CHAPTER 51 - THE UNTAMED

BELLA'S POV

"I ……I WANT to watch you feed!"

I was sure that I made my request with confidence because this was not something that just fell into my thoughts. Ever since the day I'd followed him into the forest and happened across him feeding. Curiosity had consumed me. Part of me wanted to watch him feed again. Part of me needed to know what I was in for when I changed and this time I wanted to take the time to watch, to study exactly what occurred when you did so.

Edward slammed his foot on the brake. The car screamed wincingly making my ears ring until it skidded to an uncomfortably abrupt halt in the middle of the empty road.

My eyes grew to the size of saucers. Edwards jaw immediately went rigid, the profile of his body drastically changed and his own fierce eye's went incredibly wide.

I could feel my heart already pick up pace and it began the thud loudly against my chest.

He turned his head slowly towards me. His vampire eye's had darkened considerably and were incredibly tense.

I managed to resist the urge to gulp.

He looked shocked.

"What did you just ask me?" he gasped in disbelief.

He said nothing more just stared at me with darkened piercing eyes silently waiting for some kind of response from me, some kind of explanation as to why I would request such a ridiculously dangerous thing.

I had to talk now; I had to somehow manage to form words with my mouth that had momentarily ceased to function due to the look on Edwards stunned and outraged face. My heart pound wildly against my chest as the seconds passed and I knew very well he could hear it. I had wanted to sound absolute with my confidence but my bloody heartbeat was giving me away….traitor.

'I can do this, I can do this, I can do this' I chanted over and over in my mind. I've started now so I've got to finish.

"I said ….I wantto watch you feed Edward" I finally replied.

Impressed that I'd managed to convey the level of confidence I'd hoped for.

His jaw stiffened painfully again and I barely heard the objecting growl slipping through his lips that he was attempting to hide from me. I could see in his eye's he'd been hoping that his tone on reaction to my request would have been enough to halt further words or thoughts from my side on the matter. That he would have put me off from saying anymore about it.

But no, I was stubborn.

I was not backing down this time.

"That is utterly ….." he paused trying to find the right words. "Entirely….. Completely out of the question Bella! It is NOT happening." he promised me.

"I want to watch you" I whispered, I didn't want this to turn in to a full blown argument.

His eyes widened more, if that were even possible. He seemed almost disgusted by my words.

"NO!" he growled adamantly.

"Please let me" I began but he only cut me off.

"STOP IT BELLA!" he ordered, raising his voice to get his point across.

And I did, all be it momentarily. Deciding to try a different approach I slowly placed my hand on his that was still gripping the steering wheel of the car painfully hard. I let my thumb brush against his cold marble white skin,

"I love all of you remember, even the parts of you that you don't want me to see" I reminded him. I couldn't look into his eye's anymore so concentrated on his hand.

"Bella, why? Why do you insist in always trying to put yourself in such dangerous situations which I have no control over, why would you even want to?" he asked sincerely.

"I fell in love with a Vampire, I'm marrying a Vampire……..do you really want me to answer that question?" trying to make him see my point of view.

Our entire dynamic was wrong from the start but it worked. Worked for us and why should he be so shocked that I would want to explore it further, the differences between us while they still weredifferences. I asking him to feed may be wrong in his eyes but it was right to me.

He breathed sharply through his nose. I could tell he was trying to calm himself down.

"What is this really about Bella?" he suddenly asked.

Not expecting the question I found his eyes again and I was surprised to find them blacker than before.

Now Iwas confused.

"I want to watch you Edward, want to see what I will become, I'm curious…" I began but again was cut off abruptly by him.

"No….." he growled. "What is this really about, what is it that you want?" his voice was hoarse, but there was a hint of recognition there as if he'd just realised something.

I frowned not understanding. I shook my head at him slowly, willing him to explain. But he didn't.

The car suddenly started again, the engine roared into life and we were moving once more. The surprise caused me to jump back a little. His black eye's concentrated on the road as he sped along it too fast. I was now sitting as I had done before but now my hands gripped the edge of the seat.

Was that it? Had he deemed the conversation to be over? It took more than a minute for me to realise that Edward had taken the car down the wrong road and we were no longer heading home to the Cullen house. I turned my head sharply giving him a questioningly look but he continued speeding along his new route, refusing to meet my eyes.

