January 20, 1976

I'm almost finding myself worrying about the next studying day, because Emmiline said McGonagall would leave in a few weeks. But she hasn't made any moves to do so. Maybe she thinks we're just that in trouble for our O.W.L.s. But I mean, I'm third in our class, and Sirius is fourth, so it's not like we don't do well in school.

And James too, it's like Lily's always complaining about him being just barely ahead/behind her at any moment in the school year. Currently Lily is first in our class.

But anyway.

This morning in Defense Against the Dark Arts, Professor Crowell decided that it would be a good idea to redo the Boggart lesson. When Olivia (who didn't want to face a mummy apparently) said we'd already covered it, Crowell merely smiled and waved his hand saying, "Your fears have changed. A thirteen year old never knows the pain of what truly is in the world." I rolled my eyes. Crowell was a nutcase. I always wondered why Dumbledore hired him, sure he had a few good tricks, but overall he was just a bunch of old sayings rolled into one person. "As I said, your fears will have changed Miss Patil, do you wish to go first?" he gestured to the rocking and shaking chest that stood in the front of the room.

I was seriously considering turning my wand on myself in that moment and getting out of class, but unfortunately Lily saw what I was doing, and snatched my wand from me.

"You all remember the incantation? Riddikulus," he informed us.

"Not this again," muttered Lily as we stood up to get in line. She handed me back my wand. "I can get Petunia to yell at me anytime I want if I go home."

"Yea," I muttered, trying to figure out what I was most afraid of still. Was it still going to be my friends finding out about what I can do?

Olivia was first as promised, and she didn't get a mummy this time. It was Thomas, her twin brother. And he wasn't exactly very alive. "Riddikulus!" she shouted, turning him into a clown who was spinning around on a unicycle. Crowell nodded gently.

James was next. It was McGonagall again, but this time what she said was different.

"Mr. Potter. I have been informed of your little—"

"RIDDIKULUS!" James shouted, which was hardly necessary at the time to quickly transform McGonagall's clothes into what the Beatles wore, which was suits.

"Nice one," said Sirius as he walked up to the Boggart. It switched to him, this time turning into an older woman, who had some resemblances to Sirius. His face paled as she began to speak.

"You nasty, nasty boy. What a worthless part of my family. Your brother is far more excellent than you, he has taken the Black family name to goodness, unlike you Gryffindor scum!" Her face began to grow redder, and still Sirius was silent, his wand at his side. "You worthless, worthless boy, get out of my house. You have no place here. LEAVE!" Sirius's face darkened, but still held a sort of childish sacredness in it. "YOU HEARD ME YOU INSOLENT CHILD GET OUT OR SO HELP ME I WILL CURSE YOU TO OBLIVION." Just as she was about to pull out her wand to do goodness knows what, I jumped in front of him, more out of habit, because beaters always protect each other.

But then the Boggart swiftly changed, this time to me. I could hear the mutterings.

"You foolish girl," Boggart me said.

"Riddikulus!" I shouted, trying to get rid of her, but she only changed into my mother.

"You could have saved him, and you didn't. Your dreams should have saved the world," she hissed, her normally so kind face twisted in anger.

"RIDDIKULUS!" I shouted again, putting all my heart into the spell, trying to find something funny in my Mum finding out that I knew what was going to happen to Dad.

It didn't work, merely changing into Dumbledore. "Miss Potter, you have done a grave deed indeed."

"RIDDIKULUS!" I shouted yet again, trying to will him to turn into something nicer, like a plant or a tree. Again, it changed into something else. Lily.

Boggart Lily's eyes glared at me. "You killed me. You have the power to change that, so why don't you. Don't you want your best friend to live? Or do you want me to die, like you know I will."

My face paled, and my knees felt weak. I felt Sirius put a hand on my shoulder, but no one jumped in front of me. For a moment I wondered why Crowell hadn't done anything.

"I'm trying," I whispered. "Riddikulus!" Boggart Lily changed into James who was just lying on the ground, not moving.

"Riddikulus." Sirius, this time was dead. I could feel the class's eyes on me. Why hadn't someone stepped in front of me.

"RIDDIKULUS!" It was me again. She just stared at me with this sort of regretful sadness in her eyes. Like I had greatly disappointed her in some way. "Riddikulus!" I pictured Boggart me in a canary suit, which helped, and I moved to the back of the line while Lily took whatever came next. (It was Petunia again)

Sirius followed me back, a worried look in his eyes. "You okay?" he muttered, putting a hand on my shoulder.

"You?" I asked. He gently shook his head. I smiled slightly. "Yea, me too."

So that was fun. We had to face our fears again. Though Remus's was strange. Like I know he's a werewolf and all, but it was like, James's dead body for a while, and he had like gigantic scratches on him. Is Remus just scared that he'll hurt them? 'Cause Remus doesn't seem like that sort of guy at all.

Anyway. SO THEN. After lunch we had Divination, which was absolutely fan-bloody-tastic. (And just so you know, I'm being really, really sarcastic there.)

