*Causally starts Author Notes again*

Everything is fine except I got a legal notice email saying that somebody used my information or something? I had my dad look at the email saying basically somebody sued facebook and I had liked something dealing with that and they used my information? And I asked what I could do about it and my dad said I should make a claim so I could possibly get 10$? And I said why can't I just delete the email because I really didn't care and then he me out saying that Facebook could possibly claim rights to my 'image'? And that upset me because I like my face. I don't want my face stolen. I like my face. I really do.

We were all seated around a table littered with tea cups filled with varying amounts of tea. Lau held a cup to his lips and Soma hugged me around my waist, and I sat on the arm rest of his chair stroking his hair in his upset state. Sebastian glared at us from behind Ciel and I occasionally shot him a face in response.

That's what the bastard gets for telling me who I can and can't be friends with.

Lau took the cup away from his lips and spoke. "With that kind of punch this fellow is no ordinary human being."

"It is a mental technique he uses called Samadhi." Soma mumbled, "When he gets like that nobody can touch him."

"Never heard of it." Ciel said.

"I imagine it's a type of trans. Agni has absolute faith in his master." Sebastian explained, "Consequently from that faith he is able to produce super human power. His skills are born of something we can never understand. The power of complete love and trust in another person." Ciel looked at his butler, uninterested.

Soma slapped my hand away and sat up. "But his betrayal… why would he do it?... WHY DO THE PEOPLE CLOSE TO ME ALWAYS LEAVE?!" The prince howled and slammed his hands down onto the table rattling the tea set before shoving it off of the table.

The set was pushed to the ground before me and I stood frightened. "Prince Soma!" I shouted and reached towards him; however, I pulled back at the last minute.

"All of them… but why?" He whispered, trembling where he stood. Then, as quickly as he had smashed the tea set, he dashed out of the room.

"Soma! Wait!" I called, sprinting after him.

T~T~T~T (Kaitlyn/Soma's Guest Room)

"Prince Soma please come out of your burri- blanket wrap and talk to me." I quietly requested of the prince. Nudging the blanket burrito he shouted in response.

"Go away!"

I huffed. "Soma."

"Ms. Kaitlyn, I thought I told you to stay away from this lot." A dark voice reminded me. A shiver ran down my spine at the reminder. Sebastian had said that… but granted it was a stupid thing to say I elected to ignore him.

"Get out Sebastian, I'll handle this."

Too late.

The butler gripped the edge of the blanket and ripped it away from Soma, tossing him to the floor in the process. "Agh! You careless pig!" The prince hissed.

"Hm, I am the careless one?" Sebastian responded. Soma looked up at him in surprise, "You are in England at the Estate of Lord Phantomhive, my master. What you childishly don't seem to recognize is that as it stands your presence in this household amounts to little more than a nuisance."

"Sebastian."

He ignored my warning. "You are a helpless child who can do nothing without Agni at his side. Now… your pillar of strength has left you."

Soma hung his own head in shame, "You are right… I have lost every one now… everyone who mattered to me." I knelt down next to him, placing my hand upon his hair. Sebastian laughed and this action caught Soma's attention.

"That isn't true and you know it Soma." I intervened before Sebastian could continue.

"Ms. Kaitlyn." Sebastian's cold warning froze me for a moment, but I wouldn't stand for how he was treating Soma. Sure, he was a brat, but did that make him any different from Ciel? "Lost… you're more of a child than I thought. You haven't lost anything Prince. Don't you understand you can't have lost what you never had to begin with."

"Stop it Sebastian." I growled, and again he ignored me.

"Status from your parents, a palace from your parents, a servant from your parents, and never before in your life has anything ever actually belonged to you. Isn't that right?"

"It's not." Soma argued.

"Some part of you must have known the truth about Agni, but you were too much of a coward to face the truth weren't you?"

"You're wrong!" I shouted standing and placing myself in front of Soma. "You're wrong Sebastain! Agni was Soma's! You weren't there that day in the kitchen! Soma saved Agni from death! Agni wasn't some gift from his parents! Agni loves Soma as much as I do!" At those words Sebastian's eyes widened, and I internally smirked. I wanted to make him hurt. I took a breath to start again, but Soma made a break for the door screaming 'You're wrong! You're wrong!' but the door slammed close before he could make it out. Sebastian had beaten him there.

"You know I'm not wrong. You're finally seeing the truth, and now you want to play the tragic hero… what a hopelessly pathetic brat you are."

