Where is my Mind? #51

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We start off this chapter a couple days after chapter 50 with Ed, Al and Kit in a Central City Library.

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Also, Read Where is my Mind? A Night in Xerxes! and Kit's Adventures in Amestris. Where is my Mind? A Night in Xerxes! is a smut oneshot that fits between chapters 31 and 32 and Kit's Adventures in Amestris is a series of Kit-centric oneshots!

I apologize if this is all over the place. I also apologize for taking so long.

Italicized text is for flashback shit and instant messages.

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-Kit's POV-

She sat beside Al in the library, reading a book that Al had gotten down. The book was open but she wasn't actually reading it. She was thinking about something weird that hap happened after Roxi told her about Arielle.

She'd woken up to the sensation of being kissed. But when she opened her eyes she was alone in the dark with something smudged on her mouth. A trip to the bathroom revealed it to be lipstick. A pinky lipstick that her mother wore sometimes, mostly on special occasions like her birthday or Christmas.

But how did it get on her? Why was it smudged on? Who kissed her?

"Kit?"

She squeaked and looked up. Al was looking at her.

"Yes?"

"Clearly you're not reading that, why don't you go and check on Brother?"

"Yessir Alphonse dearest!"

Nearby a girl with long black hair, a pale complexion and bright blue eyes shushed her. She looked at the girl apologetically as she got up. She said a soft sorry before walking away with her bag.

She found Ed talking to Alex Armstrong between a couple bookshelves. Well Alex was handing Edward a letter for his sister, saying that it might not help but he should talk it anyway.

She snorted loudly making both men look at her.

"The second you give that to her she rips it up. Alex you know what type of person she is. Manning Briggs will not have changed that. She likes to decide for herself and puts no stock in the opinions of others." She said, fawning over Alex's older sister.

Ed and Alex stared at her, blinking in surprise. She smiled. Part of her loved it when they forgot that she knew things. The other part of her, however, found it annoying.

"Guys, Olivier Armstrong is my hero. There are basically no badass curvy girls in the media. There's also very few girls that aren't sexualized. Alex, your sister is a badass, opinionated, beautiful and she's got sound morals. Quite frankly I may have a bit of a girl crush on her." She explained smiling.

"And here we all thought you only had eyes for Edward." Alex teased her.

"Oh I do. But until he makes up his mind about me, I've decided to window shop. Maybe I can fall head over heels in love with someone else, just in case. Contingency plans my friend! Hmmm maybe Roy will have me. Or is that illegal here? It is where I'm from. What is the law here? That's one thing I don't know." As she rambled Alex looked as though he was now regretting his choice to tease her and Ed was scowling by the time she finished.

"Mustang wouldn't have you. And we're getting off topic." Ed growled softly.

"Right, sorry." She mumbled and Alex repeated what he'd told Ed, that May had been seen heading North and that they should see Alex's sister. She nodded and Ed grabbed her hand, leading her back towards Al.

"Al! Hey Al! We're leaving!" He said as he dragged her along.

"Quiet brother this is a library. So where are we going?" Al asked looking from a young fair skinned boy with dark hair and eyes dressed in a school uniform to her and Ed.

The boy followed his gaze and looked at them awestruck. Of course she knew exactly who this little boy was. He was Selim Bradley. Ed's biggest fan. But he was also Pride, Father's first born Homunculus.

Instantaneously, Selim came closer as Ed said, "Don't worry about it. I'll tell you everything on the way. For now, let's just get moving. first we'll need to stop by the hotel... Hey who's this kid?" She giggled to herself as he took notice of Selim.

"Mr. Armor called you brother. Does that mean you're Edward Elric, the FullMetal Alchemist?" Selim asked making Ed puff up with pride.

"Yeah." He answered smiling.

"Oh cool! You are a tiny alchemist like everyone says!" Selim smiled brightly and Kit laughed as Ed made a pissed off expression.

"What was that? You little brat. Say it again, I'll send you flying. You hear me? Your little body will go out in space." Ed's voice came out raspy. It was almost scary and a little hot but Selim seemed to love it.

