the first place, she is so pretty, popular, perky and skinny, she is the complete opposite of me, she is perfect.
Lucy is a great friend, she is so down to earth and I need that in my crazy life, yet she is so adventurous, she is never boring, she always manages to calm everyone down and she has a way of stopping any fight, I admire that about her.
Cass is silently crying behind Lilly, we have had our differences, I've called her a baby and crazy before and she has put me in hospital because of it, but apart from that, she always finds a way to brighten my day in some messed up way, just like Cat.
Eddie is standing besides Andre and he looks out of it, kind of confused, he is a very loyal friend, I dont know what I'm gonna do without him, but I dont deserve him as a friend, he is too nice, nice people always get hurt.
Charlie doesn't really look that affected, but he is fiddling with his hands, something that I know he does when he is nervous or upset, he scared me at first and sometimes he still does because he is a wrestler like my dad, but I know he is a good person, he's nothing like my dad, and he has been a kind and patient friend to me, I really find it easy to trust him.
Chris hardly ever smiles, so now isn't that different, his head is hung down and he is staring at the floor with a blank face, he is so nice, so sweet, he is the best friend you could have, he is so understanding and he makes it so easy to talk to him.
Robbie is standing next to Chris quietly, he's looking around the room silently, looking for a distraction I guess, I know I have never been very close to Robbie, but we have a kind of love-hate friendship, he annoys me sometimes, ok a lot of the time, but he is so sweet and his crush on Cat is so obvious, they would make an adorable couple I think, I wish I had set them up before this.
The only ones not in here are Cat, Jade and Beck.
After a while everyone's talking just sounds like a buzz, I feel so tired and dizzy, my eyes feel heavy and I find myself falling into a deep restless sleep.
I wake up and the room is empty now, everyone has left, they've probably realised that they should stop wasting their time on me anymore, but that's good, that's what I wanted, want, its what's best for them, that they just forget about me and move on with their lives.
This stupid hospital gown has short sleeves, so they obviously saw my scars, how could they not!
Even if I carry on pretending that I've lost my memory I'm still gonna end up having to answer all sorts of questions, It is fucking obvious that the scars are self inflicted, they're going to find out that I am a broken mess and they won't want anything to do with me anyway, and Lilly will eventually come to her senses and ditch me for a more sane friend, who won't almost get her killed by their psycho father!
Which reminds me, what the hell am I gonna do about my father, the police are going to want a statement from me and I can't do that because I 'can't remember anything' so he won't get arrested for abuse, and even if her does get arrested for attacking Lilly, Andre and Jade, he will probably only get a few months in jail and then he will be back and he will kill me for this.
The doctors are going to put me in a padded cell like the one Cat was in, if not that a mental home, an asylum or something!
I fucking hate my life, I wish I was dead.
I sit in silence for what feels like an hour, when I hear the door creak open, I look towards the door way and I see Jade walk in, alone, no one else, I knew it, they've realised that Im not worth fighting for.
Jade is putting her brave face on, but I know her very well and I've used that face enough times to know that its bullshit, her eyes are watering, but keeping her tough facade she refuses to let them fall, even though I'm the only one in here and I've seen her cry before believe it or not.
"They've told me that you have amnesia" Jade says walking towards my bed slowly, wincing quietly in pain with each step she takes, she would be hurt if it wasn't for me.
I just nod in response.
"I just wanted to see you, and I know you dont remember me, but my name is Jade, I've been your friend for almost a year" she says, I can tell that she is hoping to jog my memory, get me to remember her.
"I'm sorry, but I really can't remember you" I say, trying not to cry myself when I see a few tears fall out of Jade's eyes despite her trying not to cry.
"I'm really sorry" I say feeling bad, but still refusing to stop pretending, this is for their own good.
"no, dont worry, it fine, it's not your fault, I'm going to go back to my hospital room, but I promise I'll come back later, we can talk and I might be able to help you remember a few things" Jade says hopefully, managing a small smile.
When she leaves, I sigh and close my eyes.
This is not what I wanted, she's not supposed to want to help, and it is not going to be easy to get rid of them.
But it may be easier to do once I am out of this damn hospital bed, that's if the doctor's dont put me in the nut house first.
Ok, that is it for now.
I hope you liked this chapter, I worked very hard on it.
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