Hello my loyal readers! Geez where has this week gone? I don't know about you all but it went super quick for me with school. Wanna give a big shout-out to Ozlady80 and SJD042342 for the amazing reviews I got last week. You two are the bomb diggity and I thank you so much for the reviews; they keep me going with this story.
So I hate to say this...but it's only one chapter this week. I really am sorry but school is being tough on me with papers to write for classes and all that. And I haven't really had time to write new chapters but I'm gonna try really hard to write them.
Alright enough of me, time to read. See you all at the bottom!
Chapter 46 "Need to talk"
NPOV (Natalie's POV)
It's amazing how something can change your life in an instant, only to put everything into perspective once again.
Wouldn't you refocus if you were so close to losing your other half? Forget what I said before about psychology; I know that Jake's my other half, and if I'm wrong well I don't care. Without him I am empty; not being able to see him, hear him…feel him for months was a slow, painful death.
I awoke the next morning with the sun's rays lighting up my bedroom, hitting my bare back, and I loved the feeling of being back with my alpha. I was once again alive inside.
Last night marked the beginning in a new chapter in my life. Jacob and I were together once again, and we both knew that we'd come so close to losing one another.
I never wanted that to happen again. I needed him just like he needed me, and last night we both showed how much we needed each other. Every touch, kiss, whisper in the ear was amazing and I never want to lose that.
Jacob had a little too much fun with my huge boobs, but that's just one perk of being pregnant. I started laughing just thinking about the look on his face when he took off my blouse and saw just how big I had gotten.
It was like a blind man seeing the sun for the first time; only in this case it was like it was Jacob's first time ever seeing boobs, which made me laugh even more just thinking about it. It is impossible, period.
Now that I thought of Jake, I sat up and looked around. Jacob wasn't in the room, and I panicked. I knew he wouldn't just up and leave me, but I was still shaky because of the whole Bella situation.
I finished putting on one of my new nightgown that Alice had gotten me so that I could go looking for Jacob. Most of the clothes I'd brought back with me weren't fitting me anymore so I need to go shopping soon.
I was finishing clipping my hair when I smelt something. Jacob came in juggling a tray filled with food in one hand and in the other a bouquet of red roses. They reminded me of when Jake gave me roses for the first time.
He placed the tray on the bed before handing me the roses. He had the cutest smile for me, but that's my Jacob for you.
"Good morning beautiful."
I took the bouquet from him, smelling the lovely roses, and placed them on the bedside table before running up to Jacob. I wrapped my arms around his neck, getting on my toes to kiss his lips with hunger, running my hands all over his scrumptious body. I loved him so much.
I slightly pulled back to look at him. "Good morning sexy alpha."
Jacob started laughing, lifting me up onto the bed. "Where did that come from? Did I do a good job making breakfast?"
I didn't even answer. I saw the food and my tummy was firing up a storm, so I scooted over to the tray and just started eating everything Jacob had made. In less than fifteen minutes I ate six waffles with syrup, two cheese omelets, a small bowl of fruit salad, and drank the orange juice.
I pushed the tray aside fully satisfied. "Yummy…I'm full. Thanks honey."
Jake finally talked after I gave him a quick peck. "Um…babe you didn't leave me any."
I didn't know that was for the both of us. I felt so bad right now that I hadn't asked him if it was for the both of us.
"Oh honey I'm sorry. It's just…I was hungry."
Jacob started laughing. "It's alright babe, I figured as much."
Just what did that mean? "You…you mean I ate like a damn cow?"
Man this is the bad part of this pregnancy ladies, the damn mood swings. The littlest thing could either make me happy, sad, pissed off, or make me cry. I wanted to cry right now just from thinking that. What is wrong with me?
Jacob saw the look on my face and saw that I'd taken it bad. "Aw baby you're not a cow. You just have a huge appetite 'cause our kids take after their sexy dad."
He would think something like that. "Well than I'm doomed once they're born. How am I gonna nurse twins? I mean…thinking about it I'm gonna be a 24/7 mommy…"
I felt his lips leave kisses on my neck, going down to the crevice in my collarbone, even biting my mark. "Then don't nurse them…I can have fun with you like always."
