Author's Note: Sorry for the very long delay. Life has been really busy. I promise to try to update more often. I hope you like it. Enjoy!
Chapter 51: Innocence.
Sirius walked into their room and smiled when Sam looked away from the window and at him. "You didn't have to come after me, you know."
He walked over to her and hugged her. "It's almost midnight. It's a bad start to the New Year if you don't kiss the one you love." She smiled. "Plus, you were upset and I couldn't just leave you by yourself. I'd be a terrible husband if, on the first night, I had you upset."
Sam kissed him. "Thank you for coming, Sirius." He smiled. "I highly doubt that you could ever be a bad husband."
He laughed. "I was a terrible boyfriend."
She laughed and rolled her eyes. "At first, you really were but then you were you again and that made it better. You'll be a great husband to me."
Sirius ran his fingers through her hair and kissed her. "I love you, Sammy. I just want you to be ok again."
"I'm fine now that you are here with me." She kissed him again. "I love you so much."
She started to unbutton his shirt but he stopped her. "Sammy, we don't have to do this tonight. If you are upset then we should wait to be together."
Sam nodded. "I'm not upset anymore, Sirius." He nodded. "I want to be with you. I want our wedding night to be special."
Sirius smiled and kissed her. "Are you sure?" She nodded. "If you are completely sure…"
"I am! I want to be with you. I want tonight to be special for us."
"It will be special, Sammy. I promise, tonight will be special." He started to play with the straps of her dress. "Now, where were we?"
Sam held in a laugh. "Not so fast, Black."
His hands stopped moving. "What is it? What's wrong?"
She smiled and caressed his cheek. "Nothing is wrong. I just have a little surprise for you." He smiled eagerly. "Stay right here while I get ready."
Sirius winked at her. "Sammy?" She turned around. "I love you."
Sam smiled and his heart stuttered. "I love you too." She grabbed a few things and opened the door. "I really do love you, Sirius." Sirius smiled as she left.
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He sat down on their bed and waited for her to return from changing in the bathroom. His hands started to sweat in anticipation. He almost laughed at himself. He didn't understand why he was so nervous. He had had sex before. Ok, he had had a lot of sex before. He had had sex with her before but it was different this time. Tonight was their first time as man and wife.
He didn't know what to do with himself. He took a deep breath and striped down to his boxers. He started to pace and wondered what the hell was taking her so long. He sat back down on the bed and continued to wait. He didn't hear the door open and jumped when he looked up and saw her standing in front of him.
She stood in front of him and gave him a nervous smile. Her hands were clenched together as she watched him watch her.
He just gaped at her. She was standing before him in a snow white silk and lace nightgown that reached her ankles. The thin straps of her nightgown slipped down her arms and his fingers put them back in place. He saw her trembling hands and held them in his own. He glided his thumb over her bottom lip before he kissed her. The hair that curled around her bare arms was pushed away when he kissed her with a little more force. "You look so beautiful." He whispered against her neck before kissing her just above her collarbone.
His hand cupped and massaged her breast while the other hand worked its way up the nightgown. She put a hand on his arm. "Wait."
He froze. "Are you ok?"
She nodded. "I'm fine."
"What's the matter?"
"Nothing's the matter."
"Then why did you stop me?"
Sam sat down on the bed next to him and took a deep breath. She looked at him closely before smiling. "Do you like my nightgown?"
Sirius blinked. "I'm sorry?"
She bit her lip and it took everything in him not to kiss her at that moment. "I asked if you liked my nightgown. Do you like it?"
He nodded slowly. "Yes, I do. It's very beautiful." She smiled in response. "So, let me get this straight," She looked at him in curiosity. "You stopped us to talk about your nightgown?" She shook her head and shrugged. He sighed. "It is very beautiful. Where did you get it?"
Sam smiled. "Lily and Andy got it for me yesterday while we went to talk to Remus. They wanted me to have something special for tonight."
Sirius smiled and kissed her cheek. "That was very nice of them." She nodded. When he tried to kiss her, she moved her head away. "What is it? What's the matter?"
"I have to tell you something."
"What is it?"
"I did something."
"What did you do?"
"So, you really like my nightgown?"
He groaned. "Samantha, just talk to me!" She gulped. "Did you do a bad thing?" She shrugged. "Did you…cheat on me?" She gasped and shook her head aggressively. He let out a sigh of relief and smiled. "Baby, whatever it is, you can tell me. You have me to talk to and to tell your problems, thoughts, dreams, desires, and whatever else you need to talk about to. Just tell me what you did."
Sam took a deep breath. "Lilac-"
He put up a hand to stop her from finishing her sentence. "Are you trying to put me out of the mood?" She looked at him curiously. "Mentioning Lilac, at anytime, will guarantee me to be put out of the mood for a long time."
She rolled her eyes and laughed. "You are so mean!" He laughed and shrugged. "I was going to tell you that, as you know, Lilac lost her virginity to Michael."
Sirius groaned and put a hand on his stomach. "I think I'm going to be sick!"