My heart beat began pounding again as I began to comprehend the possibility that Edward was actually considering what I had asked of him.

Surely not.

It could not have been that easy. In no way did he give the impression that what I'd asked was acceptable.

Sure I'd asked but I knew myself it was going to take more than one simple request for him to concede, everything about Edward was a battle of wills.

We pulled in unexpectedly. He brought the car to a halt. I didn't recognise this road. Was confused as to what exactly was going on. We were far from La Push now but outside my window I could see deep dense Olympic Forest, dark green tree's stood tall and foreboding.

"You should get out of the car Bella" he said quietly but his eyes didn't meet mine.

My mouth hung open at him.

Pound, pound, pound. My chest thudded loudly.

Before I had a chance to say anything he was already out of the car himself.

Oh my god, he was going to do it! I realised frantically.

My stomach was twisting and contracting, my palms already beginning to sweat. I didn't expect him to accept so easily, let alone do it right now.

"I can't believe it!" I whispered to myself.

What was the catch….? There had to be a catch!

My door suddenly opened, Edward stood waiting.

"Are you coming?" he asked. His voice sounded calm but his face was tense and his eye's coal black.

"You refused Edward" I said confused.

"Are you coming Bella?" he asked once more not acknowledging my question at all.

I stared at him a moment. Was this a test? Was he calling my bluff? This is what I wanted though. I was getting exactly what I'd asked for.

I unbuckled my belt and got out the car, my legs felt like jelly though and I did so rather ungracefully. He gripped my arm but said nothing more. The car door was slammed shut and the next thing I knew he had me on his back and we were running through the forest in a blur of greens and I was feeling dizzy.

It was over as suddenly as it started and I was swung around his back and my feet placed firmly on the ground, he gripped his hands onto my waist to steady me though. He'd anticipated my balance problems. Giving me a moment to gather my bearings, he let go and backed away from me slowly.

We were deep amongst the thick green trees. I could not see the road at all. We were all alone.

The air was thick around us. I stared at Edward in confusion and anticipation.

"What are you doing?" I sounded nervous.

"What you asked me to do?" he told me quietly.

"You don't want this" stating the obvious.

"Are you changing your mind now?" he tested me.

I shook my head at him. No I wasn't changing my mind.

"Are you angry with me Edward?" I asked worriedly.

"I understand what you want Bella" his voice was much lower now, accepting.

"I know you think it's dangerous if I watch you feed but you're stronger than you think Edward" I tried to assure him, and myself.

If I didn't think there was anything wrong with me before I certainly did now. Why did I love to play with fire? Why was a drawn to danger?

"This is not about me feeding …….is it Bella?" he asked, sounding like an accusation.

I frowned, lost at his words.

"It is Edward." I said confused.

He shook his head slowly, knowingly. But what did he know that I didn't?

"No Bella……..it is not. I know what this is about." his words were like velvet, but his tone had a gruff edge now.

"What is it about then?" I asked, mimicking him.

Edward began to walk around me carefully but kept his distance. I was perplexed by his behaviour. His eye's never leaving mine. They were very dark, I recognised those eyes.

"You're hungry" I acknowledged. He wanted to feed, he hadn't needed to before but now he wanted to. I could see the thirst in his black orbs.

"Yes" he admitted.

"Aren't you going to feed?" I asked him carefully.

I was managing to sound calm but my insides were quivering nervously.

"No Bella. I am not going to feed. And you are not going to watch me feed" he said matter of factly.

I shook my head again.

"I don't understand. Then why did you bring me out here? Your eyes are black Edward"

"You do not want to watch me fed Bella, I know what this is really about." he growled lowly.

"Then tell me……….because I do not!" I demanded in frustration, I was confused, thrilled and frightened by his behaviour.

"You've seen me feed before. You don't need to see it again. You want what happened afterwards, that is what this is really about" he explained darkly.

Gulp. My throat was suddenly painfully dry. I recognised that look, those eyes and that hunger. It was the same as the day he hunted me through the forest. The same day he slammed me up against the tree and ripped my clothes from my body. That was the hunger in his eyes.