So first off, not only after we were bombarded by Crowell in DADA, we were like thrown into this awful classroom with Mopsus the 'amazing'. He decided that he should burn some incense to 'broaden our inner eyes' even though I've heard him admit that half of the class are blundering idiots when it comes to Divination. I honestly can't believe why I've continued the class.

Oh wait. It's these things called dreams that keep recurring and coming true.

So anyway, I left my journal open when we were supposed to be reading each other's tea leaves on accident. I was again paired with Sirius so yea…

"Hey, you see anything in there?" he asked. "Like me getting rich, 'cause that would really help ya know."

"Sure thing, but I dunno. It looks a little like a huge rat of some sort," I replied.

"A rat? Surly that can't be good, can it?"

"I dunno, it could mean…you will betray someone? Or someone will betray you?" I spurted off the stuff in the book. "But I mean, how accurate are these things anyway? You aren't going to betray anyone."

"Right, Jen. You have like this sort of round thing," he said, vaguely gesturing with his hands.

"Yea, it's called a lump of grounds in the bottom of a tea cup," I muttered. He snorted into his book, trying to hide his laughter.

"Why are we taking this course again?" whispered Lily while Emma was rambling on about how stupid the entire thing was.

"I dunno," I murmured back before turning back to Sirius as he continued to make false predictions.

"You're gonna be happy," he said, twisting the cup upside down. "I think at least, or you're going to die very painfully."

I rolled my eyes. This was utter lunacy.

So yea, I'm writing my journal instead of doing my homework, mostly because tomorrow maybe I'll do that, but who knows. I certainly don't.

Jen

(Well, I mean I do know what's going to happen, just not tomorrow 'cause I haven't really seen my future that much like this year.)

X

January 30, 1976

It's LILY'S BIRTHDAY YAY! (And also that Marauder's prank was freaking hilarious. They started like walking around complaining about their symptoms, and actually freaked out when…ya know…blood started coming out of strange places. (As I said, we switched around the spell a bit, and like made it so that blood came out of many different parts of the body like the toe nails and eyeballs. It was kinda funny up until Madam Pomfrey called me to the Hospital Wing to get rid of the spell.))

So yea, we threw a party and it was pretty awesome. Except Lily demanded that we not make a huge hassle next year, mostly because she didn't want the attention on her 17th birthday.

Anyway. I'll want the attention, and I bet James will too.

Love,

Jen

X

February 4, 1976

I decided that today would be a good day to give Madam Pomfrey a present. Because you know it's my two year anniversary of staying in the hospital for six days. Though when I showed up she was like, GET OUT I DON'T WANT YOU HERE FOR A WEEK AGAIN JEN!

So then I had to explain that I wasn't in fact not sleeping, and I just wanted to give her a very nice present of flowers. (That may or may not make sarcastic comments sometimes randomly)

She loved them until they commented on her patients, one of whom had a strange growth coming out of their heads. So she laughed and put them in her office where their comments couldn't be heard most of the time unless the patient was in the closets bed to the office. Which no one hardly ever was in, but you get the message.

Love,

Jen

X

February 9, 1976

Today in detention with Sirius we decided that this was going too far. We have been in detention for quite a while now, and we decided we were just wasting our time. We hadn't practiced with the team since….well a long time, because every Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday was taken by either the Slytherins, Hufflepuffs, or Ravenclaws. Which was just fantastic.

So James is getting really frantic about everything, and Sirius is raging about how we should be out there practicing with the team. McGonagall is still showing up and when I asked Emmiline about it, she was just like, "She must really care about your grades."

So anyway, we're all pretty angry about this whole ordeal. It didn't help either that Sirius and I were whispering about how to get out of today's detention in Muggle Studies, so we got a warning, which is never serious because Professor Bay never gives out detention.

BUT OF COURSE SHE HAD TO TODAY. For the first time ever in recorded history, Professor Angela Bay gave out a detention to Sirius Black and Jenica Potter (me). Everyone stared at us for a few moments and then Sirius yelled, "What for? Diggory danced around in his pants last week and only got a warning!" (Apparently Diggory's show of his underclothes wasn't as distracting as Sirius and I having a quite conversation in the back of the room.)

So yea, now we've got detention on Tuesdays and Thursdays organizing Muggle objects for Professor Bay.

…Wow…I'm really spending a lot of time with Sirius.

Meanwhile Lily's just like, "I've never gotten detention."

I feel like it matures you. Gives you something to do when you aren't planning pranks and avoiding homework.

Though it is Merlin's shoes boring.

Love,

Jen

A/N: HELLO, and thank you to the Guest Kaeylarae for reviewing! (And I'm sorry I didn't update last Saturday or Wednesday, I was busy both days and didn't feel like inflicting you with nonsense that wouldn't make sense even to me) SO PLEASE REVIEW, it does actually help the content of the story, because I spend more time on this stuff then. I don't own HP, AND REVIEW PLEASE. -Love, Eluse