She hit his arm playfully and laughed again. "Would you stop?" He smiled and nodded. "As I was saying, Lilac lost her virginity to Michael and when she started going out with Adam, she wished she waited to be with him instead of rushing into things with Michael. So, she found a charm to make her a virgin again."
He held in a smile. He knew what she was going to say next but decided to play dumb. He didn't want to ruin her surprise and he didn't want James to be beaten up by his little sister. James would never live it down and Sirius would do everything in his power to make sure he never forgot. "What does this have to do with what you did?"
She took a deep breath. "IhadLilyperformthecharmonme."
"I'm sorry; I seemed to have missed that. Why don't you try speaking slowly and separating your words?"
She let out a nervous laugh. "I had Lily perform the charm on me."
His eyes widened. "You did what?" She blushed. "Why would you want to do something like that?"
"I-I heard a part of your conversation with Remus." He nodded slowly. He didn't know that part. "I know how you wish that you were my first. I always thought you were going to be my first but you weren't. Remus was." Sirius held in a sneer. "I did this because I wanted to give you the one thing you always wanted but never got. I wanted to show you what it would have been like if things worked out differently three years ago. I want you to know what it would have been like to my first."
Sirius held her hands in his and smiled at how perfectly they fit together. "Sammy, why?"
She kissed him. "I love you, Sirius. I wanted to do this for you." He kissed her back. "There's one thing that I'm not sure about though."
"What's that?"
She took a deep breath. "I don't remember if Lilac said if it would hurt like the first time or not."
He nodded as he wrapped an arm around her. "That does present a problem."
"It doesn't have to be, does it?"
Sirius smiled and kissed her temple. "It's not a problem for me. I'm just worried about hurting you. I want you to be ok, that's all."
Sam smiled. "I will be fine. I know you will be gentle. I trust you, Sirius. I'll be ok if you go slowly."
He stood up and kneeled down in front of her. He caressed her cheek and kissed her forehead. "I promise, no matter what, I'll go slow and be gentle. You don't have to worry about that."
She smiled again before laughing. "How do we start?"
Sirius laughed. "I don't know really. It's been a while since I've been with a virgin."
She nodded. "It's been a while since I've been one."
He kissed her lips. "We will start off slow and you will stop me if you are in any pain." She nodded again. "Shall we begin?" He said with a nervous laugh.
She giggled. "Yes, we shall."
He made her lie down on their bed and lay down on top of her. He kissed her lips slowly before sucking on her bottom lip. He planted light kisses along her jaw line and trailed down to the base of her neck. Sirius slid the straps of her nightgown down her arms as he nibbled on her collarbone. She laughed. He looked up and smiled. "Are you alright?"
Sam smiled and nodded. "I'm fine. That just tickled."
Sirius smirked evilly and her eyes widened. She knew what was coming. "That tickled, did it?"
"Sirius, don't do it."
His smile turned angelic but she knew better. "I'm not going to do anything, love." She rolled her eyes. He laughed. "Well, that's a lie." She eyed him cautiously. "I have to do it." She shook her head eagerly. "Oh, but I do, Sammy. It has to happen." She groaned. "I'm going to have to tickle you. It's the only way."
Sirius started tickling her ribs and laughed when she started to squirm around and let out a loud giggle. His fingers traveled down to behind her knees and she started gasping for air. "No, you have to stop, Sirius!" She gasped. "Please, stop it! You know I'm very ticklish!"
He smiled and his face looked down right evil. "Yes, I know you are. That's why I'm doing it."
They rolled around on the bed and Sirius continued to tickle her. Sam finally got the upper hand and pinned him to their bed. She grabbed a hold of his wrists and held them above his head. "Are you going to stop now?"
He stared at her closely and smiled. "Did I ever tell you how beautiful you are?"
She blushed before rolling her eyes. "Flattery will get you nowhere, Black."
He smirked. "It's gotten me to a few places, Black."
"Do you promise to stop?"
"No, I don't."
She groaned. "Why must you tickle me?"
Sirius tried to free his wrists but she tightened her grip. "Are you as nervous as you were before?" She shook her head slowly. "See, it was just a distraction. We were nervous and now, we aren't."
Sam smiled and kissed him. "You continue to surprise me." She let him go. "But, please, no more tickling me."
He put his hands behind her head and brought her face to his. "No more tickling." He started kissing the side of her neck just under her ear. "I love you, Sammy."
She tangled her hands in his hair as his kissing became more eager. "I love you, Sirius."
He pulled her nightgown over her head and pushed it to the side. Her breath quickened as his hands roamed her body. He groaned when her hands made their way down inside his boxers. He rolled over and grinded into her. She removed his boxers and wrapped a leg around his back. He trailed his tongue down her throat to her breasts. He nipped at the soft skin while his hands traveled to her hips. He nibbled on her stomach and she laughed. He started biting her on her hip and she let out a mix between a gasp and a giggle. His hands massaged her inner thighs and she began to pant. He started kissing up her body and looked at her in the eye. "Are you ready, Baby?" She nodded quickly. "I have to hear you say it, Sammy. I need to hear it."
She nodded again. "I'm ready, Sirius."
He kissed her as he opened her legs and positioned himself between them. He sucked on her neck as he entered her slowly. "I love you. I love you, Sammy."
