Monster
Chapter 53
MAJOR FLUFF BETWEEN NARUTO X SASUKE CONTINUING FROM CHAPTER 40
Naruto POV:
In that moment, I didn't know what to think, how to act or even feel. It all happened so fast. Almost to the point to where it didn't even feel like it was real. Like living inside of a dream. A dream, that had gone horribly wrong.
All I knew...was that I had to leave.
I was practically falling apart at the seams. Barely even holding it together as I leapt across foreign rooftops, staggering on loose shingles along the way. Heading to a place, I knew not where. Just so long as it was far away and out of sight.
It wasn't until I tripped and stumbled into the nearest wall, did I finally crumble at the weight of my heart.
My breaths became erratic and uncontrollable as I desperately heaved for air. Gagging through the large knot tied at the base of my throat, suffocating me. My eyes burned through the rivers of tears that cascaded down my face, completely blurring my line of vision. So much so, that it seemed like the entire world had been shrouded in a dark and watery haze.
The churning in my stomach was almost sickening to the point I thought I was going to throw up. My hands ran violently through my hair, tugging and pulling as if to be rid of my golden locks. Trying to distract the pain elsewhere, but it was too much. Whatever arduous wailing were able to escape, came out muffled and gargled as they scorched my throat, like fire and acid.
Eyes that could no longer bear to be open, tightly closed as oceans continued to rise and spew from sealed orbs. Like rapid tides of a thundering waterfall, leaking onto hard cement and staining it. As my hands shifted through strands of wheat, one of my hands released. Only to find itself balled into a fist and resting against the tattered wall, just slightly above my head. My forehead soon following suit and leaning into it.
Pain was something I was no stranger to. It was a part of me. Something I was born into. Cursed and raised to accept. There was even a point in time, that it was all I ever knew. All I ever felt. But this...this was different, and I didn't know why. I just knew that it hurt.
I flashed back to the tribal boy and the kiss that he shared. The tenderness of his lips and the graze of his hand as he reached over and drew me into his arms. Reeling me in to his hardened embrace. So strong and firm. Holding me in such a way that was almost identical to Sasuke's. As if he were afraid to ever let me go. Like if he did, he would lose me forever.
And when his love was not returned, and he finally pulled away…it was like his worst nightmare had come to life. For in his eyes, that's exactly what happened. I not only destroyed but shattered his entire heart and I didn't know how fix it.
I was lost. Helpless and completely lost.
Gomen-nesai Kiba...I wept profusely into the shadows of my arm, drowning in my own sorrows. Gomen-nesai...
xXxXx
Over time, my pants of respiration began to slow, making it easier to breathe. The knot in my throat had started to unwind and the unruliness of my stomach began to settle. Wails of anguish and grief quietly died until they were no more than faint puffs of air.
Slowly, my grip began to weigh, freeing the golden strands of wheat from their deathly grasp and letting them fall. Subsiding the pain and torment along with it. The trembling that had taken control of my body settled as my mind began to clear and my tears dried.
Gently, I rolled over, turning to rest on my shoulder blades as my head tilted to the sky. Relishing in the warm light of the sun as it banished the darkened shadow that shrouded my dampened spirit. Dazed, I cast tear-driven orbs into the distance and inhaled the cool summer's breeze, bringing peace to my fractured mind.
After my body had completely calmed, I found myself back in Kiba's hospital room. My mind wandering adrift, retracing every step along the way. From the time I had arrived to the moment when his lips first touched mine. Because somewhere in between there...something changed. I just didn't know what it was.
What was it that caused his smile to fade and his eyes to fill with sorrow and despair?
When I first entered, Kiba could hardly take his eyes off me. As if I were a bright light he couldn't seem to look away from or get enough of. And his eyes sparkled like black starlight. Wide and eager. He just looked so happy.
So, what changed?
I followed his onyx gaze as I retraced my memory and watched, in sadness, as the light slowly seemed to die when his eyes subtly fell from mine. Slowly trailing down the features of my face. From my deep azure eyes to my whiskered cheeks, until he paused on kiss-swollen lips and then finally to my neck. Where they softly lingered. Eyeing each and every darkened patch of flesh that decorated my tanned skin as if studying them.
A hint of envy beginning to cloud those stygian slit eyes.
"It's not fair."
