Hey ya'll whats up?
I know i know - it's been a bit. Loves, seriously…it's been a bit crazy. Hop over to twitter babyridge116 and you'll probably see the craziness. Wife's exams are next week, I have a 5 fellowship/grants to apply for by Jan 15th, it's just been crazy. lol
Waffle updated a few times last week if you didn't catch them. If you've never read WAffle's stuff, go search "righterblock" and go read. Seriously. It's awesome. We're also working on a collab project, it'll be fun. We're working it out.
Wife is stressed - send her love. I'm stressed, send ME love.
Okay, not really much to talk about… There were some questions, I'll try to get to them. I'll try to state the question and then answer. If you have questions or love scenes you want to see - send em my way
GUESTS
Why does Lauren get super drained when using her powers? Okay, so we know she got hit in the head, really hard and she was essentially in survival mode the first time she tried using her powers after the trauma. She hadn't recovered, essentially. We're going to see the that succubus in her helps with that recovery because it gives her strength.
Lol - you were looking at my twitter? hmmm lol Okay… so i have NO idea where that is from. NONE. All i saw was boobs and i was like "goddamn…" no clue. Anyone else know?
Does trick know who Lauren is? I WISH I KNEW! I don't know! Maybe? Maybe not? I know this answers are REALLY helpful.
Kenzi is ALL Rightersblock! Give Waffle a shout!
We see a bit more of Tamsin this chapter. It should clear some things up. To be honest, I didn't know what to think of her when she entered story either. I swear to god, I had no idea she was making an appearance LOL. She just did. I started writing "Tamsin" and I was like "ummm….. wait… oh…okay" and I rolled with it.
Oh Gosh - what pet names have I used? Do you mean Scooby? Or what BoLo call each other? I'm sorry, I don't know what I write, apparently. LOL I know I have granny saying "my love" which is WEIRD, because personally i call EVERYONE "love" or "my love" but the TONE that granny says it in is so much different where I'm just like awwwwwww loveeeee and she's like muahahahahahahaahaha. Okay, i may have gotten a bit overzealous LOL moving on.
So I'm still trying to figure out if Hades knew… I don't think he does… he may….i don't know LOL let's be honest. I haven't a clue. I'll find out shortly before ya'll do. And you're right. He may have some info.
LOL. Like the limo smut eh? lol
Lauren being a god definitely will open up new things for them to deal with. I'm waiting for the day that they stop throwing shit at me. Like…my god. This story is never going to end if they keep throwing me all this stuff LOL
Never underestimate Lauren. NEVER
I can't believe how awesome everyone thinks this story is. I had no idea that it was going to turn into this. But I am thankful for it and that's all I can say lol
I updated quickly and then it took a week and a half. SORRY!
I'm glad you got caught up! and if these two would stop fucking like bunnies, the plot could move along lol
Twilitemist - Thank you…thank you for sharing your story with me, love. You are so strong and so incredible. Please, never forget that and never doubt it. Thank you for not giving up and not letting life tear you down. It's hard - it's really difficult sometimes. But its because of people like you and people like some of the other women that I've talked to on here that we can be examples to show that strength and greatness isn't about never facing situations… it's about how we respond to those situations WHEN we are faced with them. You're amazing, sweetheart. 3
You think I'm a pro at writing love scenes? Oh my gosh that is probably the most amazing compliment ever. I put my heart and my soul into writing the love scenes that I do. It comes the easiest (haha) but i put all of myself into it. thank you. that made me tear up!
why did Lauren's parents disown her or just not like her? Ok… so Lauren mentioned to Bo in like chapter 2…3…4? somewhere around there that Lauren's mom was very upset that she wanted to treat humans too. In the chapter where we switch to Lauren's POV (when she seized during granny smackdown), she mentioned some things, but roughly about the same topic - mommy disagreed with her. THere's something else there… something else I haven't discovered yet. Lauren refers to her parents as two of the most evil people in fiction. She doesn't like what they stand for. So it may not have been her parents that disowned her, but it may have been Lauren who just removed herself from them and their ways. I still am trying to get more information from this lol
You want to pick my brain?! That may hurt? Okay, sorry, that was dorky. Okay, so how do I come up with the story lines… honestly, when i say I have not a clue what is going to happen, I totally mean that. So basically i sit and i just close my eyes and I just start seeing this world through Bo's eyes. It's like i'm slipping into her reality. And sometimes Waffle and I talk about and forth and she helps me see the bigger picture and how things have set themselves up… but I never know what is happening…it just does. LOL
Does Lauren have any additional hidden abilities - you know, I'm sure we'll find out LOL the Anam Cara is surely going to cause some weird things to happen.
