Chapter 53

I dreamt about Jake. Just Jake. We were on the beach, walking, hand-in-hand. After walking in silence for a bit, Jake stopped and pulled me into his arms.

"I love you so much," he said. I smiled.

"I love you too," I said. He trailed kisses up and down my neck.

"Jake?"

"Mmm?" I forgot what I was going to say so I said something different.

"That feels really good." He pulled back and smiled.

"Really? How does this feel then?" He kissed my lips softly. His lips were always so soft and he was always so gentle. I leaned into him. He took a step back and lost his balance, taking us both down onto the sand. We both laughed and our laughs died away as we looked into each other's eyes.

He closed the distance between us again but this time, the kiss was different. It was harder and more fierce but not in a scary way. In a way that made me want to be as close to him as I possibly could. In a way that made me forget about everything in the world except Jake. I pulled myself on top of his. He chuckled against my lips. He put his hand on my back and trailed it all the way down my back. His hand continued going down but went to the side and to my leg. Something weird happened when his hand went over my thigh. My mind went completely blank and completely full of thoughts about Jake. Suddenly, there was no possible way that I could get as close to him as I wanted to.

"Jake," I moaned.

I woke up to Kacey pushing my arm.

"What?" I asked quickly. I blushed at what I had just dreamt.

"Will you stop moaning in your sleep? It's freaking me out," she said. I was moaning? But I was moaning in my dream. Kacey looked down a bit and rose an eyebrow. I looked to where she was looking and realized Jake had his hand on my leg. I swallowed. I elbowed him.

"Jake?" I asked. He took a deep breath. "Jake?" I whispered a little louder. His eyes shot open.

"Are you okay?' He asked.

"Yeah, I'm fine, it's just…" I trialed off and looked at his hand. He looked down and his eyes went wide. He pulled his hand off my leg.

"Oh my gosh, Ness. I'm sorry," he said. Kacey laughed and lied back down. I smiled.

"It's fine," I mumbled and put my head back on the pillow.

"I'm so sorry. I didn't know-" I put my finger on his lips.

"Just stop talking. It's okay," I said, smiling.

"Yeah, Jake it's fine," Kacey said, obviously about to say something smart ( note the sarcasm) so I glared at her. She just looked at me and smirked.

"I mean, she was moaning your name in her sleep. And I mean moaning really loud. I'm surprised you didn't wake up." Kacey laughed. Jake looked at me and raised an eyebrow.

"Thank you Kacey..." I mumbled and stuffed my head back into my pillow. I pulled Jakes arm back around me and snuggled into him. Jake snuggled his face into my neck and then put his lips to my ear.

"Are you going to tell me what it was about or leave it to my imagination?" he said, quietly. I sighed and turned around in his arms to face him. He smiled.

"It wasn't about you," I lied. He looked at me with doubt in his eyes.

"Then why were you moaning my name?" He asked.

"How do you know I was? Kacey could have made that up…" I said. I really didn't want to have to explain this

"Well I could have but I don't joke about moaning peoples' names," Kacey laughed.

"Kacey," I whined. She laughed again.

"Probably another hot dream like the one that you had the night you stayed over at my house, huh?" She said and started to crack up. I groaned. Jake chuckled.

"What was that?" He murmured. I could almost hear the smirk in his voice.

"Kacey!" I whined. "Your promised!" Jake pretended to look hurt.

"You're keeping secrets from me?" He asked. I rolled my eyes and turned in his arms.

"Are you ready to tell me what you were thinking about when my dad said something?" I asked. He looked up at the ceiling.

"Exactly." I murmured in his ear. Kacey laughed.

"But I bet you would love for him to pro-"

"Kacey!" I hissed. She shut up.

"Sorry." She mumbled. Jake was quiet for a moment, probably deciding whether or not to keep bugging me about the dreams or not. His arms tightened around me and he kissed my forehead.

"Go back to sleep," he whispered. I sighed and closed my eyes. I inhaled his scent and all of my muscles instantly relaxed. I snuggled into his chest and his arms tightened around me some more. He started to stroke my hair and I fell into a dreamless sleep pretty quickly.