She let out a strangled sob as she felt the familiar pain. Tears welded up in her eyes and she was grateful that he kept his promise of going slow. "I-I…l-love you too, Sirius." He pushed into her further and she groaned in pain. "Sirius, you have to stop!"
He stilled in an instant. "Was I hurting you?"
"Yes, it hurt. I-I just need a moment."
He rested his body on hers and waited for her to be ready. He nuzzled her cheek with his. "I'm sorry, Sammy. I didn't mean to hurt you."
She smiled and gave him a kiss when he wiped away the tears that escaped her eyes. "I know, Baby. It's not your fault." He nodded. "I love you, Sirius."
He sucked on her bottom lip and bit it. "I love you too, Sammy." He rested his head on her chest and smiled when he heard her heart racing. "Did you know that your heart is racing?"
She laughed. "Yes, I know. You make my heart race faster than anything before."
His body shook as he laughed. "You're so full of it!"
"No, I'm not! You've had this effect on me since I was ten and it's only gotten worse since I've gotten older."
He smiled. "Are you being serious?"
"I can't be Sirius. You are Sirius. But I can be Sirius' wife."
He rolled his eyes. "You're such an ass." She nodded eagerly. "How are you doing?"
She smiled. "I'm doing fine. How are you?" He rolled his eyes again. She laughed. "I'm fine. I promise I am fine. I'm ready to start again."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, I'm sure."
He began to move into her further and stopped when she gasped again. He let her take the time to get used to him…again. He still couldn't believe or understand why someone would do something like this for someone else. "Why would she do something like this for me?" He thought to himself as he watched her eyebrows furrow together when he pushed in further. "I love you, Sirius." He looked at her in a mix of confusion and surprise. She gave him a strained smile. "You are still confused about why I did this for you." He smiled and nodded. "The reason is because I love you and wanted to do this for you." He kissed her while he pushed in further. She sighed in relief when he stopped moving. "Never doubt the love I have for you. The love I will always have for you."
He smiled at her. "You will love me forever?" She nodded. "How about when you hate me?" He pushed in again and her eyes widened as she gasped. "Are you ok?" She nodded. He sucked on her neck and grunted when her nails dug into his back and scratched him. "Will you love me when you hate me?"
She moaned when he was completely inside of her. She ached but it didn't matter. She gave him what he always wanted and she made him happy. That's all that mattered to her. "I will love you forever. No matter what happens, I will love you forever. I could never hate you, Sirius."
"Do you mean that?" She nodded. "I love you, Sammy." He kissed her with a surprising amount of force and rocked against her. "Thank you. Thank you, Sammy. I love you so damn much. Thank you!"
She held in her laughter. Remus said the same exact thing when they first slept together. She had to hold in her laughter then too. She didn't understand why they thanked her. It just didn't make any sense to her.
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"Are you still sore?"
Sam lifted her head up off the bed and looked down at Sirius. He was lying on top of her with her legs around his torso. He had his chin resting on her stomach and he wore a doofy smile on his face when she looked at him. She started to laugh. He looked at her oddly. "What is so damn funny?" Her laughs grew loud when he started nipping the skin on her stomach. "What's so funny?"
She ran her fingers through his hair and let out a light giggle. "You are." He looked completely confused. "You just look so damn adorable right now." He rolled his eyes and laughed. "I'm being serious, Sirius!" He smirked and she rolled her eyes. "Sirius, you have this silly smile on your face and you are looking at me with those amazing blue eyes that you have."
Sirius smiled and lightly blushed. "I still can't believe you did that."
"I wanted to. I'm glad I did it."
"Are you really?"
She laughed. "I didn't miss the pain part but I am glad I got to give this to you." He nodded. She rested on her elbows and smiled at him. He was nibbling on her stomach and his thumbs made circles on her hips while he stared at her with big eyes. "I can't imagine my life without you, Sirius."
He slid up her body and lay down on top of her. "I feel the same way." He kissed her. "Are you still sore?"
Sam shrugged. "I'm a little sore but I'm okay."
Sirius nuzzled her cheek with his nose. "Can we do it again?" She laughed. He kissed her with eagerness and pressed into her. She moaned in pleasure and he got even more excited. "Can we?"
She laughed. "Yes, we can. I don't think it will hurt that much this time."
He nodded. "I hope it doesn't hurt you." He kissed her as he entered her. She let out a tiny gasp but was soon fine. He saw her clock and saw that it just turned midnight. He smiled. "Happy New Year, Sammy." They kissed.
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Mr. Potter sat down on his bed with a sigh. It had been a very long day. He woke up early that morning and waited for the kids to leave so that he could borrow James' invisibility cloak and go see his little girl get married. He was unsure about helping them but knew; deep down, that it seemed right for them. His breath caught in his throat when the doors opened and he saw James and Sammy with their arms linked walking down the aisle. His little girl looked like an angel and she was glowing. He thought she saw him because she was staring right at his feet and the others had to shake her out of her daze. He had to hold in a laugh when he saw how nervous Sirius looked when she didn't immediately say 'I do.' He cried a little when they kissed. His baby girl, his little Sammy, was married.