You helped tutor someone! That's GREAT love. I actually work as a tutor and I adore it. It's probably some of the most rewarding work that I do. I love my students and watching them succeed. It's fabulous. I'm so proud of you!
Kenzi was like "Get them the hell out of here!"
Will Bo use Doctor Discounts? YES. Don't spoil the surprise. LOL She's going to end up redeeming a few at once lol. Its something i'm planning… just taking some time.
AWW you think everyone should be reading this? AWWWWW
Dude -I'm floored by this story and I can't keep up. I'm actually going back and re-reading the damn thing because I know there are loose ends that I want to make sure are weaved together… lol
Does the Morrigan know Lauren is a god? Is that why she is protecting her. Not 100% sure, but I think yes and yes.
Tamsin is keeping an eye on Lauren? We address Tamsin in this chapter.
Bo and Lauren should have a bucket list of where they want to have sex. I'm SURE Bo has a mental bucket list. I mean… it's BO. SO where else WOULD they do it?! Tell me!
DO YOUR HOMEWORK lol.
If ppl find out Lauren is a god, they will be weary - yes, I agree. I'm still not sure how they are handling this situation.
Lauren is a god!
Just because Lauren is a little bit less of an immortal, doesn't mean she can die? No idea. I would LOVE to say "no! she's safe" but then the next chapter, she'd be dead because that seems to be how this story works. So I have no idea. I would like to think she's going to be SAFE. lol God I hope so… lol
Bo definitely encouraged Lauren…
if Tamsin worked for Isabeau, it would violate the terms. Also , Isabeau promised Bo that she would not interfere. Broaden your mind. things aren't always what they appear.
If Lauren's mom is Ixtab, and other ppl in the world have ixtab abilities, doesn't that mean she has a bunch of brothers and sisters? Same with her dad being Eire. question makes sense. I'm working on this. When I found out Lauren was a god, I was like "hold up, sister. we need to talk!" cause i had like a million questions. Lauren hasn't told me the answer to this question yet. but i'm working on it.
glad you liked the mythology =)
Alienor26 - Yea, I have no idea how this story is fitting together like it is LMAO. dumb luck. lol Cause i don't have a clue. It's not my story - it's Bo's. You'll get more info on Tamsin in this chapter. It's not Ixtab that Tamsin has a connection with. =) And if Bo was doing that to YOU, wouldn't YOU be doing everything you could to speak through your mind? I would! Damn…lol
Hayley128 - Yes…yes she does LOL. I'm still trying to figure out Lauren's parents. I have many questions for our sexy blonde to-be-doctor but she's not giving me many answers. So that just tells me, she isn't ready to talk. we will see. I was surprised she told Kenzi too. But she was like "nope, telling" Okay… I'm just recording this… lol
jtmollico - you're my favorite. Coffee please? Coffee is life. Coffee is magical happy drink that makes me walk and talk and breathe and blink and function… I agree completely - being kind is essential. Be kind, but take no shit. And i have no idea whats coming next. Just…hang on. who knows…
Terynjrobinson- Yea… I know. They keep fucking. I can't stop them. They won't stop. I'm like "girls come ON… lets get this plot going" and Lauren's like "wait…just one more" and then Bo's like "hang on…we must do this" and yea…getting no where.
Joannrbb - Waffle was in Orlando. And Yes, they are an uber couple…I just wish they would stop throwing curve balls at me lol. i'm juggling lol. and yes, it counts. you TRY. That is what makes it count.
TerriHayes8 - These girls need to stop throwing me curveballs. This story will NEVER END if they don't. LOL Oh wait, maybe thats what you all want…idk. LOL
Terrihead1 - Waffle is amazing. LMFAO. Twatwaffle IS hysterical, isn't it? it's my favorite along with douche canoe. I'm very colorful.
