Look Up to the Skies and See
From BlueberryTeaLove
(Romania's POV)
I give a small yawn as everyone makes their way to their hotel rooms. What happened earlier was pretty strange. I seat myself down onto a chair and stare at the ceiling, my thoughts drifting to earlier today. Everything around me seems bleak. It's no surprise though, I can't find anything positive anymore. I wonder if anyone's ever felt that way? Felt that they are sick and tired of being optimistic, sick and tired of putting up with the bullsh*t of the universe to look on the bright side.
Well I'm tired of that.
And hope. There is no hope. We're just going to fight to our deaths and even then everything is lost. As I sit here pondering my thoughts I hear England.
"Romania, are you not going back to the hotel room?" He asks. I continue to stare at the ceiling, refusing to look at him.
"No." I reply, "I'm going to stay here. There's people around so I should be fine." I hear England sigh.
"Okay then. But still, don't stay too long." I hear his footsteps walk off, leaving me to stare at the ceiling with a blank look on my face. Suddenly, I hear his footsteps stop and he begins to whisper. As someone replies, I know it is Luka.
"Luka, do you think Romania is alright?"
"Huh? Why?"
"He's acting strangely."
"Is he not speaking?"
"Not at all."
"I see. Oh, England..."
Everything else after that is incoherent and I can't hear it. After a while, I hear footsteps approach me once more.
"Romania?" It is Luka. She seats herself on the chair beside me.
"Are you alright?" She asks.
"I'm fine." I reply. I glance at her and see that she is unconvinced.
"Romania." She says sternly. "What's wrong?" I hesitate but then I sit up and find myself telling her my thoughts.
"I'm so sick and tired of thinking positively all the time!" I spat bitterly, "It's so difficult to keep it up I mean, look what happened to you! Tell me, after what happened can you still find hope? Can you?"
"Well..." She trails off.
"See? See?" I stand up in exasperation. "It's hopeless! Either we die by his hand or we die trying!" I feel like I'm going insane. I can just stand here and laugh and not care because I really think I'm going insane.
"I'm sorry." Mutters Luka. I turn around abruptly.
"What?" I ask her in surprise.
"This is happening to you because of me." I feel the wild emotions within me fade instantly.
"It's not your fault." I say quietly. "It really isn't. You shouldn't blame yourself anymore."
"But it is. I started this whole thing didn't I?"
"No! Don't blame yourself anymore! We took the fall together. You shouldn't handle it alone. It's not hopeless yet!" I say. Luka raises an eyebrow. I stare at her in confusion.
"What?"
"We all felt that way before Romania." She says. "Each and everyone of us, we all get tired of hoping. But that doesn't mean everything is hopeless." She stands and places a hand on my shoulder.
"I'm surprised that you've been optimistic for twenty years."
"Yeah well, I've had my moments even then." I say. "But regardless of what you say everything's still bleak." Luka sighs.
"That's not what you said before."
"What do you mean?"
"What about all those times we got together to work on a spell but failed because we over looked the enchantment or we made a mistake with the circle. Even when we failed you still told us that there's still hope, we can still make it." Luka sighs.
"Like when we almost got ourselves burned by accident, you still told us that even though we were so bitter about that mistake." I stare at her wide eyed. How does she remember that?
"L-Luka...h-how...N-Norway?" Luka nods with a small smile. I hug her immediately.
"I can't believe this!" I cry, and by cry I am literally crying. Despite everything that has happened...this is good. Something good still came out of it. I'm so happy! Luka stiffens under my embrace but soon she returns the hug.
"I missed you too Romania." She pulls back. "Now are you still going to be depressing or are you going to start being you again?" I grin widely.
Thank you so much Luka. I think I can start hoping again.
T/N: /Shot a thousand times for stupid references in the chapter titles/ R&R! The fate of the universe depends on iiit! xD