It was such a beautiful wedding and he was glad that he was a part of it. Even though he wished more than anything that he could be the one to give his daughter away, he was glad that James was there for her.
Harold turned his head and watched his wife, as she got ready for bed. He sighed when he thought about the long conversation they had after the kids came home from the wedding. She was livid that they would sneak off like that but he reminded her that she brought this on herself when she threatened to send Sam away. He told her that she should have known that the kids would think of something to get Sam out of going. He knew Sirius would do anything to make sure Sam stayed by his side.
That was one of his greatest fears. Sirius only married Sam to make sure she wasn't sent away but when he thought about it and watched how Sirius acted around his daughter, he knew that Sirius truly loved her and wanted nothing more than to be around her forever. Harold always thought of Sirius as a son. Once he came home with James for Christmas during their first year, he was a part of their family. He knew from the moment he saw Sirius look at Sam, when she greeted them at the door, that the boy was gone. He was in love with Sam and no other girl would be good enough, even if Sirius was too stupid to realize it at that moment.
He always knew that Sirius would be his son-in-law one day. He just didn't think it would be this soon. He laughed to himself when he thought about that summer when Sirius realized he was in love with Sam but she was still with Remus. The way Sirius would try and hog all her attention and monopolize her time made him laugh. Sirius would look so disappointed when she would politely nod and turn her attention back to Remus. Sirius was used to her, before Remus came along, and other girls falling all over him that when she ignored him, he didn't know what to do. Harold was surprised by how patient Sirius was after Sam and Remus broke up. Sirius took his time, for the first time, to be with Sam.
He lay down in his bed beside his wife and closed his eyes. She rested her head on his chest and sighed. "You are a big prat, I hope you know." She whispered.
He laughed. "Why am I a big prat this time?"
Evelyn lifted her head off of his chest and smiled. "You support their marriage when you know it won't last. At most, it will last two days. I won't be surprised if Sam comes in here in the middle of the night and says she made a big mistake. You know once they are done shagging like bunnies, something will happen and it will be over."
He rolled his eyes. "Why are you being so negative? They love each other and have for years-" He stopped talking when her words finally sunk in. his eyes widened. "Wait! Did you just say 'when they are done shagging like bunnies'?" She laughed and nodded. He blinked for a few moments before speaking again. "What makes you think they are shagging?"
Evelyn rolled her eyes. "Do you remember how we were at their age?" He smirked and nodded. "Do you remember how we were when we first got married?" He laughed and nodded. "Now, put those two things together and you have Sirius and Sammy."
He groaned. "I really didn't need to hear that!" She shrugged and laughed. "Now, I'm going to have to kill him."
"Why?"
"He is probably violating my little girl right now."
She smirked. "He is her husband."
"It doesn't matter! She is still my baby girl! No man has the right to touch her! Husband or not!"
Evelyn kissed him. "Now, you know how my father felt on our wedding night."
Harold groaned again. "If your father was still alive, I'd apologize over and over for a year."
She laughed again. "Harold, you're being ridiculous! Everyone has sex!"
"Not everyone is my little girl." He grumbled.
Her eyebrows rose as she stared at him closely. "Would you be acting this way if we were talking about James?"
A faint smile appeared on his lips. "Has James?"
Evelyn shook her head and sighed. "You're hopeless." He gave her a questioning look. "James, according to what I heard Sirius say, is still a virgin. He was waiting for Lily and Lily is waiting for marriage."
He laughed. "The poor boy is going to burst!" She rolled her eyes again. He yawned. "It's been an exciting day and I'm beat. Sweet dreams, dear."
They kissed and she smirked when his eyes closed. She leaned in and whispered in his ear. "Have sweet dreams of Sirius taking your only daughter's virginity."
Harold groaned like he was in pain. "Evelyn, I didn't need to hear that!"
She laughed and kissed his lips. "Goodnight, sweetheart. Have sweet dreams."
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A breeze crept through the crack in the window as they lied on their bed facing each other. He pulled her closer to him when she shivered and smiled when she blushed at his touch. Her eyes were fluttering closed and his smile grew. She was so beautiful. She was his everything. She was his wife.
He couldn't believe his luck. The only person he ever truly loved was with him and only him for eternity. He had hurt her. He had hurt her so deeply that he didn't think it would ever be possible to repair but somehow, it had repaired.
He watched as her body rose and fell along with her breathing and couldn't help but grin like a fool. She was his world. He had made so many mistakes when it came to her. He destroyed her. He broke her. He betrayed her but she took him back and willingly married him after everything. He was lucky.
As he watched her sleep, he remembered the past year. He had everything and destroyed it because of fear. She had given him another chance and he refused to blow it this time. He had thought he had lost her for good and almost lost his friends because of what he did but he didn't.
She belonged to him. He belonged to her. They belonged to each other forever, even in death. They belonged to each other forever and no one or thing could ever change that. He thought he'd feel trapped but he didn't. He felt elated. They would always be together and that meant more to him than anyone could ever understand.