"Edward" I gasped, now realising why I was now in these woods with him.

"It is alright Bella. I am not upset with you because…….because…." his voice was breaking. "I want it too……………" he confessed, barely audible now and his eyes were penetrating mine.

"It's not what I was asking…." I whispered to him trying to shake my head. I had wanted to watch him feed….hadn't I?

"Yes it was, even if you did not realise. It was what you were asking".

He finally broke his intense gaze from mine and let his hungry eye's drift down my body. He looked like he wanted to eat me, and in the best possible way.

I realised I was trembling slightly in anticipation.

"I've thought of that day often, I know you try and push me when we are at home but it's not the same is it Bella?" I almost shuddered at the way he muttered my name, heavy with inclination.

"I think the darkest things sometimes, yet I am too afraid to tell you, but I think now………I know now that there is no point in being afraid. Fate has handed us our path and who am I to argue with that?"

I let out a shaky breath, forming an 'O' with my lips. I could feel the blood pumping in my ears, almost making my eyes water.

"Bella what did you think was going to happen while you watched me feed? What did you think I'd want to do afterwards? …to you?" he added.

"I….I……" I could no longer speak.

"I try to control the hunger, to hide what I am to you. But there are some things I do not think I want to hide from you anymore Bella."

"Edward..." I gasped.

Why was the air so suddenly thin? Why was the Forest so closed around me?

"I want you to run from me now!" he ordered quietly.

My eyes widened at his words.

I was finding it difficult to breathe now. My panties felt like they were suddenly soaking, the folds between my thighs were swollen and wet, my body anticipating Edward, preparing itself for him. My body wanted him, and was more than ready.

Were we really going to do this? Did he really want this?

I didn't care anymore, because I wanted it so badly even if I hadn't predicted this.

Edward stared silently waiting, then licked his sweet red lips.

"You…you want me to run, to be out of your sight?" I tested, remembering Edward's anxieties today. Now he was ordering me to hide from him.

"You won't get very far.." he growled lowly.

And my stomach dropped to my toes.

I shouldn't, but I loved this. I had inadvertently got myself caught up in some kind of twisted sexual game between us. Edward was a predator and I was his prey, this was what we really were despite how much Edward tried to hide it. But now, right nowhe wanted to embrace it.

I took a tentative step back away from him and felt a twig snap beneath my foot. The noise made me jump slightly and echoed around us in the forest. I realised how tense and on edge I was.

"Run Bella……." Edward's voice rumbled deeply, and even more thrilling….aggressively.

I think my fight or flight moment kicked in. And I suddenly turned my back on him and my legs began to run as fast as they could through the thick foliage. The sudden feeling of Deja Vu hit me like a battering ram. I raced past the tree's trying to get as far from him as I could, knowing it would take him seconds to catch up with me. My heart was pounding its relentless fast rhythm, the adrenaline pumping through my veins, my breaths were coming in deep fast gasps and it was all so exhilarating. Excitement, anticipation, fear and lust were just some of the thoughts coursing through my head.

I tried to listen for him as I ran but could hear nothing but my breaths and the forest around me. I wondered how far he'd let me get from him before he came after me, before he claimed his trophy.

Minutes passed, the distance between us grew wider, I was getting breathless and tired, knowing I could not keep up this pace for long. A thin sheen of sweat was forming on my skin. I didn't possess an infinite amount of energy. But just as I pondered that thought, the air was pulled from my lungs abruptly when my body jerked back and felt like it was flying through the air. The next thing I knew my back hit his solid cool chest and his strong cold arm wrapped around my middle tightly, gripping me hard. I gasped for air that was knocked from my lungs.

His ice cold breath was on my ear a second later.

"Mine" he groaned deeply, his lips barely touching my skin. His breathing was fast and hard, breathing he didn't need to be doing.

He gave me a couple of seconds of panting, getting enough air to breathe myself before I was suddenly flung forward. He slammed me into a tree face first.

"Ugh" I gasped.

Expecting pain from the impact but then I realised Edwards hand was in front of me and his body had shielded me from injury. One arm still around my middle the other pressed against the damp mossy bark. He pushed me forward until my torso was sandwiched between the tree and his own solid frame. I could already feel his painfully hard erection straining behind me as he pressed it into my back. I groaned as I anticipated what he would do with it.

