Nell

James is dead, Lily is dead James and Lily Potter, are dead. Dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, never coming back. Dead. My best friends are dead. Just like that. Lily oh my God Lily, I will never see her smile again, James he will never laugh again. I have lost everything.

They were saying that Sirius is responsible for it, Sirius went out he left he found out Peter told Voldemort where they were. THAT FUCKING BASTARD! THAT FUCKING BETRAYING BASTARD KILLED OUR FRIENDS! AFTER ALLWE'VE BEEN THROUGH HE PULLS THIS SHIT!

Tears streaked my skin and my mouth was all numb.

Sirius found out, he killed Peter and now he is being taken away from me, to Azkaban. They took my husband! THEY TOOK HIM!

WHY THE FUCK AM I LOSING EVERYONE! I am so alone, so angry, so hurt, so confused, so blatantly screwed. I WANT THEM BACK! DAMMIT!

I forgot everything at this instant. I got my drugs, heroin, acid, marijuana, crack, I got my Bottle of rum and whiskey, I sat locked myself in my bedroom and cried as I rocked myself back in forth whispering mad words, drinking, and taking in my deadly substances, I record 'Never Let me Go' By Judy Bridgewater echoed in this constant reminder of Sirius.

I sobbed on a picture of the eight of us fucking around back in Hogwarts. I singed Peter's face off of it. That fucking bastard!

I heard Astrid scream and cry for me on the other side of the door, I let her down. I am alone.

The door bust open with Healers and people from the crazy home. Everything was muffled I couldn't hear a thing as they took me away and locked me up again. The last thing I saw was my little girl's big silver eyes that looked just like his.

Darling hold me

Hold me

Hold me

And never (never)

Never(never)

Never (never)

Let me go

Darling

Kiss me

Kiss me

Kiss me

And never (never)

Never (never)

Never (never)

Let me go

Mark my heart

Throw away the key

Fill my love

Ecstasy

Blind my heart with your warm embrace

And tell me no one will ever take my place

Darling

Tell me

Tell me

Tell me

You'll never

Never

Never

Never

Never

Oh Never

Never (Never)

Never

Never

Never