Dean-
It was Friday, everyone was leaving for work. Brie and Bryan were taking the girls back to San Diego with Rose. I kissed Gracie's forehead.
"I'll see you soon kiddo", I said.
"Ok daddy", she said.
"I love you baby", I smiled.
She kissed my cheek.
"I love you daddy", she said.
I kissed the side of her head and handed her to Bryan. I took Amelia from Lexi, I kissed her chubby cheek and she wiggled, I was holding her too tight. I chuckled.
"Sorry Lia, daddy is gonna miss you", I said.
She stuck her finger in her mouth. I kissed her again before handing her to Brie.
"We will call you as soon as we land and then when they are safely with Rose", Brie said.
"I trust you", I said.
"Lets go home ladies", Bryan said.
We waved as their car drove away. Lexi put her hand in mine.
"Come on, we have a lot to talk about", she said.
I nodded.
Getting back to the apartment, she sat down on the couch. I grabbed the flowers I bought for her when I went to the store with Roman. I handed them to her.
"Thank you", she said.
"I also got you mint chip ice cream, it's in the freezer", I said.
"Definitely kissing ass right", she said.
"I know you haven't forgiven me completely. I did something to hurt your trust in me and I know flowers and ice cream won't make up for what I did. Just know that I love you completely, that I'm going to work on regaining your trust in me and if that means you checking my phone or being attached at my hip everywhere I go then so be it. I fucked up big time babe, I'm sorry", I said.
She nodded.
"So when did the drinking start Jon?", she asked.
I sighed and bit my lip.
"Two weeks ago, right after my mom died. Jake went over to my mom's house with the guys and Ray said I needed a drink", I shrugged.
I looked at her.
"I didn't mean to drink as heavy as I did. Then it got out of hand and next thing I know as soon as I got out of bed I reached for a beer and I didn't stop reaching", I said.
"Is it going to stop?", she asked.
"Yes, like I said I didn't mean for it to get out of hand", I said.
"You scared the hell out of me. I couldn't reach you and I didn't know what to do", she said.
"I didn't mean to worry you darlin. I should have found a way to let you know where I was", I said.
I looked down.
"I always told myself I wouldn't end up like my mom and dad. I would not be that parent who would rather drink the day away and ignore his kids. I am not that person, I won't be that person", I said.
"I understand why you went there, it's easier to drink the pain away then to deal with it", she said.
I nodded.
"Talk to me baby, if you need to cry then cry, if you need to scream then do it", she said.
"I already have", I said.
I looked at her.
"I had Helena naked on our bed and I was unbuckling my belt when this voice in my head said, don't be an idiot Jonathan. It was my mom, I looked down at the woman who was not my wife and I broke down. I got off of her and went to the girls room and cried, Jake came in and he told me he was proud of me", I said.
Lexi waited for me to continue.
"He was proud of me, not because I became this famous wrestler but because I made a good life for myself. I went through hell growing up and I could have stayed there but I fought for what I wanted and I never gave up. He was proud of me for being a man and stepping up as a father and husband, doing what I need to do for my family when I could have just abandoned you all", I said.
"You're a good husband and a damn good father, never once did I lose faith in you", she said.
"I love you doll face, that will never change and I hope it never changes for you either", I said.
She moved closer to me and I rested my forehead against hers.
"My love for you will never change Jonathan, promise", she said smiling.
I brushed my nose against hers.
"Now its time for you to tell me what is going on in that beautiful beautiful head of yours. You've been acting strange since yesterday", I whispered.
"I was thinking about, possibly having a baby", she said, pinching the side of my jeans.
"Are you ready for that?", I asked, I was hoping she was.
"I don't know. How do you know? I mean, is there a certain amount of days or months or years to wait before trying again?", she asked.
"I wish I knew", I said.
"Do you want to start trying?", she asked.
I left a small kiss on her lips.
"Only and I repeat, only, if you are ready to try", I said.
She bit her lip.
"I don't want you to do this because of me, I want us both to want to have another baby", I said.
She nodded. I kissed her, smiling.
"What?", she asked.
"So about that make up sex", I said, kissing her neck.
She laughed softly pushing me away lightly.
"So you had Helena naked on our bed", she said.
I groaned.
"Thanks for ruining the moment", I said.
She raised a brow. I sighed.