"Um…Jake you're trying to go for another round?"
His growl was enough to get me going, and as much as I wanted to, damn he'd worn me out last night.
I took his hands into mine so that they'd stop playing with my recently enlarged chest. I turned to see my man, and I saw that he'd cute his hair into a crop once again. He was playing the hurt role, but I knew he was just kidding.
"Jake you know we have to talk…about our time apart."
Even though we'd both agreed to move on, I knew we needed to talk to put that chapter in the past to move onto this new on. Jacob was quiet for a minute, as if working up to ask me the question I knew was on his mind.
"Where did you go…after you left?"
JPOV (Jacob's POV)
I scooted back to rest against the bed frame, and I pulled Nattie to rest beside me. I felt her tense up, so I knew what was coming.
"When…when I got home, and I saw the pictures," her voice was barely a whisper, "I didn't think."
She turned around and looked me in the eye. "Jacob…when I saw them…I just lost it. I couldn't think, let alone breathe. It…it hurt so much to just do that."
My baby was crying, and I wrapped my arms around her, trying to calm her down. I didn't want her to get upset.
She had finally calmed down. "Once…I reached Montana after the long drive, all I did was look on the map and I found the nearest place close to where I was. I went up there, saw the small town, and I loved it."
Now I started to see her smile. "I started going house hunting, and I told the realtor that I didn't care about the price; I just wanted something cozy. That was when she showed me the cutest little cottage…but what won me was the meadow in the back of the house. As soon as I saw all the flowers…they reminded me of you and of our meadow."
She looked up to touch my face. "I knew I had to get it, so that same day I signed the papers and started living in the cottage. After about a week there I was bored as hell, so I went around town looking for a job. I didn't want people finding out too much about me, so I just used my powers while in the interviews. I knew that since I was going to start showing I needed to find something comfy, and luckily I got a job at the local doctor's office being a receptionist and translator.
The doctor was nice, and I got my routine checkups from him so that I'd know me and the babies were on the right track. I had to erase bits from his memory since I'm not…normal, but it worked out. He made sure I was eating right, taking my vitamins and all, just making sure I was ok.
And that's how I spent the last few months…but I was miserable Jacob."
She cuddled up beside me; I wrapped one arm around her while she took the other and placed it on her belly.
"When I felt the first kicks…I couldn't stop crying. I was selfish not having you there to share that moment with me. I thought of never coming back here to La Push; I was clear on just living life by myself with the babies. But then…I started hearing their thoughts."
I looked down at her amazed that it was even possible. "You can hear them?"
She had the biggest smile I had seen so far. "Yeah; I remember I was at work, trying to put away a patient's file, and right then I heard one of the twin's thoughts. I lost it for a minute, dropping everything. When the doctor came to see what was wrong, I told him that I was just feeling the kicks, so he let it pass. As soon as I got home I went outback to meadow and talked to the babies."
"Mindlink?"
She just rolled her eyes, but I knew she was playing around. "Yeah, how else could I have heard them? Our babies are unique you know. I spent hours talking to them, telling them how much I loved them since the moment I had found out and that I couldn't wait to meet them. But then…they asked me about you."
I saw a single tear falling. I reached over to kiss it away.
"They wanted to know why you weren't there with us, why we were apart. I didn't really know what to say…but somehow, I knew I'd see you again. So I just said that one day we'd be together again. So that's how I spent the rest of the summer; work and then back to the cottage. I didn't really go out, make any friends, or meet anyone… one guy did showed interest in me though."
W-what? "What do you mean 'showed interest'?"
I was shaking a bit, only because I could see just about any guy falling for Natalie. Natalie saw my reaction, and all she had to do was give my hand a gentle squeeze, and I was almost back to normal once again.
"Don't get like that Jake. I told the guy off in a heartbeat."
"You…you did?"
All she did was laugh before kissing my cheek. "Of course I did my loquito. He worked at the sports bar and I'd only go there to spend time to myself. He always came up to me with free food and all this crap. So he came up to me with this cocky ass attitude one night thinking that he was sucha badass. He asked me if I was interested going on a date with him since he always saw me alone, but I got him back."
Nat got off the bed to get her purse, and when she came back she opened it up on the bed, pulling out a gold band.