When I woke up, the sun was shining in the window slightly, making my skin sparkle faintly. I looked down at the blow up mattress to see Kacey and Logan weren't there, all I could ask for is that they were not making out in my bathroom, because that would be slightly disturbing. I turned in Jake's arms to see him sleeping. I smiled. He looked so cute! His eyes were closed and he was snoring lightly. I watched him sleep for a bit before deciding to wake him up.

"Jake," I murmured. His eyes opened slowly and he smiled at me.

"Hey sunshine." He said sleepily. I smiled.

"Hey." I said softly. "Want to go downstairs? Hopefully that's where they are," I said, nodding my head softly in the direction to the empty mattress. "and not hooking up in a closet somewhere." I smirked. I quickly pushed those thoughts of me and Jake at Kacey's out of my head in case my dad was listening. He smiled and pecked me on the lips before helping me out of bed. I instantly went into the bathroom to see what I looked like. Looking in the mirror, I actually kind of looked like myself. My eye was still dark but it wasn't as swollen as yesterday. I got changed in the bathroom and when I walked out, I saw Jake sitting on the edge of my bed. He looked up at me and a smile lit up his face.

"What?" I asked, self-consciously.

"You look a lot better," he said. I smiled at him.

"My chest is still tight and my eye still hurts but I think I look a bit better too," I said. He laughed once. I could tell he was thinking about something else because his eye were a little distant. I sat down on the bed next to him.

"What are you thinking about?" I asked him. He looked over at me.

"Just wondering if there is any chance that your Dad will let me stay while you're being home-schooled..." he said.

"He could be your High School sweetheart," Kacey said as she walked into the room. I blushed
"And who knows maybe more." She winked at me. By that point my face turned scarlet, and I looked at her giving her a warning glare from last night's conversation.
"Hey I'm not giving anything away!" She said defensively. I looked over at Jake who looked completely lost.

"Do teenage girls have some secret language or something?" He asked, clueless to our conversation which I was thankful for. I laughed and kissed him.

"Guess you'll never know then." I murmured. He smiled.

"I'll figure it out, don't you worry." He said with a cocky grin. I shook my head.

"I don't think so." I said. Jake chuckled.

"Well, you know how good Kacey is at keeping secrets," He smirked.

"Hey! Watch it Scooby Doo," Kacey said. I actually had to laugh at that one. Jake looked at me.

"Sorry that was just really funny," I said. Kacey grinned. He rolled his eyes

"Mhmm, you know what else is funny?" He murmured getting closer to me. My breath hitched.

"Uh..?" I mumbled He got a little closer to me before wrapping his arms around me and tickling my sides.

"J-Jake! S-stop!" I screamed laughing. Kacey was cracking up.

"Say 'I Love you Jake and you're awesomer than Kacey'" Jake said. Kacey looked at me.

"Hey, that's sooo not true!" She said.

"Oh my gosh!" I yelled laughing. "Jake, I love you so very much, please let me go..." I asked sticking my lower lip out. He stopped. I smiled and tackled him.

"Watcha gonna do now?" I asked. He looked into my eyes for a second.

"This," he said and leaned his face closer to mine. His lips met mine. Once again, he kissed me gently. His lips were soft and moved with mine perfectly. He pulled me closer and rolled us so I was on my back and he was over me and pulled away too soon. I blinked a few times and tried to get my mind working again. Once my mind stopped spinning I realized Jake was over me.

"Now, what are you gonna do now?" He said and laughed.

"Well first, you are going to get off my daughter," my Dad said from the doorway. I turned to face him.

"Dad…" I started. He looked at me and smiled. Wait… he smiled? I expected him to be mad. I saw my dad shake his head a little, letting me know he heard my thought. I smiled at him and Jake climbed off of me.

"Am I allowed to stay?" Jake asked, I could almost hear the begging in his tone. My dad nodded.

"As long as you don't.. distract her." He said giving him a look. Jake nodded.

"Esme's got pancakes ready, Logan's down there eating them too." Dad said. I grinned and Jake helped me walk downstairs. I haven't been so happy to be able to get out of bed before. Usually it's the opposite.

"I know what you mean now." I whispered to Jake.

"What do you mean?" He asked. I smiled.

"You know when you were hurt?" I asked and flinched. He nodded. "Well you said you were sick of being in bed. Now I know how you feel," I giggled. Kacey walked past me and sat next to Logan at the kitchen table. Jake helped me over and then sat next to me. He made sure I had pancakes before he took the rest for himself. I laughed and shook my head.

