Helena

I was waiting for an answer. I looked him directly in the eyes.

"Do you?" I asked kind of sinking a little. He couldn't look me in the face and I looked up and saw everyone watching in the window. I flipped them all off.

"If you care get in the car" I got in and I waited as he came around and got in.

"Why? You have only known me for like 2 days" I said as I started the car.

"I don't know you seemed really nice and you are realy hot but I kept thinking you're 14 and everything so I was kind of scared" He said looking out his window as I headed towards Monroe.

"You could have told me about the kid though" He said.

"The dad?" I asked. He nodded.

"The dad was really a guy a liked he was much older than me. Older than you and that's why he died. He did it on purpose" I told him. I saw him gaping at me from the corner of my eye.

"He got you pregnant on purpose?" Trace asked.

"No he drove into an intersection" I said getting on the back was completely quiet.

In the parking garage

Monroe's shop

I parked and turned the car off. I kind of just sat there.

"You could have at least told me you know" I said.

"I also didn't want to be a rebound" he said.

"I already had a rebound" I said.

"Who?"

"Morgan and we couldn't do it he was creeped out and I just after the first kiss I loved him and the second I freaked and realized he was my rebound"

"Well then why did you do it?"

"I only ever felt loved once in my life and it was with Calvin and I want something like that again but I am looking for the right guy" I turned my head and Trace was just sitting there. I suddenly had a huge urge to kiss him. I soon found myself leaning and trying to stop.

"Really and did you notice you always go after older people?" He asked leaning too.

"Yes because I feel safe around them" We were just centimeters apart now. I knew I shouldn't do It. I knew he thought the same thing. Before I could bring myself to do the right thing, our lips were together. It was one of those earth shattering kisses that last only seconds but seemed to last for an eternity. When we pulled away from each other I had realized that was amazing. I wanted more and bad.

"I am sorry I shouldn't have done that" Trace said. I laughed. Then smiled at him.

"I don't regret it. And this might sound shallow or stupid or like I'm a slut but that made me feel better than Calvin's kisses ever did" I looked down.

"Are you serious?" I looked up and gave him a smile before nodding.

"Sad right?" I looked down and started playing with my hands.

"Not at all" He said.

"You're just saying that"

"No I'm not because remember I just broke up with Demi and now I'm with you and it was the same way for me but I never kissed Calvin so yeah" I laughed.

"Well then what are we supposed to do about it?" I asked. We both looked straight ahead.

"The only thing we can do is keep in touch" He looked at me and I sighed. I looked at the ring that Calvin was supposed to give me himself. I took it off as well as my chain necklace.

"Well we could just put up with everyone" I added the ring to the chain. I placed it on the rear view mirror.

"He's always with you" Trace said taking my hand.

"Of course and he has told me to move on through a series of nightly dreams about him coming back and telling me to be with Morgan and him talking to Mikey but he's the weird one so that's completely acceptable" I shrugged and he laughed.

"Seriously?" He asked.

"Yeah I'll probably get one tonight too" I started to gather all of my stuff.

"So what are we supposed to do?" Trace asked.

"Keep our relationship a secret cause if Frank finds out then you're dead" I said.

"Does that mean it's official we're dating?" He asked.

"I guess so" I smiled then leaned over and kissed him on the cheek.

"I am going for yet another ink addition" I got out of the car and grabbed my crutches.

"How are we gonna talk we're both on tour plus you are injured and have daddy Iero watching your every move."

"I thought about that and well I go for walks all the time to smoke and shit so I will call you then and during the day I can hide in the back room and we can talk on the computer and everything" we got on the elevator.

"Wow have you been planning or something?"

"No Just the last 5 minutes or so" we got off and started towards the shop 3 stores down.

"ok well what are you getting?"

"Normally I have a drawing done but I have to draw one when I get in there today maybe more" I shrugged as he opened the door for me. Her new hours were like 12 to 1. She was standing there.

"hey" she said.

"Are you ok?" I asked her. She just stared down at her hands that were now on her stomach.

"Who!? I asked going towards her.

"My new husband that I didn't tell you about"

"He finally asked!? No way! But does he know?"

"No I just found out" I hugged her.

"You do want it right?"

"Of course!" I laughed with her and went back towards Trace.

"Trace Monroe, Monroe Trace I think you 2 have met before"

"Yes I think we have" Trace said as he waved.

"Wait that means we have to postpone the trip unless you want a foreign born child?"

"That doesn't sound bad but Tim will want to be there you know" I laughed and nodded.

