-- -Chapter 45: Hey Shinra - --

-Shizuo´s point of view.-

"You are an idiot you know that?" the raven scolded the blond as they made their way forward. They had left the flea´s apartment, now making their way over to Shinra's place. And why? Well just because of silly little him that had somehow managed to actually hurt himself while repairing the flea´s furniture.

Not that Shizuo cared, the arm didn't even hurt, but Izaya had insisted he needed to get checked up.

Knowing his body well enough Shizuo figured it would just be dislocated or something like that- the doctor had told him at a point in time that due to him getting his arms dislocated a lot he was prone to have it happen easier to him again and again.

"Don't tell him-" they had arrived. Were standing right in front of Shinra's door to be precise. The raven was referring to his mental state.

… it awfully reminded Shizuo of the last time they had been here.

"I won't no worries," Shizuo replied- and he really didn't intend on doing so. They had managed quite well so far hadn't they? izaya didn't hurt himself any further- well apart from the injuries Shizuo had caused him… and moreover izaya seemed to be getting better. Slowly, but Shizuo´s guts told him he was doing the right thing by keeping this information to himself, at least for now.

Neither of them had an idea what Shinra would do upon finding out as well.

"Ah right, or I will bite my tongue off, ne?" Izaya threw in, making it sound like a joke, but the bitterness of the statement caused the blond to cringe softly.

"I knew from the second you said that, that it wasn't true."

A blink followed, one out of surprise mostly as the raven turned his head to look at the blond. Knocks followed as Shizu-chan had reached Shinra´s door.

Shizu-chan.. knew that he wouldn't have been able to bite his tongue off?

The raven had been thinking the blond had had no idea, but then-

"... then why didn't you tell Shinra right away?" Izaya asked confused, not getting what the blond had been thinking. He could have just dropped him off without having to experience all the trouble Shizu-chan had went through.

And yet he didn't? The blond was glancing at him, with a gaze, so honest and disarming.

"... your expression. You didn't want to Shinra to find out, you looked almost afraid to have him know… I couldn't tell him."

mouth opening to reply something the raven had been about to speak, but the soft creak of a door opening and the ray of light falling into the corridor made him close his lips pretty quick again.

"Ah, Shizuo, not injured for once?" Shinra asked, being the one that had opened the door as he glanced up and down Shizu-chan´s body. It was somewhat a habit of the doctor ever since he had had to fix them up everyday after school back in high school.

"Actually he is," the raven threw in, obviously surprising the brunette whose smiling expression suddenly dropped. A sweatdrop formed on his forehead as he looked back and forth between an Izaya and a Shizuo that just came to his apartment together and were not fighting-

"If you have to fight please don't do it here-" he pleaded, and the raven couldn't help but snort as he sneaked hi way past the doctor inside his apartment.

"We don't intend to," he explained while pointing at Shizu-chan. "This idiot here just managed to dislocate his arm." Blinking the doctor turned his head again and adjusted his glasses while letting his glance travel to the blond´s arm in question. And really, even while still having the white shirt on Shinra could already see the problem.

"Oh-" he mumbled, still pretty surprised how… calm the blond seemed to be- He hadn't even thrown anything at the raven yet. "Well, I should be able to fix this pretty quickly actually," Shinra merely mumbled, kinda suspicious what was going on in here when the blond merely nodded and followed the raven inside the apartment- only to sit down on the couch next to him?

For a second Shinra wondered whether he was dreaming- but a quick pinch to his own arm assured him this was real after all.

It was then that something small, black and furry suddenly shot inside the room, causing all three of them to flinch-

"What?!" Shinra questioned intelligible as he jumped, the little something being followed by familiar shadows.

Shadows over shadows were suddenly filling the room, coming from outside the apartment as Celty suddenly dashed inside the living room- The black substance wavered, shot from one end to the room to the other and-

"Mmmeeeoooowwwwww-" blinking the raven looked towards the end of the shadows, having formed into a tiny ball of black substance- only a furry black tail was sticking out from underneath them as the poor creature jowled.

"A cat?" Quicker than the brunette was even able to follow the woman suddenly shoved her PDA in his face-

(I found it on the street! No one seemed to care and I almost knocked it over!) she wrote, her shadows wallowing as she was obviously pretty agitated and probably pissed off.

(It´s just a baby, how could anyone do something this cruel to a baby kitten?!)

"Well, people are assholes," Izaya merely commented, having tilted his head far enough to be able to read what the woman was writing as well.

"Ah, but Celty-" Shinra started, a sudden sneeze ripping from his nose as he squeezed his eyes shut.

(I decided I'm going to keep this little kitty!) Celty continued, not really paying any attention to the brunette´s complaint, (After all it has no family, and it's so small, and who else would be caring for it? It needs a mommy!) the woman squealed, little heart shaped shadows emitting from her neck as her shadows wavered over, bringing the kitten back. With a soft puffing sound the black substance disappeared and the kitten dropped into her hands.

"Meoooowwww-" the cat was meowing, but oh it certainly didn't sound happy as it hissed at the woman… without a head.

