School was awkward. Axel didn't know how to act around me and I sure as hell didn't know how to react to him. At all. Like this morning I saw him and I just kind of stood there. He did the same. In all honesty I didn't know what to say. I mean if you took into consideration the night that we actually did it; we didn't say anything to each other then either. So how on earth were we supposed to be able to talk to each other at school? Well anyway, I'm sure Sora hasn't noticed anything yet. He has this God-given gift which allows him to not notice bad things right away. It's his subconscious way of coping with difficult situations: by never noticing them from the start. During art Axel and I made uncomfortable small talk. It probably would have been better if we just ignored each other, but somehow we were drawn to one another. I didn't want to talk to him, but I couldn't help it. But it was unbearably ridiculous. One hundred percent awkward, one hundred percent uncomfortable, making the period two hundred percent terrible. Not once during the short conversations did we make eye contact. Also, we sat as far as the table would allow us to do so. I hate to admit that more than once, I found myself glancing at his… pants. At the end of the day we just sort of lingered for a bit before indirectly saying our goodbyes. I know I have to talk to him about what we do from here and I know that we need to work this out. Because honestly? This will drive us insane if we don't. I mean, if a kiss pushed me to the brink of madness, imagine what's to happen if we let this go on! I'm just gonna tell him that it was a mistake and that we should forget it ever happened and just go on with our lives. Because that's the truth. Right?