"All I had to do was show him this on my ring finger and my baby bump at the time; worked like a charm."
A wedding ring? "You wore a wedding ring the whole time you were away?"
"Well…yeah, I did."
"Why?"
She just shrugged her shoulders. "Well I didn't want any guy hitting on me, and besides, we are bound to each other for eternity. Just because I wasn't with you at that time didn't mean that I loved you any less. No matter how hard I tried to stop loving you, I just couldn't do it. Jake, I was miserable without you…not to mention at night when you weren't there to comfort me."
I just took this all in little by little until I could talk. I mean…jealousy is a tough thing for a guy, right?
"Well what did the…guy say after what you showed him the ring?" I snarled at the word just thinking of some random guy hitting on her just because she was by herself.
"Well what do you think? He was stunned that I was "married" and with a baby on the way since I was kinda hiding my belly for awhile so that people wouldn't ask me about it. He apologized and gave me congrats on the babies. Never saw him again from then on."
I was trying to imagine what it was like for her, but was interrupted when I felt her go quiet for a minute.
"That was the night I had the vision of the fight. I woke-up screaming when I saw everyone dead on the field because I wasn't there to help prevent it from happening. The Great Wolf told me to leave and to come back here. After he disappeared I went and packed up everything I had and got back on the road. I'd be lying if I said I was happy coming back… I felt like I wasn't ready yet to see you, but fate had a different idea in mind.
When I got to the Cullens, and you came out…everything came back into my mind like the walls had come down on me. I felt so much hate towards you and Bella for what had happened, not to mention topped off with pregnancy hormones. Yet seeing you again…it gave me all those old feelings again."
NPOV (Natalie's POV)
I could instantly feel my cheeks lighting up, since I was kinda embarrassed telling Jacob just how I felt at that moment.
I had to look down, but instantly Jacob lifted my chin up to look me in the eye.
"Why are you blushing?"
Instantly I bit my lips, something I'd picked up somewhere along the way. I sat up, but Jake was trying hard to see me in the eyes.
He was so impatient. "Oh come on Nattie it can't be that bad."
It was still embarrassing. "Well…does it sound bad that I wanted to drag you off somewhere so I could fuck you like a horny teenage girl?"
God this is embarrassing and Jacob's laughing like a damn idiot! All I did was hit him in the chest but that didn't do anything. "Jacob it's not funny! You don't know what it's like to have urges and not have someone cool you off."
And what did that do? It only made him laugh even harder than before; that only made me feel even more embarrassed than before.
"See I told you it was bad, you won't stop laughing."
Jacob stopped laughing for a brief moment. "Are you serious? You thought of raping me with pleasure just by seeing me?"
I was feeling so embarrassed right now. "I knew you'd laugh at me. I'm leaving since you're being an asshole."
He just held onto me harder as I tried to get away from his giant self. "Nat you know I'm just playing with you. It's just weird hearing it since you didn't show anything but hate towards me."
That was when I read his mind, and saw that he was replaying the fight I had with him and Bella, which would've ended in both him and Bella dead, but Esme had been right to stop me at that moment.
All I did was shiver from the memories. "Don't remind me; I almost got away with killing you when in reality all I wanted was to kill Bella. I wasn't thinking again."
He kissed my briefly, but my mind took over my body. I pushed him down on the bed, just kissing him everywhere. I had to break the kiss since it was getting heated and neither of us breathing.
"I'm just thankful that Esme stopped me when she did…or else I would've hated myself for hurting you like that Jacob. Can you forgive me?"
He pushed the hair out of my eyes. "I forgave you the moment it was over. I knew you were hurting, and I couldn't hold it against you. I even tried talking to you afterwards."
"Oh…yeah, in the garden; I was just being stubborn and trying to convince myself I didn't love you anymore."
Jacob just chuckled. "You are stubborn in the end."
I let the sarcasm roll off my tongue. "Oh, yeah, thanks for reminding me Alpha."
He just laughed and kissed my nose. "You know I'd take you like that any day."
"Ha you better since you knocked me up."
"I'd still be with you no matter what."
