"W-why?!" Tears were falling freely down my face. My body became instantly weak from seeing the fragment of memory that I can't comprehend.
Me as the Kevin Regnard that I can't recognize. A part of me that was forcefully torn and forgotten.
My heart was breaking, in all the words I can't express. I can only say, this one left me unfathomably hurting. From seeing myself being so helpless, worthless to be precise. I died that day along with the death of my dearest love.
"How could I have forgotten?" With my crooked voice my knees gave in and met the ground.
"It wasn't your fault" a faint voice somewhere was heard. I look around the room to see where the voice was from.
Somewhere near the bed a familiar doll spoke.
"Just look" the white doll pointed to the direction where my other self was hugging the Lady.
"E- eli...za.b..eth" the young man's cry overpower his words. His hands were desperately clinging to the brunette's body.
And without the young knight noticing the lifeless body's finger faintly move. Her eyelids slowly open revealing an empty stares.
Like a puppet on a string she moved stiffly and break the distance between them.
"Elizabeth?" The younger Break was surprised hands were holding his cheeks. She stares intently at him but her eyes reflects nothing but emptiness, those mesmerizing eyes before were gone and what's left is nothingness. No love nor any hint of emotion.
The lady close the distance as lips lock each other instead of feeling the blissful warmness of her lips he felt cold and lonely. Slowly light appeared out of nowhere as his consciousness slowly left him.
He felt his memories starts to leave him.
"I..will always... Love you" he whispered before knocking himself cold on the ground.
She made me forget her.
My body froze trying to process every bit of memories that was returning.
Why did she want me to forget her?
"Lady Elizabeth has always been alone in all eternity and never experience being a normal person" kanon spoke. My gaze was fixated at the white doll.
"The core at that time gave her a chance to live like a normal person" he continues.
"And that's the time she met you" he added.
"Thanks to you she was able to learn how to love and be loved" he slowly approaches.
"She was truly happy" he smiled.
"But now she's taking a dangerous path" the white doll frowned.
"She'll be alone again for all eternity" those words sent shiver down my spine.
I felt a prick somewhere inside my heart.
"In the darkness she will sunk down"
His words echoes.
"An eternity of suffering in the depths of despair"
"My only wish, my creator, save her" kanon's voice was fading as the memories were grumbling.
"I'm begging you don't leave her again" the white doll's wish were heard as his diminishing body disappears along the fragment of memory.
A flash of light blinded me for a moment then it slowly faded.
A beeping sound was the first noise to break the silence and I was back to Sharon's room. There was no trace of kanon in the room nor the bright light.
But a ring on my right hand was left behind along with my aching heart.
Tears were still flowing.
My throat was itching as my chest demand for more air to breathe in.
I hated myself more than ever.
I've already lose her once I can't lose her again.
I look at the sleeping princess then to a portrait of Mistress Shelly
"Forgive me Mistress Shelly I can no longer remain with Lady Sharon side" I feel ashamed but my mind is already made up.
Gripping the ring i choose to be with Elizabeth. Even it means to go through hell with her, then let it be.
No matter how many life time will I'll be born again my heart will always choose her.
"You finally have your answer" a gentle whisper in the wind was heard.
As i turn around i saw a glob like light
Elizabeth's p.o.v:
Cold. I feel so cold.
Numbing cold.
The sad feeling earlier is being eaten away to oblivion along with my memories I can feel it fleeting slowly.
The darkness will take everything away and it's okay. I deserve this, I was unwanted before no one will ever miss me.
My biological parents just gave me away for the sake of many . The warmth hand that held me for moment was the only thing I can remember and after that nothing else. I was never given a chance to see or know them.
I can see myself sinking, sinking into the vast darkness.
Slowly I'm being swallowed down.
I'm not even trying to save myself anymore and why would I?
I wonder how empty a person can be?
The creeping feeling of being worthless has caught me.
That's why if it's me that the darkness would take instead of Lacie, it will be okay.
She was loved by people.
Her soul deserves to go back to the cycle.
It's fine, this is fine.
Somehow I got comfortable. The darkness isn't so bad at all.
Calm and still that's how it is.
Is it bad to get this comfortable in this unfathomable pitch Black Sea?
The surrounding is quiet, too quiet that I can hear my own breathing.
In this silence, thoughts can run wild freely but I don't like my thoughts sometimes.
They are frightening.
Really, really terrifying.
They drives me crazy sometimes.
Maybe I am already mad.
But they're comforting me right now and I'm getting used to it.
"Come back" a fading voice was heard.
"Hello? Is somebody here?"
I look around in this stretched dark sea but no one was there.
"Come back" there it goes again. I think I'm starting to hearing things.
I can hear the sound of a cracking glass out of nowhere.
The veil of darkness was breaking fast, lines of light appeared all around.
"Elizabeth" a warm voice calling out my name was able to pierce through the deep.
And like a fragile glass the darkness was broken into pieces.
I gasped and I was back.
I was pulled back. My body was frozen still.
"Please come back to me" a pained voice was heard. I just notice a man was hugging me tightly his hair as white as snow. This familiar warmth i forced to forget came back flashing as fast as lightening.
All memories i tried to wipe out into oblivion came back. It was like a domino one fall from another created a chain bit by bit memories flooded.
Liquid like trickled down my hands snapped me out instantly as i soon realize they were covered with blood. And with my horror my hands were shaking as it feels a metallic sharp knife that was buried at his back.