She sighed in her sleep and he placed a small kiss on her forehead. Her skin felt warm against his lips and he felt a joyous sensation run through his veins. She was his. He was hers. This is the way things should be. All was right with the world. The two tragic lovers had found their happy ending. No, not ending. It was their happy beginning as man and wife. All was finally right with the world.
He looked over at the window when he felt the cold December breeze against his back again and couldn't remember when they opened it. He looked back at his sleeping bride and smiled when she draped her arm across his stomach. To feel her bare skin on his meant the world to him.
He wasn't sentimental like this often but how often is it when someone, who has caused the love of his young life nothing but pain, been able to say that despite it all she came back and loved him with the same amount of fire and passion as she had when they first met? How often is it when a scorned woman goes back to the one who scorned her? How often is it, in this crazy world, that two people find true and honest love that will last eternity at their young age? How often is it when you find your soul mate when you are only a mere boy of eleven?
He placed her hand in his and kissed her palm. They fit perfectly. Their hands were made to be held by one another. He kissed her palm again. She was his better half. She was able to calm him down. She was able to make him crazy. She was able to make him able to love. She was his everything. There was nothing he could deny her. If she asked him at that moment to die for her, he would without question.
He laughed to himself. He was a sentimental fool. He was acting like all the others he used to make fun of. He was acting like a fool in love. No, he wasn't acting. He actually was a fool in love and it didn't bother him one bit. He was completely and head-over-heels in love with this girl. No, not girl. She was a woman. She was his woman. She was, and will always be, his wife.
There was a tapping noise at the window and he turned around. He saw an owl fluttering outside and he sighed to himself. He didn't want to get out of bed and be away from her warmth. He wished he could just curl up inside of her forever. He took a deep breath and eased out of the bed so not to disturb her and opened the window. He shivered violently when the cold hit his bare body. He found a cracker on the bedside table and fed the owl before it flew away. The envelope was sapphire and it reminded him of Dumbledore. He couldn't understand why but it seemed to make sense.
He looked over at her and smiled when he saw her nose twitch. He saw that the letter was addressed to Mr. and Mrs. Sirius Black. His smile grew when he opened the envelope. It was a letter from Dumbledore.
"Dear Mr. and Mrs. Sirius and Samantha Black,
My old friend, Mr. Meadows, has informed me that two of my students decided to elope today. I wish to send you my congratulations on your wedding day.
I have never seen, in all my years, two people more perfect for one another as you are. Besides Mr. Potter and Ms. Evans, of course.
I wish you nothing but the best of wishes and am eager for your return to Hogwarts in the next two days.
The rest of the staff have been informed of your marriage and send their best wishes as well.
Congratulations once again and enjoy the rest of your holiday.
Sincerely,
Your headmaster,
Albus Dumbledore."
Sirius folded the letter back up and smiled to himself. Dumbledore always seemed to amaze him. He sighed to himself. All the professors knew and, according to Dumbledore, accepted their marriage. That was one less hurdle they'd have to go through once they returned to school. He knew their friends would be upset that they didn't tell them and weren't invited to the wedding but they would get over it. They would all be invited to the wedding they'd have after Sam finished school. "Sirius?"
He looked over at their bed and saw her staring at him. She blushed and had a shy smile on her face. Her hair was tousled and her skin seemed to glow in the moonlight. "Yes, love?" He whispered.
Sam stared at him closely. Her face grew warm as she took the sight of his naked form, lit by the moonlight coming through the window, in and smiled. "Are you alright?" She whispered.
Sirius smiled at her. She shifted her body to lean on her elbow and the sheet fell to her hips. His breath caught in his throat. As corny as it may sound, she was a vision of beauty to him. He walked over to her and lay down next to her. "I'm fine, love." She smiled. His heart melted. "What are you doing up? Did I wake you?"
She shook her head. "No, you didn't. I just woke up." He nodded and kissed her palm. "Why were you at the window?"
Sirius smiled when she rested her head on his chest. He kissed the top of her head and wrapped his arms around her. "An owl came to the window. We got a letter."
She laughed. "Who sent us a letter?"
He caressed her cheek when she looked up at him and rested her chin on his chest. "Dumbledore did. He addressed it to 'Mr. and Mrs. Sirius Black'. He wanted to congratulate us and let us know that all the professors know about our marriage. They send us their best wishes as well."
Sam nodded and leaned into his touch. "They do?" He nodded. "I can't believe Dumbledore knows. How did he find out? Mum couldn't have sent that owl to him so soon."
"Mr. Meadows is an old friend of his." She nodded. "What owl was your mum going to send?"
She rolled her eyes and laughed. "She informed me that she was going to send a letter to Dumbledore to let him know of the terrible mistake we made."
"Your mother is a piece of work."
She gave him a look. "She's your mother too now."
He laughed and hit himself on the forehead. "What was I thinking?"
Sam hit his arm playfully and laughed. "You are so mean!"
She sat up and rested on her knees while he sat up. He kissed her. "We both know I can be mean." She sighed and nodded. "But we both know that I never mean to be mean." She nodded again. He kissed her again. "I love you, Samantha."
She caressed his cheek and smiled. "I love you too, Sirius." He smiled. She bit her lip. "D-Do you…do you think…?"