"What?" He asked.

"Oh nothing," I said. I looked over at my Dad. "So how is this home-school thing going to work."

"Same as it did before. Only you aren't alone," he said and smiled. Uncle Emmett came into the room and patted my dad on the back.

"I call P.E." he said. My Dad laughed.

"Not a shocker there Emmett," he said and looked at Kacey. "You can actually make it challenging to Kacey." He smiled. Uncle Emmett laughed.

"You should teach Ness some self defense," he said. I rolled my eyes.

"Mhmm, make fun of the bruised girl!" I yelled sarcastically. My dad rolled his eyes.

"You know we're not making fun of you, you might actually like it." He said. I groaned.

"How am I supposed to do PE like this?" I asked gesturing to my body all blue. My dad again rolled his eyes, what was that for the eighth time this morning?

"I meant when you get better." He said. I shrugged.

"I knew that." I mumbled. Jake chuckled and kissed the top of my head. My Dad sighed and walked out of the room.

"You should learn a little bit, you know?" Jake whispered. "I mean, you've been in two situations recently that you could have used it." That made sense. But I still hated P.E. no matter what subject or sport it was. I am not coordinated.

"You can practice on Jake," Kacey said, smirking. I groaned. What? Was it embarrass Renesmee day?

"Nah, I think that's next month." Jake whispered in my ear. I looked down to see our hands intertwined and I must have thought that louder than I wanted to, because I accidently pushed it into Jake's head. I groaned a little and went back to eating my pancakes.

After I was finished, I went into the family room, which my family had set up kind of like a class room. It had 4 tables in front of 4 chairs. Four? Kacey, Logan, and I made three. Was my Dad going to make Jake do work?

"What do you normally have first?" My Dad asked me. I looked up at him and shrugged.

"Kacey and I had math…" I said.

"Okay, so we'll start with that," he said. My dad went on about algebra and other things. I sighed. This was extremely boring.

"You need to know it." My dad said. I sighed writing notes and stuff like I usually would in class. I winced. The pain in my stomach had not completely gone away and neither did the pain in my back. In fact it probably got worse. I winced again when the pain went to my pain. Great, I was never going to be able to concentrate on this. After math was over, the pain had gotten worse. I went into the kitchen to see if I could find some Advil.

After going through most of the drawers, I found what I was looking for. I opened the container and put two of the pills on my hand. I grabbed a glass and put it under the tap. After it was half-way full, I pulled it away. Wow was I really shaking that much? The water was moving around in the glass like a wave caused by a cruise ship in the ocean.

I put the pills on the back of my tongue and took a sip of the water. I swallowed and pulled the glass back. My hand slipped and the glass crashed onto the kitchen floor.

"Crap," I muttered. I tried to quietly pick up but when I bent down the pain shot up my back and I let out a small whimper. Suddenly all the images of Jason and that storage room came back to me. I was probably more broken on the inside than I was on the outside. My eyes started tearing up when I remembered him screaming at me, the tears finally spilled over when I was kept thinking about how he hurt me. I backed up to the counter and when I had all the glass in my hands and I pulled my knees up to my chest and sobbed. I heard heavy footsteps coming my way which only made me think more about what happen and when they got closer I cried harder.

"Oh my gosh Ness!" A husky voice said from behind me. I just started crying harder. Why did it have to be him?

"Edward!" He yelled and squatted next to me.

"Renesmee," he said. I flinched at my full name. He never called me that. My Dad rushed over and helped me up with Jake. They pulled me over to the sink and ran the cold water over my hands. I looked at them through my tears and that certainly did not help. They were so bloody and had glass poking out all over the place. Jason's face kept popping up in my head and I would just cry harder.

"Get it off!" I screamed. The cold water hurt like hell. I tried to yank my hands away but between my dad's cold hands gripped on my wrists and my werewolf boyfriend's warm hands gripped on the other one, I t didn't work. I started to cry harder. When they were done, my dad place a towel and wrapped it around my hand.

"Let go!" I begged, and suddenly saw Jason's face again. That was it, I finally snapped from everything. I looked at both of them with fear and darted up to my room. Once I was in there, I locked it and buried my head into my pillow, and cried.