The small creature was obviously creeped out by the woman.

"Celty darling, that's not quite possible HATSCHU-" Shinra suddenly sneezed, and sneezed again- this time Celty did look at the doctor properly tilting her head while agitatedly writing on her PDA.

(WHY NOT?!) Sniffing, his eyes getting kinda teary eyed the brunette took off his glasses while wiping at his eyes with the back of his hand.

"I'm kinda allergic to cats Celty-chan," the doctor cried, hating that he had to destroy his cute wifey´s dreams.

The woman stilled for a moment before typing rapidly on her PDA again, the cat jumping from her arms.

(How can you be allergic to something so cute?!) she questioned, shoving the PDA into Shinra's face.

"I didn't chose to b-" again a sneezed ripped from his nose making the woman's shoulders drop.

(... but what about this cat now...) the woman wrote while turning towards the still hissing kitten on the ground. It was really small, fluffy with slightly longer hair than usual. Dirt was sticking to its fur due to having been living on the streets for a long time, and it seemed pretty hostile.

Hissing once more at the woman with its tail up high and puffed up it turned around, only to jump right into Izaya's lap.

"What-" the raven blinked, raising his hands in defense as if expecting the kitten to slash at him with its claws, but no, it just remained there.

The blond snorted, looking at the black cat and the astonished raven.

"Izaya can take it." Snapping his head around the raven looked at the blond- what what?

"... huh?"

(Izaya?) Celty typed into her PDA, seeming like she was offended by the idea. Well she couldn't be blamed, with all the things izaya pulled inside the city he definitely didn't seem like he was going to care for a cat.

no, if anything Izaya was probably the kind of person to set it on fire…

"Wait, what?!" the person in question suddenly protested, trying to shove the kitten off his lap.

"He can take it," Shizuo merely repeated with a shrug, and it certainly seemed like a good idea.

"I´m not going to look after this creature," the raven protested, the kitten already crawling up his lap again.

"Nope, you will keep it and i will make sure the cat stays healthy and all," the blond announced again, making the raven groan in defeat. Usually he would be complaining still, and not give up so easily, but seeing how much the blond had already done for him the past few days and considering they were living together anyway…

"Fine," he mumbled, frowning at the creature resting in his lap- was this little shit purring even?

"I'm so sorry Celty..." Shinra whined, still feeling guilty he couldn't fulfill his future wife's wish.

(You will really keep it?) Celty typed on her PDA, asking Shizuo since she suspected he was only joking about giving it to Izaya.

"I will make sure it will be happy," the blond nodded assuring- he already had a sort of plan in mind. So far it had only been him and Izaya inside that huge apartment of his. Maybe having a little kitten in there that was most probably going to create havoc was a good idea. Lifting tension and stuff and maybe get the raven's mind off a few things every now and then as well.

(Okay) Celty replied, although the response seemed as though she was sighing in sadness, because she can't keep the fluff ball.

"Shinra what about my shoulder?" the blond suddenly asked, making the doctor turn his head after one more sneeze of his.

"Ah, yeah, let's go into the other room though please," he groaned, still rubbing his nose and cringing slightly at the itchy feeling that just wasn't disappearing as the kitten chose to run through his apartment.

Only when the door to the room closed did the cat stop as though it had only been running around to annoy the doctor on purpüose and returned to izaya's lap.

Still sitting on the couch the raven blinked at the creature that was now rolling up on top of him and sighed.

Great, now the blond made him take care of a cat.

(It's nice that you two get along so well.) Surprised that the woman was actually willing to talk at him Izaya read the message twice, wondering for a second if he hadn't read wrong and she actually wrote for him to go die. But nope.

(Please don´t mess it up.) She added, reminding the raven again of how perceptive she could be at times. Although considering just how calm Shizu-chan behaved around the raven anyone would be able to guess that they were trying to get along or something along those lines.

"... guess I will give my best. But you know how easy Shizu-chan gets mad at me," the raven replied with a shrug. A soft sting resurfaced from the back of his mind as he remembered the last time he had read the woman talk about the two of them.

It had been on the phone screen, the chat room.

Anri had told them about how they stopped fighting, and Celty … she congratulated him didn't she? It reminded him with a sting of just how low everyone around him was thinking about Izaya.

"So, how come you aren't mad at me?" the raven suddenly started, wondering just why he was even talking to the woman in the first place.

(Mad?) she typed either pretending or really not remembering what was there to be mad about.

"The packages," Izaya sighed leaning back onto the couch, "I made you deliver quite the questionable substances to various people." Just remembering the moment when the cops were standing in front of Izaya's apartment and asked Shizuo about the informant´s whereabouts were causing the raven to cringe yet again.

A hand was lifted to his forehead and he closed his eyes for a moment as he was reminded of just how much shit he had been pulling in the past few days- no not only the past few days. All his life long actually.

There had not been a single day he didn't drive someone´s life into misery.

just what kind of person had he been?

