Chapter 49: Forgiveness
Bella's POV
I look down. Now's the time I need to know if they can forgive me. I need their forgiveness. If I don't get it I'll force myself to move on. Even though it will hurt me I'll leave if they won't me to.
"Bella can you give us a minute?" Daddy asks
"Of course. Go out and take your time", I tell them
I quickly get of Emmett's lap and everyone leaves the room. I hear them talking down stairs about what I said. I slowly get of the bed I wobble a little bit, but otherwise stay up. My limbs are still aching from where I have been hurt. But I have to leave I can't face their rejection. Anyway I need to hunt probably I pick up my backpack and make my way to the already open window. I look down it is a three story drop I wince. My body is not going to like this. I close my eyes and jump. I only just manage to stop myself from crying out in pain. I slowly make my way into the forest. I slowly start to run after about ten minutes I stop to hunt. I manage to take down a couple of deer and a bear.
I run for probably half an hour, soon I sit down on a rock. My body sighs in relief. I really shouldn't be moving at the moment. I put my head in my hands and start to sob. How did I come to reach this point? How did I let things get so out of control? They hate me and there is nothing I can do about it. I look around and don't recognize where I am. And I managed to block my scent so now I'm lost. My life has gone done to toilet. My body shakes with sobs. From fear and pain. What have I done? Another hour goes by and my sobs haven't decreased. A couple of times I thought I heard someone calling my name. But I haven't heard anyone in over 20 minutes. It's getting dark now and my nerves are about shot. After telling my story today I'm starting to have flashbacks again. I soon let down my shield. Maybe Demetri can find me if he is looking for me. I'm scared and alone I should never have left. I should have stayed at the house and waited for their verdict. I start to cry again I want my father, mother, brothers and sisters and the love of my life to find me. I won't them to forgive me for everything I have put them through. Suddenly I hear a noise coming from the trees. It sound's like someone is approaching. I cringe back into the tree praying that it isn't an enemy. My mind-reading and seeing the future is still on the blink. I start sobbing again in fear. Suddenly a wave of calm spreads over me. But it has little effect I'm too scared and upset for it to work.
"Bella. It's all right. It just me", Jasper says softly
His words have little effect on me.
"Demetri go get the others and bring them here", Jasper whisperers
I heard Demetri breeze out of the clearing.
"Bella your safe. Please calm down", Jasper says sending another dose of calm and peace towards me
I still continue to sob.
"You…do…don't…wa…want…me", I choke out
"Oh Bella. Of course we want you", he says softly.
I just shake my head not believing him.
"Bella can I come closer?" he asks
I shake my head. My body is still shaking in fear and pain.
Jasper sighs, "Bella your safe no one is going to hurt you"
He keeps saying it again and again. His words are having little effect on me. I need Edward…
Jasper's POV
We all make our way down stairs to talk about what Bella has told us. I can feel her sadness and pain.
"First we must decide if everything Bella has told us was true", Edward says
He is unbelievable. His soul mate just told him her story and he is refusing to believe it.
"Everything she said was the truth. She didn't lie to us", Maggie says
"We need to help her. She's scared. She needs us", Rose says
I know hearing Bella's story is having an effect on her.
"She's my little sister. I want to help her", Emmett adds
"Bella did the same thing we did to her. She left to protect us like we did. If anyone needs to apologies it is us", I say
Everyone freezes at my words. They have forgotten about that.
"My baby girl didn't deserve to be put through all that. We have to apologies", Esme says
"I agree. We can't let her leave. She belongs with us. She needs to hear that we forgive her just us much as we need to hear her forgive us", Carlisle says
"I love her. I shouldn't have said the things I did. I have to apologies", Edward says
I was about to say something else when I realize that I can no longer feel any emotions coming from up stairs. I quickly dash up the stairs with the family following me confused.
Please, please let her just have her shield up. I beg to myself. I hear Edward gasp at my thoughts but I don't really care. I barge into the room the find it empty. Everyone gasps behind me.
"Her bag is gone", Jacob says
"She has left again", Rose says
"I felt her emotions before. She thinks we'll not forgive her. That's why she has left", I say
"She won't make it far. She'll still be in pain from her wounds", Carlisle says
We all quickly run outside just as the Volturi boys return. We quickly tell them what has happened and they say they haven't seen her.
"Let's split up into teams. We have to find her", Aro says
Demetri and I pair up and we both take off into the forest. For about an hour we call her name but haven't gotten a response.
"Wait", Demetri calls to me
I turn around to find him completely still.
"Her shield must have failed I can sense her. Follow me", Demetri says taking off to the Northeast.
We run for ten minutes before I feel pain, depression, hurt, fear and terror. I quickly come to a stop and Demetri stops with me.