Lost within his own memory of what could have been had things ended up differently. I could see it all. The anger...the sorrow...and the jealousy. It was all there, and for the brief moment his lips touched mine, I could almost taste it.
It almost made me wonder. Had Kiba not kept his word to his mother and remained as my friend...what would have become of us? What would have become...of Sasuke?
My hand, ever so slowly, crept up the side of my neck where it caressed what remained of the bruises. They tingled as the sensitive skin surrendered to the graze of my own touch. Remembering.
How his tongue circled and danced along the tendons of my neck. His breath, hot against my tender flesh as pale lips glided over softly, placing small kisses everywhere they went. And the warmth of his hands as he ravaged my tainted body, cleansing it and making it anew, leaving only his intoxicating touch.
It was almost like I couldn't get enough. Even when his hand quietly slipped down and roughly grabbed a portion of my bottom and he pressed his hardened erection to mine, I didn't want him to stop. If anything, I wanted him to keep going. I wanted to show Sasuke that even though I was afraid...I too could love him just as much as he loved me. I just had to be brave enough to leap off that ledge.
Because if you never leap, you'll never know what it's like to fly...
Flashback:
And with Sasuke...I sored.
Higher and higher until all I could see was the sun rising in the distance and the clouds beneath my feet. Surrounded by a sea of white and a ray of oranges and yellows. Guiding the way to a bright and promising future. A future where pain was nothing more than a long-forgotten nightmare and sadness was just a thing of the past.
All I could feel, in that moment, was the warmth Sasuke's hands as they slid up and down my body and his lips to mine as he dove for another searing and passionate kiss. His teeth tugging at my bottom lip and biting it. He stopped only for a moment to catch his breath before returning his pale lips to softly caress my own. His tongue seeking refuge between my parted crevice, beckoning for me to do the same.
When our tongues finally clashed, it was like the first time we ever kissed. My tongue had never felt so satisfied. I never realized how good Sasuke actually tasted. He was so sweet, like fresh honey and his skin like milk. Whenever I moved to entice the flesh between his neck and jaw I was at a loss for words, even as I ran my fingers through his raven hair. Sasuke always smelled so nice to me. I never could quite place it.
But, it was his voice that encouraged me to keep going. Every hitch of his breath and every soft moan echoed in the forefront of my mind. So deep and soothing. Sasuke had such a relaxing voice, but when his excitement took over. It heightened to an almost unrecognizable pitch, making it even more arousing.
As my hand freed itself from his stygian locks to the collar of his shirt I could feel his heartbeat just beneath the palm of my hand. His back pressed firmly against the wall as I continued to kiss along the boy's neck and our hips joined together even closer than before. Sasuke was beginning to lose it. His control slipping further from reach with each passing second as his grip around my hips tightened, forcing them to grind even harder.
I had only just made it to the other side of the raven's neck before he flung us around and pinned me to the wall I had him just moments ago. His erection throbbed almost painfully as it rubbed against my own, seeking a pleasure far beyond that of my hakamas and it felt...so good.
Never in my life did I ever think, even for a second, that I could be touched this way and actually find myself enjoying it. Even craving it. There was just something about Sasuke that made me want so much more. A desire to be fulfilled. Not just in touch, but in life. I wanted to be able to please him and make him happy. I wanted him to feel just as good as he was making me.
"Naruto," He panted breathlessly as he pulled away. His darkened orbs of night meeting my deep oceans blue as if truly seeking to understand something he did not. "Why aren't you telling me to stop?"
Because I don't want to be afraid anymore. I'm tired of letting my own fear stop me from fully loving you the same way you love me. Ever since the day I was first brave enough to ask to sit next to you I have always thought of you as a raven, because it was a raven that eased my troubled mind and brought hope to my heart when the darkness took over.
It was that same day I arrived home to find my apartment mutilated and my landlord had come to pay me a sickening visit that I saw it. A raven knocking on the window. A beauty that could only compare to you. For when it leaped into the sunset, it not only flew but sored. I didn't have the strength to fly with you then, so let me try again. Let me fly with you so that nothing else can stop us from ever being apart.
Where you go...I will follow. So long as we're together I can leave this godforsaken place behind and start a new life. Together, flying side by side.