I succumbed instantly my head falling back into him, exposing my neck to him.

His hungry lips came down on me instantly, practically devouring my flesh with his icy tongue, before stopping to suck greedily on my pulse point.

I wanted to moan out the most obscene words at his actions but bit my lip. I'd never really said very illicit things to Edward before, especially the current gutter borne expletives that were on the tip of my tongue. I opted instead to whimper and writhe beneath him.

He seemed to like that and I'd unintentionally released the beast even further as Edward let out a low satisfied snarl, I could feel his lips peeling back and his teeth brush my now burning skin.

My nipples hardened and I thought I was going to cum right there despite the fact his hands were nowhere near my core.

Oh god, Edward the animal. It was beyond gratifying.

"Spread you legs" he ordered in a snarl.

Oh fuck yes!

I did so immediately despite the fact they were trembling uncontrollably.

Edward pulled back abruptly from me and my hands went out instinctively to grasp at the damp bark of the tree before me for some kind of support. His next action was the familiar sound of ripping material when I soon became aware that I would be returning to the Cullen's wearing just Edwards T-shirt. Less than a second later I was bare. He'd removed everything, and I mean everything. My shocked grunts were the only response to him as he did so.

My bare feet on the soft forest floor felt strange. I felt very vulnerable and exposed. Goose bumps rose across my flesh.

His icy breath was back at my ear again then, making it numb.

"Do you know what I want from you Bella?" he growled.

I bit my lip before replying.

"Tell me…." I gasped.

"Naked on the ground" his voice strained. "On all fours" the last part he almost ground out through his teeth.

Oh my fucking god!

I thought I was going to pass out at his words. The bundle of nerves between my sopping wet folds felt tight, and twitched. I wanted……….no needed and desperately so for him to touch me there. If he didn't soon I would be touching myself.

Perhaps Edward could read my thoughts because the next thing he did was plunge his icy fingers inside me while his thumb rubbed furiously at my aching clit.

"UGHHHH" I groaned so loudly that it shocked me.

He curled his fingers inside me and I fought the urge to scream.

One of my hands that had been strained against the bark pulled back instinctively as I groped at my own breast rubbing my fingers over my nipple.

Edward's own fingers began to pump in and out of my soaking folds, occasionally twisting inside torturing me even more as his thumb never relented the steady rhythm pushing down on to my clit. He was creating all kinds of guttural type moans and hisses from my lips. His other hand gripped my hip painfully hard, holding me in place. My own fingers continued needing at the flesh of my breast then pinched at the nipple harder, making me whimper along with the other sounds Edward was creating with his own expert touch.

"NO" he growled unexpectedly.

Then he pulled his fingers from between my legs, I practically wailed in response and he smacked his hand over mine on my breast before grabbing it roughly and the slamming it back against the bark of the tree to join the other. He pressed his hand palm down on top of it, preventing any further movement.

"Only Iget to touch you ……" he ordered.

Again I thought I was going to cum right there, the wetness between my legs seemed to flood and I could feel it dripping down my trembling thighs.

Edward suddenly pushed his body into mine then and I inhaled sharply when I felt all of the cool hard skin of his entire body against my now damp burning flesh.

When had he removed his clothes? I thought dazedly. Who cares……..my body answered as I arched my back and pushed my ass into his large cool erection.

His lips were at my ear again, making me shudder.

"I can smell you…….." and he actually inhaled. "The scent you're creating between your legs is intoxicating".

I took a deep breath before my eyes rolled back into my head then licked my lips.

"I want to see you..." I begged.

The thought of him standing behind me equally naked was a thrilling thought.

"Really…?" he hissed "What else do you want……?" teasing me with his sensual voice.

It had never been this prurient between us before, I mean, the last time in the forest had all happened so fast but this was long and drawn out.

Right now……….it was almost lecherous, nothing but calculated corruptness. Edward's most wicked fantasies were being acted out for me. Everything happening between us felt course and salacious. And I fucking loved it. I wanted to tell Edward that I loved it. I wanted to swear at him, and I promised I would as soon as I had the energy.