"Why did we stop?" he asks
"I'm pretty sure Bella is through there. And she is scared real scared. And she is in pain. We'll have to be careful", I say softly
He nods and we slowly walk into the small clearing. First thing we see is Bella cringing away from us and that she is sobbing loudly. She is having a breakdown. I send waves of calm and piece at her but they have little effect.
"Bella. It's all right. It just me", I say softly trying to calm her down.
She continues to sob and shake.
"Demetri go get the others and bring them here", I whisperer to him
Demetri looks at Bella for a second before running out of the clearing.
"Bella your safe. Please calm down", I say sending another dose of calm and peace towards her
Her sobs continue to fill the clearing
"You…do…don't…wa…want…me", she chokes out
She thinks we don't forgive her. That's why she ran.
"Oh Bella. Of course we want you", I say softly.
She just shakes her head and I can feel her disbelief.
"Bella can I come closer?" I ask
She shakes her head. Her body is still shaking in fear and pain.
I sigh, "Bella your safe no one is going to hurt you"
I say it over and over again trying to calm her down. I know who she needs and if he doesn't get here soon I'll kick his butt…
Carlisle's POV
My daughter had run away. We are now have been searching for over an hour and it is starting to get dark. Esme, Emmett, Rose, Alice and I have been joined back up with Aro and Marcus. We haven't had any luck finding her yet. What would make her run? I'm broken out of my thoughts by Demetri running towards us.
"We have found her", he calls
"Well were is she? Why isn't she with you?" Marcus asks
"We found her sobbing hysterically. Jasper said she is feeling pain, hurt, depression, fear and terror. Jasper's power is having little effect on her. She needs you", Demetri says in a rush
"Where?" I say urgently
"Follow my scent. I'm going to find Edward", he says taking off again
We all look at each other before we start running following Demetri's scent. After about ten minutes we can hear Jasper talking and the sound of sobbing.
"Bella honey your safe. We are not going to leave you. I promise. Please calm down", Jasper is saying
We slowly enter the clearing we see Jasper standing close to us and Bella sobbing across from him.
"What's going on Jasper?" I ask softly
"She thinks we are leaving her. That's why she ran", Jasper replies
"Bella sweetheart we are not leaving you. We love you", I tell her walking towards her.
She cringes back and I stop moving.
"Bella you are my daughter we are not leaving you", Esme says softly
"Bella you're my little sister and I will not leave you again", Emmett says
Bella just continues to sob.
"Bella please sister it's ok your safe. We will not leave you", Rose says
"Please Bella you're my best friend and sister. I will not leave you again", Alice says
Our words are having little effect. She just continues to sob. Even through we all thought we saw her nod her head.
"Jasper can't you do anything?" Marcus asks
"Trust me I'm trying. But she is feeling to much for my power to work. I know who she needs and if he doesn't get his butt here soon I'll cheerfully kill him", Jasper threatens in a low voice
We all continue to watch Bella sob for another 5 minutes. Suddenly Edward appears in the clearing his face shows the pain that he is in. At the sound of his entrance Bella's head snaps up.
"Ed…Edw…Edwa…Edward", Bella chokes out
Edward quickly rushes over to her before any of us could warn him. We are all surprised when Edward takes her into his arms and dashes out of the clearing with her. We all look at each other and say the same thing.
"What the hell just happened?"
Edward's POV
As soon as Demetri says he has found Bella and that she is sobbing I take of running following his scent. It doesn't take me long to catch my family's scent and follow it to Bella. I see her sobbing hysterically at the opposite end of the clearing. Bella's head snaps up when she hears me.
"Ed…Edw…Edwa…Edward", Bella chokes out
"Please Edward forgive me I never meant to hurt you. Please take me pain away", Bella thinks
I quickly rush to her side and take her into my arms.
"Too many people. So scared", Bella thinks
Without even thinking about it I dash out of the clearing with Bella in my arms. Bella grips my shirt tightly and I continue to run.
"Safe. Feel safe", Bella thinks
I don't even think she realizes that her shield is down. I continue to run with her and I feel no one following behind me. I run for hours until I reach our meadow. I sit down in the middle and sit Bella on my lap.
"It's alright love. Your safe now", I whisperer in her ear
Bella's sobs had stopped hours ago. Now I'm going to try to get her to talk to me.
"Edward?" she thinks
"Yes love it's me. I'm so sorry for how I've been treating you. I'm so sorry for ever leaving you", I say
"I forgive you. Do you forgive me?" she thinks
"You did the right thing. Of course I forgive you. I love you"
"I love you too. So much", she thinks
"You're my life. Never again will I go with out you", I say kissing her temple
"Never", she thinks
I hold her tightly in my arms. Finally she is with me and I'm never going to let her go again. Where she goes I go…
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