"When this whole thing is over…" I panted through my smile, my voice barely above a whisper. "I want you to have me." I finished as I leaned in for another heartfelt and passionate kiss from the boy that I loved. A glisten in his eye as he whispered my name and returned my true hearts desire. A desire that could only be fulfilled by the once lonely raven. For in his eyes, I could truly see it. The love that I was so foolishly afraid of.
"Are you sure?" He asked softly, resting his forehead to mine.
"I'm sure." I answered, baring a faint smile. A smile that he graciously returned as he studied me, searching for whatever doubt he could not find. When he was satisfied, he slowly pulled his forehead away and flickered his gaze around the room, eyeing a large empty table. He cast his gaze back over to me and lightly smirked, sending an almost regretful chill down my spine. It made me nervous to say at the very least. So much so, that I actually gulped a little bit.
Before I even had time to react Sasuke gently hoisted me up and wrapped my legs around his waist. The sudden movement in my nervous state caused my breath to slightly hitch and my body to fall forward, forcing me to fling my arms around the smirking boy and embrace him.
"It's okay." He whispered in my ear, like the coo of a dove. So soft and assuring, like I truly had nothing in this world to be afraid of. "I won't let you fall."
It was only for that single moment, but for me...it was for all eternity.
"You promise?"
"With all my heart." He answered softly, placing a warm and heartfelt smile across my lips as he slowly carried me to the other side of the room.
He placed me down softly on the edge of the table and gently pushed as he climbed on top of me. My back now pressing firmly against the table and my arms still clinging around the stygian-haired boy's shoulders. A slight but apparent blush tinting my whiskered cheeks.
"Naruto, you know I would never hurt you, right?" The raven asked as he gazed deep within my watery azure, seeking solace.
"Un. I trust you." I answered truthfully. "More than anything. But Sasuke..."
"Hm."
"Am I really someone you would want to give yourself too?" I quietly asked the raven. Even as much as we've been through and as much we claimed to love one another, having someone as beautiful as Sasuke, so perfect and refined, wish to share a piece of their soul with someone like me still seemed like a fantasy. Something straight out of a dream. I was impure, damaged and ungodly. An unworldly being said to be brought up from the depths of Hell and cursed to live amongst the unmerciful as some sort of wicked punishment. A punishment I was sure I committed just by simply being born. My body had been tainted in so many different ways I couldn't even remember all the times that it happened. I just remembered the pain and the rain of tears the never seemed to end.
To be human or demon. I guess it really doesn't matter, so long it's with the person you love.
"I told you once that you were the only person I'd ever give myself to. That I wanted to be the one to make you happy and when the bad things happen...I'd be there to protect you and keep you safe. You're all I ever wanted, whether it's as we are now...or just as friends. I just want to be as close to you as I can."
Sasuke...I silently wept within the corners of my mind.
As those words left his pale lips, they fell to mine as he softly ran his right hand up my left leg and raised it to be bent at the knee, so his hips could deepen themselves as I raised the other knee. Slowly, he began to grind his hips. Deepening the sensation as his hardened member once again shifted atop of mine.
A soft and delightful moan escaped as his tongue danced across mine in a lingering ballet. Slow and meaningful. A pace that slowly, but surely began to quicken and deepen. Our kiss becoming harsh and more dangerous as my lower region began to throb and pulsate, making it difficult to think. Clouding my mind with a lustful haze I had never felt before.
It was exhilarating, taking hold of my body. Even as I tore away from Sasuke's kiss the sensation lingered, building inside of me as if it wanted to erupt. With not even a moment to catch my breath, the raven then latched onto my neck. Swirling his tongue as he drew in a patch of flesh and sucked on it. When he tired of one spot he just simply moved on to another, seemingly to gradually get lower as he trailed his tongue further down.
The tingling arousal grew until it became almost unbearable and uncontainable, seeping through layers of clothing. My mind scattering into a state of oblivion and lost in a world of ecstasy. Crimson blue violently flickered in and out of red flame as my grip painfully tightened around the boy. One of my hands clawing down the raven's spine and gripping his shirt as if my very life depended on it. And with one last fierce grind and raven's name at my lips...all I saw...was white.
And the two of us soaring into the everlasting sun.
End Flashback.
That was our first time ever going that far. In many ways it brought us closer. Closer than we'd ever been before.
