What happened to me...did I lose my way? I lost my memory that much was certain. Only to realize...I had slept with the woman who used me, lied to me and manipulated me for all intents and purposes. It was wrong for her to do so. However...was it truly a lie? Were my feelings for Weiss clouded by the judgement for the past? Or were my feelings...truly in love with her? I don't know. I honestly do not know. In the past...before Flyresa, I came to the conclusion that Weiss would be my one true love. I disbelived it rather quickly but...was I wrong? What was Fake...what was Reality? More importantly. What the hell do I do?

Kyran...Kyran...KYRAN!

"KYRAN!" Weiss yelled as my eyes fluttered open slowly seeing a concerned face of the beautiful Snow Angel in front of me. However, my love quickly turned to anger upon seeing her.

"Get away from me." I said defiantly, groaning as I got myself up from the bed. Weiss and the man known as Alex backed away from me slowly.

"Ky...Kyran?" Weiss questioned hesitantly as my eyes darted towards her.

"Why did you do it Weiss? Why use me? Lie to me? Sleep with me? TELL ME NOW!" I yelled gripping her coat as Alex quickly intervened.

"KYRAN! Stop it now!" Alex said as he stepped intbetween me and Weiss. I only became more pissed as he intervened.

"Get out of my way...now." I demanded.

"No...you need to stop this now Kyran. Walk away now." Alex said softly as I kicked up my Katana off the ground.

"What she has done to me Alex, she has to go now!" I yelled swinging the blade only to have it stop. Seeing a stream of floating liquid that was...blood. He knocked the sword from my hands and focused a slimmed bolt into my arm. The pain was immense as...it was making go limp.

"Kyran...leave now or else I will cause much more pain." Alex said calmly as his eyes began turning into slits with an evil smile forming.

"My equipment and clothes, where are they?" I asked with my body frozen and unable to move.

"In your room." Alex said blankly. His eyes reverted as he broke the spell over me. Gripping my right arm, I walked out of the room silently as I saw a young girl bump into me.

"Are you Mr. Lightning?" She asked playfully as I smiled.

"Yea...yea I am kiddo." I said smiling before walking back into my room silently. Pulling an old wooden box from under my bed opening it to see my old black coat that had former stains of blood and a few tiny tears. I picked it up putting it back on feeling the weight on me once more.

"Here." Alex said as I turned around in time to see he pass my Katana sheathed and ready. I caught it mid-air remembering the old blade. "Please leave before...I kill you." Alex said blankly leaving the room to myself. Only 5 minutes back to my normal self and I already tried to kill someone who only wanted to help me. I...couldn't be with her...with Alex, with Ariana. I had to leave them all. Finish what I started. The Demon Trials. I had to train. Picking up my sword, I walked out to the early afternoon sun along the beach. Stepping forward, I only looked back once more to the house. I had spent a whole year of my life. I just ruined them in 5 minutes. It was time...to move on.

"Kyran! Wait.." A familiar voice called behind me. Hesitation grew over my as I turned to see Weiss who was a good distance from me as I saw...sparkles of tears from her face.

"What is it Weiss?" I asked with no emotion as she began crying more.

"You're wrong about me Kyran. I was wrong about you...and I'm sorry. I really am Kyran. All those years...all that time I knew what I had done. I was really wrong about you. You aren't a bad person...no, you..." I interuppted her however.

"What am I Weiss? Tell me what I am once and for all." I asked her. She just more tears roll down her face as she began walking towards me.

"You are someone...I..I...I love. Someone who over the course of a year I had learned to accept, live with, have fun with and even love. Your father, the Organization I built, even my own. They were all wrong. You never betrayed us, no...we did it to you. I want to help you Kyran. Please...let me." Weiss stepped a few more feet closer. I dropped the Katana looking down.

"All these years, all this time now...now you believe me. I tried telling all of you at my trial. With the burned image of my Fiance in my mind. None of you ever believed me. Why now Weiss?" I asked as my eyes began tearing up.

"Its because I do now. I was wrong, I love you Kyran Rhodes. I love you more than anything. I know my petty words can't get rid of those nightmares but...I will do whatever I can to help you...please. Don't leave me as you did before. Hateful...and lost." She said shamefully. I hurt her? When...when did this happen? Was it when I first met her or rather over the year I had stayed with her?

Chuckling softly I looked up to see she had broken down completely in tears as my expression changed rather quickly.

"Weiss..." I said softly as she looked at me.

"About 2 years ago...I was exiled by my father. You may have heard that I was the former Heiress of my Father's dust company? That means...I can never go back. Never see my mother, my father. Ever again. That is why I joined Beacon as is...to prove to him that I could, but what the hell. I can't...I just can't. All that time...I never felt happy. I tried to show my superiority. Wearing a silent rebellious offset pony tail, but none of it mattered. I was truly unhappy. That is...until I found out that humanity, even in the darkest of times. Can reveal their greatest feelings for one another. I fell in love with you because...you are a great person. You care for people even if you don't show it. I didn't manipulate you, I only hid the truth. Because I knew it would hurt more than anything in the world. I am sorry for that. I don't expect forgiveness at all from you Kyran...I never did." She finished falling to her knees. The tears still falling and staining the hot winter sand.

Keeping a blank yet sad face, I walked over to the crying angel slowly. Her tears staining the surface of a frail world. I offered my hand towards Weiss as she wiped the tears away.

"What are you doing?" She asked as I still held my hand out towards her.

"Take my hand Weiss." I said softly as the soft touch of her warm hand took mine while I lifted her off the ground slowly. "Weiss, you're right in some aspects. Not even you can get rid of these nightmares I live with, you can't take back the fact that Flyresa is gone, that Cecilia died by my hand. What you did to me was wrong I'll admit it. However...all of it was in the past. You need to move on like me as well. Because at some point in both of our lives...we both have to pay for our crimes. In this life...or the next. Do you understand me Weiss?" I asked as her smile began showing and the tears ceased from her eyes. She planted a small kiss on my lips as she embraced me tight. I followed through holding the snow angel softly as she shed a few more tears.

"It is okay Weiss...I am with you now. And I won't leave you ever again..." I said embracing her as the crashing of the ocean waves and the call of seagulls drowned out her soft crying. A feeling inside me I had once remembered long ago in my life. A feeling that had beckoned my call many years in my past. For when I once had remembered the feeling with my Fiance...Flyresa. It was this feeling I considered...love. Yet, was it what I was truly feeling? Were my feelings for Weiss Schnee the same as Flyresa Michaelson...or rather were they a facade to keep me going. I wanted to promise her I would keep her safe...but I wouldn't. If it was a curse, it had followed through Flyresa and even...Cecilia. If she had died. It would be because of me...because I failed in doing so. I wouldn't promise her...no. I would defend her with my life, I swear it. This was no hollow promise...this was my ultimatum.

5 years later...

Yet Weiss never knew. That she was the reason I had lived this long. It was because of her, that managed to get me this far. Through the bad...and the worse.