Penny was nice enough, she genuinely cared he could tell, but she wasn't here for him. She was here for Gordon and no amount of niceties was going to change that simple and rather annoying fact.

All that niceness wasn't going to change the fact that one sibling had killed another either, so it wasn't him. in fact it was worse, because instead of being some terrible, hideous mistake it had been deliberate, planned. Pre-meditated murder. John had looked him in the eyes, and told him none of this was his fault, and he had meant it because he had known and he was planning, John had told him as he had looked him in the eyes, voice firm and calm

'No matter what happens to them, none of it is your fault'

John had made him promise that he wouldn't blame himself, Alan had assumed he was just trying to reassure him, but now, looking back… he should have done something, should have asked why John was so agitated over the whole thing, why Alan's guilt bothered him so much, and now she stood there, asking if he was okay.

He had brushed her and her stupid questions off until got too much and he left with a few words he now regretted, but she would get over it; the exchange would be forgotten as soon as she found Gordon and now Alan was left with his woes. he had retreated to his room to mull over things, once again hiding under the bed as he thought about that one single question that had been gnawing at him since the fight between John and Gordon, since John had admitted it was him.

Why?

why do this, why tear the family apart. Why not talk to someone.

The thought struck him and for a moment he felt guilty, with everything that had happened he had forgotten about the poor little AI, but if John was likely to mention his plans to anyone, it was her. After struggling out from his hiding hole he opened up the communications to Five and the small little self-arraigning Rubik's cube greeted him with a chirpy hello.

He smiled, genuinely smiled. He Liked Eos.