Cheekymadom - Sex bunnies, yea? lol thats what it FEELS like. they won't stop fucking long enough for me to get the story going. ugh. Bo - you're killing me!
A Fan - Omg medical is SO damn expensive. My wife's loans are…i don't even want to think about it. My loans are crazy too. But, I wouldn't be happy doing anything but what I am doing. And neither would she. So we just suck it up lol
Keldi - Dude, I figure out whats going on as Bo tells me. I seriously just slip into the world and record whats going on. It's like an alternate universe for me. I seriously have no idea whats happening. lol
Theresa - LMAO. Love, i WROTE it and I was like "wait a minute…" Same thing happened with this chapter. No idea. I was like "wait…what?" lol It works, thats all i know. And yes - that counts! =)
Waffle - my inbox is empty. Where's ULGP? Also, I totally missed you while you were gone. Just FYI.
Okay ya'll… here you go
"You have beer?"
"Fridge," I stated, nodding towards the kitchen as I lounged against the arm of the couch, my feet tucked under me.
"Aren't you going to get it for me? I mean, I am a guest…" Tamsin teased.
I shot the blonde a look, raising my right eyebrow.
"Fine!" she sighed rolling her eyes as she got up off the chair and walked towards the kitchen to grab one.
"While you're up…" I smiled widely.
"Wait a second, Succubus. Let me get this straight. First you want me to get my own beer and then you want me to serve you one like I'm your waitress?"
"That was the plan," I teased with a grin, peering at Tamsin over the back of the couch.
She rolled her eyes, grabbing two beers and then handing one to me as she passed by the back of the couch on her way to sit back down.
"It's 5 o'clock somewhere," she said, plopping down on the other end of the couch, lifting her bottle towards mine. "Cheers."
"Cheers."
Lauren had had classes a lot of the day and then lab when she wasn't in class. Earlier in the morning, before she left, she warned me that she wouldn't be home until much later. As a result, I figured since I wasn't working at the Rescue Mission, I would call Tamsin to see if she was able to meet me at the apartment and talk about everything after I finished at the student gym.
There was so much Tamsin and I needed to discuss – she had seemed on edge at my impromptu birthday party, especially around Lauren. I wasn't so keen on her giving Lauren the third degree, but in all honesty, a small part of me thanked her – had she not been so forward, Lauren may never had told me about her being a god. It's not that Lauren's 'status' was that important, but it was a part of who we were and considering the Anam Cara, it was good information to have. But nonetheless, Tamsin and I had a lot to discuss and even in the couple days since I saw her last, my mind was constantly going the 'what ifs' and 'whys' of her being back in town.
"Tamsin…"
"Hmm?" she asked through her large gulp from the bottle.
"Why are you here?" I asked bluntly. I really didn't want to beat around the bush any longer.
"Wow. I feel so loved."
"No, I mean… it's not that I'm not happy to see you, I am. There's just… there's a lot that's gone on lately here and …"
"Your mom," she answered directly.
"My mom? What about my mom?"
"Well, that's partly why I'm here. I actually know a lot more about your situation than you think."
"Oh? And just what do you know?"
"For starters, I know more about Lauren than you may."
"Try me."
"She's a descendant of the Norse God Eire," Tamsin spat out trying to catch me off guard.
"I know."
"You do?" She asked with a raised eyebrow.
"Yes, Tamsin. I know. Her mother is Ixtab as well. What else you got?"
"Her father works with Valkyries, in fact, some speculate that he and his twin sister are part Valkyrie, but those are just rumors," Tamsin looked down at her drink for a minute. It seemed like she was quickly out of information that may shock me – I was really glad Lauren and I had that talk. "They're not… nice people, Bo… Eire and Eira… I don't know much about Lauren's mother – in fact, I've never heard of her really. I can just tell that Lauren has Eired in here. Valkyries are able to pick up on it since we have some sort of connection."
"Lauren, when she speaks about her parents, refers to them as Voldemort and Bellatrix," I offered, taking a swig of my beer.
"What is that?" Tamsin asked, her face puzzled.
