Chapter 55
(A.N: Sorry I've been away so long. If you really care to know why PM me, if not sorry, I had stuff going on. I am also stuffing something to this chapter really awkwardly, sorry about that too. I just really want it in here so...)
Dave waited outside of Figgins office with as much patience as he could muster. It wasn't a lot though. His good leg bounced up and down, and his hands kept thinking they were part of some heavy metal rock band and drummed against anything in sight except (thankfully) people.
He wished that Kurt was with him, but Kurt had things to do. Anyway he needed to do this on his own. He needed to be able to do things on his own. Still, he wasn't sure if he would be able to refuse his help if he magically came down the hall and asked him. Dave focused on what he wanted to say, convincing his mouth that it didn't want to stumble over words.
"David" Figgins yelled out to him, Dave walked into his office, tripping on the way in, his crutches catching on the carpet. Blushing, Dave took a seat on the metal chairs facing Figgins desk. He took deep breaths, looking at his hands.
"What can I help you with David?" Principal Figgins asked his accent extremely thick this morning. Dave had always liked it; to him it always seemed so dignified.
"Well I have been thinking about my actions over the past year. My bullying and I am really ashamed about what I did. How I treated my fellow students. I want to make amends." Dave looked up at Principal Figgins. His head nodded in thought.
"That is very admirable David, very admirable, but what did you need to see me about?"
"Well, I want to start a club, like a Gay Straight Alliance, to give kids a place to talk things through, and learn about who they are, and maybe teach other students about acceptance, so they don't make my mistake." Dave knew it didn't sound as good as he had planned it to be, but it seemed to have worked anyway.
"Would this club need funding?" Figgins asked sternly, Dave shook his head, and Figgins face lit up and a smile stretched to his eyes. "Well then I think it is a wonderful idea David, simply wonderful. I think it is excellent this 180 you have made. I applaude you" Principal Figgins began to clap; Dave could feel his face burn red. "You need a faculty advisor though, do you have one?" Dave nodded.
"Mr. Schuester said he would be the advisor for us" Dave had talked to him about it over dinner the night before. He had thought it was a great idea, and volunteered right away to help out. "We were thinking of meeting every Wednesday, after Glee." Principal Figgins nodded again happily.
"Let me get you the club forms and you, fill them out and bring them back and we will get this club up and running as soon as possible." Figgins went into his drawer and shuffled through it. He pulled out a stabled package and handed it to Dave. "Make sure to dot every I and bring it straight back" Dave nodded and got up from the chair, walking out of the office. He felt like a balloon was filling up in his chest. He let out a huge sigh and laughed to himself.
"Hey fag" he heard someone yell out but he ignored it. He felt like he had just accomplished something brilliant.
Dave walked into the choir room with a confidence he had never felt before. He felt like he had done something actually good. Dave and Kurt had discussed how important a gay straight alliance was for people like him who were terrified. He was sure that if there was a club that cleared up things about not only homosexuality but humanity, about who we all are, that tried to get rid of ignorance; that this wouldn't have gotten as bad for him as they had.
Dave ran up to Kurt and smiled brightly, Kurt looked puzzled for a moment and then a huge smile broke out on his face too. "Oh. My. God. You didn't? You did? I can't believe it!" Dave felt Kurt's arms around him. Dave blushed again. "I am so proud of you, you've become like a gay superman!"
"Yeah, yeah" Dave said laughed, shifting his weight on his crutches.
"If your Da..." Kurt didn't finish. Dave knew Kurt didn't mean anything by it, it was a slip up, but it still stung a bit when he began to say Dad. He was over his Dad, the stupid jerk. "Listen, I have a song I want you to sing. I know you are through with your father, so I wanted you to sing one last goodbye. Please?"
"Come on Kurt, this was a good day" Dave said. What happened to the old man being history?
"Just trust me" Kurt said handing him sheet music, Dave sighed, a defeat right after a victory. Dave looked at the words and finally understood.
Hey Dad look at me /Think back and talk to me /Did I grow up according
To plan? /Do you think I'm wasting /My time doing things I /Wanna do?
But it hurts when you /Disapprove all along /And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud /I'm never gonna be good Enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm alright /And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all /Nothing lasts forever /I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect /Now it's just too late /And we can't go back
I'm sorry /I can't be Perfect
Dave didn't finish the end of the song. Kurt seemed to understand and smiled at him. It was enough, and despite having to momentarily dig up old feelings, it was good to sing out the feelings to the old man had made him feel, with Kurt beside him. Taking him into the future, leading him into a place where he could be a superman.
