this is a take off of the divergent trilogy by Veronica Roth I don't own anything
The serum files chapter 54
(Tobias's prospective)
Tris whimpers quietly as I lie her in bed. I shush to her and trace circles in her palm. She's been having crying fits like this lately. It'll come on suddenly and just won't stop until she exhausts herself and passes out. to be honest it scares me. But crying won't hurt her so I guess I shouldn't worry too much. She hasn't had break down like this since she found out she wouldn't be able to have children. Now it's a might and we don't know what percentage we have of actually coming out of this with a child. I can understand why she feels over whelmed.
"Tobias" she whispers.
"what?" I ask.
"stay" is all she says her eyes barley opening before she falls back to sleep.
I lay with her and hold her close managing to not wake her in the proses. I pull the covers over us and kiss her forehead.
She's so physically small, she has a light and petite frame, and she has narrow hips. The idea of her carrying a six to nine pound child inside of her is almost laughable. And for a few minutes I try to imagine her heavily pregnant but I can't picture that no matter how hard I try. She's always been small like she's younger than she's supposed to be. I just can't see how this could possibly work. But I know how strong she is, I know how determined and resistant she can be, and I know she can do this. the doctors gave Tris a diagnosis as if they were dealing with a normal girl, my Tris is not normal, she's extraordinary and I know she'll prove the doctors wrong, I believe in her, now all she has to do is believe in herself, but that is easier said than done…
The next morning Tris is better, giddy even. I like it when she's in a good mood, and with her insane emotions these days it's heightened. As much as I do love seeing her happy I can't ignore what happened last night. I guess I should enjoy the peace for now, after all this has been one of the very few mornings Tris has woken up without morning sickness or fatigue.
I've just finished putting a pair of old jeans on when I hear her giggle. I smile and turn to see what she finds so funny, if anything, sometimes she laughs for no random reason, and that makes me laugh.
She's naked from the waist up and she sits on the edge of the bed smirking.
"What?" I question her smile is contagious .
"my bra doesn't fit anymore. That hasn't happened since I was thirteen" she replies.
I smirk and sit on the bed next to her. I had noticed the 'new development' of her chest a while ago, but I didn't comment on it.
"well I could see that" I tease.
She mock pouts but she can't help smiling "low blow"
I laughs slightly.
She looks down at herself sheepishly. She seems embarrassed, she does look different. I never minded how flat chested she was but I can't say I'm disappointed about the change.
"hey, don't be embarrassed, you actually look normal now" I say.
She makes a face at me "Mean"
I kiss her cheek. she pushes me away.
"No kisses when you're being mean to me" she says.
I laugh "get dressed. I'll call Christina, tell her you need to go shopping"
"No. Don't do that" she exclaims "shopping for normal clothes with her is torture enough, but bra shopping?" she cringes.
"well don't think you're dragging me with you" I say.
She laughs this time "no of course not, I'll bring Caleb, he owes me anyway. Besides Maddie is out growing everything"
"I heard most of that! And no!" Caleb yells from his room.
We both laugh.
"I guess Maddie and I are going out alone then" Tris says,
"now that idea I don't like" I say. I don't want her out alone in this city, I know that she is no less able to defend herself then she was before. But I just feel so protective over her and our unborn child, I don't want to risk anything.
"I'll be fine, it's not like I'm going to step wrong and miscarry in the middle of the street. I'll be careful, don't worry" she replies.
"I know it's just-" I start.
"I know, I know you worry about me, and I love that. But I would love to love that just a little less" she says.
I nod. It's hard not to worry about her, she is more graceful then she was at the start of her initiation, but her 'klutz' days do return. That's why the doctors know her so well. She could fall and land on her stomach. The doctor said it would be too easy for her to miscarry. So I have reasons to worry… or maybe I'm just making up excuses. I can be protective but I can't be smothering.
There's a soft patting at the door followed by a coo. Madeline is trying to get in to our room, which means she has snuck away from Caleb again.
Tris puts a shirt on and I open the door, Maddie crawls in and heads straight for Tris. Tris picks her up and kisses her head.
We walk in to the living room. Caleb is passed out on the couch. I smile thinking of creative way to wake him up.
"Leave him" Tris scolds.
"fine" I sigh.
I watch as Tris holds Madeline to her hip with one arm and starts to prepare a bottle with the other. The fact that Tris's hips aren't very prominent makes it hard for her to keep Maddie parched there, she keeps sliding down. but she manages. emotionally and mentally Tris is destant to be a mother, but physically she is not built for bearing children, delicate frame straight and narrow hips, impossibly thin and seemingly unable to gain weight.
Tris takes Madeline over to the couch and cuddles her and she feeds her. she seems so happy. It's cruel, if she miscarries like the doctors expect her body is the only thing that stops her from this happiness. Sure taking care of Maddie makes her happy but . it's only a tempera fix, like pressing cloth to a badly bleeding wound, eventually this wound is going to bleed through and it'll be a blood bath when it does…
I've tried everything for some reason people still can't vote on the baby name poll. so i'm doing it through reviews instead. just send a review of witch name you like. please vote soon because I just organized all my ideas and there won't be as many chapters till Christina has her baby as I once thought, there will still be a lot but just not as many.
REMEMBER THIS IS FOR CHRISTINA AND WILL'S BABY.
GIRLS
Sadie
Charlotte
Miranda
BOYS
Elliot
Noah
Eden
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