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SECRETS I HOLD
FIFTY-FIVE
"You did this...YOU LET HER DIE!"
"I didn't kill her."
The wolf paused.
"You did."
Rae didn't object. Because deep down inside she knew.
That it was true.
Nathan had his eyes closed in fear, waiting for the strike that would surely end his life.
But it didn't come.
He slowly opened his eyes to see the wolf gone and replaced by Rae staring down at him with her teeth clenched and tears streaming down her face. Her hand seemingly ready to punch but stuck in the air beside her.
"Rae...You have such a good heart. I always knew you did. Live a happy life, and never forget me."
"N-no..."
"And I forgive you."
A sound came from Rae. A sound she didn't want to release. Her cries.
"I forgive you...always..."
"Goodbye…"
"How…?" Rae was questioning herself. "How could she forgive me? It…i-it was my fault. I wasn't there…" The tears were stronger now. "I was her best friend…and I did nothing…and she forgave me…why? Why would she? I'm useless. I don't deserve anything. I let her die and she won't-" Rae couldn't speak anymore and she broke down in front of Nathan, dropping her hand and moving away from him to enclose herself by wrapping her arms around herself. Nathan took this chance to shuffle away until he hit the wall. He dared not run, fearing Rae would run after him and take him down again. None of them knew how long they sat there, Rae crying her eyes out while Nathan stared at her. He had to admit deep down that he felt sorry for Rae. He knew what it was like to lose someone, but Nathan was used to concealing his emotions from people and only allowed his anger to take control. Rae was doing the same thing only she couldn't hold it as much as Nathan.
"I-I tried…" Rae said through her shaking voice. "I tried…I-I'm sorry…"
"I tried…" She began. "I really did try. But in the end. Your destiny was meant to be this way."
"Please Nathan…I tried…I really did try…but I couldn't save you."
Nathan still didn't understand what she meant. The only thing he could conjure was that she would try and save him. But fail. That only confused him. Why would she try and save him? After everything he did?
"Who are you?" Nathan wasn't sure if he was scared, sad or angry. "Who the fuck…are you?"
Rae slowly revealed her face to him, puffy red eyes stared back.
"I saw you in some fucked up vision. You were there. You said…you tried to save me."
Rae said nothing.
Nathan sighed. "You don't know, do you?" Just like Margo.
"Erm…I think the principle said you could go." At least I said principle and not headmaster.
Margo noticed that what she said wasn't what he was expecting because he frowned and looked more confused. But rage was mixed in there somewhere, Margo had a strange feeling he would lash out at any given time.
"You…don't know me?" He spoke slowly and with a low voice.
Now it was Margo's turn to be confused. "…What-"
The Principle cut her off. "Mr Prescott. You may talk to Miss Connors later. But right now we have things to discuss."
Rae didn't say anything and instead remained in her enclosed positon, crying quietly. I'm sorry Kate…I'm so sorry…
"And I forgive you."
How can you…?
"I forgive you...always..." Her smile grew wider.
No…you don't mean it…I killed you…I wasn't there…it's my fault…all my-
Rae gasped and tensed up when she felt a pair of arms around her. They were as tense as she was but nonetheless felt comforting and warm. But they shook as it their action was something they would regret. But Rae was in no mood to fight, nothing mattered to her anymore. Kate was gone and she wasn't coming back.
"I'm sorry…" The voice was quiet. Rae already knew who it was and in some way it surprised her.
"Nathan…" she didn't intend it to be a question but a simple way of saying 'thank you' for whatever comfort he was giving her.
"I'm sorry. I didn't…I didn't mean for it to go too far. I just…" He sighed. "I didn't wanna hurt Kate…"
"It was my fault-"
"No it wasn't Cassity, stop saying that." The Nathan she knew was back but she didn't really care. "You did something while us fuckers just took there and watched. You tried. You did something. None of it was your fault. It's ours. Its…mine."
"…Where did you take Kate?"
Nathan suddenly moved back. "What?"
Rae looked up with her bloodshot eyes. "Kate said that you took her somewhere, then she recalled being in some place white and bright."
"All I recall is that I was driving for a long time…then I woke up in a room…I thought it was a hospital because it was so white and bright…"
Nathan's expression was unreadable so Rae decided to press on.
"She mentioned hearing someone. Then you."
"Someone was talking to be in a soft voice. I thought it was a doctor…until I heard Nathan and felt a sharp sting in my neck…and…a-and…"
"And?"
"That's all I remember! I don't know what happened! I woke up outside my dorm door the next morning. I didn't have any bruises but I felt gross."
"Nathan, where did you take her?"
Rae noticed the confliction in Nathan's face. "I…"
"Nathan, please…"
A confirmed emotion, fear, was on his face. "I-I didn't wanna do it."
"Do what? Do you mean drugging Kate?"
His breathing sped up.
"Nathan?"
Nathan backed away from Rae and was struggling to breath. Rae reached out to him. "Hey, what's wrong?"
Nathan didn't respond. He was having a panic attack. Rae reached out and took his face with both her hands. "Just look at me Nathan. Concentrate on me."
"Well this is a sudden twist."
Don't you dare talk to me!
"What? Just stating the obvious. Why would you help Nathan? He drugged Kate?"
There's more to it.
"Oh is there? Or maybe he just wanted to drug Kate for the fun of it."
You know that's not true.
"And you know that because?"
I don't. I'm guessing.
"Well that's great isn't it?"
Go away!
"Alright alright! God calm down."
Rae shook her head to ignore Kamali and focused on Nathan. "Just look at me Nathan. Describe my features."
Nathan had a confused look.
"Look I'm helping you just do it."
"W-Why-"
"Nathan, what do I look like? Eye colour, talk about my eye colour."
"Their g-green."
"Yeah and-"
"P-pretty green."
"…what?"
Nathan shook his head. "Their green, just green."
"…Erm…well er…w-what about my hair colour?"
"Chocolate brown with sea blue."
"E-er…"
"Brown and blue."
What's he doing?
"What do you think? He's flirting."
YOU WHAT?
"Whoa don't shout! Your head leave a horrible echo you know."
Rae couldn't say anything else after that making Nathan smirk a little. "You speechless hipster?"
Rae let go of Nathan's face and coughed awkwardly. "W-well your better now Prescott. You should thank me."
"…Thanks."
"Yeah I though you-…what?"
"Don't make me say it again."
"Oh…well er…thanks for…before."
"Don't mention it. Doesn't mean we're friends."
"I didn't say we were. I'm still pissed about Kate…"
Rae got up and looked around the class. "I should…probably clean this up…"
Nathan stood up too. "I'll help."
"You sure? I wouldn't think anyone like you would-"
"I said I would help, the least you can do is accept it."
"…Alright…I guess I have a lot of explaining as well…"
"Yeah. I guess that."
…
Margo was in her dorm and resting on her bed having nothing to do for the rest of the day. She hoped that Nathan made Rae feel a little better. From underneath her pillow she grabbed her Power Log and wrote down her notes about her power. Shifting, fireballs and summoning's were what she could do right now and she wondered what else she could do. She would have to practice a bit more in order to find out.
Suddenly she received a text from Caroline.
Caroline: Margo r u ok? I heard about someone committing suicide at school today. Is it true?
Margo: Yeah its true. Her name was Kate Marsh.
Caroline: Did u know her?
Margo: Yeah
Caroline: Oh Margo I'm so sorry. I can't think how hard this is for you.
Margo: I'm fine, don't worry about me.
Caroline: also someone came here a few minutes ago. Said they know u.
Margo: Who is it?
Caroline: Elliot Richardson. Said he was an old school friend.
Margo didn't reply after that.