I was going to tell him that I loved this side of him. I knew the kind, caring, gentle Edward so well, the side of him that would hold you in his arms all night whispering sweet nothings, and humming lullabies. Now I had the opposite of that; dark Edward. Animalistic gratuitous Edward! I felt like the luckiest human being on the planet. Edward was both and I was going to wreak the benefits of both now.

"I want you fucking inside me" I whimpered.

Edward sucked in a long breath through his teeth, and I could tell he was biting his lip when he did so.

"Mmmmmmmmmm" he hummed as he rubbed his nose along the back of my neck and then dipped his lips and licked between my shoulder blades.

"Smell soooooo good" he murmured.

He turned me abruptly around to face him, so fast it was almost a blur, my back ground against the mossy bark and it felt good.

I swallowed hard when I saw his face. The hungriest I'd ever seen him.

Black piercing eyes froze me in place. His beautiful white skin almost glowed in contrast to his rich red lips that grinned wickedly and crookedly of course. Edward's thick bronze locks were a mess and I hadn't even had the opportunity to fist my hand in them yet.

He slowly released his grip on my arms that had spun me around and backed away slowly, creating enough space between us to allow me the view of his perfectly sculpted body that I'd previously requested. I struggled to remain standing after he'd released me. My legs were so weak and trembling. I pressed my back against the trunk of the tree harder, willing it to hold me up.

Edward looked magnificent, flawless. Utter fucking perfection.

"What are you thinking….?" he growled impatiently as his eye's studied my expression.

"You are fucking perfection" I confessed and felt my cheeks flush in response.

"My favourite color" he grinned not missing the blood rush into my face.

My eye's fell instinctively and I caught sight of his large erection, already dripping with his own desires. The overwhelming need to fall on to my knees before him and slip my lips over his perfection until he came hard into my mouth was tremendous.

"NO…." he growled.

My eyes widened when I glanced back up to his objection. His black eyes were focused on my mouth and I realised he'd anticipated my wants because I'd been unconsciously licking my lips.

"You on the ground……………on all fours" he ground out lowly, repeating his earlier craving.

Oh god.

Oh my good god.

His face darkened.

I gulped.

He took three large purposeful steps towards me, wrapping his hand around the back of my neck he jerked me up towards him. His other hand sunk into my hair gripping it hard before his cool lips covered mine I didn't even have a chance to gasp. He kissed me hard, his tongue pushing past my lips roughly. Lapping and tasting every inch of my mouth, dominating me.

Reinforcing our roles…..he was the predator and I was his prey. He took and I gave.

I succumbed of course, willingly and obediently. Like a lamb to the slaughter. He would literally be the death of me. But it was a path I would choose eagerly over and over just to be with him, my perfect Edward, my perfect lover……both light and dark.

I moaned into his mouth and his kissing became harder, rougher, and more urgent. Eventually pulling back, my eye's searching out his to see his hooded gaze stare down at me possessively.

His hard grip tightened and I was moving again, he turned me quickly. His hand left my neck and grasped my shoulder, his knee pressed into the back of mine as he forced me down to the moist forest floor……on all fours.

I was breathing hard now. Excitement making my heart pound painfully. Palms and fingers sunk into the soft moss. He pushed my knees apart, his own thigh digging between mine. My submitting position made me feel so vulnerable, so weak. It made Edward feel strong and forceful to me. I could feel the power he had over me. And I loved it. I wanted him to take me like this. I want him to take me hard. I loved that he had that much want for my body. It was overpowering.

I knew he was kneeling behind me. My body could sense his close proximity and tingled. He leaned over me, placing his cold palm between my shoulder blades before dragging his fingers down my spine torturously slow.

I arched my back as he dug the fingers into my flesh and moaned.

Edward hissed through his teeth.

When his fingers reached my tail bone he withdrew his hand, I was about to whimper in protest when it suddenly whipped down and he slapped me hard across one of the cheeks of my ass.

"Ugh" I gasped.

My mouth hung open from shock. Shock because Edward slapping my ass felt so good, so not him. I wanted him to do it again.

He rubbed his palm briefly over the now burning flesh and it cooled instantly.

I could feel his eyes on me.

"Again…" I whimpered. Not quite believing I was asking him to slap me.