"I...I" my voice broke I stab Break. I stab my most precious one. Feeling his body slip My knees touch the ground along his body.
My eyes start to water uncomfortably. Every now and then i experienced the worst kind of pain. But this one was like the combination of all those pain for more than a hundred of years in my existence hit me into a single blow.
My throat was burning as i slowly remove the knife from his back and quickly rip a piece of my cloth and put an amount of force to stop the bleeding.
"Ke..v.. Break" i force my voice to come out desperately stopping the bleeding.
"Shhh" he hushed me. My eyes froze and knowing he was conscious, his breathing keep me sane.
"I finally return you idiot" he said wiping my tears away with his thumb.
"What?!" I said confusingly.
"I remember everything Elizabeth" his voice gives me shiver. The way he say it, was the same as before. I can never forget gentleness of his tone along time ago and the weight of his stares carefully looking straight into my eyes.
He got his memories back.
I bit my tongue hard as I can taste my blood. Anxiousness hit me.
I don't want him to remember anything about me.
"I'm glad" he said.
His finger reach down my left hand.
"You've been waiting for me in a very, very long time. " he continued his words pierce like an arrow straight to my heart.
He lifted my ring finger gently as he pulled out something from his coat.
A golden ring adorned with blue diamond was slowly being slid down my ring finger.
"Thank you for waiting" he said as he smiled genuinely.
"Kevin..." Words stuck every time i say his name.
"I love you, always have, always will" he said pulling me closer. His breath hiked.
I close my eyes and kiss him not caring of the painful sensation my tongue felt. I kissed him telling all the things that words failed to express. Telling how much I love him, how much i'm sorry for stabbing him, for erasing his memories of me, for lying to him, for being so cynical, for making him suffer and for wanting with him forever.
We kissed neither of us tried to grasp for air. We were hungry for each other afraid that if either of us will pull out we would woke up from this dream. But one thing i've learn in this world.
All good thing comes to an end.
Kevin needs to let me go.
Someone like me can never end up being happy. But doesn't mean i can't cherish this final moment with him.
I was the first one to break away. As soon as i stop his lips instantly misses mine i can see the desire in his expression. Staring into his eye while caressing his left empty one.
Poor Kevin you've been through a lot. Fate wasn't kind to you as well.
"Kevin" I frowned. I thought i would never be able to say his name. I was reluctant but i need to rip the band-aid this time.
"You need to understand" looking straight into his eye.
"Sometimes there are things in the past that needs to remain in the past" i continued trying to stop the tears that are falling again.
"I love you that words are not enough to express" my hands gently pull him.
"But you have to move forward, you have to live" i said more like a whisper.
"Thank you for everything" i continued and hug him tightly as i can.
"But I can no longer be by your side Kevin Regnard" i can feel him tense from the words i just said.
"What?! I don't understand" he said trying to pull away.
"Why?!" his voice broke as i feel his body shiver. I remained quiet. I can never be by his side ever again.
I can sense the darkness presence going near, my shoulder tenses I believe my time with him is up.
"May the light chase away every darkness that might stumble your way" i whispered behind his right ear and i push him with all my might. Knowing the shadow is nearing and it caught me instantly.
I can see Kevin with fear as he locked his eye on me.
"No, please not again"he mumbled as he tried to stand up but I can see the core shielded him from the claws of the darkness.
"Thank you" i mouthed directly to the core and smiled genuinely. I know the core brought Kevin along to tell my goodbye.
I close my eyes feeling light compared to before. No regrets this kind of ending isn't that bad after all.
Letting the darkness lingered and completely covered me.
Goodbyes are not actually all good but it is necessary for people to move forward.
I'm glad I did.
Even it was a short one but my heart is at ease.
I'm truly glad.
~five years later~
Break/Kevin's p.o.v:
The crashing waves met the shore, as the evening stars twinkle brightly.
My feet felt the rough sand as footprints were left. i breathe in the cold air.
"Break"Sharon who have finally aged with her body called out. Fingers intertwined with his husband, Reim.
Sharon and Reim were married for almost a year and with them is the other Baskerville called Lily.
After what happened that night all the powers from the abyss vanish.
No sign of chains.
No more the will of Abyss.
No more Baskerville.
No more B- rabbit.
They all vanish.
"What are you doing outside? Its freezing cold here" Sharon asked Reim covers the lady's shoulder with his coat.
"Nothing. Just getting some air" i said putting both of my hands inside the pocket of my jacket.
"Well you better head inside soon. Gil will be visiting" The lady said while dragging his husband along.
I just nod. While Rein gave me a last glance.
"You know she wants you to move forward right" Reim whispered as he make his way back to the mansion.
"Yeah" i answered loud enough for him to hear.
But no matter how i try to move on my heart will always belong to her no matter what.
Some love can't just be forgotten.
Will it be another five or thirty years or i would be reborn again I know i won't ever love anyone the way i love her.
My heart will only belong to her, only her.
~The end~
AUTHOR'S NOTE:
1. Yup! Thank fucking goodness i finished my pandora fanfic. I'm so happy I was able to finish this crappy story.
2. To all of my loyal readers thank you very much for sticking with my story till the end. I'm grateful for all of you who waited like 3 or 4 years of my shitty grammar and messy plot.
3. I hope y'all left some vote or any comments on what ya think of the end. Go wild if you want i would appreciate it.
4. Well this is the end. Thank you for the journey everyone. Goodbye!