(Even if I tell you to stop doing that you wouldn't so what use would be there telling you.) The woman was brutally honest and hitting right the mark too. That´s right, he wasn't the type to just change or stop doing something because of sympathy or because someone asked him or pleaded him to…

"Right." It caused the raven to wonder just what it even was that the blond was seeing in him. From Izaya's perspective he was just that, scum, a horrible being that was doing nothing but destroy.

(But as long as you don't fight anymore with Shizuo I'm not mad at you.)

...right. Shizu-chan. The unpredictable brute…

He loved him.

Despite not wanting to hear those words from the blond´s lips because they made the raven feel as though he was going to suffocate beneath the heavy blanket of expectations he felt he had to meet, he certainly knew that the bond was feeling exactly this.

Love. Towards him. Towards someone like him. And somehow right now the raven couldn't help but smile at the thought.

Shizuo would return with a hopefully fixed shoulder from that room again, they would return to Izaya's apartment, probably take this stinking little creature with them, and then Shizu-chan might as well continue fixing the shit he broke.

It was… a nice thought. Knowing he was going to return, knowing he wasn't going to drop him like a hot potato.

It made the raven smile.

"I won't," he answered and this time he felt confident he could at least pull something off, something good for once in a while and that was simply not trying to turn the blond into a monster he had never been in the first place.

And Shizuo was thinking of the raven as well.

Sitting on that chair next to the doctor´s desk he watched Shinra scurry around as he touched and examined his shoulder. he was probably checking how he should fix it again. But Shizuo´s thoughts were anywhere but on his own shoulder at the moment. He could see the raven from his position. the door had been left open just for a tiny bit, by no one but himself of course so he would still be able to see the flea.

Not that he didn't trust him- … okay he didn't quite trust him. He felt uneasy leaving the raven out of sight, not knowing what he would do or where he would go and disappear to or whether he was going to see him again once he left his eyes of him.

It made him feel uneasy. Even though right now he could see Izaya and he actually wasn't doing anything apart from talking to Celty from what he could discern.

And yet…

"Ne Shinra, can I ask you a random question?" the blond asked as the doctor suddenly twisted his arm, bending it in a way that released a soft pop from his shoulder.

"If I know the answer, sure why not?" Shinra said with a grin, adjusting his glasses as he looked at his work. Moving the arm softly the blond nodded, knowing the doctor was waiting for some kind of reassurance that everything was working fine again.

The brunette grinned even wider, picking up one more tissue as he prepared himself to go back into the living room where the spawn of hell was waiting to make him sneeze again.

Or he was about to, because the question Shizuo asked sure made him halt within his steps.

"Why do people kill themselves, Shinra?"

to be continued~

Dun Dun dunnnn, welp Shizuo just wants to know more about what's going on with Izaya, that's only natural C: Now xD I´m really really sorry for taking so freaking long to udpate! I know it´s been like two months or something oh god- but university started and me being as stupid cookie thought i would b able to pull both off at the same time and jajajajaja xD as you noticed i barely managed to update anything lmao.

But!

I got a plan already to write way more updates in the future xD

I will be finishing two of my six ongoing stories in November/December~! Namely, "A single touch" and "behind closed doors" C. and once I finished those i will have way less stress and way more time to update twtd, sotd, SD and Sns way more frequently! xDD

The only bad side is well, that I have to finish these two stories first xD and in order to do that I will be updating only these two for now C': plz dunt hate me xD

The next updates will be coming out in the following order:

A single touch (11/14)

22nd November 2017

A single touch (12/14)

25th November 2017

A single touch (13/14)

28th November 2017


DECEMBER 2017

A single touch LAST CHAPTER (14/14)

1st December 2017

Behind closed doors (26/30)

5th December 2017

Behind closed doors (27/30)

8th December 2017

Behind closed doors (28/30)

11th December 2017

Behind closed doors (29/30)

14th December 2017

Behind closed doors LAST CHAPTER (30/30)

17th December 2017

Sinful Desire (20/~40)

20th December 2017

Let it snow LAST CHAPTER (3/3)

24th December 2017

Survival of the doomed (31/~45)

27th December 2017

Shingeki no Shizuo (10/~40)

30th December 2017


JANUARY 2018

The wish to disappear (47/~60)

2nd January 2018

With that being said….. see you in January x'D I'm sorry for the long ass delay right off the bat -sobs-

Guest 2: ah yes you described it perfectly again xD as usual haha 3 yeah now that izaya does have something that can be taken from him he feels even more anxious at times now naw, and yet he doesn´t want to act in front of Shizu-chan anymore either naw- izaya is just worrying too much jesus. Ah yes, that one was an important plot point i had to mention, the being alive for his own sake thing cuz a lot of people always go like, don´t do that don´t you know how you make me feel with that? and so on, stuff like that guilt tripping the person instead of actualy trying to see and help -sighs- and saiyng hey come on, stay alive for me is totally the wrong approach jesus-

xD hahaha well i guess between being noisy and comedy gold i made him be more like the latter in this chapter xD poor shinra, I have no idea whether he really has any allergies but lol now he has one xDDDDD sorry for taking so long to udpate tho gosh xD It´s been over two months oh my god. xDDDDDDDD