Soma stepped away from him, collapsing to the floor. "They said that they would be with me forever."

"And you actually believed that? You are so naïve… why on Earth would they stay when they got nothing in return? That is something most three year olds understand." Soma looked up at him. "Time to face facts… nobody ever loved you."

"That's enough of that." A third voice spoke up.

"Master…" Sebastian whispered as we all looked to find Ciel standing in the doorway.

"Who knows, I easily could have ended up the same way as him. If it hadn't been for that month…"

"What are you talking about Ciel?" Soma asked as he stood.

"My family… they were killed and my home was burned down. I was treated worse than you would treat any animal. I was helpless, just a child, but I came back to make the people who did this to me suffer the same humiliation. I will find them; my parents were killed for a reason. If I remain the family head and remain a nuisance to the people who hurt them then they will target me. That is what I'm waiting for, someday they will come to take my life too."

"But why… why do it?" Soma questioned the boy.

"Because the alternative is grief and melancholy; if I stand still I might as well be dead with them, but I'm alive and still standing; moving on my own two feet. I'm going to die someday and I'd rather do it with no regrets. I'm not going to pretend I'm doing anything noble, for this is no grand revenge. It's just a game to me, and I'm waiting to see who wins. However far I fall as long as there is so much as a thread left to me I will use it to climb. I will grab onto it and refuse to let go. I am still human, so I can do that much, but every person must decide on their own whether to grab it or not. Now come Kaitlyn and Sebastian, we must talk about West."

"Yes."

"Ciel!" Soma called, "I am 17, and you are correct. Compared to you I am nothing more than a spoiled brat. I knew there was something that had been bothering Agni but I didn't care enough to ask did I? Now I want to know, I wish to see them in person and ask why they left me! I beg you, let me come!"

"I don't think so…" Ciel said crushing Soma's hopes as quickly as they had been started. Ciel you little shit. "You area naïve idiot. I don't want to chaperon you. Of course… it's not like I'm going to go to the trouble of locking you in here."

Just as quickly the prince's hopes were restored.

"Thank you!" He shouted, clinging to the young Earl.

"GET OFF ME!"

"I am sorry I lost my temper earlier and destroyed your tea set…" He looked over at Sebastian. "Oh and you too I am sorry." He whispered hiding behind Ciel.

"It's alright… I find you entertaining." Sebastian replied, to which Soma smiled and walked off with Ciel. As they left the mood immediately darkened.

"You are a bastard you know that Sebastian." I said with venom in my voice as I turned to him. His head was hung slightly, and combined with the darkness of the room his face was shadowed from my view.

"Did you mean what you said… have I already lost you to the prince?" He whispered. A boiling anger flared up within me. How dare he think that!

Raising my hand I slapped him across his face, "How dare you. Wasn't it you who said those words Sebastian?" I glared at him, and he raised his head slightly to look at me. "You cannot lose what was never yours." I hissed towards the butler.

My next reaction was acted out unthinkingly.

Grabbing the butler by his collar I pulled him towards me and kissed him roughly upon his addicting lips. There was no way in heaven or hell I would let him think he owned me. Pushing him away at the next moment I turned on my heel. "I was never yours, nor will I ever be Sebastian."

T~T~T~T (Third Person P.O.V.)

The butler stood alone in the darkened room, gloved fingers brushing against his lips as he recalled the rough kiss shared between him and the creature. He recalled her words, Wasn't it you who said those words Sebastian? You cannot lose what was never yours.

After a moment he chuckled to himself. "Ah, but Ms. Kaitlyn. We were each other's from the start."

~~A Look At SexyTurtles Writing Process~~

*Writing the chapter… gains an idea*
Oh… I could make them have a fight right here and then they could kiss!

*Continues typing.*

Wait… they aren't scheduled to kiss for several more chapters…

*Is in conflict with script and own author wishes. Proceeds to facebook where she ask's friends for guidance.*

SexyTurtle: DO I MAKE KAITLYN AND SEBASTIAN KISS?

DarkLordSatanBitch: YESYESYESYESYES

*With the conflict settled she proceeded to write, and after finishing the scene she goes back to the script.*

Oh it continues after this point…

*Screws the script and adds TP POV to end chapter.*
TL;DR: I go through many scene changes as I write. This one pertaining to whether they kiss or not. I gained a new motto in the process. SHOULD THEY KISS OR IS IT TOO SOON?

Most of the time I go with the change because I can.