His hand whipped down again and 'smack', he slapped me hard as requested, he growled lowly from deep within his throat.

I sighed deeply this time, enjoying it.

"Mmmmmm Bella…." he groaned, a desperation in his tone, the first time he actually sounded weak. And I knew he wanted his release.

"Edward………please." I begged him. "I need you inside me"

Giving him what he wanted to hear.

He brought his palm down on to my ass again, I flinched expecting another slap but this time he smoothed it over my flesh before kneading it roughly. Then his hand cupped around my ass before slipping it between my thighs. Edward palmed my swollen folds, I was drenched. He dug the heel of his hand into my clit and I made the most guttural sound. I pushed myself into him, willing him to dig his fingers inside me.

Edward suddenly slipped two long icy fingers inside the scorching heat of my hole. And I wriggled and writhed at his touch, straining to stay still for him.

He stroked inside me a few times before withdrawing too fast, nearly rendering a wail of hatred from me.

Two large hands gripped my hips tightly.

He was ready now.

Edward was breathing hard, I could hear the loud pants from him as the tip of his large erection sunk a little into my folds, rubbing across the tender flesh but going no further. I was whimpering below him pathetically, my hands clawing at the mossy ground, pushing myself on to him, begging him to enter.

"Your mine Bella……you'll always be mine" he groaned before pushing forward fast.

I gasped his name loudly.

He was fully inside me, his hands clutched tightly to my hips.

He didn't wait long before he began his rhythm, pushing in and out. And he wasn't slow, this was not tender love making. This was fucking. His fingers dug into me and I bit my lip, groaning, whimpering.

Edward was thrusting now. His movements were hard and fast. I could hear him leaning over my back, snarling and grunting, the most delicious sounds ever. The wind rustled around us as I breathed deeply, struggling for air.

I listened to his body slapping forcefully against mine……over and over and over and over, unrelenting, and never tiring. His pace was perfectly controlled. My head was twisting around as I grunted along with him. The sweat forming on my body was making me shiver, making everything even more sensitive to the open air around us. The noises emanating from my throat were becoming steadily louder. I wondered very briefly if we could be heard by sensitive ears….but as Edward's body slammed into mine I didn't care to think of that anymore. He seemed to be trying to burrow himself deeper into me, driving his thrusts in and out faster and faster.

One of his hands was suddenly in my hair, wrapping it around his fist painfully, a pleasurable pain. My head jerked back.

"Fuck!" I grunted loudly.

Edward hissed through his teeth again before subsiding to his panting and snarling.

Oh god, oh god, oh god. It felt soooooo good. I could feel my insides building the pressure coiling up within me.

Edward was smacking his pelvis hard into me. I knew it was coming, the orgasm. And I knew I was going to cum hard. My body starting shaking, almost convulsing as my insides contracted around him inside me.

I practically wailed his name over and over riding out my orgasm.

Edward was tipping over the edge. He couldn't possibly slam his body into mine any faster, he fisted my hair hard and I felt his body begin to shudder behind me.

He gasped my name twice with desperation before I felt him cum inside me, the coolness of him filling me. A few more thrusts, he was spent.

Edward's body fell forward.

Both of his hands fell to the ground next to mine, his face sunk into my hair and I could hear him gasping for air as if he could not live without it before he nuzzled his nose into the crook of my neck.

I myself was struggling for breath, gulping down mouthfuls as my heartbeat slowly began to subside from its dangerously fast beating.

We were both very still.

Edward panted shakily into my ear. It was a wonderful sound. He sounded so satisfied so free from his binds.

Moments passed and he eventually pulled out of me. Then he pulled me towards him as we both lay down on the cool forest floor. Edward wrapped his arms around me, cradling me and wrapping my body around him. We lay there in each other's arms face to face.

I reached up and stroked his cheek tenderly. His eyes had the strangest look in them, like he had come to some sort of peace within himself. He had accepted who he was. The coal black color had faded and was becoming lighter and lighter.

"I love you…." I whispered into his lips as soon as I had the strength to talk again.

"I know my Bella" he said back, as his fingers curled around me stroking my spine. "And I love you…"

"I know my Edward" I sighed before sinking my face into his neck and closing my eyes.