My Dearest Love,
Shortly after the surprise of a barbed-wire fence separating West Berlin from East Germany, the fence was replaced by a sturdier wall of concrete blocks topped with barbed-wire to prevent anyone from escaping.
Germany hasn't heard from Prussia in a long time. In the very beginning, they could see and talk to each other through the fence, but now, with the new version of the wall and stricter guard around it, even approaching the wall is dangerous. Germany has been trying to stay strong; he knows his brother is holding his own on the other side, but he just wants to see him and be sure. It's not knowing that his brother is okay that is really hurting him deep down.
I try to talk to him, I tell him how I was once separated from someone I love for a very long time. I tell him that I understand what he is going through, and that I am here for him. But what can I do? What more can I say? My story doesn't have a happy ending, at least, not a completely happy one. What do you think that would do to him? Telling him that you didn't return would make him worry endlessly about Prussia, telling him you did would be somewhat of a lie. Maybe I could tell him that you did come back, and we were reunited, but you died shortly after; that's the truth after all. No, no. I can't say that; he would be worried about him dying after they finally see each other again.
My mind has been a bit of a jumbled mess lately. I have been trying to make sense of all these feelings running amok in my mind. Worry, understanding, hope, faith, sadness, emptiness, loneliness, yearning, depression, pain, fear, anxiety, and so many more emotions have been clashing about in my head and I have grown tired of it all. The only thing that settles the noise is being with Germany. When I stand with him, I can calm down enough to think clearly.
I feel much closer to Germany now; it feels as if we are closer than two friends can be. Of course, I suppose being able to relate to such a serious situation can bring forth such strong emotions. Being separated from someone you love is the cruelest and most painful thing that can happen in this world.
I should know, right? I lived it before.
Italy
And the tides begin to turn. Italy has a hard choice ahead of him.
Thanks for reading~,
~Aiko-love-Anime