"Um…after you told me that I'd regret pushing you away, I broke down. Esme and the rest of the girls comforted me, and I promised myself that night to tell you I loved you after the fight was over…but then Aro hurt you."
I felt Jacob stiffen under me, and I could see him have flashback to when Aro almost got away with killing me.
"I never did find out what happened to you."
I got off Jacob's lap and rested against the back of the bed, telling him everything I that had happened up until I lost consciousness.
"After a few days of just being asleep, I finally woke-up. Carlisle told me that I was going to be alright; Aro has just gotten me bruised, but the blood was from all the stress I'd had. He put me on bed rest because of it. When I saw you afterwards…I cried so much seeing you lying in that bed. I tried to heal you, but as soon as I tried I got tired like crazy. Carlisle told me to take it easy, knowing that you'd wake-up sooner or later. I…I started losing faith in you coming back to me Jacob."
I looked at Jacob, more tears coming out. I felt horrible telling him all of this.
I took my fluffy pillow and rested it on my lap. "Anyway…Edward was trying to help me out. Bella had left him to join some nomads, so we started hanging out together. We were working on new piano pieces to get ourselves occupied, since I wasn't allowed to do anything.
One day I had to literally kick everyone out of the house since they hadn't hunted in weeks. They were just afraid to leave me alone since we had no idea where Bella was. But since Alice and I hadn't seen her in any visions, we thought I'd be alright. And that was the day Bella attacked me…than I remember waking up, and seeing you there next to me."
JPOV (Jacob's POV)
I tried to not think about that day when Bella had attacked Natalie because all I remember was seeing her hurt badly to the point that she was in risk of dying. I'll never forget that day. I try to think of how I could've changed anything during the fight, but I came up empty. If I hadn't gotten Aro off of Natalie he would've killed her and I couldn't have let that happen.
So I did the only thing I could, I stepped in to save her and because of that I'd almost died. But because I did that I wasn't there to protect her from Bella when she came back to get revenge. I'm grateful to the spirits for protecting us and our family.
"But…what I remember most was telling you that I loved you and that I wanted to be with you forever and ever, like in the fairytales I was told when I was little."
A cute little giggle escaped her precious lips, so I decided to just play with her. I got on top of her and started tickling her.
"Fairytales, huh? Meaning you're Little Red Riding Hood and I'm the wolf that ate grandma?"
Her laughter was so adorable, and she was trying to get me off of her with no such luck. "Jacob, stop it! I'm gonna pee and it's not gonna be pretty."
I attacked her neck with kisses. "Try stopping me beautiful."
A little smirk appeared when I looked up. "Alright then, no more sex until the babies are here."
"You wouldn't."
"Oh really? Well, why don't you just try pushing my buttons to see if it comes true? Or what, the big and mighty alpha is scared of me?"
I knew a way around. I pressed my lips on her mark, lightly teasing her. I ran my hands all over her body and seducing her by the second. "But you wouldn't last a day without me inside you, or am I wrong?"
A sweet little moan escaped her mouth, and I knew I'd won. "I take that as a yes?"
I pulled back to see she was pouting at me, she even tried punching me in the chest. "Why can't you ever play fair with me? I hate you right now."
She was adorable like this. "Because you know I'm right in the end. And you know I love you cutie pie."
"Oh just shut up and kiss me before I tear you up myself."
"What my lady wants, my lady gets."
So that was the end of our talk. The whole day we spent locked up in the house; turned off all the phones, and wasted no time in picking up on round…what was it?
But it wasn't just that; we talked about the nursery for the twins, like what colors we'd pick after finding out the sex of each baby, names for them, and so on.
Natalie and I decided to get married this upcoming Sunday since it represents the beginning of a new week, and what we needed was a new beginning so we could bring the twins into the family they deserve.
So now I'm just counting down the days until Sunday.
Author's note:
So yeah not the greatest chapter I've written but oh well. Hope it wasn't too bad but I thought both Jakey and Nattie needed to close that chapter with talking it through since that's what I've learned in my psych classes.
Next chapter is the wedding! YAY! This one is gonna be good trust me! So until next week everyone keep safe, keep reading, and keep sending in those reviews! They are the best to read early in the morning when I check my email since they make my day!
Ciao everyone! =D
~Melissa