Sirius held her hands in his to stop her from fidgeting. "What is it, love? What's on your mind?"
"You…do you think we made a terrible mistake?"
"Excuse me?"
Her eyes widened. "N-No, I-I didn't mean it like that!"
"Then how did you mean it?"
She shrugged. "I don't know."
He made her look at him. "Talk to me, Samantha."
"I don't regret marrying you. I've dreamt of marrying you since I was ten years old." He smiled when she blushed. "It's just that we are so young and we still have so much to experience. Are we…by getting married so young, are we cutting ourselves off from experiencing things?"
Sirius kissed her. "Yes and no. Yes, we are cutting ourselves off to certain experiences but no; we aren't cutting out all of them. Some experiences we will live without but others, we can experience together." She smiled. "We didn't make a terrible mistake. We've been in love forever. We've always known that we are meant to be together. Yes, we've had a lot of detours but that doesn't matter anymore. Who cares what other people think or what they will say about us? We know that this is right for us. That's all that matters." She kissed him. "I will love you forever, Sammy. Nothing could ever change that."
She laughed. "Will you really love me forever, Sirius?" He nodded. "Will you love me when I'm old and gray with terrible wrinkles?"
Sirius laughed. "Of course I will! I'll love you even if you are fat and pregnant!" He gulped when he saw the look on her face. "S-Sammy-"
Sam put her hand over his lips and smiled. "I'd love nothing more than to give you a baby."
His eyes widened. "Y-You would?" She nodded and smiled. "What? You want to have one right now?"
She laughed. "No, not right now! We just got married and I still have a year of school left! I meant after I was done with school. I want to give you a child. I'd love to give you a child of our very own."
He smiled slowly. "I'd love that but I thought you didn't want to have a baby because if our child has a daughter, she would become a dream seer like you."
She shrugged. "I know but you were right. If it was explained to her and she had help then it would be ok." She shivered. "I love you, Sirius. I want to have a child with you when the time is right."
Sirius held her face in his hands and kissed her. He nibbled on her neck and laughed when she let out a soft giggle. "I'd love to have a child with you." She pulled away from him and grabbed the shirt he gave her. He stopped her from dressing. "What are you doing?"
"I'm cold."
He smirked. "I'll warm you up."
She laughed and rolled her eyes. "I'm sure you would but I want to wear a shirt. I like wearing the shirt you gave me." Once she put the shirt on, he put his hands under it and massaged her back. "What are you doing?"
Sirius put on an innocent smile. "My hands are cold. I want you to warm them up."
Sam smiled and started to nibble on his chin. "I love you so much, Sirius."
He moaned. "I love you too, Sammy."
She straddled his hips and sucked on his neck. "I will love you forever. No matter where I am or who I'm with, I'll only love you."
Sirius pulled away from her and gave her a look. He rolled over to be on top of her. "What do you mean 'who you're with'?"
Sam laughed. "I didn't mean it like that! I just meant that if I'm talking to one of my friends that happen to be a guy, and if you see it and get jealous like we both know you will," He laughed while she rolled her eyes. "You will know that no matter what they say, you are the only one in my heart. You are the only one I truly love."
He smiled and kissed her. "That was beautiful!"
She laughed again. "You are so corny!" He laughed. She started to nibble on his chin again. "I want to be honest with you. I want to tell you everything." She whispered. "I want you to know my secrets and I want to know yours."
Sirius licked her neck. "Do you mean that?" She nodded. "If I told you all my secrets, would you promise to love me despite them all? Would promise not to hate me?"
She moaned when his hands moved up her thighs. "I will love you no matter what. My love for you is unconditional. I swear, I could never hate you."
He looked at her and smiled. "I want you to know everything. There's something I have to tell you. I have to tell you a few things actually."
She caressed his cheek and kissed him. "You can tell me anything, Sirius. You can tell me anything and know I will love you despite it all."
Sirius helped her up and gave her a kiss. "Would you like the good secrets or the bad ones first?"
She laughed and shrugged. "Whatever you think is best."
He kissed her again. He took a deep breath and smiled at her. "A part of me has always known that we are meant to be together." She smiled. "The moment I first saw you at King's Cross Station…I couldn't look away. I didn't understand why but all I knew was that I had to meet you. I had to know your name." He kissed her palm. "James and I became best friends, like you said we would, and the way he talked about you made me think of you as my little sister. Of course, I was still thinking about you in a very unbrotherly way but I pushed those thoughts down. I tried to forget those bad thoughts but they were always in the back of my mind. When I saw you that Christmas, they came flooding back. I'd only met you briefly months before but you invaded my mind, my thoughts, and my dreams."
Sam smiled and caressed his cheek. "I was the same way. You were all I talked about. Mum couldn't understand why I kept talking about a boy who I only met for a few moments. I couldn't get you out of my head."
Sirius smiled before kissing her. "It wasn't until the end of my fifth year that I realized that I was in love with you."
Her eyes widened. "What?"
He nodded. "It's true. When I meddled in your relationship with Moony earlier that year, I didn't realize I was jealous because you loved him. I thought I was upset because you didn't care about me anymore." He shook his head. "No, that's not it. I knew you still cared about me as a friend but…you didn't obsess over me anymore."