I laughed, shaking my head. "No idea," I admitted. "She says it's from Harry Potter… I don't know. I don't understand half of the things she says," I laughed. "Lauren is a nerd… my nerd, but still a nerd."
"I just… be careful with her, Bo. I know what they're capable of… I've seen it firsthand."
"She's not like them Tamsin."
"I know she may not seem –"
"No, you don't get it. And I know you're watching out for me, but… just get to know her. Keep an open mind. She's not like them. We have…so many of the same ideals, share so many values in life and in Fae politics. She left them. She left and came here to get as far away as possible because she couldn't emotionally handle what they were doing to people. She won't tell me all of it. In fact, she kept her true identity a secret for a while – I think she thought I'd run. And I did run, but I ran towards her, not away."
"Wow, you're really in love with her, aren't you?"
I couldn't help but smile. "I am."
"I'll kick her ass – "
"I know. But she won't. We've been through a lot together, Tamsin. Speaking of – my mom?"
Tamsin sighed heavily. "You aren't going to let this go, are you?"
I shook my head. "You have no idea the things I've discovered in the past few months, Tamsin. I need to know about her."
"How much do you know about your mom, Bo? You said a few times that a lot has happened, but I need you to tell me what you know so that I can fill in the gaps."
I nodded, my eyes drifting off towards a corner of the room for a moment. "Isabeau had Lauren kidnapped."
"What? What do you mean?"
I looked back at Tamsin, tears welling up in my eyes already. "Let me start from the beginning, it's just easier that way."
"Okay, I'm listening."
"I met Lauren at the start of the school year. We became very close, very fast. Tamsin, it was like nothing I had ever felt before. She…woke something up inside of me. Lauren is an Eired and a conduit. She could mimic my Succubus abilities and feeding style. So of course on top of everything I was feeling, the sex was amazing. I mean nothing like I have ever had with anyone –"
"Okay…I get it. She's a good fuck…continue."
I rolled my eyes at Tamsin. "Fine…Anyway, we began having problems with a species of Fae in the area– the Magina – who feed on intelligence. Dyson and Hale were called down to identify a few different bodies and with Lauren's IQ and her abilities, we were all very… leery of the situation. Well, they –"
"Wait… did you say the Magina?"
"Yes. Wait, do you know about them?"
Tamsin shook her head. "Nothing... continue."
"No…you definitely know something…what do you know, Tamsin?"
Tamsin shook her head again. "Seriously, Bo… continue. I need to hear the rest of this…"
I looked at Tamsin strangely – I was confused. She definitely knew something, but I couldn't determine what she did or did not do. Tamsin put her hand on my knee, looking at me intently – letting me know she was listening. I wanted to stop and demand that she tell me everything, but that's what we were doing – we were talking, going through things. Despite my instincts, I decided to continue.
"Well, they attacked Lauren and I after we were doing something in the laboratory – Lauren was doing something science-y to help the investigation and on our way out of the lab, they attacked us. Thankfully, Trick gave me the Siracon to fight them, just in case, and between Lauren and myself, we killed one."
I paused for a moment, making sure that Tamsin had kept up before continuing.
"We didn't hear anything for a couple of weeks and Lauren was really stressed about her medical school interview. So I rented one of the beach houses at Mission Beach and in the middle of the night they broke into the beach house and took her. I tried fighting them off, but they were too strong and I got knocked out. I spent weeks searching for her, killed another Magina in the process… Dyson got called out and they found her body. But it wasn't her…. It was a shifter, only we didn't know that then. The lab had matched Lauren's DNA to the body, or so I thought."
I took a deep breath. Was I really going to tell Tamsin all of this? She said she needed to know. It was hard because I hadn't told anyone the story – not really. I didn't realize how hard it would be recalling the events, but it shouldn't have surprised me - it was such a traumatic time for both Lauren and myself. Only I was still so focused on Lauren, even now, that I put off my own need to heal and to deal with it. Maybe talking about it with Tamsin was good.