"That's true to! You hate being called small! Just like everyone says!" Selim cheered while Ed growled out threateningly. Though Kit continued giggling even as two men in suits came out of no where, pointing guns at Edward's head. Ed's hands shot up. He didn't let go of Kit, so her arm was yanked upwards.

"Step away from Master Selim." The man on her side of Ed ordered.

"Ah! Don't shoot him!" Selim demanded and the men lowered their guns. Kits giggling stopped as now the situation lacked humor.

"Master... Selim? As in Selim Bradley?" Ed asked. He seemed to still be in shock as his voice shook a little.

"Führer Bradley's son?" Al asked.

"That's right!" Selim nodded.

Rolling her eyes she began to tug her arm away from Ed. Despite being shocked, he maintained a firm grip on her.

"Ed! Let go of me!" She squawked bringing attention to herself. Apparently no one had even noticed her, even with her giggling just moments ago.

"Huh? Oh..." Ed mumbled letting go. Then he let glared and demanded, "Why do I get the feeling that you're going to leave us at the mercy of some kid?!"

She just smiled at Ed and shrugged, trying to appear innocent.

Meanwhile Selim's gaze fell on her. His eyes went big and awestruck once again then he cried out, "Wha~!? Are you Katherine?! Everyone says that you're the Fullmetal Alchemists girlfriend! Oh man! I'm so lucky to meet all three of you!"

She blinked and looked from Ed, who was now blushing, to Selim.

"People say what about me? Ed! Why is it that everyone apparently assumes it but I have to wait for it to be true?" She pouts playfully. Then she turned back to Ed, "Kidding! I'm going to clean up the hotel room. You boys have fun. Keep them out of trouble for me Selim?"

"Okay!" Selim cheers, continuing to play the innocent child as no doubt he knew that she knew about him.

"We'll try not the be too long." Ed told her softly. She smiled and hugged him, pressing her left cheek against his. She was really playing up how Selim had assumed that they were a couple.

"Take your time. I need a little girl time." She replied softly as he placed his hands on her waist. Which was most likely the closest thing to a hug that she was going to get from him.

"What, you don't like my company anymore?"

"Don't be an idiot Edward."

They were talking in such soft voices that, to others, it probably looked as though they were whispering sweet words to one another. Despite it actually being just a normal conversation.

She felt his cheeks puff up against her face and she pulled herself away from him, kissing his cheek as she did.

"Awwww!" Selim giggled.

"Shh." She told the 'child' placing her right index finger against her lips.

"Oh! Sorry." He whispered.

She nodded and waved to Al as she left the library. Her mind, even now was on Arielle. Which was where her mind had been for several days. It was funny, Kit hadn't thought about Arielle in years. But ever since Roxi brought her up, she's all she can think about.

She made her way back to the hotel. Taking a deep breath she pushed Arielle back to the back of her mind. Thinking, instead, about what she would do when she got back to the room.

"I'll start with a shower... use the last of the toiletries. Then I'll talk to Roxi, see how things went with Arielle." She said to herself.

All the thinking about Arielle had brought up long forgotten memories. Arielle had been with Kit between the ages of seven and eight. It wasn't very long but it had felt like forever.

Arielle first appeared to Kit four months after her birthday. She'd been jealous of the kids that had a whole family. She'd also been angry about her dad not wanting her. Arielle had come, appearing to be a sweet looking older girl.

She'd become enamored with Arielle in a matter of days.

Arielle helped her with her dancing and listened to the secrets she felt she couldn't tell her mom or Roxi. Kit had been a chubby little girl and even though she was quite flexible, she was afraid that she wasn't good enough to be a ballerina. Arielle helped her gain confidence in herself.

Around that same time, Kit was also terrified that her mom would leave her. She was afraid of that because days before her birthday she'd got up the nerve to speak to her dad before the first time in her life. Until then she'd just known that he had done something to upset her mom. Her mom never told her how he had felt about her.

She'd wanted him to come to her birthday party. Not for her but as a surprise for her mom, who'd seemed lonely lately.

'It doesn't matter how much you look like me, you are not my daughter. Do not contact me again,' was what he told her.