"Sirius, it wasn't like that at all! I still had a crush on you; it's just that I fell in love with Remus. I didn't ask for it to happen, it just did."
Sirius sighed. "I know that, Sammy. I just didn't understand it then." She nodded. "Do you know when I started to realize I was in love with you?" She shook her head. "It was just another day. Nothing special happened. It was a few days after the O.W.L.'s and we were hanging out by the lake. We were just talking and joking around. I started tickling you and we fell to the ground. I was on top of you and was just watching you laugh. I remember that my heart stopped for a brief moment when you opened your eyes and smiled at me. It was an ordinary moment but that's when I knew."
She smiled. "I remember that day. You grabbed me away from Remus when we started kissing."
He laughed. "I always hated it when you two would kiss in front of me."
Sam laughed and kissed him. "You'll never have to worry about seeing that again. These lips belong to only you now."
Sirius smiled and kissed her. "That's right! We belong to each other…forever." She smiled. "There's something else I have to tell you."
She nodded. "I kind of figured that when you said you had a few good and bad things to tell me. I'm all ears. You can tell me anything."
He sighed. "Have you learned about love potions yet?"
She shook her head. "Not yet. Slughorn said he usually teaches it around Valentine's Day. Why?"
"He taught us around Halloween last year. For some reason he was inspired to teach us early. Come to think of it, he said that while staring at Moony." Sam blushed and looked away from him. She knew why Slughorn was inspired. Sirius groaned. "What?"
Sam laughed. "He just caught us kissing in the halls when Remus was supposed to be patrolling, that's all. Nothing bad, I promise."
He grumbled and she rolled her eyes. "Anyway, it was around Halloween when he taught us about the love potion. He asked me what scents I smelled when I smelt it. I described your scent. I smelled strawberry oil, lavender, and something that reminded me of spring rain. You are what came to me when I smelled the love potion."
She smiled. "Is that true?" He smiled and nodded. She kissed him. "Sirius, that is so sweet! I can't believe it. I was what you smelled?" He nodded and she kissed him again. "Why didn't you ever tell me that before?"
Sirius flushed and smiled. "You were with Moony. I really wanted to screw things up between the two of you again but I couldn't. When I first meddled in your relationship with him and he broke up with you, you said you hated me and I never wanted to hear you say that to me again. I didn't want to cause you pain because I was being a selfish prat. I wanted you so much but I knew I had to wait for you. I would have waited forever until you were finally free to be with me. I knew that what you had with Remus wouldn't last." She rolled her eyes again and he laughed. "Ok, I didn't know for sure but I had hoped against hope that it wouldn't so that we could finally be together."
Sam caressed his cheek and he leaned into her touch. She kissed him slowly and he held her close to his body. "That is the sweetest thing I've ever heard." He smiled. "I know for a fact that when I learn about love potions, I'll smell you."
He nuzzled her cheek with his before kissing her lips. "I love you so much, Sammy. You don't know how much it means to me to be with you again."
She wrapped her arms around his neck and held him close to her. "It means a lot to me to be with you again too. I wished and hoped for the day we'd be together and now, we are married. This means everything to me."
He took in her scent as he tightened his hold on her. "It means everything to me too, Sammy. I never want to be a part from you again."
"You won't be. I'll only ever love you, Sirius." He smiled. She kissed him and smiled. "Is there anything else I need to know?"
Sirius took a deep breath and nodded. "There is."
"What is it, Baby?"
"Do you remember that letter I wrote you when you were at St. Mungo's?"
"Yes, I do. What about it?"
He smiled. "Do you know how I wrote that we missed you and to see you again would be the greatest relief for us?" She nodded. "I didn't mean the others." She gave him a curious look. "I meant me. I knew the others missed you and wanted you back but I was talking about me. I missed you so damn much and wanted nothing more than you to come back to me. I needed you around, Sammy. I need you always." She smiled. "James became my best friend and my brother. Being friends with him made me a best friend and a brother, a son to the best parents anyone could ask for, and the world to the most amazing girl. No, not a girl. To the most amazing woman I've ever met in my life." She smiled and nodded slowly. "My point is that while you were away, James and I would stay up at night and talk. He made me realize that I had to tell you how much I needed you. I knew this already but he gave me the courage not to be afraid to let you know that I love you."
"I always did like James."
Sirius laughed. "Yes, he is a good guy to have around." She giggled in response. He sighed. "Now, here are the bad secrets." She nodded and waited for him to continue. He felt his body starting to shake. He took another deep breath. He prepared himself for her reaction and gave her a kiss. "You will get upset when I tell you this." She gave him a curious look. "Just remember that I need you so much and marrying you was and always will be the best decision I've ever made."
Sam kissed him and smiled. "I know that, Baby. Don't worry so much. Whatever it is that you have to tell me, I'll still love you." He smiled in relief. "It can't be that bad. Just tell me."