"I was devastated. I… I stopped feeding for weeks, Kenzi had to take care of me – she practically forced me up and out of bed. Finally, something snapped inside of me and I went in the complete opposite direction. I started feeding off of anyone and everyone, thinking it would possibly numb the pain and I could just pretend like Lauren never happened. But it didn't work. There was this giant, Lauren-sized hole in me that no one else could fill or even begin to fill. It felt like Isabeau was just urging me to move on and no one else really understood, so I packed up and went to the lake house to see my dad. I begged him to tell me what I could do to get Lauren back, but then he said she wasn't in the underworld. And that's…that's when we ended up finding out that she had been taken and tortured and abused by the Magina. She fought alongside of me when my dad, Darius and I went in to rescue her and she ended up hit in the head really really hard – "
"And that's how she lost her hearing?"
I nodded. "Yea…She's an Eired, so she can heal better than humans, but I guess there are some things she cannot heal from. I don't understand it, really. I mean, she's not just any old descendant, she's a god. She should be able to bypass all the weird Fae rules – "
"It doesn't always work like that, Bo."
"I know… I know… Anyways, when I was there, in the Magina's lair, I overheard them talking about Isabeau. They had made a pact with her of some sort – she gave them Lauren essentially and they could do what they wanted with her. It took a while, but after Lauren recovered – and after Christmas – I went to confront Isabeau. I figured there was something I was missing. My grandmother wouldn't do that to me. She loves me. But when I asked her about it, she told me that it was true – she had sent the Magina to Lauren in order to divide the two of us. When I asked her 'why', her only response was that Lauren was Dark."
"There's got to be another reason than that…"
"That's what I said, but she insists there isn't. Well, we got in a huge fight and she started saying something about mom and I caught her in a lie and then she and Trick started talking and some of the truth came out. She told me that she had mom's memories wiped and then made mom think that Hades raped her. It makes sense now…why mom's side of things and Isabeau's side of things were so different from when my dad would talk to me and care for me and send you to watch me. But what I don't' understand is mom would act differently at different times… How sometimes she couldn't wait to be near me and wanted to hold onto me for days and told me all these stories and then other times she pretended I didn't exist. I remember it so clearly – it was like…mom's memories returned for a short time and they kept re-wiping her memories or something. So many things didn't make sense – and they still don't!"
Tamsin stayed quiet, taking everything I was saying in and processing it. I could tell her mind was going a mile a minute. She was right – she knew a lot more than I thought she did, I could see it all playing out on her face. But as she requested, I was going to finish catching her up.
"Isabeau and I got into it pretty bad. Lauren and Isabeau got into it worse. It was probably the first time Lauren has actually scared me. She was fierce – I thought she was going to kill Isabeau because she was draining her of her chi so rapidly. But I finally broke through to her and she stopped. Afterwards, like a few days after, Lauren and I kept noticing that we were each getting stronger and she was getting… almost hungry. We didn't think much of it, but when Lauren went for her make-up medical school interview, Isabeau caught up with me on campus and told me that we needed to talk…that it was urgent and crucial to my life and my relationship with Lauren. So I met her at the bungalow and she told me the weirdest thing – that Succubi have… something like a soul-mate, only different. It's one person who can complete them, but they don't know it right away. It's called an Anam Cara and the bond begins after a verbal or gesture of commitment and then the bond continues to grow in strength for like a year. There's all these things that go along with it – Lauren and I have been trying to figure it out, because apparently, she's mine… but one of those things is that both the Succubi and their Anam Cara become almost immortal –very little can harm them. Another thing is that the succubus starts becoming part 'whatever' their partner is and their partner becomes part succubus. We're figuring it out, slowly, but what I don't understand is how Lauren almost killed Isabeau. I could see it – Isabeau's life force was next to nothing. She was dying and had Lauren fed even a millisecond more, Isabeau would have died."
"Bo, you kind of lost me…"
"How can I explain this…? If one of the benefits of finding your Anam Cara is that you become almost indestructible… and Isabeau says her Anam Cara is Trick, then how could Lauren almost have killed Isabeau? It doesn't make sense."
"Wow, Bo. That's really a lot going on," Tamsin empathized.
"I wish that was the end of if…" I trailed off, take a long drink of my beer.
We sat in silence for a few minutes, Tamsin scratching off the label of her beer incessantly and me fidgeting with my fingers and the beer bottle as my eyes scanned the room, my mind playing things over and over making sure that I had pretty much told the blonde everything.