I sighed as my hand dropped to my side and drifted back to the tribal faced boy, wondering if I should go back to make sure that he was okay. Because deep down...it was tearing me apart. You might as well had just ripped my heart out of my chest and called it a day. I didn't want to lose Kiba. After so long of being apart, I just wanted him to stay with me and be the friends I always wanted us to be.
Maybe that was just being selfish of me, but even so...I still had to try.
xXxXx
Kiba POV:
Ugh, I'm such an idiot! Why the fuck did I do that?! All I wanted was to tell him that I was sorry and I-Stupid, stupid! I'm so fucking stupid!
I cursed as I curled myself up into a ball. My head resting in the folds of my arms as they desperately clenched the sides of my knees, in hopes to stop my infernal shaking and hide the tears that continued to pour even long after Naruto had already gone.
What the hell is wrong with me?...
xXxXx
Even as time continued to move forward, it felt like I was stuck. Trapped in a single moment. Forever to relive the very moment my lips fell from his and my heart was shattered into a million pieces.
And all because I was a fucking coward.
Had I said something sooner...Had I helped him...or hell...had I even just been there when he needed me…
How different things could have been for the two of us.
Gomen-nesai Naruto. I hope that Sasuke can give you what I at one point lacked the courage to do so.
xXxXx
To the right of me, I could feel Akamaru softly pawing at my leg, whining. Trying desperately to bring me back, but I was too far gone. My mind completely a bliss. It wasn't until he took hold of the corner of my sleeve and lightly began to pull did I finally turn my gaze upon the saddened pup. My face still slightly buried into the fold of my arms.
Even as our gazes met, it still felt like I was in a daze. Like I was seeing completely through him. He barked a few times, trying to tell me that everything was going to be okay and he was probably right. It just didn't feel like it.
"Arigatou Akamaru." I wearily thanked. My voice soft and broken. Each word burning like acid as I choked through the sobbing pain. "Arigatou…"
xXxXx
When I had finally snapped out of it, it was already almost noon. Not much longer and I would finally be allowed to leave. I just had to wait a little longer.
Whilst I was in the midst of putting on my jacket my ears began to ring at the faint tapping of glass. There, perched in the windowsill, was a boy. One whose eyes rivaled that of the oceans and hair that dared challenged the very light of the sun. A boy, whom just moments ago, shattered my own heart into a million pieces.
But as I looked at him, gazing through that window with a soft, but increasing smile, I couldn't help but smile too, because that was the moment I knew...everything was gonna be okay.
To be continued…
Okay so this was supposed to be up a lot sooner, but I ran into some complications. New landlord, new lease, lots of legal issues between the new contract that they were trying to force me to sign.
SIDE NOTE: ALWAYS READ OVER YOUR LEASE AGREEMENTS AND CONSULT A REAL ESTATE LAWYER OR SOMEONE WHO KNOWS CONTRACTS. KNOW YOUR RIGHTS!
So, I'm making plans to move. Might be awhile before I am able to write another chapter. Just thinking about packing exhaust me. So much stuff. It is what it is I guess. Anyways...
The other thing that put this off a little longer was (wait for it) AVENGERS: INFINITY WAR! Oh lord, if you have not seen the new Avengers movie, I strongly encourage it. I was emotionally distraught after watching it for a few days. It hit me in the feels where the sun doesn't shine. I couldn't tell you if I laughed more or cried more. Great movie. No spoilers from me, so if you want to go check that out definitely do and hit me up when you see it, so we can talk about it. You might need some counseling from a friend afterward like I did lol.
Anyway, so this is what I came up with this chapter. I know I said Naruto x Sasuke were gonna be for fronted, but I didn't like leaving Kiba x Naruto like that. So sad:( But, there was still some fluffy goodness for ya and it'll carry on. There will be a couple of surprise characters showing up during this month off, so I hope you guys are excited. You've seen them before;) I hope you enjoyed and as always please feel free to review/leave a comment. I love hearing your feedback. Helps me keep going. Well, I'll see you next chapter. Oh also, don't quote me on it but I think it's gonna be some Sakura x Gaara since he's still in town. I might do a sleepover with Naruto, Sasuke, Sakura and Gaara so I can have them all together and have some cute moments before the Sand leaves back to Suna.
Until next time :)