Even though she had no memory of ever having the man in her life, it still really hurt to hear him say that.

That call was one of the secrets that only Arielle knew. It was a bad idea to tell her anything though because when her mother was about to start dating, as Kit said it was okay, Arielle changed her mind about that.

'Really? You're going to let her date? And some guy you don't know? He didn't even try to get to know you. What if he only wants your mom? He could convince her to send you away. After all, your own dad didn't even want you. Why would he? And your mom's still young, she can always have more children.'

And just like that she went from wanting her mom to be happy to wanting to keep her away from the opposite sex.

She stopped walking and wiped her face. Tears had slid down her cheeks as she remembered the things that she didn't talk about. Roxi still didn't even know about any of this.

Looking around, she was standing outside of the hotel. She took a deep breath and went inside making her way to the room.

-Edward's POV-

"Brother."

He looked up at his brother. They were waiting outside of the library with Selim and one of his bodyguards while the other bodyguard got their car. Selim was talking excitedly with his bodyguard.

"Yeah, Al?"

"Has Kit seemed... off to you?" Al's tone was worried.

"I haven't noticed anything." He answered. But he had noticed something. She'd been quiet over the past few days. And she would get distracted as an unreadable expression crossed her face. Like she was afraid or upset about something.

However, as Kit told them the truth about Selim nearly a week ago, he wanted to be careful about what they talked about in front of the kid. He gave his brother a warning look to convey that. Al seemed to get the hint.

Selim, who'd stopped babbling as soon as Kit was brought up, looked at them and asked, "Is there something wrong with her?"

Al shook his head saying, "Ah, no. Now that I think about it she was probably just deep in thought."

"Oh. Okay!" Selim nodded and then the car pulled up.

After Kit had left, Selim talked him and Al into going home with him.

'So Katherine can get everything she needs done' was what he had told them. Al thought it was a good idea so Ed had to agree as well.

-Kit's POV-

After her shower, she tossed the now empty bottles of her shampoo, conditioner and body wash onto the bed. She was dried off and dressed in her 'Scream me to Sleep' t-shirt, her back and red pants, and her black bra and cheeky panty set. Her boots laid in front of the door and her bag was on the bed, propped up against a pillow.

Sitting on the bed, she opened her bag and set her laptop on the nightstand. Then she dumped out her backpack. Clothes, books, candy and a cosmetic bag tumbled out. As they would be heading North soon she wanted to send things that would be an inconvenience back to her mom's house.

Immediately she stuffed her undergarments back into her bag. Along with the clothes that Edward had purchased from her back when she had no memory. She couldn't help smiling to herself as she put them away.

Opening her cosmetic bag that she, admittedly, didn't open much. She found no time or reason to doll herself up since she came to Amestris. However, she wasn't going to get rid of everything in it. She took the lotions and face wash out, putting them with the empty bottles.

She had no use for products that would just, most likely, freeze. She then closed and put the cosmetic bag back into her backpack.

The books she had also went onto the pile. Same with the clothes that had come with her to Amestris, aside from the outfit she wore. The jewelry so no longer wore went onto the pile next.

The candy she'd had was rock hard, as Ed had gotten it for her when he bought her clothes, so she just threw it away.

Now all she had out of the pile was her make up bag, the outfit she wore, her laptop, the choker from Truth, her undergarments, the shirts, pants and coat from Ed, a black tutu and pointe shoes. [A|N: Remeber she got those way back in Dublith. Yeah they've just been hanging out in her bag.]

She didn't see herself ever wearing the tutu again so it went onto the pile while the pointes went back into her bag. Closing the bag, she set it on the floor and brought her left hand to her throat.

Running her fingers over the stones, red sparks formed on her fingertips and tingling started at the base of her throat. Placing her hand over the pile, she imagined the pile vanishing and reappearing on her bed at her mom's house.

And soon the pile vanished.

Smiling, she pulled her laptop onto her lap. Opening the lid, she turned it on and got onto AIM.

Only her mom was on.

"Hey Hun!" Her mom sent right away.