"Your mom was my assignment, Bo," Tamsin spit out suddenly.
My eyes darted to Tamsin. "What? Why didn't you tell –"
"I couldn't," she interrupted me before I could finish my sentence. "I had to give my blood oath that while I was in Venezuela, I wouldn't tell anyone where I was or why I was there."
"Who did you give your blood oath to?" I asked, trying to piece everything together.
Tamsin sighed heavily, "the Morrigan."
Why would the Morrigan… I scooted closer to Tamsin, searching her eyes for information. "What happened to her? Why aren't you there with her now? Why was she there to begin with?" I had so many questions and I knew I was tossing them out to Tamsin faster than she could answer but none of this made sense – absolutely none of it.
Tamsin went to speak, but then sighed again, thinking her words carefully. "Your mom had false memories implanted into her – it wasn't just things that your grandmother may have told her. She literally had her memories wiped and then…replaced. But… for some reason, she keeps…"
"She keeps what?"
"Your grandparents have been trying to keep her memories wiped for over two decades and they haven't been able to succeed. It keeps fading. The false memories…they don't implant the way they should. The latest –"
"Wait - you knew?" I barked at the blonde.
"What?"
"Tamsin, you knew?" I asked again, repeating myself.
"I knew what?"
I stood up, my blood hot and boiling as I began pacing the room. Tamsin knew? She knew that my grandparents had been wiping her memories? She knew that they weren't sticking? She knew and she didn't tell me? She knew what my mother had done…all of those inconsistencies, all of the times that my mother's actions didn't add up… and she didn't tell me?
"How long have you known?" I shouted at her as I stopped pacing and stood firmly in one spot.
Tamsin stood up to face me, her hands on her hips in her typical 'Tamsin power stance'.
"How. Long. Tamsin?"
"A while. I've known for a while."
"A while?" I shouted. "Exactly how fucking long is 'a while' Tamsin?"
"Since you were 15."
"You've fucking known since I was 15?" I screamed at her. "And you didn't bother to fucking tell me?"
"You were a child, Ysabeau!"
"Don't fucking patronize me, Tamsin. You should have told me! So what? You just…decided to let me never figure it out? Is that it?"
"It was just after you told your mom to leave, Bo. I went and talked to your dad and he told me his suspicions…he told me what he knew and then I went and confronted your grandmother."
"You confronted her?"
"Is that so hard to believe, Bo? I'm on your side."
"If you were on my side, why didn't you tell me about my mother?"
"Because your father told me not to. He didn't know exactly what had happened, but he knew something did."
"No. You don't get to blame this on him. You made a choice."
"To protect you. If Isabeau did that to your mom, what more could she have done to you, Bo? Had you known… You would have been irrational. You've always been protective and I saw how hard it was for you to tell her to leave."
"But I wouldn't have told her to leave had I known!"
"Bo, she needed to go. If she would have stayed here, they would have kept doing that to her!"
"But I could have helped!"
"How, Bo? How could you have helped? You wouldn't have believed me if I told you about Isabeau!"
"Yes I would have!"
"Really? Really? You think you would have believed me if I told you that the one person you adored more than anything on this planet was conspiring against your mother, you would have believed me?"
Tears streamed down my hot flushed cheeks as I stood there glaring at the tall blonde, anger and rage building up inside me.
"Your lack of telling me, almost cost me Lauren, Tamsin," I hissed through gritted teeth.
"Bo, that's not fair. I didn't know she would have done something like that. I didn't even know Lauren existed."
"But if you would have told me, I would have been aware, Tamsin!"
"This is going in circles! I'm out. When you think you can talk to me and have an actual adult conversation, you know where to find me."
Tamsin headed for the front door and the moment she opened it, I slammed it shut.
"Where is my mother, Tamsin?"
The blonde rolled her eyes and took two steps back into the living room.
"She's here, Bo. In San Diego."
"Why?"
"I don't know."
"Stop fucking lying to me, Tamsin," I scolded, my eyes shifting blue as the rage boiled my blood.
"I'm not lying, Ysabeau. I don't know why she came back."