"Well enough about me why the fuck are you on crutches again!?"

"Kale was a psycho!" I yelled back.

"Was?" she asked before gulping.

"Ok well he attacked me and out me in a cast but he tried to kill me by stabbing me. Well he charged at me and I grabbed the knife so it didn't hit me but he fell on top of me but the knife stabbed him and not me killing him so I pretty much got my revenge on accident" she laughed and then nodded.

"Ok well I got to go tell Tim so I only got time for one tattoo k?"

"Of course"

"What are you getting?"

"I am crossing bounderies now Monroe and I need to draw the design first"

"Ok well you do that and I will attempt to get everything ready. Are we going to need the back room?"

"Yes we will"

"Wow risqué?"

"No just …" I didn't know what to say.

"Oddly placed for me" I said.

"Got it well you draw that and come back when you're ready"

"Ok" she walked back I grabbed colored pencils, pencils, and paper.

"Where is this going?"

"You'll see" I said starting on my drawing.

15 minutes later

I had drawn a sword with white roses and a banner around the top that read:

Death and darkness

Fear and contrition

Your life support

The bottom was spattered with blood and dripped blood as well.

"Ok well I am done. This is gonna be the first thing I get yelled at for when I get back" I stood and walked over to the back room where Monroe had the table and everything on ready for me.

"Ok where is it going?" she asked.

"I want it to have the top across my upper chest like so you can see it and the bottom to just above my belly button" I had checked and made sure that it wouldn't hit any other tattoos.

"Oh that's what you mean by different. Ok well I am going to draw it you can go sit with Trace for now"

"Ok thank you so much Monroe can we go sit in your office?"

"Yeah sure but I don't' want any fooling around in there" I rolled my eyes and called for Trace as I walked out of the back room.

"Yeah?" He said coming over to me.

"Let's sit in here" I showed him the rom and sat in Monroe's chair.

"What's up?"

"I wanted to talk without having to deal with paparazzi" I said.

"They caught you here?" He asked.

"Yeah and Monroe's business became really popular but It wasn't anything bad just about underage tattooing and they have no way to prove it was her" I pulled the chair closer to him.

"Am I ever gonna see you after I leave?" I asked him.

"That depends. I can't come over to the bus everytime I have a break because everyone will assume bad things. I can't have you come here during breaks, and we can't just go somewhere together during break"

"Yeah true what about after tour?"

"Of course maybe I can find somewhere to stay and you can stay with me if we don't see each other at all"

"I can just say I am staying with a friend so I can still go to school" I said.

"you are obviously the smart of the couple" We laughed.

"Of course well then I think we need to get to know each other" I said.

"We will talk to each other every night"

"True that will be like bonding time I see"

"Ok well I was won-"

"Ok I'm ready Helli!" Monroe yelled.

"Hold that thought I will be back soon" I made my way to the back room.

"Ok ready?" She asked as I sat down on the table.

"Yup" the next few hours were spent doing my awesome sword tattoo. I loved it.

"It's amazing Monroe" I said putting my shirt back on.

"Good because I think that was the biggest one I drew" she said cleaning up.

"No I think the one on my right calf is the biggest"

"Yeah you're probably right" I realized I was wearing a low cut shirt so you could see the top of the tattoo.

"Well I am going to get yelled at the first thing I get back" I said walking out.

"Fuck I forgot my wallet" I said.

"It's ok You can pay me back later" she said coming out with me.

"What does she need to pay you back for?" I turned around and saw Pete, Jimmy,Mason, Steve, and Gabe standing there.

"Nothing" I said because they now knew the answer. They all kind of gasped.

"We don't have to explain to daddy why we got a tattoo on our rack so therefore we don't care" Jimmy said.

"Whatever" I looked at the 5 of them and thought for a second.

"Mason look at that drawing over there I thought you would like it" he turned towards the direction I was pointing and I grabbed the cigs and lighter out of his pocket.

"What drawing?" He asked turning to see me with a cig and his lighter.

"What happened to only Zacky?" He asked.

"He's not here is he?" I rolled my eyes and turned back to Monroe.

"Ok well I shall call you about Australia and we could bring Tim"

"That's a great idea" she said smiling but stopped.

"What about you?"

"It's ok a lot can happen in what 4 months" I said also doing the math in my head.

"Ok well I can't wait to tell Tim the great news"

"Good well see you and thank you" I speed racered my way out of the door and to the elevator.

"What happened to 'I'M not going to Monroe's'?" Gabe asked.