"If it helps I closed my eyes and pictured you", I said.
"Nope it doesn't, we need a new matress", she said.
"We do, I'll get right on that", I said.
I laid her down on the couch and laid on top of her.
"Her skin wasn't as soft as yours", I said, my fingers lifting her shirt up and off of her.
My lips leaving a trail of kisses down her stomach. Her fingers slid into my hair. I looked up at her.
"She smelled like smoke and arm pit", I said.
She giggled.
"You smell sweet, like candy and flowers, so so fucking sweet", I mumbled against her chest.
"I smell like candy?", she asked.
I smirked.
"And you taste like it too", I bit her bottom lip, feeling her thighs squeeze my waist.
Her breathing picked up, my fingers slid down her side. Her hands slid up my chest and lifted my shirt off of me, I threw it to the side. Her fingers traced every muscle she could find, slow her finger moved, ever so slowly. I moaned, I missed her touch. Her fingers finding the button on my jeans.
"You sure?", I asked.
She opened her mouth to say something but shut it and nodded slowly. Her eyes never leaving mine. I stood and kicked off my jeans and briefs. I slid her shorts and panties off of her, laying back between her legs.
"Jon", she moaned as my body pressed hard against hers.
She wiggled her hips underneath me. I could feel myself shaking lightly.
"Are you ok?", she asked, her hands slid down my back.
I nodded and took a deep breath. I was nervous. We have done this a million time, yet right now in this moment it felt like the first time. Her warm finger tips, slid up my back. I missed her touch.
"Please Jon", she whispered, her warm breath in my ear.
"Whats your hurry darlin", I said smirking.
I rested my forehead against hers. I reached down between us and I pushed into her ever so slowly. Her nails digging into my back.
"Oh shit", I mumbled against her lips.
She moaned against mine. Once inside her, I waited just a moment.
"Tell me you love me", I said.
"I love you", she whispered.
I smiled and kissed her.
"I love you too", I replied.
Slow thrusts, my eyes never leaving hers. Her legs wrapped around my waist keeping me close.
"Jon, harder. Please, harder. I need", she would say between breaths.
"Anything for you", I whispered.
Speeding up.
"Right there Jon, yes", she said, arching her back.
"You're so beautiful", I said.
I rested my forehead against her shoulder, shuting my eyes tight as I sped up my thrusts.
"Fuck baby", I growled.
I bit her shoulder and groaned. Both sweating and panting, moans and small screams of pleasure. Her fingers slid into my sweaty hair, she pulled me down to her lips. I gripped her thighs.
"Alex. Mine, only mine", I groaned.
"I'm so close Jon. Jon", she said, before biting her lip to keep from screaming.
"I, fuck. I", I said.
She arched her back again and I groaned. Sweet release and pleasure. Both of us trying to catch our breath. I was going to move aside but she stopped me from pulling out. Wrapping her legs around my waist, holding me close.
"Not yet", she whispered.
I nodded.
"I love being this close to you", she said.
"That was amazing", I said.
"Remember that next time you do what you did. You are mine Jonathan Good. Ambrose and Moxley included", she said.
"I'm yours, all three of me", I said with a smile.
She laughed, running her fingers through my sweaty hair.
"You were amazing", she said, kissing my sweaty forehead not once but twice.
I kissed her neck and my tongue swept lightly along her neck.
"So sweet", I whispered against her shoulder.
"Wanna go again?", she asked smirking.
I smiled.
"Don't need to ask me twice doll", I said.
She giggled as I bit her shoulder again. I flipped us and she wiggled her hips, I moaned.
"Doll don't do that or at least wait till I'm settled", I said.
"Don't do what, this", she placed her hands on my chest and wiggled.
I bit my lip and held her hips. I chuckled.
"Don't leave me", I said, looking up at her.
"Never", she said.
Her hand slid down my chest and she placed her hands on top of mine on her hips. I dug my fingers into her skin and she took that as a sign to move. My head fell back and I shut my eyes tight.
"Oh fuck doll", I groaned.
"Jon", she moaned.
"I love you babe, God I love you", I said, licking my lips as I watched her.
She looked down at me and smiled.
I brushed her hair to the side. After all this time and she was still as beautiful as the day I saw her. I knew in that moment that feeling would never go away.