"What was your purpose with her?"
The blonde crossed her arms in front of her, taking a deep breath. "The Morrigan sees her as liability and a possible…asset. Evony has been trying to expose your grandmother for who she really is and what she is capable of. The Light Fae has been eating out of Isabeau's and Trick's hands for centuries. The Morrigan had me go keep an eye on her. Just survey her – make sure she was safe and keep track of any Fae who went to visit her. If your mother traveled, I traveled."
"Why would Evony care so much?"
"She knew that the false memories wouldn't last on your mother the way they do on other Fae. No one knows why. Sometimes they last a year, other times the last a couple years. Evony wants to offer your mother asylum. To try to help her."
"You're not answering my question."
"Why does Evony want to help her? I don't know, Bo. I don't always ask, I just do what I'm told. I'm a Valkyrie…a soldier. I don't make the rules."
"No, but you don't tend to follow them either."
"Watch it, Bo…"
I took a deep, calming breath. The fact was, Tamsin and I knew each other too well, sometimes. We knew how to get under each other's skins and we knew what to say to piss the other one off – it was the same with Kenzi and me. Tamsin only ever broke 'the rules' when it came to me. There were many times she cross the Light/Dark lines to protect me or do something to help me. Aside from that, she toed the line several times, but she tended to keep within the very loose and minimal guidelines of the Dark.
"Who is watching her now?"
"I have a couple of trusted people from the Dark Fae guard keeping an eye on her."
"I want you to take me to her."
"No. Not right now."
"Tamsin, you owe me this much."
"Bo, right now is not the time. She is disoriented. She is looking for something, but she doesn't appear to know what. We have to wait to see what she is going to lead us to. It may be the only way to save her."
"Save her? What do you mean save her?"
"Your mother…" Tamsin paused, trying to compose her thoughts. "Her life force is draining. She's…dying, Bo."
"How is that possible?"
"I don't know. I've talked to your dad and he's got people looking into it. But she's dying. And we need to see what she is after."
"Then let me help!"
"I can't. I don't know what it may do or not do to her if she sees you. I don't know what kind of mental state she is in, exactly. If you go see her now, it may ruin any chance we have to help her!"
I leaned back against the door with a huff, my mind reeling. I wanted to do something – I needed to do something and here Tamsin was, telling me to sit still. Did she remember who I was, or had she forgotten being so far away for so long?
"Bo, I know you want to help and there may come a time when you can or when I will need you to. But now is not that time."
"I can help get her memories back – "
"And how do you plan on doing that?"
I scowled at Tamsin before looking away. "I don't…I don't know."
"Bo, just give us some time, okay? I will keep you updated."
"Like you did before?" I scoffed.
Tamsin put her hands up in defense. "Okay. I deserved that. But you know now. And I promise that I will let you know everything that happens. If you want to try to find a way to help get her memories back…if that's something you think you are able to do and want to do, fine. But let us keep watching over her. We need to figure out what she is doing."
I crossed my arms in front of my chest as I continued to lean back against the door. "Fine."
A few moments passed. Tamsin and I remained stationed in our set positions.
"What do you know about the Magina?" I blurted out.
"Bo…"
"No," I stated firmly, standing upright. "You told me to tell you the full story. I did. Now you tell me what you know."
Tamsin's phone buzzed at her side. She lifted it from its holder and appeared to reply to a text.
"I have to go…"
"I don't give a damn what you have to do. We aren't done talking."
"It was Dyson. He needs me. I need to get down to the station."
"He can wait."
Tamsin was getting extremely irritated with me – I didn't care. She knew something about the people that took Lauren – and I wanted to know what.
"Fine," she growled. "The Magina don't just work with any person or Fae, Bo. Eire and Eira have significant ties to them – in what fashion I'm not sure. It's more of a rumor around Valhalla. I'm sure you know that Magina are attracted to people of extreme intelligence, but they are also attracted to people with… how do I say this…? Mystical remnants? Magical echoes? I honestly don't know what to call it. Essentially, they must see some form of magical or mystical residue around her…possibly in her aura that signifies she has either performed of been the victim of great, all-encompassing magic.
"Okay... and?"
