This chapter will be about Shane and how she's been. Now apparently I made an error about her age. When she was 8 she was supposed to be 10 and when Bets was 11 Shane was supposed to be 14 so that was my mistake! so since Bets is 13 Shane is now 16.

And she is a freshman, she is like another Shane, smart but doesn't give a shit about her grades.

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Shane's POV

Its been six months since I started to date Ricky. Six months of him being a jerk. I guess that I deserve a man like that since im always going off on other guys….I cant tell my parents about his doing, they know im seeing a guy but not anything else. Riley knows Rick, they're friends but Riley doesn't like me dating Rick, not because of the friend thing but he just doesn't like it. He always gets jealous and goes of to sulk when we get into an argument.

"Babyyy!" Ricky called out as he strode towards me, I was sitting in the library just reading my book, its actually good. I looked up and smiled.

"Hi Rick." He moved my bag, not carefully either and sat down next to me, scooted closer to me.

"What you doing."

"Reading." I felt his hand on my thigh. Now you say six month couples should be doing it but not me… call me a good girl but I don't want sex till im ready, and Rick well…..he really doesn't care, you ask why the hell im with him then well honestly cause I hope I can change him, make him stop.

"Reading? Thought you hated books."

"Text books. Now books like Shakespeare I simply love."

"Now you don't look like the one to understand that shit." I should hit him for that comment but I cant think with his hand going up my skirt. Eve made me wear it, told me to change it up a bit, this is why I like pants. I pushed his hand away.

"Stop it."

"Stop what."

"You know what Rick." he sighed heavily. I got up and put my book in my bag.

"So not even foreplay?"

"No."

"Fine." He got up but I grabbed his arm before he could leave. "What?"

"Don't be mad, please Ricky."

He got closer, held me but his hands were on my butt. "Then let me fool around at the most…. Come on six months I waited. don't you think your being a prude." I looked down and thought about it. I gulped and nodded.

"But…..we need to go…somewhere private, I don't like public display."

He grabbed my arm and pulled me over to the far back of the library, I didn't even get a chance to sit my bag down before he started up my skirt again. I stopped his hand, his eyes threw daggers at me.

"S-sorry….reflex." I let his hand go and let him proceed, but then pulled away feeling this dirty feeling I didn't like.

Now he looked pissed off. "Im sorry Rick…..it just feels….dirty…."

He grabbed my hand and slammed me into the shelves of the books.

"Dirty is nothing, now getting me mad my love his another. You know what happens when I get mad." I do sadly. I just love him a lot that I think I can put up with it. I looked down and then at his face which was close to mine.

"Im sorry…"

"Not sorry enough…..I thought you loved me baby."

"I do. I really do but…."

"Then you should give your man what he deserves." He kissed my neck and felt his hands back on my butt again. I pushed him off.

"No Ricky…im not ready for that yet."

He growled and sighed. He grabbed my shoulders and kissed my lips more slowly and sweetly. "Im sorry, I didn't mean to baby. Forgive me?"

I smiled at him, I love him so much. "Yes. I do."

He kissed me again and again till we were yelled at by some teacher. I made my depart and sat with my friends, we talk for a while then Ricky came about.

"Hey baby come on!"

"Sorry guys I got to go." Betsy grabbed my arm which made me pull away, she looked at me with shock.

"Shane what is with you lately?" I rubbed the spot where she grabbed me and shook my head.

"Nothing. I gotta go."

"Come on babe!" I heard Ricky getting impatient.

Betsy stood up when I did and grabbed my hand, this time I didn't pull away. "He needs to stop, this is our time, and he is taking it away all the flippin time."

"He's just-" I felt a hand grab my forearm, pulling me to face the man who is now mad.

"When its time to go its time baby, now come on." I got pulled away trying to protest but was shoved in the front seat and the car door slam on me. I rolled the window down and was about to say something to the shocked Betsy but the car left in a fast hurry.

I turned to him with anger building up. "Why do you have to be such an impatient jerk."

"Because I have a dumb ass for a girlfriend who don't know what the meaning of go is." I frowned at him.