He nodded. "Ok, I will tell you." She nodded. "When we first started going out…during the summer…everything was perfect. You and me…we fit perfectly together and we still do." She smiled. "I never felt happier." He kissed her again. "When we came back to school, I started to feel trapped. I was terrified at the fact that I was going to be with one person for the rest of my life. It also didn't help that people came up to me and said it wouldn't last and I would just hurt you. Plus, our friends kept saying I was whipped by you."
She shook her head. "I could hex them for that."
He laughed. "It wasn't their fault. I was the idiot that let it get to me." She nodded and waited for him to continue. "Sarah-"
"Do we have to talk about her?"
Sirius sighed and nodded. "Yes, we do. You have to know the whole truth, Sammy. I have to be honest with you."
Sam sighed. "If you have to mention her then it's fine."
He knew it was only a matter of time before she started yelling at him so he snuck in a kiss. He held her close to him as he kissed her. "Please, remember that I love you."
She nuzzled his neck with her nose and kissed him. "I know that, Sirius. I love you too." He smiled and kissed her again. "I love you no matter what, Baby. I will love you forever. Don't worry so much." She kissed him again. "You may continue."
He took a deep breath. "Sarah was constantly following me around and kept egging me on." She nodded. "Sammy, I don't know why…" He couldn't look at her. He was terrified of her reaction. "I was feeling trapped and I knew that I loved you. I know that I love you."
She smiled at him. He was fidgeting and she held his hands in hers. "Sirius, calm down. It's ok. Whatever it is, you can tell me. Trust in me, Baby. We will be ok."
"I cheated on you on purpose." He blurted out.
Her eyes widened. "What?"
"The night we had that talk in the hall, that was the night I first cheated on you." Her hands pulled away from his slowly. "I was upset by the fight I had with Moony, the things our friends were saying, and…just everything in general. I asked Sarah to meet me on the top of the astronomy tower. I saw her there and started to have second thoughts but I cheated on you anyway." She was looking at her hands. "Everything was moving way too fast. We were talking about marriage and having kids and, at that time, it was all too much too soon. I wasn't ready for all of that and needed time, so I cheated on you." He rubbed her back and didn't notice that she pulled away. "I slept with her again and yes, I regretted it. I just needed more time to be ready for all we planned. I thought if I cheated on you and broke up with you, you would understand that."
Sam looked at him. He couldn't tell what she was thinking. Her face was expressionless. "You cheated on me twice and said all those things to me when we broke up so I would understand that you needed more time?" He smiled and nodded. He was glad that she was understanding. She shook her head. She didn't know what to say. "What else do you have to tell me?"
"The prank I played on Snape-"
"What prank did you play on him? Was this the one he mentioned when he attacked me?"
Sirius nodded. "Yes, it is." He kissed her temple. "Last year was when it happened. He kept asking where we went on the nights of the full moon. He wanted to know where the entrance to the Shrieking Shack was. He figured out that was where we went and he wanted to get in. So, I told him about the Whomping Willow entrance. I forgot to mention that the tree attacks anyone that goes near it." Her eyes widened. "James found out about what I did and he saved Snape. Remus, in his werewolf form, almost attacked Snape but James saved him." Sirius let out a tiny laugh and Sam felt disgusted by him for the first time in her life. "Dumbledore asked him to keep things quiet. He didn't want anyone to know about Remus' condition."
"Remus and James knew about what you did?"
He nodded. "They were livid! Remus was overcome with guilt at the thought of almost killing someone. James was angry that I almost outted Remus and almost got someone killed. They didn't talk to me for a week! Finally, by some miracle, they forgave me."
She let out a breath that she didn't know she was holding in. "James risked his life to save him from the prank you pulled?" He nodded. She couldn't believe what she was hearing. "Is there anything else I need to know?"
"The attack-"
She looked at him sharply. "What about it?"
"I might have caused it."
"Excuse me?"
Sirius felt her eyes on him. He felt as if her eyes were burning a hole through him. "It was when you were dancing with Michael. I was so bloody jealous that you were with him and made time to dance with Snivellus that I didn't know what to do. I saw you wave at him while you were dancing with Michael and I went over to mess with him. I didn't know he would hurt you." He held her to him and she couldn't breath. It felt like he was smothering her. "I didn't mean for it to happen, Sammy."
Sam almost cried when he tightened his hold on her. She couldn't believe what he told her. She couldn't believe anything at that moment. "W-What did you say to him?" She whispered. He started kissing her but she pulled away. "Tell me, Sirius."
He kept kissing her. "What does it matter, Sammy?"
She held his face in her hands to stop him from kissing her. "It matters to me, Sirius. You've told me everything else, right?" He nodded. "Then tell me this. You said it yourself. I deserve to know the whole truth. Just tell me."
Sirius sighed. He knew she wouldn't let this go. She deserved to know the truth. "I just messed with him." She gave him a look. "I told him you weren't really his friend and that it was just a games to you." She moved away from him but he didn't notice. "I made a mention of the prank but I never said you were apart of it. I told him that we had a laugh over making him think you were his friend." He took a deep breath. "I said it would be a better world if he wasn't in it. I told him it was a shame that James saved his life. I told him you never cared about him. I said he meant nothing to you."
"Get out."
