Loki's eyes become wide and full of terror.
He lifts you and carries you back across the hall and into your chambers. Next he runs to get a maiden. He returns with two and sends one to fetch a healer and the other to clean the vomit from the nursery.
Loki looks at you and sees that your shirt is stained with vomit. He opens a drawer and pulls out a white night gown.
You sit on the bed, staring blankly at the wall.
"I am going to clean you up." Loki tells you.
You don't respond, or even blink.
Loki sighs and removes your stained tee-shirt. Then he disappears into your bathroom and returns seconds later with a wet towel. He cleans off your chin and bare chest. Next, he slips the white night gown over your head. You refuse to put your arms through the short silk sleeves, so he lifts your arms and guides them through the sleeves. When he is finished his kisses the top of your head.
"A healer will be here soon...don't worry." He whispers.
You don't respond.
There is a knock on the doors to your chambers.
"Enter." Loki says.
The healer that helped your with your pregnancy enters.
"What happened?" She asks.
Loki explains and the healers listens carefully. She then examines you quickly.
You continue to stare blankly ahead.
"What is wrong with her?" Loki asks, his voice shaky.
"She is in shock." The healer sighs.
"Shock? From what?" He exclaims.
"She was holding your son before she vomited, was she not?" She asks.
"Yes...but what..."
"I believe she has remembered the lose of your child." The healer says sadly.
Loki looks at you and sighs. Then he hugs you tightly from the left side.
"Will she be alright?" He asks.
"In time." The healer nods.
"I will wait then." Loki replies.
"Most women need to be alone for this sort of healing." She warns him.
"She has been alone for far too long...I will stay with her." Loki tells the healer.
You finally look at Loki.
"Sigyn?" He gasps.
"I am sorry." You say.
The healer takes this opportunity to leave you two alone.
"For what darling? You needn't be sorry for anything!" Loki exclaims.
"I failed you." You say looking away from him.
"No! No you have not failed me!" Loki wraps his arms tighter around you, pulling you closer.
"Look, our baby died by accident...there was nothing you did wrong..." Loki tells you reassuringly.
"If I wouldn't have fainted maybe..." You trail off as you begin to cry.
"Sigyn! It is not your fault!" Loki wipes your tears away.
"It sure feels like it is!" You yell.
"Look at me." He tells you.
You look at him.
"I do not blame you, and you should not blame yourself."
You look into his eyes and then hug him.
"It's alright darling..." Loki hugs you tightly.
That is exactly what you needed to hear.
When you break apart you stare into his eyes again.
"Loki..." You trail off.
"I need you."
Loki's brow furrows with confusion.
"I need to feel you close to me..." You tell him.
"Sigyn, what do you mean..."
You interrupt him by kissing him on the lips.
Loki is shocked, but returns the kiss.
You fall backwards onto the bed and Loki crawls on top of you, never breaking the kiss.
When you do break apart, he searches your eyes for a sign as to where to take this. You simply nod and he kisses you again. He only breaks the kiss to remove his shirt and your night gown. He holds your bare chest against his and kisses you passionately.
You reach for his pants and he helps you remove them, never breaking the kiss. You feel his manhood brush against your thigh and your legs twitch with excitement. You grind your panties against his naked groin and he moans into your mouth where his tongue is exploring. He pulls his tongue out and helps you to remove your panties.
He looks you in the eye and you nod. He lifts you slightly off the mattress and hugs you against himself as he enters you. You moan and he kisses your forehead sloppily. He places you on your side and adjusts himself inside you as he lays down to face you. You snuggle close to him, wrapping your leg around his torso, moving him deeper inside you. You pant heavily as he begins to thrust slowly and intimately. You reach for his hand and he holds yours tightly.
"I love you." You whisper as he begins to pick up the pace.
"Sigyn...I love you too."
You kiss him and he moans into the kiss.
You squeeze his hand tighter as he thrusts harder and faster.
You bite your lip, knowing you will release soon. Your eyes meet his and he presses your foreheads together.
His eyes bare into your soul and you release, moaning his name loudly. He grunts and releases into you, holding your hand tightly.
You let go of his hand and brush his hair back away from his face.
"Thank you." You tell him. "I needed that."
Loki nods and pulls out of you.
"We both needed that. To heal from our year apart we must be together." He says quietly.
Loki rolls over on his back and you snuggle up to his chest.
"I never want to leave you again Loki." You whisper.
"I will not let you leave again, not without me." He whispers back sleepily.
You smile and listen to his heart slow as he falls asleep.
You glance at him, he looks so peaceful. You remember what he said earlier about not being able to sleep well without you. This was probably the first time he has slept soundly in months. You sigh with contentment and close your eyes to sleep, knowing you would wake up safely tucked in the arms of the man you loved.