"Why do you gotta be so mean to me, im trying here." I saw we were at a taco bell place, Morganville does have it yes. He stopped the car and got out. I felt tears form. This is all my fault. I screwed up again, my car door opened when I whipped my eyes. I unbuckled myself and got to my feet to meet him standing between the car door that's opened and the car itself. He held my face and made me look up.

"I don't mean to be mean baby." I pulled my head away and sniffed. "Im sorry okay…I-I do better okay…."

He cupped my face and kissed my lips. He smiled a little. "That's all I ask. Now come on lets go eat."

I nodded and walked with him inside, I sat down and told him what I wanted. "You need a salad, you shouldn't be eating tacos like you do."

"Why not….I like tacos…."

"Yeah but to much is bad for your health and your already putting on some pounds so just eat a salad." I wanted to protest but he didn't give me time. He walked to the counter and ordered. He came back with two tacos and a salad. That lunch I hardly ate.

I came home and smelled tacos. Mama is cooking. I smiled at that thought but frowned when I recalled lunchtime.

"Honey dinner is almost ready." I was now in my room just standing in the mirror.

"No-im not really hungry."

"Don't you want at least one taco?"

your already putting on some pounds Maybe he was right. I looked in the mirror and shook my head. I looked at my mother who was giving me a look. "No thanks mama. Im fine, plus I had a big lunch." She looked at me like she didn't believe me but then nodded and walked out. That's how the next week went, and another week, and another.

I worked out in the gym a lot and always felt tired. It was stange not eating but hey I don't want my boyfriend to be seen with an ugly fattie like me.

"Hey are you okay?" Riley asked me as we walked to class.

"Yeah why?"

"Because you almost fell." it took me a moment to realize that he was holding me up. I felt red all around.

"Shane!" I heard a voice call and saw Ricky standing there and he looked really pissed. I pulled away from Riley and rushed over to Ricky.

"What is-" I was pulled and was pushed into a supply closet, the light turned on to reveal how mad he was.

"What's your problem. Do you enjoy making me mad! Do you think I like seeing my girl hugging up on some guy!"

Oh god. "No Ricky-" He grabbed my arms and slammed me to the door and I felt a slap across my face. I held my cheek and looked at him. "Ricky stop it!" I cried. God my head hurt. I felt my breathing increase, I was feeling scared.

I heard voices coming from the door behind me. "Hey! Shane! Are you in there?" Betsy's voice.

"Hello!" Riley yelled banging on the door.

"Get your asses out here." Aiden.

"Let go of me please." I begged, I saw his eyes turn in shock like he couldn't believe what he did. He let go. I took my chance and opened the door to see my friends faces. Betsy worried and angry but looking scared too, Aiden just looking suspicious, Riley scared. I smiled and held Ricky's hand. "Sorry did you need something."

"Yes you."

"The hell did he do to you!" Aiden asked.

"Yeah you were screaming." Riley said.

"Oh that….that was just a game we play." Ricky said smiling. Guess he is over shock. He looked at me with eyes of -you better play along-

"Yes….a game we love to play. Sorry that I scared you guys."

They still looked concerned and was hesitating to leave but as soon as I said things to keep their minds at ease then they left. I felt arms wrap around me, and the door close again. His hands were really on my boobs but if I say anything I might get hurt again and god my head already was pounding, I was tired and just couldn't take anymore. Not today at least.

"Im so sorry baby…..I didn't mean to go off. Please don't go. I love you so much please forgive my actions its just….I couldn't handle seeing you with that guy….." I turned in his arms.

"He is just a friend. And im sorry too. I didn't mean for that to happen. I love you as well…I forgive you and wont ever leave you." I smiled up at him. He kissed my lips and slid his hand up my skirt, felt his hand in, and his fingers went inside me, making me moan and go weak. I blushed and just let him do that, I mean he deserves a little right? After what I did, I hurt him so, yah.

A few more weeks passed with no eating and saw I was losing the weight. I smiled at how much I lost. Betsy is coming over on tonight for girls night which I was glad. Cause I needed a girls night. Ricky got mad at me yesterday for making him wait. I wear make up now to cover up what damage he does, it hurts so much but I love him to much to leave him. And he tells me he is sorry afterwards and he loves me and we do foreplay a little.