"You said that Isabeau and the Magina made a pact. The Magina wouldn't have done that with just anyone."
"Okay…"
"If the Magina made a pact with your grandmother, that means they seem some sort of benefit for them out of it."
"So Isabeau has some sort of magical…residue?"
"I don't know. Like I said, there are a lot of rumors and I only know what I hear. But I do know that the Magina don't just go around making pacts with anyone."
"Isabeau said that she and the Father had a history."
"Did she mention that there are many 'fathers'?"
I shook my head. "No."
'The Magina have smaller clans and the Father can be reincarnated. They never really die."
"What?" I asked, my face contorting. "No… I killed him."
"You did what?"
"I killed the Father."
"That's impossible, Bo. Fathers are almost immortal. Their soul or essence travels and can accompany a different body. So you may have killed that body, but you didn't kill him. It takes a lot more than a sword to kill the Father."
I began to pace again. Wow, this had really been an intense conversation. "Okay, so let me see if I'm getting this correctly. Something is 'special' about Isabeau because the Magina don't just work with anyone – possible magical residue. Meaning…what? Someone did something to her?"
"It's possible. She could be emanating the side effects of a spell or some other magical component."
"Like an Anam Cara?"
"I don't know, Bo. I don't know much about the bond that you share with Lauren. However, it may be possible."
"But things with Isabeau and the Anam Cara don't add up…" I reasoned to myself.
Tamsin shrugged. "I wish I could help with that part."
"And secondly, Fathers of Magina…their souls never die?"
"I wouldn't say never, but they don't die like other Magina do, or other Fae for that matter. They reincarnate and assume a different form."
"So the Father that I 'killed' could essentially have any form?"
"Theoretically speaking…yes."
"Even you?"
"The Father typically would chose a male form to reincarnate as. I'm not sure of the specifics. But I may be able to help you find someone who does."
"I need to find this out."
"Bo… I know this is a lot… but I really do I have to get to Dyson…"
I took a deep breath. "Okay. I'm going to go to the school and keep an eye on Lauren."
"Are you going to tell her?"
"Million-dollar question, right?"
"She deserves to know, Bo."
I nodded. "I know."
"Don't keep secrets from her – it'll cause you both a lot of pain and it'll cause a lot of harm."
"When did you get all relationship-guru?"
"I know a lot more than I appear to, Bo."
"Thanks…I will tell her. Maybe over a few shots."
"So where are you taking her tonight?" Tamsin asked, gathering her things.
"What do you mean, tonight?"
"Bo…"
"Tamsin…" I asked, looking straight at the blonde.
"Bo…its Valentine's Day…"
"Fuck…"
Soooo. what do we think? This was really hard to write. Bo kept telling me "hey, we're fucking..write this" and I had to reign her in. I kicked her to go talk to Tamsin. lol
Let's talk about something important. So in the US this week is going to be really significant as I'm sure you all know. Despite the outcome - however it goes, we (all of us) have an opportunity to form an alliance together and continue to affect change. I know a lot of us in the US are nervous, we have a right to be. But even if the outcome is poor, we STILL have the ability to affect change. I know I have challenged you all to different things past few posts. Today, I am challenging you AGAIN. Every morning I want you to wake up (or whatever time of day you get out of bed) and look in the mirror. Tell yourself that you are worth it. Tell yourself that you are beautiful. Tell yourself that you are important. I want you guys to do this and then watch how your day is affected. Take post-its and write something positive or encouraging on them(like what you would tell a friend who needed a boost) and then put them EVERYWHERE. On the mirror, on doors, by your clothes, on your alarm clock, on your fridge or coffee pot. Then watch how your day is affected. Watch how that positivity starts to flow out of you.
I'm going to do the post-its this week. I'm challenging MYSELF to this (and ultimately my wife because she lives here). I'm going to put post-its over the house. Anyone want to join me? And then tell me on twitter or DM me here or post a second review or a first review and tell me if its helping or how its helping. We have to learn how to love ourselves and how to think of ourselves as being worth it before we can affect change.
Alright ya'll. I'm out. Love you all to pieces. Look me up on Twitter, come say hi.
Until next time - Be kind, everyone - to YOURSELF especially.