"Hey. How's dad? I hear he's been in touch lately."

"Who? ...Oh Roxi"

"Yeah. Roxi. That man is not the point right now. I'll be leaving Central City soon to go North. So I won't be able to talk again for sometime. Also, are you home?"

"Yeah. Just got here a little while ago. Why? And North? So your headed to Briggs to see the scary Lady?"

"That's right. The fabulous Olivier Armstrong! Anyway, can you go see it anything appeared on my bed?"

"Yeah. Give me a sec."

While she waited for her mom, Roxi logged on. Rather than speak through the group chat, Roxi sent a separate IM.

"Hey..."

"Hey! Are you okay?"

"Not particularly. Arielle bruised my throat so Eric's been mothering me."

"I'm so so so sorry."

"Don't be. You were right about her. She's... something else."

"Being right isn't always a good thing. Especially if it gets a really good friend hurt."

"You're too sweet. Don't worry though. She vanished after her outburst."

"She vanished?!"

"Yeah... Oh and she wanted you to know that she's coming for you."

"Of course..."

"She also said she was going to devour you."

"Sounds about right." She sighed as Roxi told her what Arielle wanted. She'd done something that her father had done to her.

"Just what did you do to her?"

"I acknowledged her existence. Then I ignored her until I forgot about her."

"Gee I wonder why you'd do that."

"Nice use of sarcasm my dear."

She laughed until a beep alerted her to a reply from her mother.

"Ah, mom just got back to me. Please don't say anything about Arielle to her."

She sent to Roxi before switching back the the chat with her mom.

"Hun, are you aware that a bunch of your crap just showed up on your bed?"

"Yeap. I just sent it there."

"What? How?"

"Well, turns out Dad was right when he said I wasn't his kid. My real fatherish thing is Truth and it gave me powers, kind of."

"Oh. Wait. Where did you head that he said that?"

"He told me himself. Just before my seventh birthday."

As she told her mom that, she felt as if a small weight was lifted from her heart.

"Oh hunny. You never told me you talked to him."

"Bet he didn't tell you either. Him coming to party was meant to be a surprise. But he said that. I didn't want people to worry so I didn't say anything."

"Oh... Listen, someone's at the door. Talk to me when you can. Okay?"

"Okay. Later mom."

"Love you Kit." And with that her mom logged off.

"Yeah... Love you too mom..." She whispered as she switched back to her chat was Roxi, who was still on. The only new message there was a 'Thank you' from Roxi in regards to the sarcasm comment.

"Has Eric questioned you about me?" She asked curiously. Since Eric was mothering Roxi, no doubt he was present when Roxi passed along her message to Arielle. So he would know that Roxi knew where she was.

"No. He was content knowing you were alive, healthy and happy."

"Sounds about right. LOL"

"LOL. Yea. So anything new there?"

"We're going to Briggs tonight or tomorrow. Oh and apparently everyone that I'm Ed's girlfriend. Which, while flattering, stings a little since short stack hasn't even decided if he likes me in that way or not."

"Yeoch... So snow?"

"Not thrilled about it."

"Course not, you're excited about Armstrong though."

"Course I am. So like I told mom, with us going to Briggs, I'll be even less reachable. I'm probably just going to send you my laptop so I won't worry about it."

"Then you won't be reachable at all."

"I know. And if I really am going to stay here to stay... maybe it's for the best that I don't have this way to reach you guys..."

"So you're going to stay in Amestris then?"

"I think so. Yeah."

"Even if Ed picks Winry?"

"Yes. Even if he picks her. I'll fake a smile and support them like a good friend and only die inside a little bit."

"That's certainly commitment."

"Yep."

"Eric's coming to check on me soon so I should probably go."

"And I should probably get some sleep before the guys get back."

"Okay. Bye babe!"

"Bye..."

Roxi logged off shortly afterwards then Kit logged off and turned the laptop off. Afterwards, like with the various other things she parted with, she sent it to a vacant spot in Roxi's room. It had to go there as her mother would worry and quite possibly become hysterical if she put it back in her room.

Then she laid back on the bed and looked up at the ceiling.