"Hey Shane-" the worst time to change is when your dad walks in. I put down my shirt, hoping he didn't see the bruises.

"What is it daddy."

"Uhh…I just….wanted to know if you wanted chili?" I saw him smile. Chili did sound good but was it worth ruining the effort I put into my diet? No sorry daddy but its not.

"No. im fine daddy."

"Okay….Betsy is coming over soon so I want this room cleaned."

I looked around and sighed then nodded. He left and I felt so weak and sore that I really didn't want to do anything. I looked in the mirror and still saw I was fat. God. I look fatter. I pinched and grabbed at my body when Betsy came in.

"Hey girly."

"Hey." I smiled and left the mirror. I sat on my bed and saw she brought of pizza. I rose a brow.

"My mom ordered two boxes of pizza by mistake so I brought one over for our little girls night. She sat the box down as well as her bag. And she sat across from me. I smiled and heard my cell phone go off. I ignored it since this was girls night. I put it on silent and looked at Betsy.

"Eat."

"I already did, ate some chili just before you got here."

"Don't bullshit me Shane."

"Im not. Im just not up for pizza."

"No you just wanna get skinny till you die right?"

"Im eating but not fatty stuff like that. Its gross and has way to much calories."

"Funny, you didn't say that 6 months ago."

"You think this is about Ricky don't know?"

"I know it is. Im not stupid Shane I know he has done something to that mind of yours because you ate like no tomorrow before he came along."

"No….I just saw that I was getting to be a pig so im cutting back on the food."

"Eat."

"No."

Betsy did the unthinkable, she grabbed the pizza and got on top of me, holding me down. "Eat or I will shove it down your throat!"

I shook my head and blocked my mouth.

"Damn it Shane." She put the pizza down and grabbed my arms, god it hurt so bad that I screamed so loud that I made her fall back onto the bed. I sat up and held my arm.

She grabbed my hand and lifted up my sleeve and saw the cut. She looked at me with eyes that can say a lot. Worried, pissed off, scared, heartbreak.

"Shane."

I pulled away and got up. "Get out." Betsy got to her feet and was coming to me but then I yelled more. "Get out! Just leave already! I don't want you hear." I grabbed the pizza and shoved it in her hands then shoved her out of my room and slammed my door. I felt my breathing increase, I slid to the floor and steadied my breathing. After I heard footsteps decreasing from my door I started to sob my eyes out, soon I got in my bed and fell asleep.

Shane's POV

I sat in bed, watching my wife get ready for bed. She smiled at me as she sat down. "What's wrong?"

I recalled the sight of my daughter's back, not only was it bruised but….I could see her spine well almost. "Shane."

"Shane?"

I knew Shane would be asleep by now so I took my wife into Shane's room. She was on her side, her back towards us, the light lit. she was supposed to have Bets over but it turns out that Bets had to leave, she seemed sad about it too. I lifted my daughters baggy sweater and my wife widened her eyes.

"Shes not….."

"I don't know, she told us she has big lunches and already ate….." I let down her shirt and took my wife out of the room. "Plus those bruises…."

"She cant-"

"Cant what?" I looked at Claire.

"She cant be not eating, that isn't like her Shane….I mean she is you, she loves food…."

"Maybe tomorrow we should find out."

She nodded and with that we went to bed.

The next day we had breakfast all out for her Eve was sitting with Michael. I was putting down a plate, Claire was the first to notice.

"Good morning baby."

Shane smiled and came in, her hair looked all faded and messy. Her eyes looked tired. She saw the food and stopped in her tracks. "Your cooking?"

"Yes. Why not." I said.

"You guys hardly cook breakfast."

"Well since we never see you at dinner-"

"We decided to make you breakfast."

"You must be tired sweetie." I sat her in a chair. "I made your favorite too."

She pushed away the plate and said. "I cant, I just brushed my teeth and…I have to go-"

"Your not in a hurry Shane now eat. Please."

She looked at all of us and shoved her chair back. "I cant I don't-"

Claire sat her back down. "You can, you do and you will now eat Shane Elizabeth."

Shane glared at her mom and took a bite of pancakes. "There."