"I wanted something and she is the only one I trust to do that every single tattoo I have is from her and her only"

"what is that like 10?" Pete asked.

"No about 60 I think maybe more"

"Addict!" Jimmy said pointing at me.

"No I have been addicted to many things I just like pain for some odd reason" I said jokingly as the doors opened.

"She was totally faking that pain for the pills" Mason said.

"No I was not! I was joking hint the sarcasm dip shit" I said heading towards my car but turning towards them.

"What did you guys drive?" I asked.

"Tahoe" Steve said.

"Ok well hold on to these" I handed him my crutches and hopped over to the engine. I grabbed some stuff to alter the restrictor to 120 and not 105.

"What did you just do?" Gabe asked as I put everything back.

"nothing yet" I opened the drivers side door .

"Trace!" he saw me and I threw him the keys.

"Start towards the house!" he made the gesture to me.

"I'll be fine" I grabbed my crutches and threw them in the car. I put my hand out for the keys

"Not like you can start the car" Jimmy said. I smiled and ducked down. I pulled out the wiring and hot wired the car.

"Are you just going to stand there gaping at my handy work or are you going to get in?" I took out my phone and sent Trace the directions to the sent back c u there. I smiled.

"If you are going to drive?" Jimmy asked.

"Euringer you and I are far from a truce right now and honestly I don't understand why any of you came because I didn't want you to come I wanted to be alon-"

"Then why was Trace with you?" Mason asked. I looked at Gabe who was in the passenger seat.

"He climbed in my car before I could say no" I pulled out of the parking garage and headed towards the back roads.

"Really because that's not what it looked like from where we were" Gabe said.

"And I thought you were the smart one of the 5" I turned the radio on to 103.9 where Famous last words was playing and even though I was uber pissed at the guitarist I needed the song to calm me down.

"No I guess that's me" Pete said. I looked at everyone and they all burst out laughing.

"Come on I can be smart sometimes."

"No you can't Peter" Gabe said.

"Everyone shut your fucking pie holes!" I yelled to them.

"God calm down" Jimmy said.

"If you would let me hear I could" they were all quiet. I listened to the song all the way through as it turned to Band of skulls. I laughed and sang along.

"Are you bipolar or something?" Jimmy said after 10 minutes.

"Are you?"

"don't avoid the question"

"Don't avoid my question" I said back seeing that he was getting mad.

"Well just answer mine"

"Answer mine" everyone else was getting a good laugh about this.

"Don't give her encouragement" I pulled off the highway and onto Gilbert road.

"Where are we going?"Jimmy asked.

"Where are you going?" now everyone was laughing.

"Back to the hotel" I pulled into my neighborhood off octotillo.

"Back to a place there now we can stop argueing and you can drive." I pulled the car up to the road opposite of my street.

"Ok bye I have my phone I will be back later" just now was I lighting my cigarette.

"Where are you going?"

"My ex's house retard now leave or else I will hurt you"

"What am I telling Lyn-z to tell Gerard to tell Frank?" he asked as I turned and started down the street.

"For all I care you can tell her that I am going to get laid by Bert McCracken" I made my way towards the house.

"You're kidding right?" Jimmy asked.

"Yes I am just tell them I went to go see Calvin's brother and sisters" I turned so that they could no longer see me.I saw that the car was parked in front of the house. I went over and pulled the cover out and Trace got out of the car.

"Why are we here?"

"So I can get something but I am spending the night you can do whatever"

"I'll stay if you want"

"That's up to you" I grabbed the keys and opened the front door knowing my aunt and uncle weren't there. I closed the door and headed down stairs Trace following.

"What is this, your room?" he asked before I opened the door.

"No this is my recording studio" I watched him look over everything. I walked into the recording area and grabbed my guitar. I sat on the couch and started to play a song I had just thought of.

"Wow and this is where you guys played and everything?" He asked.

"The funny thing is we had only played together on a whim the day of the concert and recorded it and it somehow made it to Gerard" I kept playing. I had thought of a song that would be almost the same as a MSI song.

"What is that going to be?" He asked.

"Industrial Jungle Pussy Punk" I said with a completely straight face

"MSI territory ok" he came in and sat down on the couch next to me.

"Right now I only have words and guitar. I am going to start working on bass and drums later" I looked at my leg thankful that I had a removeable cast. Like the ones that are black and have the metal bars so that you can't bend your leg.

"Oh well that's cool"

"You know what I have something we can do"

A/N: I am not a doctor so this is all guessing!FYI