What We Had
Chapter 53
(New York by Snow patrol)
Days Later
The news of the engagement had spread throughout the entire town. Many people had offered their congratulations along with other celebrities. Entertainment news shows were already speculating details about the wedding.
It all made my head spin. He was happy. We were friends. We always had been. But something inside me flipped at the diner. We shared a moment. Us reconnecting as if no time had passed. The way he cared for me and how he loves Serenity. Is something I never experienced before.
(Morning sweetheart.) I say. Smiling up at her.
(Good morning momma. Yummy pancakes.) Serenity said. as she walked into the kitchen wearing her Clothes over bros nightgown and slippers.)
(Eat breakfast, then shower, afterwards get dressed. We t to leave for school soon.) I said. Looking to her.
(Alright momma I will. I need to make my family tree project. And I need you're help. I have your side finished but the side for my dad is empty. How come every time I ask you about him you change the subject.? He's my dad I should know him. Why is he this big secret.?) Serenity asked. Looking up at me.
I took a breathe and looked back at her.
We looked just alike but there were moments where I saw him in her. The parts that I remembered and loved before everything started to unravel within him making him a stranger to me.
(It's just really complicated it's too much for you to understand. You're a my little girl I'm trying to protect from getting hurt. I'm you're mom it's my job to that. I know you don't understand it now but one day you will.) I said. Looking to her.
(I can handle the truth I'm stronger then you think.) Serenity said.
(I know but once you know it'll change everything and when I feel like you can handle it I will tell you. Until then I'll help you fill out the rest of your family tree project. Now finish breakfast. I don't want you to be late.) I said. Looking to her.
(I'm done, I'm going to shower then get dressed I already picked out my clothes.) Serenity said. As she got up and left the table.
Sam got up and brought the dishes to the sink washing them and putting them away in the cabinet.
She washed and dried her hands. Serenity 's curiosity was reaching a point where Sam could no longer continue to make excuses. She was only getting older. And deserved to know who her father was and where he was. And why he was there. But this fear rose up in her. Once she knew everything. She couldn't get passed the thought of Serenity seeing her differently.
Sometime Later
(Have a good day I love you.) Sam said. Leaning over hugging her daughter.
(I love you too. See you after school.) Serenity said. Hugging her back.
Serenity opened the door and got out of the car.
Sam watched as Serenity walked through the double doors and then began to drive away from the school.
Sam drove through the neighborhood stopping outside his house.
Parking her car in the street. She got out crossed the street. And began to walk up the stairs. She took a breath at the sight of what she assumed was Maya's car parked next to Quentin 's in the driveway.
Knocking once on the door. She tried to figure out how to make the words congratulations on your engagement. Sound authentic. The words feeling strange in her mouth.
She knocked a second time. And it was then that the door was open.
I smiled at the sight of him.
(Hi Quentin, I heard about the engagement. I'm so happy for you.) I said. Smiling up at him. Leaning over opening my arms as he took me in his arms. Hugging me tightly.
(Thanks you came all the way here. Just to congratulate me.?) He asked.
(No I was wondering if we could talk alone. If not now another time. I wouldn't want to interrupt you and Maya 's time together. ) I said. Looking back at him.
(It's just me. She's finishing up a few things in New York so come in and sit down.) He said.
I followed him inside the house. And looked around.
He shut the door behind me. And continued the conversation.
(Once she gets back she's going to move in and we'll start planning the wedding. It's all really exciting and there is alot to figure out but we're ready for it. What do you want to talk about.?) He asked.
While we left the entryway and walked into the living room.
He sat on one chair and I sat on the other one next to him.
(I haven't been able to stop thinking about the time we spent at the diner. And the kiss we shared all those months ago. You deserve to be happy and have the future you've always wanted but I don't think you'll have that with Maya.) Sam said.
The expression on Quentin 's face changed.
(Why would you say that.? You don't even know her!) Quentin exclaimed. Defensively.
(You barely know this woman six months isn't long enough to know you want to share a life with someone. You need to be sure about this it's the rest of your life.) Sam said.
(I am. There is no limit when it comes to love. You out of everyone should know that. Honestly me and my relationship with with Maya is none of your business. We are friends but if this is how it's going to be. You undermining our relationship is going to cause problems between us. Before that happens maybe we need a break from each other.) Quentin said.
(No time apart is the last thing I want to happen. I just got you back in my life I can't lose you again. I didn't mean what I said the way it sounded. What I should of said. Is this.) Sam said.
Getting off the chair she was sitting in and sat next to Quentin.
Locking eyes with him as she spoke.
(For as long as I can remember you've been this important essential part of my life. For years you pushed your feelings for me away because you thought Jack made me happy and that we would have a future but I knew that would never happen. You got me through the most difficult times in my life. Without expecting anything in return. You love my daughter like she's your own. And you've loved me for longer then I've realized. And I just know you marrying her would be a mistake. Because I love you. I am so in love you. I can't keep hiding my heart and acting as if I don't need anyone. I want a life with you. I want you.) Sam confessed. Tears falling from her eyes.
As she leaned over kissing him.
She had laid it all out there and didn't care about the risk. There was no going back now and she was ready for whatever the outcome.
Her heart raced as he pulled her closer to him.
She felt as if she was truly alive and awaken for the first time in so long.
She reached over and pulled off his shirt.
He tore off her shirt. Dropping it to the floor.
Placing kisses all over her her.
She broke the kiss. Attempting to catch her breath as she spoke.
(Let's go to your room.) Sam said. Looking up at him.
He took her hand and walked with her out of living room.
He lead her up up the stairs and through the hallway.
He opened the door at the end of the hallway.
She walked inside he shut the door behind them.
Took her in his arms and reconnected their lips.
He laid her down on the bed carefully.
Neither of them taking their eyes off each other.
She looked up at him. Feeling emotions she had locked away.
(I love you.) She said. At last seeing the love in his eyes.
(I love you too.) He said. Leaning down reconnecting their lips.
As he began to remove the remaining layers between them.
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