"No eat the whole enchilada."

"All of it?"

"Yes."

Shane gave us all a look then started to dig in.

Claire gave me a look. I shook my head and headed off for work,

Shane's POV

After my parents left I threw away my plate and went up to the bathroom to shower but I saw the commode and got a thought. I know this isn't me but…..Ricky would notice that I would gain and….I cant take him leaving me. I closed the door and got to my knees, I tied back my hair and stuck my finger in my mouth and made myself puke, puked till all the food was out of my body, I flushed the toilet after I was done and washed myself in the shower. I got dressed in my normal wear. Baggy t-shirt and jeans with flip flops. I was brushing my hair when I saw a clump of my hair falling. Ew. I swatted it away and looked in the mirror. The person looking back was a fat girl, she was fatter then ever now. That girl was me. I tied my hair back and grabbed my gym bag, put on my running shoes, my hoodie and ran to the opened gym. I paid the man and started to work my ass off.

Two weeks passed with the same, ate dinner when parents were asleep puked it back up, ate lunch puked it up, hardly ate breakfast though. Ricky keeps hurting me when he is angry and finally after 4 months of this I couldn't do it anymore, my body rejected food when I tried to eat, I puked when I didn't even want to. I cry at night scared for my life, I was in gym class and saw I weighted about 80 pounds. Im losing more by everyday. It scares me so much. People tell me im too skinny and I look sick, even Ricky calls me skinny, when he heard that I been puking and not eating he said he couldn't be with that kinda girl. Betsy and Aiden wont talk to me, Riley worries about me but I soon shoved him out my family is irritated at how I been acting so really I had no one. For 6 months I been doing this. I been hurt its close to a year now and I still see that huge girl in the mirror, I still am this way, no friends, no family, no boyfriend, nothing to help me. I looked out my window and cried again.

A knock on my door made me cry more. I heard the door open, truth is I wanted to be helped, this is scary and I don't know how to handle it, Rick- I did this for him and now he is gone. Maybe this is what I deserved.

"Shane-" I looked over my shoulder to see Betsy wide eyed drop her bag. I got to my feet and turned to her. I was getting dressed when she walked in and was in my bra and panties.

"Oh my god…." Betsy breathed.

"What do you want?"

"I wanted….to come over and talk but…Shane….your body…" I heard her voice cracking. I couldn't stand it anymore my bones feel weak, my head feels pain, my stomach hurts all the time. I collapsed to my knees and started crying. "Betsy help me….I-I don't know what to do-" I felt arms around me and Betsy crying.

"Shane its okay im here, im not mad anymore, hell I was never mad….just hold on okay…." I felt my chest hurt and I couldn't breath.

"Betsy….I cant breath."

"What?"

"I cant breath…..I-" I gasped and was laid down.

"You stay here." She got up and screamed her lungs out calling my family up. I closed my eyes and felt arms around me.

"Shane breathe you hear me!" My dads voice told me. "Eve get the- hell Michael carry her to the car."

I looked at him with tears in my eyes. "Im…sorry daddy…." I closed my eyes and drifted into sleep.

Why did I ever do this….

Since Bets had two chaps I will let Shane have two, now if you didn't get what was happening in this chap Shane was called fat by her abusive boyfriend, Rick and that's how it all happened. 2 months she went without eating and 4 months she was puking out her food finally 6 months all together she couldn't handle it, neither could her body, and how she acted towards others made people leave her, or let her be alone, Rick saw she was too skinny and left her-jack ass- and her friends wanted to be there but Shane pushed them away as well as her Family. Shane suffers from Depression/ Anorexia/ Bulimia, cause of the Bulimia and Anorexia her body couldn't take much more and was shutting down on her, you could say she was having a severe attack on her heart and body.

Like her sister suffered through Anorexia I thought it would be good to have Shane experience but hers was more sever since she was constantly abused by her boyfriend along with her mental illness. Surprised she didn't go suicide poor thing.

Anyways I hope you like it, I know it's a crap chapter but hey some strong women can go weak at anytime when they are in love. Next chapter you will see how she recovers and that's when Riley will step in ;)

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-Miki-