Disclaimer: the boy and SPN belong to the CW and kripke. I only have copyright to my own creation. This story is AU
BETA:Vonnie836
warning: tissue alert
~2 days later~
"So you're saying Azazel was just frozen in place like something was holding him there?" Melinda questioned after hearing John tell her and Bobby what happened in Salvation, Iowa. While the three men where gone Bobby did research on the other special kids to see where they were located.
John spoke up, "That's what I saw and I'm glad, because if this demon would have left we would have kept on looking for him."
This time it was Bobby, who made himself heard, "So what're you going to do now that old yellow eyes is dead" he asked the eldest Winchester, which got him a shrug from John "Maybe retire or do small hunts, my mission is over!" He told them both.
"So Dean's taking Sam and Gracie back to Palo Alto, California to visit Jessica's grave?" Melinda finally asked, since the boys came back just to leave again right away with gracie and a small bag. She hadn't been sure where they were going.
John nodded in response, "Yeah, Sam wanted go visit. It's been quite a while and he also wanted to let Gracie visit, since she almost two years old now." He excused himself to get something eat right when Bobby's two kids came into the house from school and work.
Palo Alto, California, cemetery
After the long drive to get there, Dean waited by the impala to allow his little brother and niece some privacy to talk with Jessica. As Sam walked along with his daughter in his arms, he could feel the warmth of the sun on his skin. He turned his face up toward the sun, letting its rays shine down upon him and Gracie.
The breeze was strong enough to play with his hair, which was longer now, than it used to be. The passing breeze brushed against his long eyelashes, causing him to blink. He glanced down at his little girl, who was looking around exploring the area
He continued on until he found where he needed to be. Kneeling down in the dewy grass, he placed Gracie besides him. Sam fingers touched the cold stone and brushed away some dust, making Jessica's face clearer. He mournfully traced her features as he tried to remember every detail then watched his little girl look up at him with sadness for a moment, before turning his eyes back to the stone. It pained him to know that Gracie would never get to know her mother.
Sam's chest tightened up and he actually felt his heart break. It was a burning pain in the middle of his chest. Someday he might get used to the pain, but he'd never get used to how Jessica was taken from his and Gracie's life.
There were several minutes of silence until Gracie spoke, "Dada iwts thiws mawma?" She babbled in her cute little voice which made anyone's heart melt.
Sam ruffled his little girl hair, "Yes this is your mother and she loved you very much, princess!" he told her then looks down at the grave again, before addressing Jessica, "Hey baby, it's me, Sam. It's been a while since I came see you; it's still hard knowing you're gone. We finally killed the yellow eye demon but it doesn't bring you back."Sam felt tears begin to cascade down his cheeks, sensing Gracie's little fingers wipe them away.
"Dawdy now sawd?" She said not sure; why her daddy was crying, too young understand it. Gracie placed the picture she made then ran back to where Dean was standing to give Sam some alone time
Once Sam was alone, he said, "Hey Jess," his voice cracking, "I miss you. If you've been watching me from heaven, like I hope you are, I'll bet you're very confused." Sam's face screwed up as he tried to think of a way to explain his life. "I never told you about my past because I wanted to keep you safe. I also wanted you to keep loving me, so I guess that's another reason right there. Sometimes I wonder, if you had known the truth about me and my past, would you still have loved me the way you did? Would it have sent you running in the other direction?"
He looked down at the ground, "Gracie is growing a lot and is about to turn two years old soon. I try my best telling her about you but she still doesn't understand that your gone and never will return. She quite smart for her age, already she knows how read some words in kids books. Wish you were around see our little girl." He said; his throat tightening up as he fought sobs and tried choking them down for as long as he could. Finally the sobs won over. His body jerked as they loosened and everything he'd bottled up for so long came out. He kept one hand on Jessica's headstone trying to steady himself.
"I love you Jess, I always will!" Sam whispered then walked away, heading back to the car.
Dean's hand was a comforting weight on his shoulder, while the older brother silently waited for Sam's sobs to subside. Only then did he wordlessly help his brother into the Impala, where Gracie was already buckled into her car seat.
As the car drove out the cemetery, a young girl watched with a smile as the little girl in the backseat waved bye to her. "I'll always watch out for you my little princess!" she whispered then turned to the man in the trench coat standing beside her, "Look out for her and for all of them. I sense danger is lurking close to them!" Her voice was filled with emotion as she disappears along with the wind to her final resting place.
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